Even the most spectacular blaze is ignited by a single spark...

Way to go Sparked! I'm sorry you had to endure Mile Cyrus, that's a shame. However, I'm glad that it hasn't deterred you from going back to the gym! That cardio equipment sounds awesome! On one episode of the biggest loser I saw this exercise bike that was attached to a tv screen. It was basically a video game of cycling. I think it was worth around $2000, so I'll definitely NEVER get one, but it was still super cool and I wish I had one! I love video games so to put that together with exercising and I'd be in heaven!


I'm glad you've had a great week. Hope your weekend is awesome! :)
 
So, if you're asking yourself what this is ... it's my 7,260 calorie Easter Haul (yes, I added it all up.) This was sent to me and my bf today from my mother because "it's tradition" (have I ever mentioned I was fat as a child? go figure) Anywaaaay, I appreciate the sentiment, I know she is just trying to remind of good times from my childhood when I have been having somewhat of a hard time this year, but, candy is totally my downfall! So, I haven't touched it yet, I'm hoping that my bf will just devour it when I'm not looking - I do plan to have some of it, but it's going to be a real test for me to make sure that I only do it moderation and make sure to count it into my calories.


I have to go help out a friend so I don't have a lot of time tonight, but I wanted to put a post for today and tell everyone I had a perfect day and that I am finally back to the weight I was before my little 9lb detour! Time to see some new numbers! :)


Hope everyone is doing great!
 
hahahahaha that is some amount of candy!! Your mom is so lovely to send all that:):)





well done on losing the 9 pounds..yaaaaaaaay




PS: fricken hate miley cyruuuuuus!
 
Oh god, I'm weak. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeak! Epic candy fail!!!! :cry:


I was so good for 95% of Friday not even touching that candy, but then when I came home at 11:30 PM, at the very end of my perfect day, I dove right in :blush5: I had burned about 500 calories in my workout earlier in the day, so I probably didn't end up being too bad, and I vowed that Saturday I would go work off anything remaining. And I did, I ran 4.25 miles with my dog .... but then I came home and ate more candy :( I thought that I had gotten enough exercise to compensate for it all, but the scale has me up about 2 lbs today - why? WHY?? Ugh. I feel like an alcoholic, if I don't touch it, I am just fine, if I have one - holy crap, then I have 80. I am not eating any today, if I don't ever taste it I won't want it.


Thinking I will hold off on the exercise today, my legs are a little sore from the runs I did yesterday and the day before and I think if I push them that I'll be stuck with those nasty shin splints again - best not to chance it I think, one day off is better than going for it and having to be out for another 6 weeks again.


So, we have no Easter plans today, we usually go down to my bf's parent's house and do egg hunts and egg dying (yes we're all in our 20's/30's but it's still a blast!) but, my boyfriend is finishing up his master's degree in the next few weeks and he is buried waist-deep in books right now, so he needs to work, and I have studying to do as well, so no big deal. Little bummed out seeing as I'm 0 for 2 on holidays right now, didn't get to be with my family on Christmas and not doing anything for Easter - when I see my family for my birthday we plan to have a huge celebration of all the holidays (I tried to combine them and say it would be a happy Birthmaster, but that just doesn't quite work does it? :p ... Eastmas Day? Oh well- maybe it will just have a symbol, like Prince, a birthday cake with a Christmas tree on top that has pastel egg decorations and bunnies - yep, winner.)


Ok rambling now, think it's a residual sugar high - hope everyone fared better against those bunny-shaped saboteurs than I did !


Irish: hehe thank you :) working out on that tight schedule was not easy - really did help to schedule it, plus after I did I had so much energy, I did such a better job studying! 88 calories cereal bars huh? I'm gonna have to see what I can find. I know I gotta prepare, like you said, it's really easy to grab something bad if you don't, or often I just don't eat at all and end up getting in like 400 calories for the day, which is almost just as bad! Thanks for all your supportive comments! Loads of love right back at ya :D


Greg: I've had the Nature Valley bars before, so good, but for some reason I thought they were a lot higher in calories than that! I have a ton of string cheese in this house, don't know why I didn't think of bringing that with me - I guess I thought it might go bad, but I'm sure it'll be fine for the day. I've been making my own shakes - well smoothies- the night before and then freezing them so I can take it around with me all day, I make it really healthy with greek yogurt and spinach and it's actually really good, same kind of idea as the boost shakes, but the shakes they sell in the store tend to be a little high in carbs for me - don't know if I've looked at the Boost one's though, have seen em around so I'll have to check it out - thanks for the suggestions!

