Erica's weight loss Diary :)

EMorgan

EMorgan

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I am starting a new diary as I have fallen off the wagon and want to start fresh. I was doing really good for a week and lost 3 lbs. I stopped keeping track of what I ate and slowly but surely went back to my old ways. This week has been terrible as far as calories are concerned. My boyfriend and I frequently go to his grandparents to have dinner which is always southern "comfort food". We went on wednesday this week and I pigged out. I broke down last night and told my boyfriend I cant live like this anymore. I want to lose this weight before it gets too out of control, which at the rate Im going it wont take long! My main problem is I obsess over what I eat or dont eat. Im constantly thinking about my weight even when Im doing nothing to change it. I want to get to a point where I eat when Im hungry ONLY. That is definately not the way it is now. I eat the most when Im bored usually so I want to try to do other things with my time than eat. I use to be a size 1/2 and 115lbs about a year and a half ago and was that weight for about 6 years since highschool. Since my boyfriend and I started dating I have gained the majority of my weight, I chalk it up to being happy and not trying to attract the opposite sex anymore and mostly just being lazy because I have who I want and he loves me regaurdless of what I weigh. However I am not happy. Im now a size 5 which I know is not big by any means, but I have also gained 20lbs in the last year by eating unhealthy and not doing much at all in terms of exercise. If I keep going on like this ill weigh over 200lbs by the time Im 30 (Im 24). So I want to "nip it in the bud" before I gain even more. One of my main concerns is also where I carry my weight which is for the most part in my thighs and some in my stomach but not much. My thighs definately rub when I walk, and I feel horrible about wearing shorts this summer. I want to change that! I want to wear shorts and feel like I have nice legs not huge cellulite filled thighs that rub together lol. In my last journal I weighed in at 130-132 at 5'5, Ive gained 5 lbs in the last 3 weeks (ugh!) so Im now at a steady 135lbs. I want to get back to my former weight of 115 but honestly Id be happy with 120 right now. I just want a flat tummy and thinner thighs! I came back to this site in need of inspiration and I got it! Many of you have much more you want to lose than I do but you do it and I cant even manage to lose 15-20 stinkin pounds. I WILL do it! If other people can lose 50-100lbs or more I can lose this and I wont give up this time!
 
Day 1

My meal plan today is as follows so far:

Breakfast:
1 serving Kashi Go Lean Honey almond flax with Almond milk (260 cals)

Snack: 1 orange and 1 cup of Yogi Pomagranate Green tea

Lunch: Half a Turkey Sandwich on wheat with another Orange

Dinner: I dont know yet but Ill post that later too!

Im going grocery shopping this weekend so my options are pretty limited as of right now. I dont even know what to get to eat at lunch time? Salad stuff usually goes bad too quickly so maybe I can get some lean cuisines or something this weekend.

I also plan on working out tonight with my boyfriend so we will see how that goes!
 
Good to have you back - don't worry we all fall off but only those that get back on will succed! The longer you stay off the harder it is to get back so congratulations for taking that step again! I believe you can do it too and your currently at my goal weight so I will love to see you get smaller as the days go by - one at a time! Hang in there and stay strong!
 
Thanks CG! I need all the support I can get :). I know my goal weight is smaller than a lot of people's but I just know I look good at that weight and I dont feel like I look good anymore. Ive read some of your diary and I find it very inspiring. Cant wait till we both reach our goals!
 
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End of Day 1

Didnt do so well on the calories today but I did AWESOME (IMO) on the exercising :)
For dinner we ended up going to an Italian restaurant my boyfriend likes but I had never been to. They had much to be desired in terms of low cal entrees so I caved and ordered Manicotti. It was probably roughly a 500 calorie meal and full of FAT:blush5:.

HOWEVER I worked out immediately when we got home an hour or so after eating and I did more in the gym than I have done in probably a year and a half working out. I spent an hour at the gym and it went as follows:

30 mins on eliptical using the weightloss interval setting
30 mins Aerobic exercise including: 50 crunches, arm raises and curls with 5lb weight approx 3 sets of 20 of each, 2 sets of 20 squats and Im sure Im missing something else I did but thats the gist of it. I burned 200 cals on the eliptical and who knows how much on everything else so hopefully I burned enough to make up for the bad dinner I had :).

I work all day tomorrow so I probably wont eat much. I usually dont go over my cals as long as Im busy. We will see though.
 
Day 2 (yesterday)

Breakfast: Kashi Go lean honey almond flax with Skim milk and an orange
Lunch: Italian Sandwich at Newk's (Salami, pepperoni, hot peppers, creole mayo, lettuce etc) which was probably terribly fatty because of the Salami but That was all I ate before work so I needed some Cals

I worked 6-12 and ate breakfast at like 9am and lunch at about 2 pm but I only had a 15 min break at my second job from 4-10pm and I didnt have time to eat :/

I also didnt work out all day yesterday because I was on my feet for the last half of my workday non stop. I think that was enough exercise.
 
First half of day 3

Breakfast: Kashi go lean honey almond flax and almond milk about 250 cals

Lunch/snack: Whole sliced Granny smith apple with abt 1 1/2 tbsp natural peanut butter, topped with about 2 tbsp dried cranberries about 300 cals

My calories are pretty low right now. We will probably do subway or something tonight for dinner and Ill eat something with a decent amount of calories. Going Grocery shopping tomorrow so Ill have more of a selection I hope. Lunch was pretty small but Im full for now. Dinner will be more substansial I think.
 
