Fatty.2 : Revenge of the chub.

I adore mushrooms :) I'd love it if you could post it for me. Carbonara is one of my favourite meals! Thanks, Amy.

Yeah, it does kind of suck. Hard to feel very sexy when you feel like a chubster. Yank is tiny as well. No fair. Our sex life was a ton better when I'd lost all that weight last year. Guess it's just another incentive to lose some weight!
 
Hey there!!! I just got caught up on your journal, watched your video blogs and all that. My word! You sure have been a busy girl! And finishing up all your essays as well! Just hang in there... It'll all be finished soon!

The meal Yank made you for supper sounds divine! Sorry you guys had a fight though. I hate to say no to my hubby too because he always seems to want sex less than I do - so I figure I better not turn down any opportunities! Even if I don't really feel like it, I do it anyway and most of the time I end up being glad that I did. When I would rather be sleeping or have a mountain of things to get done I just tell myself "Really - how long does it take? Just do it!" It always improves both our moods, and I sleep better afterwards anyway, even if it is a little bit less sleep than if I'd said not tonight dear, I have a headache! :biggrinjester:

I noticed that instead of having wine (your favorite and mine!) you have mixed drinks with vodka. Do you like beer at all? I've been trying some of the light beers the last few times we've gone out - 55 to 95 cals depending on what kind. I don't mind beer, but I don't like it as well as wine or mixed drinks - so I find that I nurse a drink for a LOOOONNNNGGGGG time and end up drinking way less in a night than if I as drinking wine like water. Ends up being a TON less calories for a night out than what it used to.

Good luck with your essays dearie! When you are finished I think you should DEFINATELY treat yourself to some wine!
 
Well, i think its a bit selfish to ask for sex when you are stressed by your essays.

But back to other things. oh yes, i wanted to say, i had a friend, an english friend, who used to work with disabled kids. When she came out to Australia she got a job with the same sort of outfit doing respite care. I did a few weekends volunteering because i wanted to do a photographic project on the kids. I really enjoyed it and so did they. These kids were classed as severely disabled i think. They were challenging but good kids and K. had them all under the thumb. She had a social work degree though. Maybe if you are going into this line of work professionally, it would pay you to do a post grad degree to get better quals and ultimately a better salary and better jobs.

But i agree with Rainbow. Any degree has value. Especially an arts degree.
 
Hiya sunflower! Sounds like you've been having a bit of a rough patch lately - BOO to that. I'm really looking forward to reading all of your diary (I love that you are a big writer!) and hopefully, as two 'Amazon Women':ack2:, we can support each other.
x
 
Ugh degrees are so obsolete. Everyone has a fucking degree and few graduates can get a decent job. I'd looove to have Dr before my name though, like Amy will.

Good luck with your essay, babe.
 
By the way, Hana, when you get a minute, I've posted that carbonara recipe in the other thread. Hope all's going well with the essays.
 
Hi Sunflower!
I've been reading a bit, and I hear rumours of you making videos??? I've had a bit of a hunt and can't find anything. Feel like pointing me in the right direction?
:)
x
 
Thanks Amy :)

Meanwhile, AURGH! That video is heartbreaking! In a good way... if that's at all possible. What I mean is that it's like you are sitting there, talking, with a different accent to my own, but it's like you are me. It's heartbreaking that we all have the same issues, that so many people out there in the big bad world have the same issues, and yet we all don't talk about it. Well... not face-to-face, anyway.

I'm the same as you - I was very public about my diet and my weight-loss. I lost a bit over 20kg (45 pounds) and everyone knew about it. My BMI got below 25 finally :hurray: ... and... then I left Australia. Now I am living in Switzerland and my BMI is creeping back up there... and I have a horrible horrible horrible fear of returning home for exactly the reasons you mention in the video. People will see that I've put on weight. Sure, I know it, but it is really sad to me that as much as I would be excited to go home and see everyone, I'd be so so anxious about what they would think. Ridiculous, eh?