Aww and thanks so much for your comment, I hope you're right, I hope it is amazing!! :D


Munch: Haha, ok, I'm gonna have to go grab me some bars! As for the bikes and stuff, they had games just like that too, like a virtual racing thing, bet they were the same ones - $2,000? Yikes! And to think how many are sitting in that building! Thanks so much for your great support, as always, Munch! <3


Little John: Hey! Thanks for stopping by :) Haha, they might suck a bit, but I hope to be accomplishing a lot during them! I think you're right, I do so much better on a tight schedule because I think, I only have one hour to workout out, better get on it! Whereas when I'm at home all day, I just think, oh I'll work out later, I have time.. and then later... and later.. until it's midnight and I'm too tired to do it! So yeah, this week with school and work has been one of the best for my diet and exercise that I have had in a while! I feel ya on the dream of being "overweight" sounds crazy doesn't it?? I've got about 7lbs to go for it, I'll cheer like crazy when I get there!

I have tried to bring fruit, but with all the pounds of books I carry around, it always ends up getting smashed, which is .... messy. :p I do remember eating those suckers as a kid, they were delicious, no idea they were only 45 calories, have to look out for those!


Tete: Ok Nature Valley protein bars sound perfect - I had no idea such a thing existed! Aww and thanks so much for your comment, Tete, you are so sweet!
 
These holidays are such a test!


I'd love to just grab into a cadbury egg, or reese's pieces (I've got plenty atm!), but it's just a matter of willpower at that point. I just keep repeating 'Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.' as I stare at the collection of insta-weight gain I have sitting on my counter.


Only a 2lb difference, Rosie? That's nothing to get worked up about! :)


I've noticed that as I get closer to my goal, my weight fluctuates constantly almost in the double digits! I think I gain 2lb just glancing at junk food nowadays. Eating it, I'm usually up 5+. Eating it a few times during my cheat day, I'm easily hovering around the 10+ mark the following morning.


It's annoying, but nothing that can't be conquered by just continuing to do your best! :)


Yes, that's a good idea to take a break from exercise if you feel your body might be risking injury! Take some time and see how you're feeling later on :)


Enjoy your Eastmas! haha!


That's a pretty cool plan :D
 
Oh Sppppparked, im just like you, i cant have just one, i end up having A MILLION.



Anyway hun that 2 pounds is nothing, guarantee it will be lost and then some by next week.



Hope your legs are feeling better and that you had a good day!! xxxxxxxxxx
 
AHeya sexy :)

I'm so so sorry i have been so slack of late :( I have been really busy or just not able to face reading diaries. So sorry for neglecting you. Anyway, i am catching up now and 18 bloody posts i have to catch up on!!!! I've made a cuppa and i'm gonna plow on thru......this may take some time lol. I'm gonna comment as i go along :)

Don't be stressing about the money your parents have given you. They have done it because they want to and they love you!!!! Don't stress that you have to get straight A's because they know that you will work super hard at it and do the very best you can. You will be awesome. My friend, Rob, has just finished his first year at Uni (he is a mature student) and he was worried that he wasn't good enough to go to uni and he has got amazing marks, especially for the first year, he has got higher marks than is expected of first year students :) He said that he was surprised with the amount of people who don't put in the effort and still expect to get a good mark. You are really motivated and want to learn and do well. You will storm it sweetie You will NOT be one of that 35% cos Kate said so!!!! :)

:hurray: :hurray: yay you for braving the Uni gym :)

Your fisrt day at school looked awesome...it really made me smile reading it :) and you soooo have the right attitude to it too. taking each day as it comes is really good. You are a rock star my lovely :)

The bars that Greg showed you are awesome. My fav is the canadian maple syrup and they are so filling. Granola is great slow release food too and milk with it.....OMG that sounds devine, gotta try that :)

Regarding the gym. Bollocks to those bitches....gggrrrrrrr they make me so freaking angry!!!! :cuss: You have the right attitude though. They are there to 'look pretty' i have seen them at my gym from time to time and now i just pity them. Why are they there? to try and chat up men and the guys tend to be there to beef up their bodies so they are just looking at themselves or are serious about getting fit and they probably pity the shallow little bitches too :cuss: whoops, i'm still ranting. Just think hun, when they see you on the treadmill in a few months time all trim and lean and bloody flying they will be totally jealous!!!!
I am so so proud of you for staying there and doing your workout :) Keep you head up high and when you feel nervous think 'Kate says 'BOLLOCKS to them' they are shallow, personality free, bitches!!!!!

