hey everybody, i am gonna be able to get my truck out today..or tomorrow, but its like 500$...i so dont have that money....so my sis is gonna help me pay for it...but i am still broke for the rest of the month....ugh. i hate havin to take care of the bills. IM not tryin to complain, i love my dad more than anything else...but its hard only having one parent (mom died in Dec 2005) and the one parent being terminally ill...thankfully he had a transplant in August...just in time, but it still requires alot of care and lots of trips to the hospitals, which are in Asheville (2 hours away) and Richmond (5+ hrs away) luckily he flies to richmond, but we drive to asheville. once every week....anyways, i take care of my dad, go to school, help "maintain" my brother...pay the bills, take care of the money, and was working (which i dont now...) its all a little hard, plus i maintain a relationship. Its hard only bein 17 (been doin this since i was 16) and bein so different than everybody else, havin to clean when i finally can "relax", but yet, my bro always is lazy and sits on his a$$ and gives me a hard time about EVERYTHING! Then when he gets mad, he tells my dad (my family calls me Melissa) "DAD! Melissa's havin sex with Travis!!!!" Which...yea, i am, but damn, he already know I have, he doesnt allow it, but come on, can u really stop someone from havin sex? Anyways...sorry if that was tmi, but dam, we have more things to worry about, and all my bro can do, is cause problems between me, my dad, and my sisters, which used to hate me, until they recently found out my bro was lying to them, and smoking pot, cigarettes, and drinking, and he just recently turned 16, while ME i have all the responsibility on me, and dont do any of that crap! and so since everyone knows i take care of the "home" they expect more of me...but what am i doin wrong????!!!!!??? Hell, i take care of my PARENT, try to "maintain" (and i do mean maintain) my brother, clean, cook, do bills, deal with the money, maintain a relationship, and go to school with all the extracirricular things that go in with that, plus deal with the death of my best friends who always kept me sane, b/c they were the ones i talked about this bullsh*t to. They always knew how to help me, and now they are gone to. My boyfriend tries to help me, but i end up taking it out on him because i know he will still love me, but thats no reason....i talk to the counselors at school, they know what my life is like, and they are so astounded that i can do it, but hell its either sink or swim, ya know? anyways, sorry, i should be writin this in a paper journal, not on here, im sorry to be complainin so much...just tired, lol. I hope yall are havin a good day, and wish me luck on gettin my truck out....by the way, my friend who was driving in the wreck that killed my other friends....he is charged with 3 accnts of misdemeanor death by vehicle, and 1 accnt of wreckless driving....nobody wanted him to be chraged...the D.A. is a nice guy, but he had to, but he should just get probation, but the max is 145 days in prison...some ppl say he should have got charged with more (a$$holes) but u had to know these ppl....he never meant to hurt....or kill them....
Life sucks.....