Emily Rose: The Reboot
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Petal001
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Cate the general feeling is that they are doing restrictions for the sake of doing something but em is right the root of the problem here is not being tackled . I currently live in an area where lockdown is stricter than where Em is . There is no need for that and I don't think that was mentioned that it will be lifted.
However our numbers are increasing again very quickly so I don't really know what the answer is. I follow all the rules the only one I broke was visiting elderly relative.
However our numbers are increasing again very quickly so I don't really know what the answer is. I follow all the rules the only one I broke was visiting elderly relative.
A work day in a wetsuit?! 
Is this a "fun" team-building exercise? - no, surely not - someone could drown. (Drowning while having compulsory office-morale-building jollity - what a terrible way to go!) My vision of your office has been greatly shaken, though - I really didn't see it as a wet-suit environment!
I really hope the drama meet-ups survive the new restrictions. Major sporting events won't have any trouble surviving in the long run, I expect (though I wouldn't bet on the Tokyo Olympics happening), but here small-town groups are having a bit of trouble keeping going.
Is this a "fun" team-building exercise? - no, surely not - someone could drown. (Drowning while having compulsory office-morale-building jollity - what a terrible way to go!) My vision of your office has been greatly shaken, though - I really didn't see it as a wet-suit environment!
I really hope the drama meet-ups survive the new restrictions. Major sporting events won't have any trouble surviving in the long run, I expect (though I wouldn't bet on the Tokyo Olympics happening), but here small-town groups are having a bit of trouble keeping going.
alligatorob
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Sounds good! Glad to see you making progress.
We all need to be in our best possible condition for that trek to Z!
- Yeah, I know Cate, but they took club night away from me!
- Yeah, another type of lockdown like the one you're in now Petal is tough. I don't relish the idea of what's going to happen when schools are back open and the numbers inevitably skyrocket for a while.
- Haha Amy. Yes, it's team-building and not in the ocean, so it's okay. Drowning is extremely unlikely.
- That trek to Z is going into my vision book Rob!
I drank wine last night and today I was extremely tired and felt crappy. It's not even like a real hangover, I just want to eat and eat and eat, feel cranky and drained of energy, and just feel a bit... out of it. Anyway, I got through it okay, as I was busy in work today, which nearly makes it easier.
I had yoga booked for straight after work. The good part was that I was physically way more able for the actual class this week than I was last week. I was holding the more difficult poses like the plank with a lot more ease, and I actually relished stretching out, as all my muscles were quite sore today from the weights class Monday and tennis yesterday. BUT... I felt extremely nauseous during the class. Oh my God, I was so close to vomiting in the toilet afterwards. I think it's because of the wine and cigarettes and exhaustion - yoga really does bring on a physical detox and it was just too much for my stomach to handle. I feel fine again now.
When I was doing the class, I was thinking to myself, 'Why am I letting myself get into such an uncomfortable physical state as I was in today by drinking and smoking too much last night? Why am I continuing on a path that brings me more pain than pleasure at this point? I do not need these vices anymore.' I really thought about this while I was holding the poses, and when I held a hard pose without breaking out of it, I would equate that physical discomfort with the mental discomfort I will encounter when I stop smoking, but when I was out of the pose again, I would think that 'the pain and discomfort is only temporary - the same as with stopping smoking.'
Anyway, who knows if this will actually work but no smoking today at the very least. I have pilates booked in tomorrow, Thursday already, week is flying.
- Yeah, another type of lockdown like the one you're in now Petal is tough. I don't relish the idea of what's going to happen when schools are back open and the numbers inevitably skyrocket for a while.
- Haha Amy. Yes, it's team-building and not in the ocean, so it's okay. Drowning is extremely unlikely.
- That trek to Z is going into my vision book Rob!
I drank wine last night and today I was extremely tired and felt crappy. It's not even like a real hangover, I just want to eat and eat and eat, feel cranky and drained of energy, and just feel a bit... out of it. Anyway, I got through it okay, as I was busy in work today, which nearly makes it easier.
