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AJust checking in...hope all is well and that you are hanging in there!! We miss that pretty face around here!! :)
 
Echoing the above.. the forum ain't the same without your updates and jokes!
Hope your exams are going/have gone well! Miss you!
 
Holy crap an update… here we go!:rolleyes:
Hi all! I’m not sure how many of my friends are still on here, but I've been ‘round the block on this ol’ forum a bit once before and have been gone for quite a while now. So what happened while I was gone? Nothing short of a massive upheaval of my entire life as I knew it! I graduated school (yay!) which was a big change to not be a student anymore and attempt to assimilate into the workforce (this is still a work in progress!) But the biggest change was that I broke up with my boyfriend of 7 years, sold pretty much everything I couldn’t fit in my car, and drove cross country just me and my dog to move to Alabama, where my parents live. All of this happened in about a month’s time: finishing school, the… divorce, as I’ve come to call it, and moving 3000 miles from the place I’d lived my entire life. It was the most impossible month I’ve ever endured. Breaking up with my boyfriend was easily the toughest, most gut-wrenching thing I’ve ever had to do. We were best friends for 7 years, he’d wanted to get married for most of that and although I loved him deeply, I just knew he was not the person I was going to spend the rest of my life with. It’s been 6 months now - I’m still not over it. I still miss him every day. But, I know I made the right choice.

So, I got out to Alabama (see: culture shock!) aaaannnd I don’t think there’s anything better for your body than being single… oh, and unemployed… that helps too! I was sad and all I did all day was sleep and work out because it took my mind off of everything. I got down to 202lbs which is the smallest number I’ve ever witnessed in my post pubescent life! I survived the holidays without gaining weight even!! I came to the forum often intending to post, but I was just kind of sad about everything for a while and didn’t feel like it. Then, when I started doing really well, I thought: I want to wait until I’m in the 100’s and I can pop on and be like oh isn’t life fantastic don’t I look wonderful?? And everyone would be so impressed! Buut, then I started to get back to the real world a bit… I got a job, I made some friends, I started living outside of my bed and my treadmill and jeez did I put weight on fast! 20+ lbs seemed to come on over night! (I say 20+ because the last time I was actually willing to look at the scale, it said 224 and who knows where it’s gone since then!) Yesterday, when I had to go buy new jeans because the one pair that actually still fit me had developed a hole in the thigh (I think we all know how this happens so I won’t be embarrassing myself by saying why) I realized I needed to get back on the forum because I needed support and accountability and I missed the friends on here that I made and I also knew that <200lbs wasn’t happening any time soon! It’s pretty disheartening to go buy a pair of size 14 jeans when I just fit into my first pair of size 10 jeans not much more than a month before.
The day is nearly over now, so I can go ahead and call it as a good day! Mostly due to the fact that I was still plagued with guilt from yesterday’s shopping trip, but a good day nonetheless. It’s time for bed, which is good because had I been wide awake, I’m sure this post would have been freakin eons longer than it turned out to be! I’ll be back tomorrow to check in and read some diaries!
Oh… and a picture I took today… the 4680th before/during picture I’ve ever taken ;) it makes me sad, I was feeling really good for a while there… but I know I will again :)
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P.S. - no freakin clue what's going on with this new formatting, will have to figure that one out tomorrow!
 
OMG!!! Rosie :) So so good to see you back.
I have only been back a week myself. After gaining to the point where i had to buy bigger clothes too. It's so lovely to see you back.

So sorry to read about everything you have been thru the last 6 months. It takes a strong woman to end a relationship because it's not right and not just carry on because it's safe. I really really admire you, my lovely.

Lets get this done sweetie. :)
 
OMG!!! Rosie :) So so good to see you back.
I have only been back a week myself. After gaining to the point where i had to buy bigger clothes too. It's so lovely to see you back.

So sorry to read about everything you have been thru the last 6 months. It takes a strong woman to end a relationship because it's not right and not just carry on because it's safe. I really really admire you, my lovely.

