[fatgirl2phatgrl's Diary] A fatgirl on her way to phatgirl!

fatgirl2phatgrl

fatgirl2phatgrl

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Here's how the story goes.. My name is Jaz and I'm 27 years old and I've always been a fat girl. All my life I've been big and I've been okay with that! My confidence has always been through the roof due to my mother & grandmother telling me how beautiful I am! Sure, I've had kids tease me in school and people making rude remarks, but still yet I kept my head high with a smile on my face! (Well, while people were watching at least!) -- But, yes I've always been big.. so I knew people was going to stare and make comments even if it wasnt directly to me.. Sure, I've heard the whole.. "You are so pretty for a big girl, & You have such a beautiful face if you'd just lose some weight." -- I can NOT stand those remarks! Even though people think they are giving you a compliment it sure doesn't feel like one! But, WHO CARES!!! Because, I've always been big, I always made sure I carried myself in a classy way! I never allowed myself to be "Sloppy" -- hell, I've already got eyes on me because I'm bigger, I might as well give them something to talk about other than being fat! They would at least have to say.. That fat girl knows how to dress!!! So I always wore the cutest outfits, accessories always to match with the sexiest shoes to top it off! I made myself into a very classy fat girl! And so much confidence came along with that. I've never had any problem getting a guy that I wanted.. matter of fact.. I'm with the guy of my dreams now and he's my fiance' :) We've been together for over 2 years now and I'm so happy with him. He's what you would say a very athletic guy.. the package! And he accepts me as I am.. But, he knows that recently I've been wanting to lose some weight.. About a year ago I started walking 2 miles every day but, Sundays' and I really didn't see a DIFFERENCE.. I ended up getting frustrated and I just gave it up.. well, about 3 months ago I started changing up my eating habits and I've lost 30ish pounds.. so I finally sat down and thought it all over.. and came to realize if I can lose weight by just eating better imagine how much I can lose by exercising along with it?? I could be where I want to be in NO TIME!!! Well, after all these years of being happy with the way I looked.. I'm ready to change.. I'm ready to get healthier.. I'm ready to lose this weight I don't want anymore!!!!!!!!!! I'm 5'10 and 321 (WOW!) It sounds horrible.. Even though I am well-proportionate, I've never been able to share how much I weigh.. (well, minus my doctor and his nurse) -- But, not even my fiance' knows how much I weigh.. (not that he cares but, still!) -- I am sharing it with yall! Because, the first step of losing this weight is admiting everything! I'm a size 24/26 and by the end of this year I'd like to be at least a size 20 or smaller! Am I asking too much? I hope not! I have to set a goal! I've been thinking about losing weight alot in the past couple weeks and I've finally realized with eating healthier and exercising I can, & WILL get to my goal size! I'm going to say SIZE because, weight? You can get to a weight but, still not be happy with the way you look.. so I'm going to say SIZE Because, I know how I want to look and however much weight it takes to lose to get there.. Thats how much I am losing!!!! I've already remained eating healthier.. this means no sweets, junk, soda, and I'm trying to give up BREAD.. (The sweets, junk & soda is easy because I'm not a big fan of them.. But, the bread? *pout* thats gonna be hard!) -- With doing all that and finally figuring out how I'm going to do the exercising part.. Well, last night I got my Gym membership!!! It's a great place.. 24/7 with a key.. so I can go whenever I please!! And guess what?? My fiance' wanted a membership too so he can be my motivation!!! How lucky am I!! :) I'm sooo excited! Since our schedules are crazy we've made our plans to workout at 9pm... that way we can do it together and I can work my butt off and then come home, shower and hit the hay! I'm so stoked about tonights workout! :) Today, September 14th, 2009 starts a wonderful new life for me!

& Now the diary begins of how my fat day's are numbered!


I love motivation and I need it so much right now!! Even though I am so ready to do this.. I'm sure they are going to be days when I want to give up but, I CANT! And thats when I'll need yall (with the help of my fiance') TO continue to push me to strive for my goal!!!! I'm not sharing my journey with too many of my real-life family & friends just yet.. so ya'll are my new fam & friends! :D Welcome to my journey! And your feedback is so welcomed and your tips & journey as well, will be appreciated!!! Thanks so much for taken your time out and reading my rants!!

