After taking the summer off, I have decided to re-start my weight loss efforts yet again. This summer, I actually managed to loose a bit of weight (on vacation.... which never ever happens for me). I ate terribly but since I had to walk uphill everywhere I actually ended up loosing eight pounds in five weeks. When I got back home, I slowly put four pounds back on and since I've been very inactive and I have been eating so poorly, I am going to gain the weight back. Currently, I weigh about 126 lbs but I am 5"1 and a half. My body shape is very curvy. Since I stopped working out, my body shape has lost practically all it's muscle tone. I hate it. I feel like my top goal is to get more toned rather than loose weight. I would rather loose inches than pounds. That being said, my loose goal right now is to loose (and maintain) at least 21 pounds by May 1st. I am planning a eurotrip for may and it's going to revolve around a lot of beaches so if I want to get really toned and bikini ready by then (or at least by June). This summer, I spent a lot of time feeling bad about my body for not looking like my best friend who is 5"10 and model thin. I never want to think bad about myself again and I know that one of the things I can do to never do that is by working out and getting healthy. Tomorrow I start my workout routine and eating plan. I am really excited!
Elle's Diary
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So today was suppose to be the start of my new lifestyle change and I did this by eating an entire bag of candy (toffee's) and two servings of leftover chicken with pasta. I have zero self control. I didnt work out like I was suppose to instead, I stayed in bed and read a book (after waking up at 12:30 pm) while eating candy and chicken. I do not know what is wrong with me, I have no motivation. I eat awfully most of the time and when I notice that I'm gaining weight I go on a two day exercise and diet binge where I'm convinced I'm going to change my life around and get healthy and thin. After two days of not having candy (which is my kryptonite) I get sooooo evil to everyone around me that I have to have some in order to keep my friend and family from murdering me in my sleep. Ugggggh! I need to learn to say no to myself.
Tomorrow, I'm going to start again. I think I'm going to try the five factors diet thing where you eat five meals a day (for me with 240 calories each) each containing a protein, good carb, fiber, healthy fat, and sugarless drink. Maybe if I pre-plan my meals I'll get better at sticking to a healthier way of eating.
Tomorrow, I'm going to start again. I think I'm going to try the five factors diet thing where you eat five meals a day (for me with 240 calories each) each containing a protein, good carb, fiber, healthy fat, and sugarless drink. Maybe if I pre-plan my meals I'll get better at sticking to a healthier way of eating.
I know what you mean about the vacation- i went to a cabin on the lake with my boyfriends family this summer. I wouldn't say i ate horribly- but i definetly wasn't eating to lose weight. The cabin was right on the lake and there was about five sets of stairs to go up and down every day several times a day. Also we went hiking, swimming, and tubing (for my first time- more of a workout than i'd have thought). When i got back I had lost ten pounds! 
I know that working out like that would help me lose weight faster- the problem is i get bored. I used to play sports in school and stuff to stay in shape and it was fun so i would keep it up. Going the the gym- blah. I'm trying to find more fun ways to exercise i can work into my daily routine.
oops this turned into a rant. Just one more thing- the calories look a bit low. If you don't leave some wiggle room then when you get closer to your goal you'll have no calorie adjustments to make to get there (I just read that sentiment posted by Maleficent in a different thread and i thought it was a very good point)
Good Luck!
I know that working out like that would help me lose weight faster- the problem is i get bored. I used to play sports in school and stuff to stay in shape and it was fun so i would keep it up. Going the the gym- blah. I'm trying to find more fun ways to exercise i can work into my daily routine.
oops this turned into a rant. Just one more thing- the calories look a bit low. If you don't leave some wiggle room then when you get closer to your goal you'll have no calorie adjustments to make to get there (I just read that sentiment posted by Maleficent in a different thread and i thought it was a very good point)
Good Luck!
Hi Slickzchick, thanks for visiting my diary!
I completly agree, going to the gym is so boring. It's hard to force myself to go to the gym five times a week when all I do is run on a treadmill or try and lift weights. I'm trying to sign up for diffrent workout classes for at least four days a week so that I do something diffrent and hopefully fun everytime I go to the gym. So far I'm looking into boxing, a step class, a spin class, a toning aerobic class, and a dance class. Since this won't be cheap hopefully the money alone will motivate me to go. They start in the end of October at my gym though so I have over a month.