Day 3 end and day 4 morning

We went to a Chinese buffet for dinner last night and usually I would have eaten lots of sesame chicken and anything else I wanted but I did pretty good. I ate mostly sushi and a few crab legs without butter and for dessert I had some cantalope and honeydew melon. I know sushi is pretty fattening, but it was prob more healthy than the sesame chicken! I think I still did well on my calorie intake yesterday since I didnt eat much before the Chinese and nothing after. I think my meals today are going to be kind of boring because I still have yet to go grocery shopping...

Breakfast: Kashi Go lean honey almond flax with almond milk
Lunch will prob be: Weightloss instant oatmeal bleh

Dinner I think we will go to his parents which is usually chicken and vegetables.( I dont know how people can fix the same thing for dinner every night?lol)
 
Update

I totally forgot to write on here the past couple days. I didnt even realize I was so behind. Oh well.. Ill go ahead and update everyone on what Ive eaten in the past couple days

Day 4 Evening- We went to mcdonalds because we were in a bit of a hurry and my bf had a group project meeting for college. I had a chipotle chicken snack wrap and about a handful of fries for dinner. I estimated my calories for day 4 to be about 1100 total.

Day 5 (Today)
Breakfast- Kellogs Low fat granola w/ original almond milk 220 calories total
Lunch- SmartOnes Baked ziti 320 calories
Dinner- 1/2 cup brown rice with green beans, corn and a little 2% milk cheese 150 calories
Snacks-100 cal pack grasshopper cookies, 100 cal pack fudge shoppe cookies
Drinks- Water, Coke zero, 1 glass almond milk 60 cals
Total: 960 calories
I know its a little low but Im honestly not the slightest bit hungry and its too late to really eat anymore. If I eat too late it keeps me up all night (why? IDK)

Tomorrow should go as follows:
Breakfast: Kellogs low fat granola ( I just love granola but it always was too fattening for me to eat it so Im glad they made this stuff... its not QUITE as good but still good) w/ Almond milk 220 cals
Lunch: Brown rice with green beans, corn and a little 2% milk cheese and a Tilapia filet with just pepper and a dash of salt. 253 cals total
Dinner: ???? TBA

I feel like Im doing good so far ALTHOUGH I havent been working out at all lately :p Im either too tried or sick or just plain lazy but I promise Im going to start ASAP. If I can get up out of bed early enough Ill go before work in the morning.
 
I wish you the best of luck. I too am in the wanting to lose 20 lbs club. I am 32 and weighed in about 140 a few weeks ago and said " WTF? This shit has to stop!". After my 2nd child was born almost 10 years ago I weighed in at 125 and Im 5'6". That weight was good but I have always felt better right around 119-120. I'm doing it this time I do NOT want to be chubby I want so desperately to feel comfortable in a 2 piece and shorts. I have been really watching my calories and working out regularly for the last 2 months and it is helping but it is hard. I'm starting on a new program on Friday that my friend had amazing results on so I'm excited to see what happens with me.
 
KT Thanks for your reply! I was starting to think I was alone in the 20lb club. Its good to hear someone else feels more comfortable at a lower weight even though were not really considered "overweight". I hope you meet all of your goals too!

So yesterday was cinco de mayo, which is usually a big party day for me. I actually found some "lite" margarita mix which is only 10 cals per 4oz! My BF and I went to the pool and drank a homemade margarita and then we came back here and I made Tacos. Probably a little high on my calories yesterday. I had 4 tacos :blush5: but I used low fat shredded cheese, meat, lettuce, cilantro, and tomatoes. It was good and we had fun so no regrets :)

I did my weigh in this morning 130! So I lost 5 lbs YAY! I want to lose atleast 10 more and I think Im right on my way :)

Breakfast today: Lowfat granola and almond milk 220 cals
Lunch will be: 2 left over Tacos 290 cals ish
 
Update

I havent posted anything in a few days because Ive been so busy working. I have 2 jobs and work roughly 50-60 hours a week or more. This is because I cant find a job making more than like 8 bucks an hour so in turn I work more hours than I used to to make overall the same amount on my paycheck :banghead: I am going back to school in the fall and hopefully I can find something better by then because I wont be able to work as much. Its really exhausting.... I want to work out but Im just so tired all the time when Im not at work. The job market monopoly has gotten so bad that companies will literally ask for a 4 year degree for a RECEPTIONIST position and to top it off they will also ask you to have like 5 years experience! TO ANSWER PHONES ALL DAY! Im sorry Im just frustrated :rant:

Anyway Ive been doing really good with my calories lately but I havent worked out AT ALL. I had a minor break through yesterday. I realized that I use to tend to eat every time my boyfriend eats just to make him feel better. He will say "Im hungry, arent you hungry?" "No" Him:"ughh Im so hungry!" Me "Okay what do you want to eat?" Then we usually grab some fast food or go out to eat since I rarely have much food at home. Keep in mind Im not even hungry most of the time when I do this! Yesterday he was complaining about being hungry and I was totally NOT hungry because we went to his parents and had lunch for mothers day and I ate a good bit and so did he. I had only had a banana and a cup of coffee before work that morning so I was hungry. Well, 3 hours later he his hungry again! I said "Well Im sorry but Im not hungry and I dont know how you can be because it hasnt been long since we ate. Im not going to eat anymore when Im not hungry just because you are hungry, Thats why Ive gained so much weight" We came back to my apartment and he ate some leftover fast food he had in my fridge and I ate a lean cuisine a few hours later at dinner time. I was proud of myself though because I didnt give in. Im going to continue listening to my body when it tells me I need to eat and not just eating because hes hungry.
 
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