Eli's diary

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Elisianna

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I decided to copy everybody else and make a diary. =P This way, if I need to vent, I know that SOMEBODY else out there knows about it XD Hehehehe.

So I've been working out and dieting and everything for probably about a month now (well, I've been off and on diets for the last three years. XD). I was my heaviest ever last november, and I went on the GI diet and lost about 10 lbs in around 18 days. Then I went to Mexico, and it was really hard to find the kind of food that I need so I kinda cheated through the whole three week vacation. Suprisingly, everyday of cheese filled enchiladas and tacos with beef did not make me gain all my weight back. I gained it all back in the months following when I got home. I was off my diet and working at the mall... with a food court... with lots of yummy fast food!

So I decided it was time to take the weight off for good. I'm trying to be very patient with myself and not try to lose too fast. So I'm TRYING to do everything right...

However.. in the last month I really haven't lost much. I mean, I started at 130-ish and this morning I was about 127 ish. Though last night I was 130... and the day before that I was 126. Now I remember why I would throw the scale away and never use it... but curiousity is always there. What is more important is I can see and feel the difference.

I was doing my hair for church yesterday and was shocked to see what shapely arms I had! I was putting my hair up in front of the mirror and saw my biceps bulging out a little and my shoulders looked wonderful, all these fabulous lines where they should be on my arms. XD I've also got some nice hard quads. There is still fat on my legs, because I seem to be losing it there last, but I can feel all of that muscle popping up all over the place underneath. It makes the fronts of my legs look so much nicer in a slinky dress. XD

Ok. So this time of year in my city is something called the "Stampede" we all dress up like cowboys and go. It's like an amusement park but with a TON of other stuff to see. You could go there for the whole day (it's open until midnight) and probably not have to go on the rides to see a lot. Everyone knows that at amusement parks or anything like that, healthy food is always hard to find. And since we didn't have food in the house I couldn't pack a lunch!

When we got there the family went to buy mini donuts. DEEP FRIED DOUGH COVERED IN SUGAR! XD It's a family tradition, and they are so good I had to have ONE. (I know, I'm bad XD) they are very small though... so I hope it didn't set me back too much. Later I was tempted by cotton candy. I shared it with everybody else though, so I don't feel like I did too badly on that. We stumbled upon a food place that looked healthier than the rest, it was one of those places that serves gyro wraps, and you could have either chicken, lamb or beef. I was so relieved. The food wasn't deep fried like everything else in that place. I ripped away most of the pita the food was wrapped in cause it isn't the best. XD I'm happy I decided to eat something a little healthier than the pizza and corndogs (there are like 5 corn dog stands in a ROW XD). It wasn't that big either, which makes it even better for me XD

So! What I ate so far...

Breakfast - Shredded wheat with skim milk + some chicken.

Snack - Piece of bread and LOTS of vegetables.

Lunch - Wrap. Cotton Candy... (>.> yikes)

Snack - Lots of chicken and a lot of cucumber.

Dinner - (after work out) Protein shake and a salad.

Snack - Chicken breast

Wow. I eat a lot of chicken.... u.u

I did an upper body work out today.

Bench press-

Sets- 3 .. Reps- 12/10/8/6 .. Weight- 70/70/75/80!

Getting up there! XD Hahahaha. I was doing 100 lbs with my dads help the other day. It was so hard I thought I was gonna die. I definitely couldn't do it ALL by myself, but he sure left a lot of the weight on me still. u.u;;; I know it doesn't sound like very much to lift, but I've always had a really really WEAK upper body, and it's finally getting a teeny bit stronger.

I listed reps/weight/sets for everything else in a workout log I bought. I don't really want to record it all here!!

I'm about to go to do 45 mins of cardio =). (Then actually eat my last snack which is that chicken breast I recorded... XD)
 
Welcome to the forum and remember we are here for you if you need us.

When we got there the family went to buy mini donuts. DEEP FRIED DOUGH COVERED IN SUGAR! XD It's a family tradition, and they are so good I had to have ONE. (I know, I'm bad XD) they are very small though... so I hope it didn't set me back too much.
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Don't think one will hurt you. As long as you had just one. Call it a cheat snack.

Later I was tempted by cotton candy. I shared it with everybody else though, so I don't feel like I did too badly on that.
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Since you shared it, you shouldn't feel bad. I saw an episode of The Biggest Loser where one of the trainers took her team to a certain place since they won and the 5 or 6 of the shared a cinammon roll. She said that was good instead of 1 eating the whole thing.

You could have ate the pita, that wouldn't have hurt, but since you didn't like it, then don't worry about it.
 