Lets get this done sweetie. :)
 
Rosie!!!! Just passing by to say a quick hello:) you have no idea how much I missed your lovely self on this forum:) well to be honest, I am hardly ever on this forum anymore!! Stressed isn't the word with college!!

But back to you!! I loved your 'comeback' post. Honay WELL DONE ON GRADUATING!! I am sooooo delighted and proud of you! I remember the last time you were on here you were saying how you didn't think you could afford to finish your degree and I felt so sorry for you. But seriously
Well done chick!!

I am also so sorry to hear that you and your bf have broken up. But can I say how inspiring your story was though? You defo did the right thing by ending it as I know loads of people that marry people just to 'settle down' even though they don't truely love them. So again well done hun and I hope the pain stops soon. Hugs xxxxxxxxx

Also well done on losing weight!! And also on the job:) I was like you I lost 45 pounds and gained back 13!! Eeeeekkkkk got down to 204 back up to 218 but we can do it!!!!!!!!:) woman power and all that!!

Please don't go away for months again, I love your posts and your happy vibes!!

PS: you are still stunning hun. Major jell xxxxxx
 
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So I'm getting on right now so that I can be typing and not eating! I'm hungry, but dinner's in the oven for a bit longer now and I don't want to fill up... especially since when I'm really hungry is when I start craving all things chocolate covered :willy_nilly:
so... yes.. typing, not eating...
The day so far looks like this:

Breakfast- cottage cheese with some strawberries, apples, bananas, and pecans
Snack- super healthy, hard to swallow green juice made of spinach, cucumber, and celery
Lunch- turkey/zucchini rissoles, 1/2 an avocado, and broccoli
Snack- celery sticks and homemade dark chocolate almond butter
Dinner- Spaghetti squash, spinach pesto, grilled chicken
Dessert- chia seed pudding :beating:

This was a tasty day :D

I've really gone back to basics recently and trying to stick to all natural foods - nothing processed, none of this 100 calorie pack business, organic if I can afford it... I've found it really, really helps cut down my cravings. I've also completely stopped counting calories. Say what?! Yes, I know it sounds crazy to me even as I used to obsess over every single little calorie I was putting in my mouth, but that was the problem: I was obesessing! And that made my entire day about food! As soon as I ate lunch, I was thinking about what I was going to have for a snack in a few hours, and then dinner after that, and then dessert and it was on my mind all day long. And I've been doing this dang dieting thing for so long, I just kind of intuitively know about how much I'm getting in each day. I know what's good for me and what portion sizes look like so I just keep the house stocked with healthy foods and eat as much as I know I'm supposed to when I know I'm supposed to. It's working well for me, and most importantly, it feels sustainable!

I am still in a terrible workout rut. I am having a really hard time finding the motivation and I don't know why because I'm usually all revved up to go for my workouts! But today, I got 20 minutes into it and just stopped. Everything in my body was like - eff this, I don't want to! I think I'm just kind of bored because I've been doing the same thing for so long. What is sounding really good to me is a nice butt kicker of a hike, so I've decided I'm gonna head out to the mountain tomorrow and get a good one of those in. (Now I've said it publically... I have to hold to it!)

Kate-Hi!! I don't know why it posted twice, but it made me feel extra loved! ;) You must have been sending out some kind of signal that you came back and I heard it! I'm really glad I started posting again, its always so helpful. Thank you for what you said, it was a hard and for a long time I felt that I was being selfish, not strong, but then I realized the selfish thing is to keep someone in a relationship that your heart isn't fully in simply because you're afraid of what will happen when it ends. And, I hope by ending it that means I collected good kharma and not bad :p Anyway... the rambling's begun!
I'm so glad you're back so we can do this together!!

Hi Irish!!!!!awww, I've really missed you! I hope you get to be around more often, but I know how school can get!!:ack2: I hope things calm down soon! (yeah right, I know!)