I hope I'm not eating too little. The more I think about, the more I realize that realistically I'm not going to count calories for the rest of my life. I want to get into the habbit of picking clean foods which will be lower in calories and healthy so that I can just eat when I'm hungry and also so that I can not hate eating and crave junk.
I completly agree, going to the gym is so boring. It's hard to force myself to go to the gym five times a week when all I do is run on a treadmill or try and lift weights. I'm trying to sign up for diffrent workout classes for at least four days a week so that I do something diffrent and hopefully fun everytime I go to the gym. So far I'm looking into boxing, a step class, a spin class, a toning aerobic class, and a dance class. Since this won't be cheap hopefully the money alone will motivate me to go. They start in the end of October at my gym though so I have over a month.
I hope I'm not eating too little. The more I think about, the more I realize that realistically I'm not going to count calories for the rest of my life. I want to get into the habbit of picking clean foods which will be lower in calories and healthy so that I can just eat when I'm hungry and also so that I can not hate eating and crave junk.
I've gained two pounds!!???! Ugh....WTF? I hate my body. For the last month I did NO physical activity other than lift food into my mouth and I managed to stay under 124lbs. I was eating bags of candy, ice cream, chocolate......etc daily and I didn't gain any weight. The moment I decided to start working out and eating healthy, lowering my daily calorie intake, I gain weight? I hope that it's because I'm under construction this week but I never really gain period weight. Ugh, I guess I'm going to hold off weighing myself for the week so that I don't depress myself if its not necessary. I'm not changing my ticker until next monday.
In better news, My eating has gotten a lot better. I just started a new 9-5 job and it's helped me eat a lot less. I pack a lunch everyday which always contains a type of fruit, a bag of veggies, and half a whole wheat wrap with low fat turkey, spinach, a bit of cheese, and tomatoes. This whole lunch is under 400 calories. My breakfast is usually egg whites, a fruit, and green tea(Under 200 Calories). I have black coffee with three splenda's and whitener (under 90 calories for two big mugs). Dinner varies and I dont really count my calories I just eat until I'm full but I'm assuming it's under 600 calories and I try to make it half veggies/a quarter meat/a quarter carbs on my plate. (This means that I'm eating under 1300 calories a day and I'm never really hungry during the day. I still want to cut about 100 calories from my dinner so that my daily caloric intake is about 1200 calories. The thing that I'm worried about is how a very large percentage of my calories are later during the day. I always hear that you should consume most of your calories during the day so you can burn it off and eat little at night. I guess that can be my goal for next week.
Other good news, I'm doing the 100 push up challenge and I managed to get from 3 push-ups MAX to 10 full body push-ups in two sessions. Today is my last day of week one training and I'm aiming for 15. I will be soooo happy with myself if I can go from barely doing 3 push ups to 15 in a week. I'll post my results tomorrow.
In better news, My eating has gotten a lot better. I just started a new 9-5 job and it's helped me eat a lot less. I pack a lunch everyday which always contains a type of fruit, a bag of veggies, and half a whole wheat wrap with low fat turkey, spinach, a bit of cheese, and tomatoes. This whole lunch is under 400 calories. My breakfast is usually egg whites, a fruit, and green tea(Under 200 Calories). I have black coffee with three splenda's and whitener (under 90 calories for two big mugs). Dinner varies and I dont really count my calories I just eat until I'm full but I'm assuming it's under 600 calories and I try to make it half veggies/a quarter meat/a quarter carbs on my plate. (This means that I'm eating under 1300 calories a day and I'm never really hungry during the day. I still want to cut about 100 calories from my dinner so that my daily caloric intake is about 1200 calories. The thing that I'm worried about is how a very large percentage of my calories are later during the day. I always hear that you should consume most of your calories during the day so you can burn it off and eat little at night. I guess that can be my goal for next week.
Other good news, I'm doing the 100 push up challenge and I managed to get from 3 push-ups MAX to 10 full body push-ups in two sessions. Today is my last day of week one training and I'm aiming for 15. I will be soooo happy with myself if I can go from barely doing 3 push ups to 15 in a week. I'll post my results tomorrow.
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I finally got rid of the two pounds I 'gained' earlier this week and I managed to loose an extra pound on top of that so now I'm officially down to 125lbs. I want to see if I can get down to 124lbs by Monday which I have decided will be my official weigh-in day.