I have been really slack AGAIN!!!! and reading your really positive diary of good food and exercise is making me feel bad so i am just gonna have to get myself back in the game :) I can't be letting you down now can i?!?! I am thinking about going for a run somewhere new. exciting :) Ooooh, oooh i keep forgetting to put on my diary and i have just remembered now so i will write it on yours.......I am going to spend some of my reduncey money on doing an Open University degree and i have pretty much made up my mind to do 'criminology & psychology' for no reson other than it really interests me. Exciting huh :) It doesn't start til october though.

Ut-oh!!!! sweeties :) I have probably eaten my own body weight in chocolate eggs the last few days (yep my mum bought them too) i just couldn't help it. Easter egg chocolate from the fridge is just my most favourite thing ever ever ever.....sigh (and she gets up and goes and gets some more, no not really....but i will later, i just know it lol)

:hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: YAY!!!!! well done on getting rid of that 9lb :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray:

:smilielol5: love the candy fail......Don't worry my lovely it happens (alot to me these days) and that 2lb is retention, it will bugger off soon enough. I did giggle when i read that you had done it, sorry but i wouldn't have resisted it either :)

Right, that's me all up to date now sweetie. Sending you lots of love and hugs :grouphug:
 
Haha Sparked, I think I've been celebrating Easter since January- hot cross buns have certainly been the main feature of my diet since then. Oops!!! I blame my husband for bringing them home and feeding my addiction :smilielol5:


RE: The gym experience- I honestly have no idea why some people feel the need to dress up etc to work out?? I admit to being a 'girly girl' for the most part- my entire wardrobe is pretty dresses and I rarely leave the house without makeup (unless it's some awful early hour and I'm going for a walk and then straight back home again) but when I (used to) go to the gym, I'd be wearing one of my husbands t-shirts and drenched with sweat and have hair spazzy enough so that if my trainer was there he would come over and laugh at me (in good humour, we were pretty good friends). If you aren't there to give it all you've got (and lets face it, you need to be comfortable to be able to do that!) then what's the point in going?? Was funny when I was studying fitness as I pretty much lived in my workout clothes, then we had a social gathering a couple of months in and no one recognised me. HA! :biggrinjester:


At the end of the day, you are going there for yourself so pay no attention to everyone else!!
 
AO sparked...don't worry to much...I had a wonderfully bad Easter Sunday too...probably 2400 calories minimum! Just remember calories are accumulative...one day does not ruin the week....eat light and lean the rest of they week....it will be ok....I was up almost 4 pounds overnight...I know its not real weight gain...its salt causing water gain and crap in my tummy....just look at the week as a whole....it will be ok I promise!!

No tears!! you hear me! Thats an order!! ;) ..Hugs hun! xoxo
 
Ok, just a quick post so it doesn't look like I went AWOL! But, I do have a bunch of studying to do, so I can't write much. Eating has been.... ok, not perfect but not bad either, ended up being able to conquer the chocolate and still should end up with a loss at the end of the week. I've got a dr's appointment tomorrow for some stuff that I'm pretty worried about, so I'm kinda nervous - and of course google has me convinced that I'm totally dying! haha damn the internet! ;) We'll see what happens, hope everything's ok :)


Good luck to all!
 
No exercise today, felt a little tired and like I just kind of needed a break after going full steam on everything for the last little bit. Almost went on a crazy grocery store shopping spree today but at some point that little voice that reminds me to stay focused on the things that I want started to get really loud and thankfully it never happened! Dr.'s appointment did absolutely nothing to make me feel better. I have two things that he's checking out right now, one I'm not even gonna go into because it sounds really alarming and it could be nothing, so I'm trying to focus on the nothing possibility. The other - well it sounds kinda bad too. About two weeks ago I suddenly lost like a ton of hair from my eyebrows