I had yoga booked for straight after work. The good part was that I was physically way more able for the actual class this week than I was last week. I was holding the more difficult poses like the plank with a lot more ease, and I actually relished stretching out, as all my muscles were quite sore today from the weights class Monday and tennis yesterday. BUT... I felt extremely nauseous during the class. Oh my God, I was so close to vomiting in the toilet afterwards. I think it's because of the wine and cigarettes and exhaustion - yoga really does bring on a physical detox and it was just too much for my stomach to handle. I feel fine again now.
When I was doing the class, I was thinking to myself, 'Why am I letting myself get into such an uncomfortable physical state as I was in today by drinking and smoking too much last night? Why am I continuing on a path that brings me more pain than pleasure at this point? I do not need these vices anymore.' I really thought about this while I was holding the poses, and when I held a hard pose without breaking out of it, I would equate that physical discomfort with the mental discomfort I will encounter when I stop smoking, but when I was out of the pose again, I would think that 'the pain and discomfort is only temporary - the same as with stopping smoking.'
Anyway, who knows if this will actually work but no smoking today at the very least. I have pilates booked in tomorrow, Thursday already, week is flying.
alligatorob
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Substitute the word eating for smoking and I have though or said those words many many times. I don't think there is a good answer as to why, at least I never found one. I think you can however stop it, not smoking today was a great start! Can you both not smoke and not drink tomorrow? Sounds like your yoga or pilates would work out better if you do.
I know its a bit hypocritical for me to be giving you this advice, I myself did not take it until I was much older than you. So at least you know I can empathize with you.
Cate
Long term member
Oh, that sucks, Em.
Em, I am surprised by how much better I feel these days not drinking (mostly). I could have done this years and years ago & I probably wouldn't be overweight now. I am much clearer headed. I didn't think the amount of wine I drank would have made much difference, but it obviously did. It isn't easy making healthy choices, but every little one we make does make a difference.
"Team-building" exercises give me the willies. A wetsuit? Really?
Jenniquest
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Wow, that's fantastic! Such a good feeling when you find something that really works for you. Tennis time with your dad sounds nice too - good stuff all around.
Petal001
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Em I think I would resign before I would have to get in a wetsuit in front of my work lol .
Em we all have those feelings and yes rob is right ,he has done it but much older than you and I am doing it now after years of being just like you except my poison was always food . Try a few distractions maybe . When you want a cigarette call or text a friend or go out for walk around block. I still mentally strugglie everyday and often give in but it's a work in progress .
Have you tried hypnotherapy for smoking ?
Em we all have those feelings and yes rob is right ,he has done it but much older than you and I am doing it now after years of being just like you except my poison was always food . Try a few distractions maybe . When you want a cigarette call or text a friend or go out for walk around block. I still mentally strugglie everyday and often give in but it's a work in progress .
Have you tried hypnotherapy for smoking ?
- Thanks Rob. I didn't drink yesterday either, haha! I did buy cigarettes this morning though, boo.
- Oh yeah, even if I have a couple of drinks on a night, I don't feel as fresh the next day Cate. I'm really glad you are feeling so good with the break.
- Yeah, it's really nice to play against my dad Jenni - people think I'm a big nerd with no friends cos I talk about my parents all the time, but I guess with the world the way it is now, I just appreciate them more than ever.
- Haha LaMa, they always take photos of our team day's out, I really don't want to look like a beached whale in them! I have 6 weeks to lose this belly!
Oh God, I bought this pre-made chicken and mushroom pasta bake in the shop earlier, I don't think I cooked it properly, or else I am allergic to whatever kind of mushroom they put in it, but after I finished eating it, I immediately felt exhausted and had to lie down. My heart was beating out of my chest and now I feel nauseous. So annoying. I had a portobello mushroom in a veggie fry years ago now and I was so sick. So maybe that's the culprit here as well.
Weather is shocking, not possible to do much this evening. I'm not well enough anyway.
I am going to start a new thing called 'Today's adventure' as I feel talking about it will invite more excitement into my life. I'm not ready to move to China just yet.