Thank you for the congrats! It was a long, hard road that's for sure, but it feels really good! Now to just make some money!! ;)

Aww thanks about the break up stuff :) I'm a hopeless romatic, I'm convinced there's someone out there that I can't live without and life is too short to not be madly in love or settle for things you're just not ok with. I'm holding out .... even if it doesn't happen till I'm 30.. or 46 ;)

Hey 45lbs is awesome!! Freakin fantastic job!! and 13 hurts, but it's less than half, so really I don't consider it all that bad! :D Plus, you're fighting against a nutso schedule which never helps!! You'll get back down there, I know you will! Maybe we'll time it perfectly and hit the 100's together!!!

Thanks so much for such a sweet post, Irish -it made me feel really good :D

Hey! Dinner's done! Mission accomplished!!
 
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No problem hun!!! I love reading your diary:) you are so right about not settling for someone that you don't love and I honestly believe like you said, that you will get good karma for this:) you are a good person:) so well done on doing the right thing.

Your food sounds insanely yummy!! I am we'll jealous!! I had a good day eating too and I would totally love to be in the 100's soon together! We can do this!! I know you don't agree with it, but I find counting calories AMAZING! As in you are totes correct when you said it makes you obsess about food all day, but for me that's what I need haha! I scoff like a fridge into my mouth without realising I have even eaten it!! Haha but ones man's meat is another mans poison! :) each to their own!

Hope dinner was super yummy!!:) love xxxxx
 
It's a good idea to try other workouts if the ones you're doing are boring you. Mountain hiking is always fun.

It may also help if you got into non-workout workouts, like dancing, or any sort of sport of some kind or anything that involves getting up and about.

Anyway just thought I'd swing by. Good luck and keep up the hard work. No more long hiatuses though. :)
 
Sparked, wow you're back!! YAY!!

I've been away a few weeks, I completely understand about the weight coming on overnight!! I got gluten-ed (turns out I'm intolerant, have been off all gluten and grains for about half a year now) and was sick for a few days, managed to put on almost 4kgs OVERNIGHT. Like seriously, had a calorie deficit for the week and everything. Thought it was just fluid but almost a month later it's still here, I just couldn't face the forum. I worked so hard to get to where I was, then went up a dress size over a 24hr period. If that's not annoying enough, I can't seem to lose a single gram. My body is screwed, arrgh.

Thanks for posting on my diary, gave me the kick I need to get back on here (it popped up in my emails!)

Sounds like you've had a rough year!! You look awesome too!!!!
 
Hello, Hello!! :D
I have two days to catch up on, so let’s do this in chronological order!
So yesterday I did what I said I would do and I went on a loooong hike!!! 3.5 hours to be precise! Which is a record because the last time I did that hike it took about 4 hours, so yay! I improved! It seriously kicked my butt! As shown by my the results of my heart rate monitor after my hike- check out those calories!!:
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Oh yeah!
Last night I was way tired and had no desire to do anything but take a bath and lie in bed so I didn’t get a chance to post, but food was perfect and exercise was off the charts!! (obviously ;)) It was just my dog and me on the hike, I’m in desperate search of a hiking partner, but haven’t found one here yet. It was just what I needed though, totally reignited my desire to work out and it was very peaceful and relaxing….. I just described a 3.5 hour hike with 1000 ft incline as peaceful… who does that? Oh! Fit people! Yay that’s me! :D

So today was my suck it up and face the music day and I got on the scale and I was pleasantly surprised!! It said 218 which is 6lbs down from when I last looked at the scale – which I know was not my highest weight, so I lost even more than that! I had no idea how high my weight got so I was just hoping it wouldn’t be over 224 – the weight I saw last time – so that was a huge relief!! Now to just stop messing around in this 21X lbs – 20X lbs range like I have been for 6 months or so. Up, down, up, down … enough!! Time to see a 1 at the front already! It’ll come, and I have both patience and motivation! :)
Food today (again, no calorie counts!)
Breakfast: Smoothie with chocolate almond milk, banana, flax, and yogurt
Snack: pecan, cashew, almond, blueberry, and dark chocolate trail mix
Lunch: Cottage cheese with strawberries and hummus with broccoli
Snack: green juice- spinach and apple
Dinner: baked tilapia, avocado, and green beans
That’s all for now, best of luck to everyone!