Staying focused is getting harder. At my new job, people bring in cake, cookies, those pretzel mix snack things etc. and its really hard to say no when all I brought to snack on is veggies. Baby carrots and cherry tomatoes don't really taste as good as banana loaf to me. I managed to say no until today. I slipped and I had a piece of black forest cake and a bit of the mix (300 useless calories). Also, since I got home at 10:30pm from work tonight, I ate dinner (which I shouldn't have because it was more out of habit than hunger) at around 11pm. This is too late to be ingesting calories I'm not going to be burning off. According to fitday my total ingested calories today was 1,400 which seems kind of low to me. With all the junk I ate I estimated 700 calories more than that. I also didn't have time to workout, I was too busy this morning and I'm too tired right now. I'm going to have to do it tomorrow I guess.
I just found out my office has a gym, so in the near future I'm going to try and work out there instead of getting a new gym membership. Right now, I just work out at home and I don't think the intensity is as high as it should be so maybe getting back into a gym with lot's of other people who can judge me will motivate me into working out harder. Right now my routine is me going on me eliptical for about half an hour then doing half an hour more of strength training videos.
I also want to start setting small goals for myself in terms of eating and exercising. This week, I want to start eating a vegetable/fruit with every meal. When I look at my food journal, I notice that I am not eating enough fruits and veggies or protein. This week I want to work on the f/v and next week I'll work on the protein. In terms of exercise, I want to work out every time I am watching TV instead of just sitting on my ass. Even if it's just jumping jacks or squats during commercials at first, I figure a little exercise is better than none.
Staying focused is getting harder. At my new job, people bring in cake, cookies, those pretzel mix snack things etc. and its really hard to say no when all I brought to snack on is veggies. Baby carrots and cherry tomatoes don't really taste as good as banana loaf to me. I managed to say no until today. I slipped and I had a piece of black forest cake and a bit of the mix (300 useless calories). Also, since I got home at 10:30pm from work tonight, I ate dinner (which I shouldn't have because it was more out of habit than hunger) at around 11pm. This is too late to be ingesting calories I'm not going to be burning off. According to fitday my total ingested calories today was 1,400 which seems kind of low to me. With all the junk I ate I estimated 700 calories more than that. I also didn't have time to workout, I was too busy this morning and I'm too tired right now. I'm going to have to do it tomorrow I guess.
I just found out my office has a gym, so in the near future I'm going to try and work out there instead of getting a new gym membership. Right now, I just work out at home and I don't think the intensity is as high as it should be so maybe getting back into a gym with lot's of other people who can judge me will motivate me into working out harder. Right now my routine is me going on me eliptical for about half an hour then doing half an hour more of strength training videos.
I also want to start setting small goals for myself in terms of eating and exercising. This week, I want to start eating a vegetable/fruit with every meal. When I look at my food journal, I notice that I am not eating enough fruits and veggies or protein. This week I want to work on the f/v and next week I'll work on the protein. In terms of exercise, I want to work out every time I am watching TV instead of just sitting on my ass. Even if it's just jumping jacks or squats during commercials at first, I figure a little exercise is better than none.
I think this is an awesome idea! realistic goals and small changes are much easier to make and commit to. And you'll probably be surprised by the benefit... i always am! keep up the good work your doing awesome
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I think this is an awesome idea! realistic goals and small changes are much easier to make and commit to. And you'll probably be surprised by the benefit... i always am! keep up the good work your doing awesome
Thanks! I am finding that I'm sticking to the smaller goals better than I do to more general long term goals because it's easier to change one thing at a time than try to overhaul all my bad habits at the same time. This week my goal is to learn more about what actual portions of food I should be eating versus what I actually eat. I don't measure my food out and I know that during meals I am probably eating more than a portion (especially with meat and pasta) when I think that I am eating just a portion. Also, I want to keep working on working out for at leas 45 min 6 times a week.
I have managed to loose another pound. I am officially down to 124lbs. (Woot! I can finally change my ticker). Thats two pounds since I started a week and a half ago. My new goal is to tone up enough by halloween to look good in a costume I'm thinking of wearing to a party. The main part of the costume is this little american apparel shirt dress. From past encounters with american apparel their dresses are NOT forgiving. The dress I want is short and spandex tight and I read the reviews for it and people who listed their heights as 5'2 and weights as around 110lbs (which is my height but skinnier) found the dress to be super hot but not flattering to girls with curves which I have plenty of. I am going to try to get more toned especially in the stomach and thigh area so that the dress looks decent on me. If not then I have to think of something else.
Another goal I am thinking of is to stop partying as regularly as I do (at least stop drinking). Almost every other weekend I go out dancing with friends and I always drink more than I should. My drinks of choice (Vodka-Cran or A rum and cokes) each have about 250 calories each. I probably have 5-8 drinks once every two weeks. This is not only unhealthy, but it's also not helping my weight-loss. I have to start thinking of things I can do with my friends that don't including partying/clubbing/ or even eating out.
Another goal I am thinking of is to stop partying as regularly as I do (at least stop drinking). Almost every other weekend I go out dancing with friends and I always drink more than I should. My drinks of choice (Vodka-Cran or A rum and cokes) each have about 250 calories each. I probably have 5-8 drinks once every two weeks. This is not only unhealthy, but it's also not helping my weight-loss. I have to start thinking of things I can do with my friends that don't including partying/clubbing/ or even eating out.
I really have to agree with the whole going to the bar thing. It is so hard to give up! What I try to do is drink vodka and water- some people think it is gross but i don't mind it. You'll still get the calories from the alcohol but atleast you'll cut some from juice/pop. To make it a gradual change you could also try to alternate: 1st drink vodka water, 2nd drink vodka cran etc.
Don't get me wrong i think trying to find other activities than going to the bar/partying/eating out is a good idea. I am really trying to work on that myself. But if you find yourself there you may wanna give vodka water a try
Don't get me wrong i think trying to find other activities than going to the bar/partying/eating out is a good idea. I am really trying to work on that myself. But if you find yourself there you may wanna give vodka water a try
I really have to agree with the whole going to the bar thing. It is so hard to give up! What I try to do is drink vodka and water- some people think it is gross but i don't mind it. You'll still get the calories from the alcohol but atleast you'll cut some from juice/pop. To make it a gradual change you could also try to alternate: 1st drink vodka water, 2nd drink vodka cran etc.
Don't get me wrong i think trying to find other activities than going to the bar/partying/eating out is a good idea. I am really trying to work on that myself. But if you find yourself there you may wanna give vodka water a try
It's so funny you mentioned vodka waters....that was my summer cocktail. I would put a lot of lemon in it and it was actually really good. Then I tried it with crystal light and it was even better but I got into the habit of having sweet drinks again and ordering a vodka and crystal light in the bar does not really happen so I started with having vodka crans or skinny bitches (rum and diet cokes)....Wow, I'm starting to sound like an alcoholic! (I'm not, I swear!)
yup crystal lite and vodka- thats what i drank last night. and one of those nestea calorie free iced teas with splenda. but i guess it would look a little silly to start whipping out those little packages in the bar
Havent seen u for awhile Elle... Hope everything is still going good 
Havent seen u for awhile Elle... Hope everything is still going good
I've fallen slightly off the wagon. I have been slacking off MAJOR and it's showing in my weight! I've stopped exercising and I've re-developed a latte habit (each 500 calories). The good news is that I am going to going to try and be good again. I've signed up for a boot camp class and a spin class that will start in November. I've also dusted off my elliptical so now I can at least work out while I watch TV again. I'm going to top my cookie addiction cold turkey starting tomorrow and I'm going to re-start clean eating again.
So, since I fell off the wagon I basically just completely stopped trying to loose weight. I gained back all my weight and I am now back up to 126! I haven't been watching what I eat...I have actually developed a cookie habit. I also stopped exercising. I decided to re-start after talking to some of the girls at work. One of them started a new weightloss program three weeks ago and has lost 15lbs so far. This made me realize that if I had stuck to my own plan I probably would be at least 8lbs less than what I am now. I have cleaned up my act a bit. I am going to re-start having breakfast, I'm going to eat a fruit or veggie each meal. I'm going to drink more water. I'm going to STOP buying snack foods such as cookies, latte's, and candy. I have signed up for two fitness classes so I'm going to be working out hard at least twice a week. I have also started doing yoga everyday. Next week I'm going to add more intense work outs. I'm also gong to write in this journal everyday because it actually helps me stay focused.
November for me means a new beginning and new goals. Yesterday was the first day of my bootcamp class. It was so tough. I am much more out of shape than I anticipated, but the class seems like it's going to be a good kick in the arse which is what I'm looking for. I have also been doing power yoga everyday for the last week, thought today was my day off. I'm sooooo sore from yesterday's bootcamp that the thought of doing 50 min of yoga is not something I'm looking forwards to. Tomorrow I'm going to start my new eating regime which will basically consist of fresh foods during each meal with an elimination of processed junk like candy, cookies, cakes etc that I had been snacking on. I'm going to start drinking more water as well and I will increase my intake of protein and dark leafy vegetables. Right now, I feel like I'm in a veggie rut. All I eat are carrots, tomatoes, and cucumbers. I need to re-introduce spinach, peppers, etc. into my diet. I've also decided that saturday mornings after my spin class will be by official weigh in days. Since I am one of those obsessive people that weigh myself three times a day, I'm going to make my Saturday morning weigh-ins the official ones. This month, my goal is to loose 8 lbs. Usually it's relatively easy for me to get to about 123/122 lbs, but once I'm there getting under is that number is hard. I don't know if i will be able to get to 8lbs so 5lbs will be my min weight loss goal. Right now I weigh about 126lbs.
It's awesome that you have a plan to get back on track. Weight loss is hard- were bound to fall off the wagon sometimes. The important thing is if you go back to eating healthy. It's the whole lifestyle change: if after you have a bad day/week/maybe even longer of eating unhealthy, you go back to your lifestyle of eating healthy. If you go back to your lifestyle of eating unhealthy, you won't lose the weight. No matter what happens, just plan on eating healthy for the rest of your life- if you ate a perfect balanced diet yesterday or had pizza and chocolate all day. Then u will succeed!
Sorry about the rant. I just have a lot off experience falling off the band wagon and then giving up on my healthy eating lifestyle. Hopefully soon I will have alot experience falling off the bandwagon and then getting right back on track.
Glad to see you back!
xox Slickzchik
Sorry about the rant. I just have a lot off experience falling off the band wagon and then giving up on my healthy eating lifestyle. Hopefully soon I will have alot experience falling off the bandwagon and then getting right back on track.
Glad to see you back!
xox Slickzchik
Hi Katie,
Thanks for that. I totally agree. In the past I have gone through months of eating healthy and exercising then I cheat and after that I just give up. I really want it to work this time so I need to keep thinking that even one day or one week of being bad does not mean that months of eating clean and exercising are not for nothing.
Not much has been happening in terms of weight loss. I think I've lost a pound so far and with my first weigh in coming up soon I hope to loose one more pound and maintain it. I have not re-started my push ups yet but I will do it today or tomorrow.
This week diet wise has been kind of tough. The company I work for did really well this quarter and to celebrate they have been catering lunches. I will walk into the lunch room and the tables will be covered in pasta, cheeses, breads, pastries, etc. It's really hard to be eating a bag of carrots when everyone around is eating gigantic triple chocolate muffins and moaning in pleasure like they have never had food before in their lives. I have to admit I haven't been able to completely say no to the foods and it's effecting how much I'm loosing. Also, I haven't been exercising as much as I was last week. Today I'm not going to do yoga, instead I am going to do an aerobics vidoe. It should be a good half an hour work out the I'll do my push ups. The show Work Out is on maybe I'll get more motivated after I watch it.
Speaking of motivation, I ran into my ex today. He was with some chick who was not only a good 10 inches taller than me but must have weighed 15 lbs less than me with the boob job of a stripper. It was like being in a bad movie where the douche bag ex runs into the old girlfriend while he is with a shiny new girl. I wanted to punch both of them out. I HAVE to start looking good so I guess thats going to be more motivation for me to work out.
This week diet wise has been kind of tough. The company I work for did really well this quarter and to celebrate they have been catering lunches. I will walk into the lunch room and the tables will be covered in pasta, cheeses, breads, pastries, etc. It's really hard to be eating a bag of carrots when everyone around is eating gigantic triple chocolate muffins and moaning in pleasure like they have never had food before in their lives. I have to admit I haven't been able to completely say no to the foods and it's effecting how much I'm loosing. Also, I haven't been exercising as much as I was last week. Today I'm not going to do yoga, instead I am going to do an aerobics vidoe. It should be a good half an hour work out the I'll do my push ups. The show Work Out is on maybe I'll get more motivated after I watch it.
Speaking of motivation, I ran into my ex today. He was with some chick who was not only a good 10 inches taller than me but must have weighed 15 lbs less than me with the boob job of a stripper. It was like being in a bad movie where the douche bag ex runs into the old girlfriend while he is with a shiny new girl. I wanted to punch both of them out. I HAVE to start looking good so I guess thats going to be more motivation for me to work out.