Anyway, enough about me. I don't even know you, but I'm proud of you for being so strong and making videos, saying the things we all feel! GOOD ON YOU!!!! :hurray:
 
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Your Video is so so so true! I agree with desicionmaker- you could be me. As you may remember, i lost 3 and a half stone, stayed that way for two years, then put on four and a half stone again.

A couple of people who i haven't seen for a while and bump into haven't even recognised me because of the flubber! Someone even said "you look diferent.. have you changed your hair" Haha, and I said "no, don't think my hairs changed much but i have put on almost 5 stone", and he stood there like a goldfish with his lips moving around but no sound coming out.

Like you, at the time I was so sure that healthy eating was for good, I'd kept it up, and i swore if i ever put on weight i would lose it again straight away, I would never let myself get big again.

It does suck. But think of it this way, if we had never lost that bit of weight in the first place and put in that effort we would be much heavier now.

We can all learn our lesson and do it again, but forever this time!!!!! :party:
 
Sorry, guys! I've been soooo busy! Finished my last essay after staying up until 4 this morning so slept the day away! Now I'm up and ready for work! Going out for dinner and celebratory drinks tonight--Will the empty calories ever end? I have a house full of healthy food but no time to cook any of it right now!

Food hasn't been too horrible. Mainly a sandwich for lunch followed by chicken, rice/potato in the evening but my portions are too big.

Thanks for watching my video, girls :) The audio is bloody awful but it was quite nice rambling away about how I feel. Very freeing! :conehead:

Amy, will check out the recipe, thanks. Think I looked briefly over it when you posted it but need to write it down and buy the ingredients. Looks divine though!

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So I am officially no longer a student...Well, graduation isn't til July. But now I'm FREEEEE. Free to work full-time. :ack2: Got 3 new kids being introduced next week, I'm pretty nervous. I've had the same ones for about 6 months now and whilst I enjoy a new challenge, my anxiety plays up horribly when things start to change. I'm already feeling pretty panicked about finishing uni so next week is going to be a tough one for me. Know one of the kids is a "runner" and has ADHD which I've not worked with before. Am very nervous. Feel a bit ill about it all really--Once I've done them once I'll be fine but the anticipation makes me incredibly anxious. Which I usually deal with by drinking far too much. We shall see!

Went to Zumba on Wednesday again. Was SO much fun. Still adore it. Introduced three new songs to our session so was fun learning the dances! Followed by 15 mins of Tai Chi at the end.


Breakfast: -
Lunch: turkey ham and reduced fat cheese sammich on one piece of bread (200)
Dinner:
Snacks:

Total:
Exercise: 20 min walk so far.
 
Congrats on getting through school!!

And I love your YouTube channel for WLF people! I am SO going to make a video! You've realy inspired me. Thank you SO much for sharing your thoughts on re-gaining. It's an ugly issue that really needs to be faced head-on!!
It's a constant fear and dread that I live with, as my "maintaining" consists of four of five days of calorie counting, followed by two or three days of not being careful at all.

So- thanks for your honesty and openess!

BTW- You are a lovely girl and your accent is so darn cute!
 
Aint no sunshine when shes gooooooonnne, its not warm when sheeeees away......

Was wondering what had happened to you! Glad your not off the bandwagon.

A few people on my facebook do Zumba and love it, I think I might give it a go! I'm going to wait till i get a bit more fit tho first!

Congrats on finishing uni, yaaaaaaayyyyy!

Do you work at an overnight respite centre? My son has low functioning Autism along with other problems, and I've been thinking about respite care about every month or so, but I think I'd feel awful and like I'm telling the world I can't cope. Sometimes I just need a break tho. I only trust my bf's mum to look after him, and she has a busy social life (How DARE she?), so she only babysits every 5 weeks or so. What is the place you work in like? x
 
Hey ladies :D

Rox, thank you so much. You've always been a HUGE inspiration to me and I would ADORE it if you would make some videos for the channel! Please let me know when/if you do any and I'll put them straight up--Know that many would love to hear your story and successes.

rainbow! Hey lady :D You should def try Zumba--Very laid back and relaxed atmosphere and veryyy fun! I have worked in various respite centers but only as a one-to-one with a child that happens to go there for some respite. I work mainly in peoples homes/the community. But, every respite center I've been in (only in Hampshire) have been wonderful. Just like homes. Not sterile or anything. And it's a great way for kids to meet other kids similar to them. Most of my kids go to respite once or twice a week (some less often) just over-night and adore it. Just like a sleep-over with friends!

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Talking of work--I'll be getting another new kid next week. Her last agency dropped her because she beat a worker nearly to death. She has split personality disorder. VERY nervous but excited for the challenge!

Fell over in a club last night and have damaged my ankle again. I tore ligaments about 3 years ago and usually once or twice a year I fall or trip and the ligament gets damaged again although not severely. can't walk today though :/ Am contemplating trip to hospital! Stupid drunken Sunflower.

And some horrible guy shouted "You fat bitch" at me last night. Wish people weren't so cruel.
 
Hey sweetie!
People can be such HUGE jerks. Especially men. I don't know what makes them think they need to go around passing judgement on everyone and announcing their stupid opinions to the world at large.
In fact, I really don't know what the point of people like that is. For two cents I'd shoot them all in the head, but that's not legal- so there you go.


Your job sounds like such a challenge...and a bit scary. I really admire your dedication!

I'm definitely going to do a video- if I'm smart enought to figure out how. lol! Maybe on Wednesday morning.... I've got a few ideas for things I want to say.

I hope your poor ankle gets better. That sounds quite miserable and hospitals are such a bother....
 
Sorry to hear about your night. People are arseholes sometimes.

I really admire you for doing what you do. I'm (very) high functioning autistic, and the idea of dealing with several lots of me as a kid scares the willies out of me, let alone several kids on the lower functioning end of the spectrum (and thus probably more dependent/ less obedient).
 
People are fucking assholes.
I hope your ankle isn't too badly injured.
Take care of yourself, little one.
 
What line of work are you in? I work for a private facility that rehabilitates kids and teens who have anger issues, or who have been abused. I love my job.

As for the guy that yelled at you...I bet he was a real looker. It always seems to be the ugly ones that think they have the right to judge everyone around them. I'm sorry you crossed paths with that creep. You're gorgeous, and don't you forget it!

"Plaudite, amici, comedia finita est."
 
Yeah, people kinda suck. Just don't understand the intent behind that? To make some random person you've never met feel shitty? *shrug* I'm just thankful I rarely encounter losers like that!

Your job sounds awesome ninja..What kinda qualifications do you need? Or do you not need any? I work as a support worker for children and young adults with disabilities. Sooo, epilepsy, cerebral palsy, anger issues, ADHD, mental health issues, spinal injuries, autism, etc. It's challenging cause there are a ton of kids with a ton of different needs but it's interesting. Not sure where I'll go from here though--Try and get some more experience and get qualified in Health and Social Care which means I can be a manager or supervisor :)

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Yesterday was okay for food. I made a chicken stroganoff (sp?) with wild/white rice which was AMAZING but far too much food! Then had half a thin crust pizza. So calories must have been around 1800 for the day which is too much for me.

Was going to get up and get to the gym today but my ankle has gotten worse over-night. Think it's just seized up and will loosen up over the course of the day but not going to risk it. Going to do some sit-ups and stuff from bed! That's all I can manage!

I get my dissertation results back tomorrow as well! Eeeeek. Far too much happening next week. Anxious :(
 
Breakfast: brown pitta with low-fat hummus (157)
Lunch:
Dinner:
Snacks:

Exercise: 15 min hobble on my poorly ankle :(
Total:


Will be making thai green curry tonight I think..

Andddd it's a lovely day in Portsmouth :)
 
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