Praciticing piano for 4 hours a day really REALLY makes it hard to find time to work out, especially since I'm already working too for 8 hours a day XD. I always manage too, but that results in pretty much no free time at all. XD Oh well, life is more interesting when it's busy. =P As a result, I don't really eat food to ENJOY it anymore, but more just to sustain myself. I mean sure i still like most of the things I eat... but I think most people like to eat food that they think is better. xD I eat a lot of cottage cheese, plain oatmeal, and sometimes shredded wheat and some weird all bran cereal (that probably tastes like rodent food! xD)

I don't like veggies. But I eat a lot of them. And I force tons of water down my throat everyday. I have trouble eating enough fat, so I get nuts and stuff and eat a few every day. XD I also don't really like plain old chicken breast. I always liked the deep fried breaded stuff XD.

Weird thing is I'm starting to like all of this stuff more and more... I look forward to eating my plain oatmeal and totally unsweet cereals. XD And when I'm eating chicken breast I think "This is so good! Think about all the protein I'm consuming!!"

Anyway today I had,

breakfast - shredded wheat with skim milk. (that's it though, I totally forgot about protein!!!)

snack - More shredded wheat, a lot of cottage cheese and some cherries. (I'm trying to get rid of the box of shredded wheat...)

lunch - Salad, half cup of basmati rice cooked, cottage cheese. (is it obvious we are out of meat?)

snack - protein shake, lots of cucumber and red pepper.

dinner - salad with lots of chicken

snack - chicken breast, more veggies.

Today was lower body work out~ I love doing lower body cause I like it when my legs are so sore I hobble around instead of walk around properly. Hahahaha. XD

Lately I haven't really been sore the next day or the day after, except oddly enough in small places that I don't move around much, but when I DO I can feel it. XD I'm thinking of changing my routine up a little bit...
 
Hey Eli, I'll be visiting your diary :p good luck on your program. I think the more you eat the foods you're supposed to the more you like them! It'll get easier, especially with the chicken. I allow myself to eat skin on our Thanksgiving turkey (only)!! That used to be my favorite part of the chicken too, especially when it was fried LOL. (that's kind of off topic lol)
 
Elisianna said:
... I look forward to eating my plain oatmeal and totally unsweet cereals. XD And when I'm eating chicken breast I think "This is so good! Think about all the protein I'm consuming!!"
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You know what I like doing lately? I like putting plain oatmeal on yogurt or even cottage cheese, Ok, I only did that once--I know it sounds gross but I need some different combinations of foods LOL.
 
Just remember it takes about 2 weeks or so to get used to new food.

Weird thing is I'm starting to like all of this stuff more and more... I look forward to eating my plain oatmeal and totally unsweet cereals. XD And when I'm eating chicken breast I think "This is so good! Think about all the protein I'm consuming!!"
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Just keep saying that and you'll love all the foods.
 
Welcome - I enjoyed reading your entries today and you sound like you are getting off to a good start....I am impressed you only had one of those little donuts - fried batter with powdered sugar must be hard to resist - I wouldn't want to be faced with that tempatation (hehe)!! I'd say only one is a victory!

Keep up the good work...I'm finding the same thing with starting to enjoy some of the newer foods more...this will hopefully make it easier at we stick with it;)

theresa
 
Yup, there'll come a time (unbeknownst to you of course) when you find yourself suddenly craving that unsweetened (bland) oatmeal. I was quite surprised when it happened to me, and I like oatmeal. lol

Eli, I take piano lessons myself - it's hard enough for me to get half an hour in let alone 4. Good on ya for your determination.
 
Yikes! My entries are too lengthly perhaps! I've always been like that though, I have too much to say XD. Thanks everyone for the comments =).
Stingo - That's cool that you take piano lessons too! I have to practice my butt off because I've only been playing for almost three years, but I'm already teaching xD. After one year my teacher moved me ahead 8 grade levels as long as I promised to practice 2 hours a day. I loved it, so I said yes. Recently he asked me to double my practicing. Piano is such a big part of my life, that it isn't hard at all to use that much time in from of the piano. =)

I have been craving cookies like MAD lately. I work around the yummiest cookies ever. I haven't touched them in about two or three months, but whenever they are done baking I sit and stare at them and smell them XD. Today I had the honour of putting them away! It was almost toture, if I didn't have so much willpower. XD