Today's adventure:
I went to the gym this morning and my pilates class didn't go ahead cos no one else had signed up for it, so the instructor asked if I wouldn't mind using the gym instead. I wasn't going to go home again, so I said, 'Sure! No problem!' I went into the gym, did 10 minutes on the treadmill, 10 minutes on the rowing machine, and then... there it was... the Stairmaster. It's a new addition since the last time I was on the gym floor. I'd never used one before. You kind of have to climb up onto it, which was fun, and I said I'd do 10 minutes. 10 minutes was a good workout. I was really going at a slow pace up those same 3 steps over and over again. But I enjoyed it. Something different for my brain and body to try!
Let's see what tomorrow brings! Night all.
- Oh yeah, even if I have a couple of drinks on a night, I don't feel as fresh the next day Cate. I'm really glad you are feeling so good with the break.
- Yeah, it's really nice to play against my dad Jenni - people think I'm a big nerd with no friends cos I talk about my parents all the time, but I guess with the world the way it is now, I just appreciate them more than ever.
- Haha LaMa, they always take photos of our team day's out, I really don't want to look like a beached whale in them! I have 6 weeks to lose this belly!
- Haha, I know. The only thing is that it might push me to actually start trying a bit more!!! I haven't tried hypnotherapy - maybe I will see if I can book it during my break. Anything at this stage.
Oh God, I bought this pre-made chicken and mushroom pasta bake in the shop earlier, I don't think I cooked it properly, or else I am allergic to whatever kind of mushroom they put in it, but after I finished eating it, I immediately felt exhausted and had to lie down. My heart was beating out of my chest and now I feel nauseous. So annoying. I had a portobello mushroom in a veggie fry years ago now and I was so sick. So maybe that's the culprit here as well.
Weather is shocking, not possible to do much this evening. I'm not well enough anyway.
I am going to start a new thing called 'Today's adventure' as I feel talking about it will invite more excitement into my life. I'm not ready to move to China just yet.
Today's adventure:
I went to the gym this morning and my pilates class didn't go ahead cos no one else had signed up for it, so the instructor asked if I wouldn't mind using the gym instead. I wasn't going to go home again, so I said, 'Sure! No problem!' I went into the gym, did 10 minutes on the treadmill, 10 minutes on the rowing machine, and then... there it was... the Stairmaster. It's a new addition since the last time I was on the gym floor. I'd never used one before. You kind of have to climb up onto it, which was fun, and I said I'd do 10 minutes. 10 minutes was a good workout. I was really going at a slow pace up those same 3 steps over and over again. But I enjoyed it. Something different for my brain and body to try!
Let's see what tomorrow brings! Night all.
Cate
Long term member
Oh, I hope that chicken & mushroom pasta bake gets through your system quick smart & you wake up feeling better, Em. I had an allergic reaction(?) to field-picked mushrooms about 25 years ago & only ever eat cultivated mushrooms that we cook ourselves. I had hallucinations!
I love that you are spending more time with your folks.
I also love your "Today's adventure".
I love that you are spending more time with your folks.
I also love your "Today's adventure".
Jenniquest
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Is it like an escalator that only goes up? I call it the stairmill, and IMO, it's the best cardio machine at the gym. It took months for me to work up to 30 mins on it and I would just be dripping sweat every time I got off it. That thing kicks your butt!
- I think you ate a very different type of mushroom to me Cate. I would have preferred that reaction, lol.
- Oh, interesting Jenni. Building up to 30 minutes on the Stairmaster... could I spy a new goal?
- He is a master of cruelty LaMa. Clue is in the name,.
- Very bland eating day Petal. Just gruel and a bit of broth.
Actually, I didn't even have gruel (porridge) for breakfast. Stomach weird 3 days in a row. Last time this happened, I had a horrible pain in it where I was rolling around on the ground and had to go to the doctor. Eek. DO NOT WANT.
I had a strange day in work today where my brain was firing on all cylinders, which I realised when I am drinking wine it does not, and I am just trying to get through the day. But when it is really working, I suddenly become quite annoyed at the status quo and want to change things. Oh my God, I pray for a happy medium.
But anyway, my team was asked to make a fundamental change to the way we write all our copy today, and I wrote what I thought was a really strong (yet a bit scary to send) email to the MD, and he came back and said that we should have a call to discuss it next week. And I felt proud that I had actually voiced my opinion and put up a little bit of protest about this change, instead of just rolling over and saying yes immediately. I don't know how the meeting will actually go, but even if the change is implemented, I've been strong enough to say that I don't think it's a good idea.
