*Emily's Weight Diary*

hey everybody...im not here to talk about weight-loss today....

Last night, my two BEST FRIENDS i the entire world were killed in a car accident, with my other friend driving, but he survived. another girl i was good friends with was in the back....she died too....not feeling so good today...may be a qhile before im back on here. I am so sick. I cant sleep, eat, or nothing else...i just feel so sick....i was supposed to have been in the car with them....but instead....my other friend (not sure if i should release names) the female, was with them, instead.....i chose to stay home with my b/f....if i would have went, maybe i could have made him be more careful....those two guys were my life....everyday, laughing, smiling, thats why i went to school...to see them...i dont know if im going to go back...life is so unfair, they were 17 yrs old....top 10 in the class along with me....if yall want to read the article u can go to its on the first page....the one in the paper was airlifted to carolina medical center, and when the paper was published, he was still alive, but he died around 1:00 last night....he had broken his neck and they were trying to operate and restructure it....and he died....the other guy that died...he sat in front of me in psychology and i constantly hung out with him and the other guy on the weekends....i used to braid his hair, lol. i loved them to death....we were closer than anybody else i knew. the girl that died, had just recently moved to our school from florida.....they were all seniors....suppose to graduate in June. they were my closest friends....however the other guy that was driving, he survived with a mild concousien (sp?) im glad of that....but i want my friends back...ur not suppose to die at 17...they had already been excepted into college...they had people to marry, families to have....i been friends with these people since the 3rd grade....thats 9 years....and now its gone...well, thats it for right now. I cant believe theyre dead....i cant grasp it yet....i dont understand. I hope to talk to yall soon, take care, and for God's sake, be careful.....

~emily.
 
OMFG...*GREAT BIG HUGS* I am so sorry for your loss/losses...I cant even begin to understand or relate to how you are feelign or what you are going through...Im so sorry Em...I will hold you close in my thoughts...
 
Emily, hang in there. Nothing is going to make any of this feel any better but hopefully time will make it a little easier to deal with. When I was in high school I had something similar happen to me with four of my friends. I had gotten grounded so I wasn't in the car, but it was right near my house, I heard all the ambulance & police & although we hoped that one would make it, she died before I could even get to the hospital. There is nothing in the world like losing four people that young. Trust me you will miss them always, but you know they would want you to live your life. Its in you that they survive. You know them.

Take time for yourself. Feel whatever you end up needing to feel. That is one mistake I made was pretending none of it happened & that they just moved away. I ended up with anxiety problems that lasted til I got help. Which is what I suggest. Talk when you feel like talking. To who ever you feel comfortable with (I'm here if you need someone), don't feel bad if you feel like you need professional help to deal with all this. I did. Something like this is not normal, its life changing & that is why it is so hard to comprehend.

I wish I could spare you & everyone from what you must be feeling. Just know that you are not alone & that although it hurts like hell & you think the pain will never end, one day you will find a way to go on.

I will miss you in the sweetheart city challenge, but I understand. Exercise is one thing that keeps me sane & maybe one day, when you are ready to try things again, it may help you.

Just take it all one precious breath at a time.
 
I don't have any words for you. I know the sorrow you are going through. I have also lost friends and a cousin in car crashes. I know personally nothing I can say will help, Like Moongodess said talk when you need to, cry when you to, and and just hang in there!
 
take care of yourself Em - words can't describe how awfull it is to lose someone you're that close to... there's no explanation for it - except that it happens and it sucks - be grateful for the time you did have with them.. and keep living your life.

Keep talking about it - don'tbottle it up inside you...
 
Hi Emily - I don't know you and haven't posted in your diary before but I just wanted to send you my condolences. I am so, so, sorry about your friends. I sat here in shock after reading that. I can't imagine what you are going through right now. I hope you have folks to look after you and support you, I know you have lots of friends on WLF. I am truly sorry for your devastating loss.
Rachie.
 
Hey Emily,

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. It is unfathomable the amount of grief you must be feeling.
We just experienced a similar situtation just over a week ago. All five boys (16-17 yrs old) were killed in a car accident. Absolutely devastating.

Take care of yourself. Cry when you need to. Talk about what you're feeling and going through. It's hard.

Sending you lots of hugs,
Jenn
 
hey everybody, thanks for stopping by. I appreciate it, hope everyone i shaving a good day :) take care....

i am kinda realizing the reason why God took them, they were wonderful, humble, and caring people who didnt deserve to go through the hell of this world, and ic an honestly say i think they were ready, its better for them, tho they will be severly missed! I love them, and i told them, so they knew :)

~Emily.
 
Howdy EM,
Wanted to stop by and say HOWDY.."HOWDY"!
Hope you have a fantastic day,Tammy:)

WOOHOO look at the ticker go thats the way you do it.;)
 
Oh Em! I'm sooo sorry to hear of your loss! :(
Please take care of yourself, and hang in there!
*hugs*
 
I hope you are getting along a little better today. I know it takes time , but I just wanted you to know I was thinking of you!!:)
 
hey everybody, thanks, your thoughts and prayers really help :) I weighed int he other day at 274. something and then today it said 279...:confused: ugh, the past week has sooooo sucked, i went to all of my friends visitations and funerals this week tho, three funerals in two days. it sucked...so sad. but it made me feel so much better for some reason. its like i can sleep and eat now. which is sorta bad cause i ate like a BUNCH of sweets, like eclairs, ice cream, oatmeal all kindsa stuff....gotta start again... :)

~Emily.
 
put those sweets behind you and take care of yourself - :D don't beat yourself up - just keep going... you are worth the good health and rockin' body you are giving yourself.

Please find someone to talk to if you need some help with dealing with your friends deaths - it's tough when it happens so young, and so many people affected...

no ass kicks for you yet - but i've got my eye on you missy... :D
 
lol, its a nice booty aint it? :p i am totally messin, the rear part of my body isnt the best at all! LMAO anyways, thanks for stopping by to cheer me up


*HUGS*

~emily.
 
I think the real trick to all of this is letting yourself have the special days where you don't watch what you are eating or doing when you need them. As long as you can hold yourself accountable most of the time, it will all work out in the end. Right now you needed to just deal with one thing at a time & your counting calories & working out, just wasn't it. I'm glad you are feeling a bit more like you & feeling like you can get back to you.

Good luck & glad you are back on the walk to Sweetheart City challenge!
 
I am stopping by to say hi and have a great weekend.
Thanks for being so supportive it really helps and is good to know
there are always people to turn to that are going through simalar
things as you (weightloss wise).Tammy
 
Good to hear you around and see you posting...your attitude seems to be good...hold that close to you...your an amazig wmn and you are handling this well!!!
 
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