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skimmilk

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Hi everyone. :)

As most of you, I've been here for a while and I have decided to make a diary today to help me stay on track. The motivation you are giving to eachother and all the support are amazing! I just couldn't help hopping on board when I found it, so here I am now with my story!

I am 18 and currently right under the obese borderline on the BMI chart. I was always chubby but it was never this serious. I would say that the point of no return for me was when I came back home after finishing my foreign exchange student experience and stepped on my scale. When I saw those 80kgs staring at me I felt like someone slapped me right across my face. In a period of a year I spent away from home I have gained about 15 kilograms! You would think that would really motivate me to change my lifestyle and start losing those pounds wouldn't you? Well, I guess not. I continued eating because I was sad, and I was sad because I ate and it all trapped me in a vicious cycle that was dragging me down further more. On one rainy day I woke up and stepped on the scale. 85.3kilograms. I was always on the heavy side and on a diet for as long as I could remember, but never this big. I felt crushed.

Generally I am a very happy person. Seeing me without a smile on my face or not randomly bursting into song means that something is seriously wrong.
Being pressured with the weight I was carrying I felt sadder than ever before. Smiling and singing were the last things on my mind. I did the last things that would ever be on my mind -- I gave up. I thought that this is stronger that me and that I cannot beat it.

Two months ago I went to get medically checked up and they found all these things wrong with me connected with my weight gain and that was a harsh wake up call for me. I couldn't go on a diet right away because I was taking medication for some of the gastrointestinary problems they've detected but things definately changed in my mind.

I decided it is time to take charge of my life.

I decided to fight.

So here I am now, fighting with the weight that made me a prisoner of my own body. This time my resolution to lose weight is actually coming true. I am doing it and I am not stopping no matter what. No more excuses, no more failures. I am stronger than this and I can win it.

People on this board and their stories are so inspiring to me. When I see their successes it makes me so much more motivated to work harder to achieve my own. I hope that, one day not to long from now, a newbie on here can read my story and feel inspired as well.

I will work hard to make it happen.

I love you all and wish you a good loss today! :)

p.s. One of the favorite writers of mine said something that really impacted me, so I wanted to share it with you:

"When we love, we always strive to become better than we are. When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too"
Paulo Coelho​
 
heh,
I was surfing through this site and I came upon this thread and .. WE MEET AGAIN! ^^
Wow, your stories intense. I'm happy for you.. that you have decided to take this on and change your life. I'm proud of you and I bet you're proud of yourself aswell ^^
With the attitude you have now, you will reach your goal.
I love the quote, and.. I'm rooting for you :)
- Maya <3
 
Congratulations on your weight loss so far! I firmly believe you have to lose the weight in your mind before you can lose it from your body. It sounds like you are highly motivated, and generally quite a positive person, so I think you can do this with no trouble!! Hard work, yes; but that is just part of taking responsibility for ourselves.

Hope this finds you :biggrinjester: smiling once again, gaining confidence as you continue on your:auto: journey!

Best wishes to you,
ABBA
 
Thank you so much! You're both lovely :)

Today was a good day so far, and I hope I will make it through the evening without any majot set-backs as that is usually the hardest part of the day for me. I was really sad to see that I gained a kilogram and something back over the weekend but I guess I had to somehow expect that since I was not eating as healthly as I should have. Ah those apple-cinnamon muffins! Who could resist them? Oh well. I will have to work twice as hard to burn that off.

I am not updating my ticker until I see a lower number on the scale than the last time I updated it.

Lets see what I had to eat today:

Breakfast:
1 toast
1 egg
Glass of grapefruit-orange juice

Snack: 2 Kbars -- I usually have only one, so the other one means minus weight loss points for me! And as I just couldn't help putting this little piggy looking at me from the right in this post, I think this would be an appropriate moment.

:piggy:

So adorable!

Lunch:
Vegetable Soup
Chicken
Green salad

Dinner:
Apple
Activia

Today I:
Walked for 30mins, slow pace with a friend;
Climbed 4 stories;
and I plan on doing aerobic exercise+dance later this evening for about 15-30mins.


I am going through a terrible cold. I can hardly breathe. Lets hope I will feel better tomorrow as I have loads of school work for this week!

Love you all.
 
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My quote for today, that helps me push successfully through the times when I am thinking wheter to reach for that second piece of chocolate or not is:

"Nothing tastes as good as fit feels!"​

And that is so true!
 
Hi! Thank you for your wonderful quotes..and I'm so glad you've decided to take care of yourself :grouphug: we can do this!!
 
Jillzy_2008 said:
Hi! Thank you for your wonderful quotes..and I'm so glad you've decided to take care of yourself :grouphug: we can do this!!
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Ah thanks Jilzy! :grouphug: Yes we can!!!

I have a question for anyone reading this:

Is it unrealistic to set a 5kg weight loss per month goal? 5kgs = 11lbs.

Update!
I managed to get through the evening excellently with taking another 15+min walk with my dog and I am doing aerobics/dance right now, so everything is going great! I can't wait until I drop that extra kilogram I gained over the weekend. It makes such a difference even though it just 2lbs. I just feel so much heavier than before.
 
Hey there maleficent.

Thank you for the info. It is most definately useful. I will use it to calculate the approximate weight loss goal that I should set.

So I did it and it says that I should be losing 1.74 lbs per week, which equals to 8lbs per month. Lets make it understandable to me -- .79 kg per week or 3.16 per month. I might have overestimated my weight loss when putting 5 kgs as my montly goal. I thought that since I managed to lose that much during the first month I can keep it up like that in the future, but I've also read that the first kilograms are the easiest to drop because it is mostly water that goes away and a little percent of fat. I only lost 1 kilogram during the first two weeks of February so I might lower my weight loss to the number above stated. Lets first see how this evolve from here.

So far today was good. I decided to update my ticker with the weight gain. It's part of the deal right? So... I really can't wait to take what I gained off! Like, seriously! A few muffins over the weekend and some peanuts can make a week ahead so much more stresfull that it could have been.

Today I had:
Breakfast:
1 egg
1 toast
1 glass of grapefruit-orange juice

Snack:
1 Kbar

Lunch:
Vegetable Soup
Chicken Breasts (1 piece)
Green Salad

This blogging of my intake makes me feel like I am eating the same things everyday! It's not as it seems people! :)
I am also taking Multivitamin supplements and a vitamin E one.

For the rest of the day I plan to have lots of water, an apple and Activia.

Activities:
15+ mins medium pace walk
Climbed 4 stories
In plan: Another walk, dance&aerobics; probably skipping the elevator again:)

:willy_nilly:
Today I just had to put this little fellow somewhere in here, as I have been watching him in amusement for the past 5minutes. :D
 
Ok, so honestly tonight was not as good as yesterday but I made it through and tomorrow is a new day. I tried some old clothes that stopped fitting as the scale numbers went up and it felt so good to be back in those lovely jeans again! I love my old jeans! I still can't wear them out because when I button them I have rolls sticking on the sides (where is that piggy smiley when you need it:)) but I am highly motivated to get those off as soon as possible!

Nothing tastes as good as fit feels. That always comes to my mind when writing things like these.

Good news: I weighed and I have lost .7kgs from that weekend-weight-gain. Just .5kg more! Can't wait to see a lower number on the scale!

Good night everyone.
 
Hi Skim! Took me a while, but I finally found your diary. :)

To hear you talk about those muffins, one might think you ate a whole dozen of them. It couldn't have been that bad! Weight fluctuation happens to everyone, and I know I had problems with clothing weight when I was getting started. The difference between pants and shorts was bigger than I would have thought. If you want consistent numbers, just do your weigh-in in your bra and panties. Be sure you do it first thing in the morning before you eat/drink anything, too. And try not to weigh yourself more than once a week. I know it might sound silly but I can tell you from personal experience that I dropped two pounds from Thu to Sun (Sun being my normal weigh-in day) last week. I was so discouraged on Thu, and then Sun hit and I was like... holy cow! I've sworn off mid-week weighing now. :)

Anyway, just wanted to stop in and say hi and lend a little encouragement. Keep up the good work and have faith in yourself. You can do it!
 
Hello my beautiful weight-losers!

Thank you for your support Squeak! I always wanted to ask you how did you choose your nickname? I love it! It's so fresh and original! :) Thank you for the tips also.

I try to weight with as less as clothes possible in the morning and at night, but I do it at least a few more times during the day. I just see the scale and hop on, wanting to see how am I doing. I know this might be contra-productive, but it's working for me so far. Should I really only weight once a week? It sounds impossible to me right now, being so scale-opsessed as I am. I just fear that if I do it only once a week I might feel lighter after a few days, think I lost more than I actually did, and allow myself to slip away from the track just enough to regain what I lost. What do you think? What works better for you?