Irish!: Aww always so sweet, thank you!! Yay good job on having a good day!! And yep, we can so totally do this!! I know, I know the no calorie counting thing seems off… but I find that if I’m going to scarf down the contents of an entire refrigerator (which I may or may not have been known to do) I’m not going to write it down anyway! But anyway, given the 6 pound loss, it looks like this crazy experiment might just be working! Yay!! Thanks for stopping by, Irish! Lots of love!

Hi MrVee! – Wow, dancing is a great idea!! Even the thought of it is making me want to get up and go and I’m half asleep writing this even! ;) Yeah doing the same thing for so long definitely brings the boredom, and is probably nowhere near as effective to boot! Non-workout workouts are just what I need, thanks for stopping by and for the advice! Very impressive numbers you have there, congrats!!

Lucy! – so glad to see your post! Wow I had no idea your body could react to that way with a gluten intolerance, I can’t even imagine how frustrated you must have been! That’s really interesting, but terrible, that the weight won’t come off.. how aggravating, it’s crazy how our bodies will react to things like that. I found that gluten containing carbs are my evil downfall, so if I could take that gluten intolerance off your hands for you, I would gladly! Maybe I’ll just pretend I have it too and that I can’t touch the stuff or suffer the consequences!
Lol I’m glad I could lure you back to the forums! ;) Thanks for posting, Lucy, I sure hope all this gluten nonsense clears up for you soon!
 
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You are back!!! I missed reading your posts Rosie, I would come on here just to see if you had posted anything new. I am sorry you and your Long-term bf called it quits, I went through the worst breakup of my life this fall too. I will email you my number incase you ever want to someone to talk/text to. Keeping busy is still helping me, maybe we can help each other. Anyhow now that you are back I feel like we can keep each other on check. I actually logged in to begin typing in my diary again.
 
Hi guys :)

So, that last week was a little taxing because we found out that my mom has some stuff going on with her heart and actually ended up having a minor heart attack - which she wasn't really aware of when it happened. My mom is pretty overweight right now, due to an incredibly stressful job and a case of hypothyroidism (bad combo), so I have been taking care of her - cooking all her meals and making sure she gets everything in that she needs to in order to get healthier. If you'd like to send her happy, healthy thoughts, they'd be much appreciated :)

Ummmm in other news, today is weigh day... but I um uhh did not weigh :p I peeked at the scale on Saturday annnnd... nada :( even though I've been super good! So, I'm gonna let this one go this week and see what happens next week when I haven't been super stressed and also right around the corner from my period (curses! you ruin everything!)

As for some good news, I had a great day yesterday! It all started on Saturday when I went to go open a new bank account and I had a girl who helped me and she was about my age and we hit it off right away. Then she said that on Sunday she was going hiking with a big group of friends and asked me if I'd like to come (hiking buddies, yay!!) So, let me tell you... I was excited because I still just don't have that many friends here yet (friend-making is ridiculously hard post-school years, by the way :p) but I was also preeeetty nervous, because marching right up to a group of strangers and making conversation is about 37 miles outside of my comfort zone! But I did it! And it was great and I had a great time and made some new friends and we're going out on Friday!! Hurray!!

Oh I also made something ridiculously yummy :D Healthy chocolate covered strawberries ... mmhmm, that's right, healthy... chocolate :)
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1/2 cup raw honey
3/4 cup organic cacao powder
1/2 cup coconut oil

slightly heat oil till it gets all liquidy, stir in cacao and honey, dip in delicious strawberries, enjoy an abundance of super healthy enzymes, minerals, and antioxidants, fall in love :beating:

easy, delicious, and good for you!

Food list for today is good so far, but short.. had some juice with cucumber, celery, kale, broccoli, ginger, lemon, and apple.

Anyway, enough of me, I'm going to go catch up on diaries!

Bounce: Oh my gosh, HI!! I'm so happy to see your post!! Not so happy to hear about the break up, I'm sorry. Those totally blow don't they? :/ Hope you are feeling better, I'll definitely get in contact with you :) So glad to hear you're posting again, let's stick with it together!
 
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