Anyway, we went to Co-op and passed the health food section. I was done running around collecting vegetables for my mom to buy (I got her to buy radishes (my FAVOURITES) and yams, among other things). I went to look at the healthy food while she took off to do some more shopping. I stumbled upon these cookies that are whole wheat, NO sugar except for the SMALL amount in the apples. There is a little bit of fat (almost 2 grams for a cookie, but they are a decent size.) The fat I guess is from the soya oil... They are also reduced carbs, which was really a deal breaker since I've been trying to watch carbs these days XD (I'm a bit of a carboholic). I can't eat any tonight, because I don't have carbs after 4 pm, but I took a little bite. They kinda taste like burnt apple cinnamon cookies, but hey, I'm pretty sure I can settle for them XD. Oh, did I mention there are 5 grams of fiber per cookie? That made it even nicer! 11 grams of carbs in all, 5 fiber! Lovely! Heehee XD. I'm such a freak.... =P

This girl I work with was complaining today about how she has gained a bunch of weight in the last week. She told me this after eating two cookies at 12 grams of fat each. When she was going on her break she told me "I'm not going to eat anything, I've gained too much weight, plus I'm not that hungry..." So she didn't take a free sandwich on her break (that's what we get to eat.) She failed at not eating though, and went to buy a massive cinnamon bun. I've already told her about eating every few hours and having about 6 meals a day. She told me she wants to try it, but says it's kinda hard.
She isn't the only misguided girl I work with. The other one is on a high fat very very low carb diet. Thing is, she LOVES carbs, so every second day she is telling me how she cheated (she ate 6 WHOLE BAGS of mini donuts. Those deep fried pieces of dough covered in sugar. And five corn dogs.) Then for lunch she eats a salad with tons and tons and tons of super high fat dressing. I try to tell her she needs everything in moderation. She switches her diet plan often, and sometimes wants to do what I do, but when I try to explain it to her, she gets freaked out and says it's too confusing. XD

I was SO tired for my workout today, and I'm pretty sure it suffered.. but at least I did it. *pats self on back*
 
Congrats on finding the cookies. They sound delicious. At least you are trying to help other people. You can't help everybody, but if they take one thing you say and stick to it, you should feel proud. If they are serious, they will come around. Congrats on the workout. *Pat on the back* for a job well done.
 
Yesterday I ate too many carbs XD Hahaha. I ate less protein and fat than I normally do though, so I'm not THAT mad at myself.

I really had to push myself yesterday to work out. I've been SO exhausted lately. Weights were ok, but as soon as I'd gone 15 minutes on the elliptical I was so tired. So I put down the resistance and kept going for another 15 minutes XD. I don't think I would have forgiven myself if I'd stopped.

Today I didn't work out at all. I think work is tiring me out more than I really thought it was. I thought I just wasn't getting enough sleep but I get about 6-7 hours a night, which really isn't that bad. Work doesn't feel like it's draining, but I guess it is. It's not like I even get a chance to sit down or anything XD. I've decided that I should probably cut down to 5 days a week of working out, at least for the time being, until I can get some energy back. I've been working hard 6 days a week, but I guess 5 days is still pretty good.

For some strange reason though, Thursday is ALWAYS my worst day, both at work and at home. I'm in a terrible mood in the morning, and if I ever skip a workout, it's ALWAYS on a thursday. Maybe thursdays hate me or something. =P. I'm not really mad at myself for not working out today though, I'm just going to have to arrange my time better, or find SOMETHING to give me more energy. I sure need it!

Today I ate some cheese for the first time in MONTHS. I cut myself a nice thin piece of cheese and had some chicken. I had about two little bites of this cheese and I really didn't want to eat ANYTHING. I forced down a bit of the chicken and then just left it on the table. xD Turns out I can't eat things like that anymore! Pshhh XD. I find the same thing with sauces. I always liked pretty fatty sauces, but now I eat everything with little or no sauce, just cause it grosses me out, even if it's low fat. XD And anything too rich I can't stand anymore! I still manage to have some sweets though, I always hated sweets as a child (no wonder I was stick thin!) but now I've got a crazy sweet tooth. I don't really want to deprive myself cause I don't want to end up bingeing. My mom bought some coffee cake, and I had to have a bite. (she had like 5 pieces so I thought it must be good. xD) That little bit was all I needed though, and I was satisfied. There was one last piece sitting there on the counter for awhile, and I liked to just walk past a look at it, but I didn't even think of eating it. Yay! XD
 
I imagine like anything else, the longer you stick with it...the more you will find a pattern that works (even on Thursdays) hehe. It's okay to take a day of rest...it's probably actually good for you:) You WILL figure out a way to either use that day for rest and not feel guilty about it, or to work something in somehow:) HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF GIRL!!! Good job today:)

Theresa
 
I've been doing well the last couple of days. My whole family is out, so I get the house to myself and my diet has been pretty much perfect.