I also sometimes think I come across as bragging in work, but I know that internally, I have been so hard on myself for a long time, I am nearly trying to vocalise pride in myself so that I can hear it, as opposed to other people.
Anyway, what else?
Today's adventure:
Sent a potentially incendiary email to senior management which resulted in a meeting, as opposed to the reprimand I was expecting.
There you go! Thought I didn't have any adventures today!
Weather is shite, my partner cancelled tennis on me this evening, so annoying. I was meant to call to a friend's tomorrow to see their new house, then they told me earlier in the week they asked for a COVID test cos they had a head cold (?) so that probably won't happen if they haven't had the results back yet. Some people and their approach to the pandemic really pisses me off, if I'm being honest. You don't have a fucking symptom with a head cold, that's ridiculous. She works from home, she doesn't have it.
ANYWAY. It's FINE. Everyone is annoying, haha.
I would have preferred that reaction, lol. - Oh, interesting Jenni. Building up to 30 minutes on the Stairmaster... could I spy a new goal?
- He is a master of cruelty LaMa. Clue is in the name,
.- Very bland eating day Petal. Just gruel and a bit of broth.
Actually, I didn't even have gruel (porridge) for breakfast. Stomach weird 3 days in a row. Last time this happened, I had a horrible pain in it where I was rolling around on the ground and had to go to the doctor. Eek. DO NOT WANT.
I had a strange day in work today where my brain was firing on all cylinders, which I realised when I am drinking wine it does not, and I am just trying to get through the day. But when it is really working, I suddenly become quite annoyed at the status quo and want to change things. Oh my God, I pray for a happy medium.
But anyway, my team was asked to make a fundamental change to the way we write all our copy today, and I wrote what I thought was a really strong (yet a bit scary to send) email to the MD, and he came back and said that we should have a call to discuss it next week. And I felt proud that I had actually voiced my opinion and put up a little bit of protest about this change, instead of just rolling over and saying yes immediately. I don't know how the meeting will actually go, but even if the change is implemented, I've been strong enough to say that I don't think it's a good idea.
I also sometimes think I come across as bragging in work, but I know that internally, I have been so hard on myself for a long time, I am nearly trying to vocalise pride in myself so that I can hear it, as opposed to other people.
Anyway, what else?
Today's adventure:
Sent a potentially incendiary email to senior management which resulted in a meeting, as opposed to the reprimand I was expecting.
There you go! Thought I didn't have any adventures today!
Weather is shite, my partner cancelled tennis on me this evening, so annoying. I was meant to call to a friend's tomorrow to see their new house, then they told me earlier in the week they asked for a COVID test cos they had a head cold (?) so that probably won't happen if they haven't had the results back yet. Some people and their approach to the pandemic really pisses me off, if I'm being honest. You don't have a fucking symptom with a head cold, that's ridiculous. She works from home, she doesn't have it.
ANYWAY. It's FINE. Everyone is annoying, haha.
Cate
Long term member
I thought I was going to die.I think you ate a very different type of mushroom to me Cate.
Quickly getting out of your diary because.....
- Ah no, there's a few people that are okay, you included Cate.
- Yeah, the plants in our garden are blown completely out of shape Petal. It's a pity really.
Today's adventure:
I decided that enough is enough and I need to be able to go back swimming again. The pool I normally use is still not open, so I forked out a lot of money for a 3-month membership to the college gym and pool. I went there today, filled out my membership form, paid my money and did 40 laps in the pool. Delighted with myself. They also have a late swim option Monday to Friday from 9.50pm until 10.30pm, which is fantastic for me because it means I'll always be able to find time to go.
I've decided to try to go for a swim every day instead of smoking. The evening swims during the week should help with that, as sometimes I get anxious and depressed in the evenings, which makes me want to drink wine and smoke, so this will be something better to do with my time with the same result - relief from my thoughts. I have been successful today - no cigarettes at all, maybe only one craving all day, which is great. Obviously, work on Monday will be more challenging, but I'm going to book the 7am swim that day and I am going to the cinema after work, so hopefully that will get me through it. Anyway, one day at a time - today was good, that's all that matters right now.