I have lowered my mini goal seeing that I might have overdone it with the first one. I am always so optimistic :) Lets try to stay real with this one -- 3-3.5kgs a month should be fine. My new mini goal is 76.5kg. I think I am plateauing right now as I just can't get under 79kgs. I am trying harder than before but I just feel like I am not trying hard enough as I still catch myself having things I shouldn't have, like chocolate for example. I have lowered my intake in those, that is for sure, but I feel like I should cut them out completely if I really want to succed. Maybe I am being to stern with this.

So! Today I had:

Breakfast:
2 egg yolks
1 piece of toast
1 glass of grapefruit juice

Lunch:
Pasta with cheese and tomato sauce (small serving)

Snack:
4 pieces of chocolate ~ 250-300 kcal
Kbar

Dinner:
Piece of meat
Pickled Cucumbers

Activities:
Medium pace 30+mins walk
Climbed four stories
Aerobics&Dance 15+mins

I did poorly today since me and my friend studied biology the whole day at her house after school, and trust me -- you do not even notice how many chocolate you had after doing genetics for hours :) I also had to try her "famous" pasta so I had just a little of it. I love her and how I almost get poisoned everytime I eat her cooking. :)

I love you all, have a good night.
 
Everything sounds great but let me warn you, don't weigh yourself everyday...its a bad habit and in the end could cripple your diet....once a week, same time, with same clothes is perfect..it may be fun now to weigh 3 times a day but soon you will get discouraged because you don't always lose weight every week.
 
Hi there!! :)

I just wanted to say I don't think weighing yourself everyday is THAT bad as long as you don't let it get to you. You have to understand that some days are definitely going to be higher than others bc there are so many factors that affect the number on the scale other than actually gaining fat.

I weigh myself every morning first thing and write it down. At the end of the week I average all seven weigh-ins and come up with a number. I do that each week and compare the averages to assess whether I've lost weight or not. I think this is a more accurate method than only weighing weekly, and it allows you to see patterns better such as if you retain water after eating lots of salty foods the day before, if the time of the month affects your weight at all, etc.

Whatever works best for you though is the key. Up until recently I'd weigh myself every Thursday morning and that was it. That worked well too, but I prefer doing it every day and averaging the numbers weekly.

Good luck though! You can definitely do this. It might seem like it'll take forever, but time goes by fast!! Before you know it months will have passed and you will be so happy that you put in the effort that you did. :)
 
Gymchica has a good point. Either method is valid, I think the important thing is not to freak out if you're heavier one day than you were the day before. A lot of things can contribute to weight fluctuations. If you were on course for that day, stay the course for the next day and the day after that. Your weight will trend downward over time.

As for my nick, I'm afraid I don't have a particularly interesting story behind it... I just picked it while I was coming up with a username. I have used the same one for years but I wanted something different. I was surprised it wasn't taken. Pleasantly so, for I have grown to like it. :)
 
Hello my lovely ladies. Thank you for the comments and sorry I haven't been here for a while. Things have been hectic with school and college preparation to keep up with! I am back on here now and will try to update as much as I can. I really like the idea of averaging my weight loss weekly, and continue to weigh every day.

I have gained a little bit but I think it is just water retention.

I had such a revelation today. I went to the mall to get some new clothes. Of course, after picking up the stuff I wanted I had to go to the dressing room and try it out. They have these small dressing rooms in Zara with lights and huge mirrors on every wall around you, even the one where the doors are. I took my clothes off and stood there in my underwear. It suddenly hit me. That's me in the mirrors. I just saw this huge, huge girl with fat everywhere. I know this sounds harsh but that's how I felt in that moment. That has never happened to me before. I was never really the type of girl who would stand in front of the mirror and evaluate every inch of her body. But in that moment, in that dressing room, my eyes started tearing up at the bare sight of how I look. I suddenly felt every pound I carry and started getting dresses fastly.

This is probably so overly dramatised but it has been such a revelation to me. I really desire to be fat free and this will make me work really hard to achieve my weight loss goal. I know that I never want to look in the mirror again and feel this way.

I love you girls and hope you everythings been going on great for you.

<3
 
I can't believe it took me until just now to realize you're keeping a journal! I feel so terrible cause I LOVE keeping in touch with you.

Your story has really touched me. I can relate to you in so many ways. It was a medical check-up that made me re-evaluate my life as well. I'm very, very sorry to hear you're having medical complications because of your obesity. The best part of this whole thing will be, that those problems will vanish the healthier you become. Isn't that exciting?

I agree with Trev, Skim. RESIST stepping on the scale everyday. It's a terrible habit that can be very depressing. Just because the scale says you haven't burned off enough calories, doesn't mean it's true. What you see in the mirror physically, and how you feel should be the REAL pointers toward how well you're doing with this new lifestyle.

Honey, we've ALL had dressing-room-mirror-moments. Even now, when I'm so close to my goal, I'm still not satisfied with what I see staring back at me either. You're not overdramatizing it. We all understand EXACTLY how you felt at the PRECISE moment. It's how we've all felt and at times, still feel.

I'm so very, very sad to hear that you're dissapointed with youself so, but you know what, as you keep this up and as you lose the weight, your confidence in yourself will build miraculously. Though mine isn't at a huge level, I've more self-esteem then I did a year ago, heck even two months ago. It just FEELS awesome. As you will and are going to.

I don't ever want to look in the mirror and feel a sense of disgust ever again. I know EXACTLY what you mean. And you know what hon, you'll achieve your goal and we're here to keep you motivated. We've so many commonalities, that we're everyone's inspirations.

Much love, chica. I hope today is going without guilt, disappointment or frustration.

Keep us updated, kays?!
 
Invariant,

I love how you called me chica. Only once person calles me like that and that's my best friend Lenette who I haven't seen in almost seven months as we live across the ocean now. We are still in touch, of course -- life without her would be almost impossible, but it always makes me smile when someone calls me like that. :)

I am feeling much better now but I still haven't got my feelings from the other day out of my mind. Looking in the mirror feels so much different now. See, I take my pictures so they flatter me as much as possible (I even look skinny on some of them! I can really hide my weight in photos) so I do not really have a realistic view of myself. I always had problems in building one. I always felt fat, even when I really wasn't. I am looking at some pictures now, from a while ago, when I was so much thinner but also so much more opssesed with how I look and losing weight. My self-bodyimage was always distorted and it is hard for me to percieve how other see me. That's why that dressing-room-mirror moment was so powerful to me. I finally saw myself through the beholders eye. It just made me more motivated to reach my weight loss goal.

That's also the reason why I undestand you perfectly when you talk about losing weight but still being that 'chubby-friend-material-to-boys' in your mind. Sometimes it is all in our heads.

I was just cleaning up my closet and throwing away some stuff. While I was at it I tried some of my old summer stuff and... Mygoodness. Fitting into my old, skinny white jeans was so... orgasmic! :D It was almost religious. Nothing feels as good as feeling good about yourself! I am so happy you are feeling better darling! I can't wait so see some more of your pictures!

Lots of love to all weight losers. Every good day is a won battle toward the better, more beautiful us!

Mwah.
 
Chica, I can relate to you completely. Everying you've just said, is EXACTLY how I've felt in the past too. Unfortunately, I didn't possess the power to make myself look thin in pictures, I did however possess the power to refuse my picture being taken...which I did on numerous occasions...quite ardently. LOL.

Doesn't it feel different? Sometimes I find it hard to remember what I felt like looking in the mirror in what seems like a lifetime ago when I was 132 pounds heavier. I'm so proud of myself now. I could be more confident though and I'm working on it. It's a mountain climb. I know for absolute certain you can familiarize with that.

It's so sad it took such a depressing moment to motivate you, but I'm glad you've gotten inspired. You swore to yourself you'd NEVER look that again and you'll never *feel* that way again when you look at your reflection. I know you do cause that's EXACTLY what I promised myself years ago. And you know what? I don't look like that person anymore. It's so exciting to have kept a vow to myself. It really makes me feel accomplished.

Skinny Jeans are made of awesome. NOT ONLY are they sexy, they make us feel ten times sexier. It's so exciting that you had an orgasmic-skinny jeans-moment!! I had that in a dressing room the first time I was a fourteen. I screamed, called my dad and left him a voice message, then screamed again. Ah, beautiful memories. LOL.


You're absolutely right, nothing feels better than feeling GREAT about yourself. It makes the whole world pleasureable. The days I feel really, really sexy are the days I'm in the best mood of my life.

Btw, I've never been thanked for calling a friend 'chica' but I like the smile you put on my face when you told me that. I'm glad I could make your day, sweetie!!

I hope you're having an awesome Wednsday, Skim!! Much love to you, darling!! ((huggers))
 
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