(sorry for the whole weird fisheye lens looking thing - wasn't exactly a glamour shot) the outside edges are going almost bare and then on the right one on the inside there's like a huge bald spot. I gave it a few weeks to see if it would grow back before I made the appointment - but it doesn't look like its going that way. My boyfriend told me not to worry and it's just because we have been together so long so I am starting to look like him because he has a scar on his eyebrow and a little bald patch :) I thought that was cute, he always tries so hard to make me feel better when I worry - but last night he said he was actually really worried since he thought it would have grown back by now. My first thought was thyroid because I know that eyebrow hair loss is a symptom, plus my mom and all of my aunts have a thyroid issue, and oh yeah, there's that thing that I sometimes talk about here where I kind of a have a tendency to put on weight :p So the Dr. is testing for that, but he said I really don't have a lot of symptoms, only a few so we'll see. He says that if the test comes back negative that he's gonna recommend me to an auto-immune disease specialist (awesome, these are words I love to hear) but he also says that maybe it's just stress. Going back in, probably tomorrow, to talk to him more. So I'm a little worried, and my preoccupation with being worried doesn't have me in the best mood, so I'm calling this one a night I think. I really hope everyone is doing well and I look forward to reading diaries when my heads in it more :)
 
Rosie, so sorry to hear this, but hun lets hope to god its only stress, i know how much stress can affect people so keep thinking of positive. You look fricken stunning in that picture! You have such a stunning face you biatch. haha



Hope today goes okay, and let us know any updates from the doctors. I will be thinking of you, also well done for not going to buy bad food, thats my girl!!



Lots of love and hugs hun xxxxxx
 
:iagree:


Hiya Rosie!


Well, I agree with everything Irish said! Staying positive is so difficult, but also one of the most important things you can do in these situations.


In my little opinion, I think it's stress-related. You have a lot going on right now in your life! I know you're also worried about doing well in school, which I have no doubt you will! Then, maintaining your healthy lifestyle can be quite an ordeal sometimes (as we all know)!


You're doing the right thing by taking a break. You definitely deserve it!


Even though it's not a 'glamour' shot, I love the new pic! You look great!! :hurray:


That's also sweet what your boyfriend said :) He sounds like a really good guy :)


Hang in there, Rose. Everything will be alright :) Keep us posted!
 
I've got to go with Frogged and Irish on this. Keep your head up and stay positive. I will also keep you in my prayers. I'm sorry you're having troubles, but as Frogged said, I think it may be stress-related as well. So proud of you for losing those 9lbs. Now it's time to really kick butt! I know you can do it!


Oh and as for Easter munchies, it was my future-father-in-laws birthday as well so in addition to the massive Easter dinner, we also had chocolate cake with chocolate icing, frozen custard, and of course Easter candy. It was a bad day for me...lol! But I've had a fairly good week, so I don't feel too terrible about it.


Hope you have a great weekend!!! :)
 
AAwee Sparked...so sorry you are having a rough time....I am sure the more stress you get about your eye brows the worse it gets....just like the more we stress about losing weight the harder it gets....I am glad your fella is trying to cheer you up....and I agree...you are stunning...with full eyebrows or not!!

Hang in there hun and going to the doctor is a good thing...you can find out the problem and find a way to handle it. I will be sending you good vibes and best wishes for good news! Hugs xoxoxo
 
AHeya Hotstuff :)

:iagree: I reckon it is stress too. Stress can have such a weird effect on our bodies. I have psoriosis and it goes totally mad when i am stressed (kinda like at the moment lol) And your photo is just adorable!!!!
How dare you have such gorgeous bloody eyes!!!!!!

You are so beautiful hun, truly you are.

Nuff said :)
 
You guys are so awesome! :beating: Haha, I um was definitely not expecting compliments - especially when I've been walking around feeling like one those hairless chihuahuas for the last few weeks - you know, these guys:

yeaaah, that's about right! At least it's not the hair on my head or I'd really be freaking out! But thanks guys, it really does make feel better since I've just been feeling sooo... well, not cute, to put it nicely, with all of this going on. I went back to the doctor on Friday to get blood taken and they ran a test on everything - thyroid, liver, kidney, even my cholesterol and it all came back in the healthy range! The doctor said he was surprised that the thyroid came back clear as he was pretty convinced that was the problem given my family history, but nope, no problems there. Which is a relief, but then on the other hand, I'm like, well then what is it?? The doctor says he's still reluctant to just write it off as stress though and wants to do some more tests and have me see the dermatologist, so I'll go back in this week or maybe next week. Sooo we'll see :p


This weekend was not the best for eating. Yesterday I had a date day with my bf and we got turkey subs and smoothies for lunch - which I could have done way worse, but still, was definitely over calories! We also went to the grocery store and there was a ton of Easter candy on clearance that apparently my bf could just not pass up, so now the candy is back in the house:svengo:just when I thought all was clear, oh well, have been able to ignore it so far! Actually today is going really well, I've got studying to do all day so hopefully I won't run into too many temptations.


Oooh so my friend and I went shopping the other day at this store with all the really expensive jeans and they actually fit! I grabbed a size 32 and held them up laughing thinking I was insane and they would never fit ... but then, when I tried them on, they were too big! Glory be! hehe So, had to go back for a 31! Silly inch sizes- I have no idea what the translates to in dress size, but I do know the smallest I'd ever fit in before was a 34 - so yay!!! Unfortunately the jeans were $198, so I just kinda had to sit in the dressing room for a while and admire them - I sure as heck didn't have that much money for jeans, but let me tell you, for the phenomenal things that they were doing to my butt, that price was well worth it!


OK, I'm gonna go continue my really good, Easter candy-less day! Good luck on the upcoming week!


Greg: I know it was only 2lbs, but since I have been taking off and losing the same weight for months now, only to have finally lost it again- I felt like I was going to scream if I ever had to see those numbers ever again!!! So I know, not a huge deal, it was more of a mental setback - but at least it did come off!

And thank you for you super positive post! :) I hope it is just stress, the doctor is staying away from that right now, but maybe it's just so he can charge me for a million tests! ;) Thanks again, Greg! You really know how to cheer a girl up! :)


Irish: hahahaha I love you, you are so hilarious! Thank you for calling me a biatch hehe :D Whenever you say that I figure I must be doing something good ;) I will do my best to stay positive - if it is stress, it's not doing me a single bit of good to worry and make it even worse! Thanks so much for you post, lots of love!


Little John: LOL I love xkcd comics! I'm pretty sure that's the message I walked away with as well :rolleyes:


Kate: I'm sorry it's taken me so long to reply here - just been so out of it! 18 posts huh? Who knew I was so prolific! ;) But thank you so much for the wonderful post, I put a smile on my face the whole way through :) "Keep you head up high and when you feel nervous think 'Kate says 'BOLLOCKS to them' they are shallow, personality free, bitches!!!!!" hahaha looooove it, thinking this will really help me plow through their looks, it's funny how when there's a situation where it feels like a bunch of people are against you, it feels good just to know there are people on your side :)

OMG! that is so so exciting, that degree sounds incredibly interesting!! I love learning, I think it's one of the most fulfilling things ever :) I'm sure you'll do just awesome!

Now that I'm on Easter Candy: Round 2, I'm feeling a little bit stronger, I had the taste and I know in the end it just makes me feel bad, so SOLIDARITY, we are intrepid, we will power through! :) Thanks so much for your lovely post, it completely made my day! <3


Lucy: haha, my bf gets all the blame for the bad stuff in the house - I always tell him he's an enabler! ;)

I honestly think those girls at the gym just look ridiculous, I'm kind surprised the guys don't think so as well, but oh well, what can ya do? There are two main places for cardio equipment, one is right next to all the weights so you can imagine that's where all the little treadmill bunnies go to show off! The other is on an entirely different floor and that where the people are that look like they're serious - so luckily I only have to endure those girls while in the locker room and during the time I'm bolting past the meat market level! I'm getting better and better at blowing them off though!


Tete: Aww thanks so much for your posts :) I so appreciate your positivity and your good vibes (and, the compliments too! ;) hehe) lots of hugs!


Munch: Thanks Munch, you're prayers mean so much :) I agree with you, just gotta focus on the whole picture and not get down about one bad day! Thanks so much for your post! :)
 
Originally Posted by katehunibun

Heya Hotstuff
:iagree: I reckon it is stress too. Stress can have such a weird effect on our bodies. I have psoriosis and it goes totally mad when i am stressed (kinda like at the moment lol) And your photo is just adorable!!!!
How dare you have such gorgeous bloody eyes!!!!!!
You are so beautiful hun, truly you are.
Nuff said
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Ooo Kate, you snuck in while I was writing! I had no idea all the effects of stress until the doctor was talking to me about, crazy what we can put out bodies through!

oh and.... :blush5: you make me blush like crazy, you are so sweet :) Thank you for all your kind words :) lots of love! :grouphug:
 
Ignore the candy. It doesn't exist! Hold out for a Sky Bar (I'm assuming they're not available in CA? If so, hold out for something only available in England).


Good on you for the jeans - I learned that's a good thing from soup commercials!


Keep it up. -LJ
 
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