Much Love & Respect,
Jaz
 
I loved reading your post! You sound so much like me. I just started a week ago on my journey! Its a big commitment, but one I also have to get through to be healthy and a smallersize.....haha NOTHING will ever taste as good as a smaller size of clothes!! I'm also on this site looking to make new friends who are going through the same thing and are also looking for support! Its so great that you are so excited about this! I encourage you (if you haven't already) to read through some other stories of people going through the same thing....its so inspirational!
I wish you the best of luck!! :)
 
ReneeM102 said:
I loved reading your post! You sound so much like me. I just started a week ago on my journey! Its a big commitment, but one I also have to get through to be healthy and a smallersize.....haha NOTHING will ever taste as good as a smaller size of clothes!! I'm also on this site looking to make new friends who are going through the same thing and are also looking for support! Its so great that you are so excited about this! I encourage you (if you haven't already) to read through some other stories of people going through the same thing....its so inspirational!
I wish you the best of luck!! :)
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Thanks Renee! Good luck on your journey! I know you can do it! :) I think right now especially at the beginning you need positive friends in your life that is going through the same things you are to help keep you motivated! I sent you a friends request so we can keep up with each other and keep each other on our toes! I look forward to getting to know you better! :) -- And again thanks so much!
 
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What is your current height and weight? 5'10 / 321
If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be? No goal weight! I wan't to be a size 16 thats my goal! So however much it takes to get there.. thats where I want to be!
At what weight would you like to be at four months from now? I at least want to lose a good 60+ pounds within 4 months
Why do you want to lose weight? To look better, feel better, be healthier..
Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event? No.. I am doing this for myself!
What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals? NOTHING! NOT THIS TIME!
Why do you think that you now have a weight problem? I've always been big and okay with it.. But, now I'm just ready to lose weight! Lately I've looked at myself and my face is just FAT and my arms are big and I want to lose my stomach.. It's just finally taken off those over-confident glasses I've been wearing and seeing the reality behind it.. I'm not 100% secure with my body as I thought I was.. I'm ready to lose weight!!
What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight? Eating better & Exercising
Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight? Eating better was my first step and it has helped.. now exercsing is going to do the rest!
Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back? I havent really tried.. but, thats changing starting today!!!
What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? Why do you think it did not work? NOT TRYING is the main thing.. As long as you try and even if you fail.. keep trying and it will help!
Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time? YES!
Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook? Yes, I cook most of the time.. I fix almost everything, but I try to stay away from alot of the fatty fried foods
How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go? I've given up all fast foods!!! So if we go out to eat it's somewhere with a variety of healthy foods.
What are your three favorite foods? Chicken, Pizza, & Cheese sticks
What are your three favorite restaurants? Texas Roadhouse, Cheddars, Golden Corral
What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food? Eat better, Eat less, Eat more fruits & veggies
If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different? I wouldn't want that honestly! I want to work for this.. I want to have the victory of being able to say.. " I did this myself!!!! " -- To be able to look back and see what I looked like before and see what I have become will keep me motivated to remain the look I have worked for!
Do you eat when you are not hungry? I have before, but not so much anymore
Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)? As well, I have before
Do you hide your food or eat in secret? No.. nor would I!
Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed? Yes, I have!
Do you eat as a reward? No
Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer? Yes, I have
What do you normally eat for a meal? It depends, I have my meat & my veggies along with some bread..
What type of snacks do you eat? NO SNACKS! I've gave them all up a few months ago! :)
In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing? I just got my gym membership and I start tonight!!!
Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home? I got a gym membership last night and its a 24/7 (with a key) gym and its fabulous!
What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise? I love walking!! And riding a bike! So I'm going to be a cardio freak!
What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals? All of yall!! LOL yall are going to keep me motivated!!! I am going to come on this site daily to remind me that I can & will do this!!! :)
Do you have rewards for certain goals? No, I'm trying to decide about this one!
 
Awesome! I hope we can be an inspiration for eachother!! I'm glad you decided to post on here! We will definately keep in touch!! Good luck at the gym tonight! Enjoy every minute of it...even if it sucks! hahaha
 
Renee brings up a good point. Enjoying excerise is very important. Listening to music or watching t.v is always good, and I've seen people reading on one of the machines that only require movement of the lower body! genius! I know it's silly, but when I was little I played games with a friend were we were slaves to the romans made to do tough physical labour, or martial art experts going through tough training regemes XD occansionally, when I plan to have a really good day, I think to myself "this is some dojo and I'm going through extensive training to reach the hight of human fitness!" silly, I know, but hey its kinda fun :p
 
I like your term 'phat' girl....fat girl to 'phat' girl...that's awesome.

You can do it! I believe in you..I started my weight loss journey a little over a month ago, and lost 19 lbs myself. Just watch what you eat and exercise...I still eat the bad stuff but I eat it in moderation..you can too just eat it in moderation and don't eat a ton of it...sometimes you have to give in to your sweet tooth but it's OK as long as you do it in moderation.