I thought it might be fun to borrow some of Rob's numerology stuff that he was doing when he was losing, based on the number of the changing room cubicle I get. Today's number was 6.
The number 6 is the embodiment of the heart. It represents unconditional love and the ability to support, nurture, and heal. It is a powerful force of compassion and empathy and its warm light is a beacon of hope.
That's a nice one. I rang Mum earlier and her heart is acting up again. I gave her a scolding and told her to book in with a consultant as soon as she can. She's been paying for private health insurance for years but she's so hesitant to actually use it. So stupid. I'm going home for dinner tomorrow anyway, so I can spend some time with her before my game of tennis at 6pm.
I played tennis this morning at 9am - I felt incredibly rough as I drank loads of wine last night and smoked a lot - but we had a fantastic game. It was doubles and we had to go to a tiebreaker and everything. We were just beaten at the end, but I really enjoyed it. The 3 women I was playing with are all very nice. I'm playing with a different 3 tomorrow evening, it's great to have met so many pleasant people that are willing to play with me!
Anyway, after the game, I came home and went to bed for a while. I then decided that I was going to join the gym, so I did that, and I actually feel fine now, not too tired really. I am really looking forward to waking up tomorrow super fresh. I bought a small cafetiere last weekend, so I'm going to make some really nice coffee, maybe some avocado and scrambled eggs, and then my swim for tomorrow is booked in for 11.30am.
I really feel life is good today. I heard this on the radio earlier when I was driving around and it really cheered me up. Hope it puts a smile on your face:
- Yeah, the plants in our garden are blown completely out of shape Petal. It's a pity really.
Today's adventure:
I decided that enough is enough and I need to be able to go back swimming again. The pool I normally use is still not open, so I forked out a lot of money for a 3-month membership to the college gym and pool. I went there today, filled out my membership form, paid my money and did 40 laps in the pool. Delighted with myself. They also have a late swim option Monday to Friday from 9.50pm until 10.30pm, which is fantastic for me because it means I'll always be able to find time to go.
I've decided to try to go for a swim every day instead of smoking. The evening swims during the week should help with that, as sometimes I get anxious and depressed in the evenings, which makes me want to drink wine and smoke, so this will be something better to do with my time with the same result - relief from my thoughts. I have been successful today - no cigarettes at all, maybe only one craving all day, which is great. Obviously, work on Monday will be more challenging, but I'm going to book the 7am swim that day and I am going to the cinema after work, so hopefully that will get me through it. Anyway, one day at a time - today was good, that's all that matters right now.
I thought it might be fun to borrow some of Rob's numerology stuff that he was doing when he was losing, based on the number of the changing room cubicle I get. Today's number was 6.
The number 6 is the embodiment of the heart. It represents unconditional love and the ability to support, nurture, and heal. It is a powerful force of compassion and empathy and its warm light is a beacon of hope.
That's a nice one. I rang Mum earlier and her heart is acting up again. I gave her a scolding and told her to book in with a consultant as soon as she can. She's been paying for private health insurance for years but she's so hesitant to actually use it. So stupid. I'm going home for dinner tomorrow anyway, so I can spend some time with her before my game of tennis at 6pm.
I played tennis this morning at 9am - I felt incredibly rough as I drank loads of wine last night and smoked a lot - but we had a fantastic game. It was doubles and we had to go to a tiebreaker and everything. We were just beaten at the end, but I really enjoyed it. The 3 women I was playing with are all very nice. I'm playing with a different 3 tomorrow evening, it's great to have met so many pleasant people that are willing to play with me!
Anyway, after the game, I came home and went to bed for a while. I then decided that I was going to join the gym, so I did that, and I actually feel fine now, not too tired really. I am really looking forward to waking up tomorrow super fresh. I bought a small cafetiere last weekend, so I'm going to make some really nice coffee, maybe some avocado and scrambled eggs, and then my swim for tomorrow is booked in for 11.30am.
I really feel life is good today. I heard this on the radio earlier when I was driving around and it really cheered me up. Hope it puts a smile on your face: