Emily Rose: The Reboot

Your exercise plan for the week looks great - good use of time before cracking on with the job hunt :) How on earth have you afforded 3 months off work?! You lucky thing.
 
Thanks Sunflower. A combination of benefits, savings and the meager temp work I picked up. I have roughly 30 euro in my bank account at the moment though, so the good times have officially stopped rolling.

M2, D23 amendments: 12 cigs, cup of yogi tea.

M2, D24:

1. How did today go?

Everyone I know seems to be living under a little black cloud at the moment. It's hard not to let it get you down or take it personally. I think I'm doing well under the circumstances.

2. How was your food and exercise?
Well! Today was a marathon day for exercise, nicely spaced out, so I am not too overworked. I had a morning yoga class at 9:30, it was a new teacher and it was a bit more fun and relaxed than other classes (some of those yoga teachers can be very militant) so I really enjoyed it.

This evening, I played tennis and then did 20 laps of the pool. My tennis game started off shit, I couldn't even serve, but after a while I relaxed into it and hit some nice shots. My fitness levels really help my tennis game. Now I know why tennis players are all so buff now.

Example A:
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Example B:
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Jesus, Serena is huge. That can't be healthy.

Anyhoo. What was I saying? Oh yeah, very pleased with exercise today.

You know what I wasn't happy with today? Weight of 11 stone 7 1/4 pounds. :boxing: That's me, punching the scales.

Cig update tomorrow.

Today's food was garlic. Garlic blocks formation of wrinkles. Faaaaaaaab.

- handful of grapes
- porridge, chia seeds, flaxseed, milk
- large cappuccino and rocky road slice; small pot of tea and milk
- chicken jalfrezi and brown rice
- echinacea tea
- mini jelly babies, mini mars bar, mini twix
- 2 slices ryvita, butter, cheddar cheese
- redbush tea and milk

3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Not today.
 
Hmm, not a Serena fan myself. She comes across as an obnoxious diva to me. Great player though.

M2, D25 amendments: 11 cigs, had a handful of almonds also.

M2, D26:

1. How did today go?

Hmm. I've felt both happy and sad today.

2. How was your food and exercise?
Did an 8k run this morning. Felt great.

Weight was 11 stone 5 1/2 pounds. Not bad.

Cigs 7. Better.

Today's food: Cinnamon
Cinnamon moderates blood sugar spikes that lead to wrinkles and blemishes.

- porridge, chia seeds, flaxseed, cinnamon, milk
- peanut butter and caramel cake with cream; americano and milk
- white tea
- 1 slice ryvita with cheddar cheese and butter
- chicken jalfrezi and brown rice
- pick 'n' mix at the cinema

3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Not really. Had my first night at the yoga centre today. It was really fun and I met some nice people. Sometimes that's all you can ask for.
 
M2, D25 amendments: 8 cigs.

M2, D26:

1. How did today go?
It was a wet, windy, miserable day. I went home for my dinner and then my dad and I watched the Wawrinka vs. Federer match. It was amazing. Bel18ve. I adore Federer and his post-match interview was lovely. And look how cute:

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All fingers crossed for a Fedal final. I'm getting up early to watch Nadal vs. Dimitrov. Exciting tennis times.

2. How was your food and exercise?

Weighed in at 11 stone 6. I sometimes feel that I am stuck at this weight forever.

Played tennis myself tonight. Sadly, I did not play like Federer.

Food:
- butternut squash soup; brown scone with butter and jam; americano and milk and the biscuit they give you with it
- lamb tagine with rice
- 2 coffees and milk; peppermint tea
- fruit biscuit; small dairy milk bar; small oat flapjack; 2 small scoops Carte D'or vanilla ice cream

Cigs 5. Better.

3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?

I emailed dream job today. Nothing back. Feckers.
 
Emily- I hope you watched Nadal's match yesterday. I think it was one of the best matches I have ever seen. WOW. Hope you have a great weekend!
 
Cate - I got my ass out of bed this morning, drove home and watched it! It was such a good match. My heart went out to Grigor, it really did, but it just had to be Fed and Nadal in the final. I love them both, I think they are both fantastic sportsmen, come across as decent men, but it has to be Roger to win for me. He's the underdog here, because Nadal can expose his weaknesses so well. I hope it's an epic 5-setter and we see some amazing play. One for the ages.

Sunflower, you changed your picture! Dream job news below. Weekend plans: exercise stuff tonight. Drinking. Tomorrow is a write-off. Sunday is a fab day of tennis watching and a road race. (Unless the tennis goes into 5 sets.)

M2, D28:

1. How did today go?
I had the best day. Really, 2 out 3 goals are beginning to come into fruition. I am thrilled. I'm also doing my usual Friday thing of getting drunk (alone) but I haven't figured out how to combat this yet. My friends are meeting up tomorrow night - I could have saved the getting drunk until then, but I didn't want to. It's sad when you would rather drink by yourself than with your pals.