Since you like bread, why not try eating whole grain bread instead of white? You can get your daily intake of grains as well as having a healthy alternative to white bread...make a deli sandwich out of it with some meat like lean turkey or make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich with the whole wheat bread...
 
ReneeM102 said:
Awesome! I hope we can be an inspiration for eachother!! I'm glad you decided to post on here! We will definately keep in touch!! Good luck at the gym tonight! Enjoy every minute of it...even if it sucks! hahaha
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Me too!! Thank you! I hope I do too! I know I will! I'm so pumped up waiting on my fiance' to get home so we can go! LOL I just feel it this time its going to be the last time trying because I'm gonna stay in the process until I'm satisfied!!! :)
 
Xylo said:
Renee brings up a good point. Enjoying excerise is very important. Listening to music or watching t.v is always good, and I've seen people reading on one of the machines that only require movement of the lower body! genius! I know it's silly, but when I was little I played games with a friend were we were slaves to the romans made to do tough physical labour, or martial art experts going through tough training regemes XD occansionally, when I plan to have a really good day, I think to myself "this is some dojo and I'm going through extensive training to reach the hight of human fitness!" silly, I know, but hey its kinda fun :p
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Good idea!!! I'm definitely going to put all my fast-pace jams on my mp3 player and go to town tonight! I'm so pumped up about losing weight this time!!! :) Thanks for the comment!
 
SparkErosion said:
I like your term 'phat' girl....fat girl to 'phat' girl...that's awesome.

You can do it! I believe in you..I started my weight loss journey a little over a month ago, and lost 19 lbs myself. Just watch what you eat and exercise...I still eat the bad stuff but I eat it in moderation..you can too just eat it in moderation and don't eat a ton of it...sometimes you have to give in to your sweet tooth but it's OK as long as you do it in moderation.

Since you like bread, why not try eating whole grain bread instead of white? You can get your daily intake of grains as well as having a healthy alternative to white bread...make a deli sandwich out of it with some meat like lean turkey or make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich with the whole wheat bread...
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Thank you!!! I believe in me too!! Congrats on your weight-loss so far! And your right I could still have me some bread at times just go to whole grain.. I just hope I like the taste of it! Believe it or not I have NEVER ate whole grain bread lol.. It's like drinking regular soda and giving it up for diet soda, doesnt taste good at all! lol But, sometimes we have to do what we have to do!!! I'm not a fan of soda and I gave up sweets/junks a few months back.. even though I may sneak me an ice cream cone in here and there since it's been hot outside lol but, I'm quitting that as well! I'm not going to punish myself but, I am going to do what I have to do to get to where I want to be! :) Thanks for your support!!!! -- And good luck with your weight-loss you are doing great!!
 
WOOOO! Day 1 is done! :D

Food today:

A small side of pasta (not even one serving probably)

A small bowl of salad (no meat)

Lots & lots of water and it filled me up!!! I'm full & not hungry at all!

Then I went and got my HOUR workout on at the Gym! I got on a great sweat and it felt great!!! :) I'm so proud of myself even though its just day 1! That means my start is OVER WITH!!! I'm now in the process!! WOOO! :) I can't look back now.. I'm soooo ready to shed these pounds!! I took my start picture tonight.. hopefully in a few months I'll see a difference! :) -- Like they say.. Go hard or go home! I'm going HARD!!! :)

Okay now it's time for bed lol.. 6am comes early!! Gnite!


xoxo,
Jaz
 
Yay! They say the start is the hardest!! YOU did it! Congrats! now its just to push yourself into gear every day following! Its wonderful that your fiance is so supportive! Thats such a big help!
I looked at my food journal this evening (I find it keeps me accountable to to this...you might want to give it a try for a few days to see if it might work for you too), and i realized I just finished day 7! Time flies when your having fun!! lol

Be so proud of yourself!!!!!!!!!!!
Take care and get ready for day 2!! lol
 
Well done with what you've achieved so far... and starting the exercise is awesome. Getting fitter is the best feeling. I was doing a step class today that I puffed through a few months ago, and today it was really fun. I enjoy getting sweaty now!

Hope you don't feel to sore tommorrow

Ana
 
ReneeM102 said:
Yay! They say the start is the hardest!! YOU did it! Congrats! now its just to push yourself into gear every day following! Its wonderful that your fiance is so supportive! Thats such a big help!
I looked at my food journal this evening (I find it keeps me accountable to to this...you might want to give it a try for a few days to see if it might work for you too), and i realized I just finished day 7! Time flies when your having fun!! lol

Be so proud of yourself!!!!!!!!!!!
Take care and get ready for day 2!! lol
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Thanks dear!! Yes ma'am its going to be a struggle to maintain it in the beginning but, halfway through I'll be flying by with a breeze! :D -- My fiance' is great with supporting me! He was right there working out too! He'd come over and tell me how proud he was during his little breaks lol.. I started me a food journal as well!! I think its a good thing.. and congrats on day 7!! You got week 1 outta there!! :p -- Thank you so much for your responses!
 
anna.banana said:
Well done with what you've achieved so far... and starting the exercise is awesome. Getting fitter is the best feeling. I was doing a step class today that I puffed through a few months ago, and today it was really fun. I enjoy getting sweaty now!

Hope you don't feel to sore tommorrow

Ana
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Thank you!! You are right! I am feeling it in my lower body! WOO WEE! HAHA But, that tells me its working!! :)
 
I remember when I first started...I started running and doing strength training on my Wii on a game called Wii Fit. I was Soooooo sore, seriously. I would run but my shins would kill me, now I can run but my shins don't hurt but my whole leg still aches...its weird.

I'm not near as sore as when I started though
 
SparkErosion said:
I remember when I first started...I started running and doing strength training on my Wii on a game called Wii Fit. I was Soooooo sore, seriously. I would run but my shins would kill me, now I can run but my shins don't hurt but my whole leg still aches...its weird.

I'm not near as sore as when I started though
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I know!! I have a Wii as well (But, I do the whole DDR game) -- I use to get on it and go to town on the fitness games.. I need to buy Wii Fit!!! I've been trying to wait to see if they are going to come out with a different version because they have been talking about it.. But, I was on the Wii pretty much everyday and then walking 2 miles as well.. But, It just didnt seem like it wasn't helping alot... I think its because my eating habits was still there!! But, now that I got my eating habits taken care of and I am eating real healthy and cut out all the snacks.. I see a change with my weight number even without exercise.. so I know with my good eating & good exercising.. I'm going to see a great change!!! My birthday is next month (Oct. 8th) So I hope to give myself a nice reward! A new pair of shoes... or a new coach purse lol.. -- But, yeah I know its gonna be achey for a while... AND I'm okay with it!! :) Thanks for responding!
 
ReneeM102 said:
Day 2 girly!! Get your a** to the gym!! hahaha Hope today was as good as yesterday was!
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Hey girl!!!!! I just got home about 15 minutes ago! About to hit the shower lol.. I did great today I think! 5 miles! 2 on the treadmill and 3 on the bike! Then I did 50+ arm lifts that my fiance' taught me to do.. boy did they put some pain on me!! LOL I feel tonights workout way more than last nights!!! I'm so pumped!! Day 2 down and looking forward to Day 3!!! :) -- I tried looking for a diary for you.. have you made one yet??
 
Day 2!

So does it get easier? YES!!!!!!! Well, so far! I know I'm going to run into a hard day.. and you know what? I'm ready for it!!! Tonights workout was great! I loved every 60 minutes of it!! I did 2 (almost 3) miles on the treadmill and 3 miles on the bike.. and I did 50 arm lifts.. well, I did more than that.. but, my fiance' showed me a great way to work my arms out and I started counting over on the hard ones.. I felt them bad boys!! I got a serious sweat on and it felt great!! I can't wait to weigh myself next week and just see if anything has changed! I'm going to stay away from the scale for now.. I'm just focusing on my workout & good eating habits! :D -- Go me!! WOO!

I stopped by Subway on my way home today and got me a 6" oven roasted chicken sub with lettuce, tomato, and cheese on 9 grain wheat bread and I drank some serious water today.. So far so good right?

Well, I stopped by my moms to visit for a bit and she insisted I have a slice of the new pizza hut's cheese crust pizza.. I know I should have said no.. But, I told myself if I ate it.. that would be IT for today.. so I did and I am making it my last slice of pizza while I'm on my workout plan.. no if, ands, or BUTS!! *sighs* -- I'm still bothered because I ate that frickin' slice! But, hey now that I know the wrong I feel from it.. I won't do it later on into my journey! At least some good came out of it!! And I think thats why I strived a little harder tonight working out! Not so much punishing myself but, striving for success and not giving-in!!!!

But, heres to Day 2 over with!!! WOOO! :)

Cmon Day 3!!!

Tons of Love & Respect,
Jaz
By the WAY!!!

(( Thanks so much for the comments & suggestions!!! I appreciate it so much! I love ideals on how I can help myself on this journey!! Any input will help me!! And thanks so much for the daily motivation! I'm so thankful I googled weight-loss and found this fabulous site with you wonderful people!!! :) -- Thanks again!! ))
 
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