Emily Rose: The Reboot

Thanks guys.

I'm in a quandary. Having second thoughts about rejecting the job - my mum was really cross with me on the phone last night cos I owe her so much money, and all day I kept thinking of all the things I could do if I accepted it. And not extravagant things, just basic things like pay for the dentist next month without worrying about it or maybe go to a hypnotherapist to help me quit smoking or a dietician to help me lose the last of the weight. Agh! Why is life so tricky at times?

Played tennis tonight and went for a swim, so happy with that. Food wasn't amazing but it was ok.

Confused. And that guy never texted. Why bother saying he would? I really don't understand people. Or myself. Ha.
 
I'm afraid life is tricky most of the time Emily! Well done on playing tennis & going for a swim & eating ok. Lots to think about hon xo
 
Sorry about your mum - could you not take the job until debts repaid and then rethink then? Is it the nature of the work that you're not interested in?
 
Hi Cate - it certainly is! I'm exhausted from mulling it all over.

Hi Sunflower - I could, but I'm not sure it's the best thing to do. My mum was cranky and tired, she's normally super supportive.

I met a former colleague tonight who understands the work I would be doing in the high paid job, he said for him there's loads of red flags and I made the right decision.

There's another job I am going to apply for, good pay that is a 3 month contract and it seems like the best option. I have to do some tests for it, going to tackle them over the weekend and if I do well on them, I should get an interview. My friend thought it sounded like the best option. So that's what I'm going to do now. Whew.

Food went out the window today but did a spin class this morning and took a walk into town this evening. Have yoga planned for tomorrow straight after work, then it's a 4 day weekend.

Work was really stressful today, it's very busy and hard to be the new person, but it always takes a little getting used to everything. I feel like tomorrow will be a lot better.
 
I'm glad you are feeling a bit firmer about your choices Emily. Enjoy your four day weekend hon xo
 
Thanks Cate. I need it!

Having a bit of a tough time in the new workplace. Two of the women there are so passive aggressive and quite cold towards me. I freaked out today cos this obnoxious man came up to the desk and I told him that he'd have to come back tomorrow cos that was what I'd been lead to believe, he started to shout at me, saying he'd travelled all this way, and luckily a man who works there said it was fine, he was meant to be in that day. So then I got really upset and when the customers were gone, I went into the office and told them that they would have to start telling me what was planned for the day in the morning because I am like an idiot at reception when I don't have the correct information and that it's very upsetting when people come in and start shouting at you.

My rant was really a culmination of the frostiness of these two women since I started there and the fact that anything I say is taken up the wrong way when I'm only trying to make conversation. For instance, one girl is unhelpful when I ask her something, then when there is a customer there and I am trying to help them, she comes out of the office, interrupts us asking if she can help, and basically makes me look like an incompetent fool.

I know I can be very sensitive at times, but I pick up on undercurrents quite quickly, and I just get furious when I feel like people aren't even willing to give me a chance.

I went home at lunchtime to cool off and they were nicer in the afternoon but I hate when I get upset and worked up like that.

This place is really testing me.

Went to yoga after work, meeting some friends for some wine later. Lord give me strength.
 
Hi Cate. Yeah, only a few weeks, so it's grand. I want it to be fun though.

In happier news, meeting that guy tonight! Excited but nervous. The proverb on my calendar today was 'Take your work seriously but not yourself'. Trying to just be chilled about it and have fun. He's really cute! Anyway, yeah, update tomorrow on how it goes.

Went for 5k run there to get even more endorphins going. :D
 
Thank you Cate. I had a really lovely evening.

The date with Peter went absolutely brilliant in a lot of ways. He is really really interesting, intelligent, good-looking, etc. He had the whole evening planned out and I just couldn't believe he was out with me. He's also really into the gym and has the most amazing body - I'm talking rock hard abs - but he likes to party as well. He's basically like my dream man in some ways. I felt really unfit and out of shape when we were together - I think the prospect of another date will encourage me to really get my diet under control. I don't want to feel like he's out of my league.

Anyway, got no sleep last night, my own abs will not be developed today anyway but back on the training path tomorrow. I feel really excited and happy about life again. Also, never in a million years would I have thought that this kind of a guy could be for me. And if he doesn't ask me out again, that's ok, it was still a fantastic night.
 
Thanks Cate.

Having a lazy Sunday at home, we had roast beef for dinner with loads of gravy, roast potatoes and veg, it was really nice.

Didn't exercise today, still a bit tired. Planning a run tomorrow and then have a job application to do. Thinking a lot about my date on Friday, trying not to get carried away!

Really want to get back into my routine this week and the smoking will have to stop.
 
Happy Easter hon. We walked around town for a while, sat by the river and talked for over an hour, then went to the cinema and drank coffees laced with whiskey, got in trouble with the security guard twice cos we were talking through the whole film, then we went back to my place where we talked and drank some more and then did a bit less talking. :) Trying to keep my expectations low, the last date I went on didn't go anywhere afterward. This guy actually made some effort and seems to like me a bit more, but I've had so many romantic disappointments that I am prepared for the worst. Still, je ne regrette rien.

Got my job prep done at long last - think I did ok, but you never know. It would be great to get it though. It would give me some breathing space.

In an absolute daze all weekend, happy, sad, excited. Waiting for my friend to get home so I can discuss the weekend with him. I think he's sick of me at this stage. The last few weeks have been really mental. I think I like it that way though.

Bought some healthy stuff for lunch in town before coming home, going to tennis tomorrow night, looking forward to it. Doing a 4 mile race on Thursday night as well, my training for it has been limited enough, but going to do it anyway.

Feel like my goals are all within reach. Might I be successful in the 6 month challenge after all? Just less than a month and a half to go.
 
:iagree: The mental shift, I think, has been a big positive Emily. You are doing well. A lot has changed as far as I can see in the last few months xo
 
Aw, thanks guys. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I'm back working again and not ruminating on my life so much. Also, things seem to be clicking into place a lot more.

The agency got on to me today about another potential job, so I'm saved. That's two I have lined up now, thank God. Money a little bit better than where I am now also.

Had a great day at work, didn't let the girls in the office affect my mood, they're just very negative. Also, a sensational looking man works there, one of the girls told me about him and today was my first interaction with him. She did not lie! It's always nice to have major eye candy around.

My car got a puncture at lunchtime, can't afford to fix it till Friday when I will get my first real pay check in months. Cannot wait. I think I'm going to buy a new dress.

Have no real plans for the evening, can't go to tennis without the car, so might watch Mad Men I think. I should probably go for a walk.
 
Aw, thank you Cate. :)

Not much to report today. I'm finding the job really easy so I come home from work with energy which is something I am not used to. Got praised today for spotting a mistake in the post, thrilled with myself.

Loads of my friends are on holidays this week, kind of bored. I have to put a poster up for my mum in town, maybe I will ask a friend to meet me for coffee.

We're getting a free yoga class next Tuesday at work, seems like exercise is following me around. I can't avoid it anymore, haha. At the same time, didn't do anything today but going to get an early night and go for a leisurely 5k in the morning. The weather has been perfect lately. It's great.
 
Hey lovely - must feel fab to come home from work with energy. Is it desk based? That always helps, although I find looking at a screen all day more tiring than active days sometimes!

Did you find a friend for coffee?
 
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