I'm not going out tomorrow night for a few reasons. The first is that they are probably just going to drink in the house for the entire evening, which is lovely when you're married and you don't care about mixing with others, but where exactly is that going to get me? I'd rather drink alone. Same difference anyway. You talk the same old shite you always talk.

The second is that I am pissed off at a friend who has cancelled two weekends in a row of meeting up and had disappeared for quite a while before Christmas. I just hate when someone makes up excuses not to meet up. Just be honest. If you feel like shit and don't want to meet me, just say it.

2. How was your food and exercise?
Had a fast-pace boxfit class and then did the most wonderful yoga workshop this evening. The teacher is so great.

Weight was 11 stone 6 1/4 pounds. So pissed.

Cigs tomorrow.

Today's food was tumeric. Tumeric reduces inflammation, speeds up healing, relieves pain. Clearly a wonderspice.

Food today wasn't good. Don't know why I am craving so much shitty chocolate but I am.

- cornflakes, granola, 1 weetabix, milk; glass of orange juice
- 2 coffees and milk; 2 spice biscuits; 1 small dairy milk; handful of grapes
- chicken jalfrezi and brown rice
- yorkie rum and raisin bar
- mini jelly babies bag; kinder bueno bar
- 2 500ml Czech bar
- working my way through a bottle of white wine as we speak

3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Hot body: I went to the yoga workshop and met a friend of my housemate that I haven't seen in a few months who told me I was looking really healthy and tanned (?!). Anyway, it just proves the rest has worked, even though I really don't see it myself. But I feel strong and healthy and I think that is definitely being projected. I know from this diary, you probably only see all the cake I eat, the cigarettes I smoke, and my weekly excesses, but I promise you, it is better than it was.

Hot job: I am in the final 10 of the dream job! They will let me know next week if I made the final 5! I am officially in X Factor bootcamp!

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I feel strong and healthy and I think that is definitely being projected.
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Also: I´m a bit of a buffoon where pop-culture is concerned. Was that last sentence meant to be taken literally? Either way: congratulations on going in the right direction :)
 
Haha, no, the dream job is not to be a contestant on the X Factor. I just meant it is like being in the X Factor in a way - I've made the final 10, and coming up next week, I'll know if I made the final 5. :D

M2, D27 amendments: Smoked 13 cigs.

M2, D28:

1. How did today go?
I think I'm just ready for January to be over. Spring is a time for new beginnings and growth, so hopefully February brings an abundance of that into my life. I didn't do much today. I watched a lot of youtube videos of interviews with the Obamas. I love them. I also watched their dance with Beyonce singing 'At Last' and actually cried, because it was so beautiful. You can just feel the love they have for each other. I think we can count on them to do some good work in the next stage of their lives.

2. How was your food and exercise?
I actually did some exercise today! It was a really easy interval run, but it was good to get out there and move a little bit, as I've been in bed nearly all day. There is a road race on tomorrow, but it depends on how long the Federer/Nadal clash lasts whether I'll make it or not. I kind of feel too lazy to go as it stands.

Today's food: Chamomile
Chamomile promotes restful sleep and cramp relief. Really hope for a good sleep tonight as I have to set the alarm for 8am to watch the clash of the titans.

- massive roll with turkey, butter, onion, potato salad, peppers, lettuce, maybe some other stuff in there, not sure.
- bottle of Club Orange; can of Lucozade
- McDonald's feast: quarter pounder with cheese, medium fries, medium fanta, ketchup; Galaxy Ripple McFlurry
- chamomile tea

Weight: 11 stone 2 3/4 pounds.

Cigs: 3

3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
No. I'm excited about the week to come though.
 
Haha, no worries LaMa.

Thank you Sunflower. I'm hopeful.

M2, D28 amendments: I smoked 5 in the end.

M2, D29:

1. How did today go?
I spent a lot of time last night watching the protests at JFK airport and crying. I just think it's amazing when people are united for a good cause and they come together. It didn't escalate into violence, it was just the people proclaiming that they would not stand for this. It's a very interesting time in the world, a quite scary time, but I will always believe that the light is brighter than the dark. I think the majority of human beings are good people, imperfect, sure, but decency and care for your fellow man, and kindness, sincerity, love, they are all so strong. This is not a time to be frightened but a time to try to spread that message of love to everyone you know.

I often fight with that dark side inside myself, and I know it is more important than ever to be strong and share positivity and peace with everyone. It is so sad to put people into boxes, seeing only their religion, their wealth, their nationality, the colour of their skin. Our differences are what makes the world such a great place to be in. You can learn so much from different cultures. I have to laugh at tyrants proclaiming that the terrorists are the enemy while they are instilling and endorsing fear and hate and borders in their own people. It does not wash with me. Be strong everyone. We will overcome this madness.

2. How was your food and exercise?
No exercise today. Got too lazy to do the run and I was enjoying watching Federer receive his trophy. What a match! Fantastic stuff from both. Rooting for Nadal to win Roland Garros now. He will be one to watch for sure.