I had an excellent workout yesterday~

I'm a little angry though. I looked at the pictures from a month ago (I posted them here) and it doesn't look like I've made ANY improvement since then. What am I doing wrong? I've been working hard for about a month and a half now, and it doesn't seem like I've had that much improvement. (save more defined arms, a smaller butt, and I can feel the muscle UNDER the fat.) Back in november I went on the GI diet with my mom. I took before and after pictures. One on nov 10 one on nov 28. I gasped when I saw the difference. Of course my stubborn legs were still sticking around... but I had such a thin upper body! My waist was probably getting close to 23" at that time. But now, after a month of working my butt off, I've made close to no improvement at all. In november I did no weight training, I just worked on the elliptical trainer, 45 mins to an hour and a half a day. Now that I do weight training everyday day and THEN cardio, I only have the energy to do 30 mins to 45 mins. This all has me very depressed. But I remember a lady at my church saying "Most people can't go past six weeks of a diet and excersize routine... and most people just give up after two weeks." This is pretty true I think. And I've reached about the six week mark. I'm of course just going to keep on working... but I can't help but feel a bit depressed...
 
No improvements at all or not seeing the improvements where you want to see them? I really don't know how long it would take to see improvements, but I'm like you, I would think you would see some by now. Maybe because you did the gi diet and gained some back that's why you're not seeing the same results?
 
Elisianna said:
(save more defined arms, a smaller butt, and I can feel the muscle UNDER the fat.)
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That's not improvement? It may be that when you were on that other diet that you were losing lean muscle mass along with the fat since you weren't doing strength training at the time.

Also, I'd suggest focusing on ability rather than weight loss as a truer measure of improvement. Can you lift heavier now than you did before? And if not, is the weight you were lifting easier to handle?
 
She47441 said:
No improvements at all or not seeing the improvements where you want to see them? I really don't know how long it would take to see improvements, but I'm like you, I would think you would see some by now. Maybe because you did the gi diet and gained some back that's why you're not seeing the same results?
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I gained it ALL back and some more. That was back before going to Mexico. And I don't know if it was just where I was, it was very hard to find things that were made with whole grains and vegetables. I ate lots of cheese and other fatty things, but didn't gain all the weight back until I got back in January. It took me about 2 months and I had all the weight back.

stingo said:
That's not improvement? It may be that when you were on that other diet that you were losing lean muscle mass along with the fat since you weren't doing strength training at the time.

Also, I'd suggest focusing on ability rather than weight loss as a truer measure of improvement. Can you lift heavier now than you did before? And if not, is the weight you were lifting easier to handle?
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I guess I probably was losing lean muscle mass...

I guess I never thought of ability rather than weight loss... when I think about it, I CAN lift a lot more. When I first started I couldn't really bench more than 50 lbs. Now I can fairly easily do 80 or more. I know that's not very much... XD As a kid I was always the strongest girl in my class (and always the smallest) but when I got older I kinda got weaker (weaker in comparison to others, that is XD... at least I think so.)

Thanks for the comments guys =)
 
After experimentation I've decided that a lot of carbs generally are a very bad thing for me after about 4:00. Before then it's fine, I'm never that hungry all day until around 4 or 5. So I eat at scheduled times, just what I'm supposed to eat. Evening rolls around and if I eat carbs, I have a hard time stopping myself. I mean, it's not like I'm consuming BAD carbs, but just too much. No matter how much self discipline I have, if I eat carbs later on in the day I have the serious munchies and I want to eat constantly. I end up eating carrots, yogurt, or bread. It's not like it's terrible, but I don't really like really wanting to eat something XD It's a pain! I'd rather just wait around until my scheduled time and then eat what I'm supposed to.

I had a huge cheat day on Monday. I haven't eaten like that in MONTHS. XD I can't believe some people eat like that every single DAY. (I probably didn't pig out as much as I felt like I did). It did something very wonderful for me. Which I hoped it would. I don't want any desserts or chocolates or anything with any kind of grease on it. (I had pizza! XD). I thought about frozen yogurt today, made with fruit, no fat no sugar and just shuddered because it reminded me too much of the junk food. When I was a kid I HATED cakes and ice cream and stuff, only now do I like that kind of stuff, but after Monday, it'll be a while before I want to eat again. =P

I'm going to change up my work out routine a lot. I've got to figure out exactly what to do. I just wanna be scorching hot by october when I go on vacation~ Kyahahahaha.
 
I have a feeling you'll make your goal. Just keep changing it up until you feel like you found what works for you. Just remember everybody is different and what works for one might not work for another.
 
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