Food was pretty bad. But that's ok. :)

- scrambled eggs, 2 slices toast and butter
- 4 instant coffees and milk (throughout the day - no sleep for me)
- 1 plain digestive biscuit; 1 oat flapjack
- roast chicken, gravy and mushrooms, stuffing, roast carrots and parsnips with honey glaze, half potato, roast potatoes, kale
- apple crumble with vanilla ice cream and cream
- 2 pints hophouse 13 (an excellent beer), 1 bottle Heineken (went for a few drinks with my dad)

Cigs: 4

Weight: 11 stone 7 3/4 pounds

3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Got rejected from one job today. They said I didn't have the qualifications they were looking for, which is fair enough. They were nice about it though. Fingers crossed for good news from my main job goal this week. Don't know how I will react if I don't get the interview, but as a friend of mine always says, 'What's for you won't pass you.'
 
M2, D29 amendments: Smoked 5 cigs.

M2, D30:

1. How did today go?

Feeling very, very low today. It happens every so often. Back in default mode of drinking wine to make myself feel better, which I haven't done on a weeknight in a while. I was thinking to myself, 'Ok, what's wrong, why are you doing this?' I came up with a few things.
1. Very depressed about what's happening in the US with Trump. Have read way too much about it and got myself into a panic, which is completely silly.
2. I didn't exercise today. Basically, I need to exercise every day to keep my energy levels at normal to high. Especially in the winter months.
3. Every time I look in the mirror, I see a tired face and lines. This is just in the last few days. I'm really worried about the damage smoking is doing to my skin.
4. It's been 2 months, and I am not any nearer to reaching any of my goals. The time has come to step it up a gear and I'm afraid of failing.
5. Getting rejected from that job yesterday. I do not take rejection well.

So, I'm going to have to come up with some ways to combat these black moods.
1. Stop looking at my phone all day and reading about things I have no control over whatsoever.
2. Exercise tomorrow! I'm going to do a yoga class tomorrow with the beautiful yoga man to get my spirits up.
3. Stop smoking. Seriously. I need to stop.
4. Stop eating cake and rubbish. Follow a proper diet plan again. Prepare my meals. Cook my meals. I'm going to focus on this and the smoking for February.
5. Forget about that job and wait and see about the one you really want. Don't lose the faith just yet.

2. How was your food and exercise?
No exercise as I said.
Weight was 11 stone 6 3/4 pounds.

Today's food: Blackberries.
Blackberries support skin elasticity.

- porridge, blackberries, flaxseed, milk; handful of grapes
- white tea
- toasted sandwich of ham, cheese, tomato, relish; pot of tea and milk
- americano and milk; banoffee pie and cream
- pack of crisps; creme egg; coffee and hemp milk
- bottle of red wine

Cigs: 11

3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
Ok. February has only 28 days. I turn 31 in March. I am 2 months into the challenge already. I need to get moving.
 
Thinking about "that man" would get almost anyone depressed. I am going to try to pretend he isn't the president of the US :(
I am setting myself a February challenge. It's time I knuckled down too. We can do this Emily!
 
Hey hun - glad you're coming up with some new goals and ways to achieve them. Where do you go for all this cake and coffee?! Do you just go out to cafes every day? It'll be easier to get into a bit more of a routine when you're working, I bet. Hope the wine doesn't make you more glum :( Wine and bad moods are never a winning combination if you're drinking alone. Chin up, chick x
 
To echo a president I liked a whole lot more, yes we can Cate!

Hey Sunflower, yeah, I hate sitting in the house all day, so I've probably been to every cafe in the city at this point.

M2, D31:

1. How did today go?
Guys. I have had a sudden change in fortune. I'm going to let Katy Perry take it from here.

2. How was your food and exercise?
Did a hatha yoga class with Mr Yoga tonight. He is insanely hot and very good at his job. I nearly fell asleep during the relaxation bit. And considering the news I had today, that was a testament to a fab class.

Food wasn't too good. But hey, it's still January.
Today's food: Black pepper
Black pepper aids in nutrient absorption.

- scrambled eggs, black pepper, cheddar cheese, 2 slices toast and butter; coffee and milk
- glass of orange juice; coffee and milk
- toastie with ham, cheese, relish, onion, coleslaw; pot of tea and milk
- creme egg
- wispa gold; drifter bar
- small portion chicken/veg stir fry with noodles and lots of soy sauce
- cleanse herbal tea

Weight: 11 stone 5 3/4 pounds

Cigs: 8

3. Are you any closer to reaching your goals?
The job contacted me today and.............I got an interview. Tomorrow! I am so unprepared, it's ridiculous. I feel really relaxed about it though, I just have such a good feeling about it. I also got some temp work for Monday set up and life is goooooood. I knew February was going to bring the winds of change. Baby you're a firework!!!
 
Oh, Emily- that's great news! Fingers & toes crossed!
 
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