donia1
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Well, here I am...starting my weight loss diary with what I hope will be the last time I ever try to lose weight because I NEED to succeed this time. I've been a big girl all of my life and it's time to stop. I'm 35 and although I'm freakishly healthy for someone of my weight, I know that may not last forever. I'm going to start with some basic stuff and then get more in to my past and what led up to me weighing 331 pounds.
-- How much weight do you want to lose?~~166 pounds
-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight?~~I don't have a timeframe. It seems like so much to lose that I haven't even figured that out. Should I?
-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?~~I've been counting calories and I want to start exercising regularly. It's quite a challenge.
-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?~~I would love support from anyone, really. It would be nice to have support from people who are or have been where I am...with over 100 lbs to lose. I'll take love from anyone, though!
-- How realistic is your goal?~~I think it's very realistic.
-- When will you start?~~I started in February, 2007. I lost 20lbs, but have been having a hard time with my food and exercise and I'm back up by about 5lbs which is breaking my heart.
Ok...I'll start from the logical place...the beginning. I don't remember a time when I wasn't fat. I am a Texas girl raised on Southern food. We're talking fried chicken, chicken fried steak, mashed potatoes and gravy, pork chops...you get the picture. The homemade biscuits had so much butter on them that they dripped and the veggies were mostly over cooked and swimming in butter as well. I started maturing VERY early...in a bra by 9 years old and I started my period just before my 11th birthday. I was also as tall then as I am now...5'3". I remember being 10 years old and weighing 120 pounds. Of course, I thought I was hugely fat, and so did everyone else, but looking back, I was really just fine if you take into account that I was in a B cup and had my period. I was becoming a woman, but because who the hell becomes a woman at 10 years old, it wasn't looked upon like that. By the time I was 12, I was in a D cup bra and weighed about 160. I just kept eating the way I always had, but because of being so much bigger (heavier) than everyone else, I hated to exercise. (I still do, actually) By the time I was 14, I weighed almost 200 lbs and I went to fat camp for 2 months. I lost almost 40 lbs that Summer, but who could keep that off when they went home? I went from eating controlled meals and exercising 4 or 5 hours a day right back to the chicken fried steaks and MTV. By the time I graduated from high school, I weighed 200 lbs again. I got married 6 months after graduation to my high school sweetheart. Two weeks before our first anniversary, I found out I was pregnant...with twins. I was almost 20 and scared to death. I had the boys and actually lost all my baby weight so I was down to about 220 a few weeks after they were born. I had another set of twins 2 years later. I gained quite a bit of weight and this time it didn't come off. I was up to about 250 this time. My marriage went way down hill and I went through a period of depression. For quite a few years, I didn't really care about how fat I was...it was a time of survival and not much else. (Not because he was violent, but because I didn't really want to live) We finally separated, but we still lived together as room mates for 3 years which was soooo stressful and I really didn't have the room to watch my weight at that time in my life. I met my current husband and got a divorce to marry again 29 days later. My husband is average weight and has been very supportive while not pressuring me to lose the weight. I started by losing about 20 lbs when I first moved in with him. We were living with his aunt (he's a Canadian immigrant and had to wait for permission to work in this country) and she lives in the country with an in-ground pool. I was swimming and walking, and lost that weight without really trying. We finally got our own place and I started cooking again. I love to cook and fancy myself as a minor foodie so it's been hard. I gained most of my weight back. I finally decided after seeing what my ex-husband has been going through with weight-related illness that I don't want to end up like him. The boys live with him, but I'm wondering if they'll be able to stay because of how severe his health problems are. He's not doing much to help himself, and if nothing else, I want to live for my kids. I want them to see that one of us is willing to do what it takes so that they won't be left with neither of us. The boys are 13 and 15 now and 3 out of the 4 of them have weight issues, too. I would love to help them change now instead of waiting until they're 35 like I did.
If you read all of that, thank you! Here's a link to my diet and exercise diary. Feel free to look it over and make suggestions. I don't mind constructive criticism at all...I'm pretty thick skinned.
Donia's Food, Diet, and Fitness Diary - TheDailyPlate.com
ETA~~Link for my 331 pound before shot http://weight-loss.fitness.com/before-after-between/12107-my-first-post.html
-- How much weight do you want to lose?~~166 pounds
-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight?~~I don't have a timeframe. It seems like so much to lose that I haven't even figured that out. Should I?
-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?~~I've been counting calories and I want to start exercising regularly. It's quite a challenge.
-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?~~I would love support from anyone, really. It would be nice to have support from people who are or have been where I am...with over 100 lbs to lose. I'll take love from anyone, though!
-- How realistic is your goal?~~I think it's very realistic.
-- When will you start?~~I started in February, 2007. I lost 20lbs, but have been having a hard time with my food and exercise and I'm back up by about 5lbs which is breaking my heart.
Ok...I'll start from the logical place...the beginning. I don't remember a time when I wasn't fat. I am a Texas girl raised on Southern food. We're talking fried chicken, chicken fried steak, mashed potatoes and gravy, pork chops...you get the picture. The homemade biscuits had so much butter on them that they dripped and the veggies were mostly over cooked and swimming in butter as well. I started maturing VERY early...in a bra by 9 years old and I started my period just before my 11th birthday. I was also as tall then as I am now...5'3". I remember being 10 years old and weighing 120 pounds. Of course, I thought I was hugely fat, and so did everyone else, but looking back, I was really just fine if you take into account that I was in a B cup and had my period. I was becoming a woman, but because who the hell becomes a woman at 10 years old, it wasn't looked upon like that. By the time I was 12, I was in a D cup bra and weighed about 160. I just kept eating the way I always had, but because of being so much bigger (heavier) than everyone else, I hated to exercise. (I still do, actually) By the time I was 14, I weighed almost 200 lbs and I went to fat camp for 2 months. I lost almost 40 lbs that Summer, but who could keep that off when they went home? I went from eating controlled meals and exercising 4 or 5 hours a day right back to the chicken fried steaks and MTV. By the time I graduated from high school, I weighed 200 lbs again. I got married 6 months after graduation to my high school sweetheart. Two weeks before our first anniversary, I found out I was pregnant...with twins. I was almost 20 and scared to death. I had the boys and actually lost all my baby weight so I was down to about 220 a few weeks after they were born. I had another set of twins 2 years later. I gained quite a bit of weight and this time it didn't come off. I was up to about 250 this time. My marriage went way down hill and I went through a period of depression. For quite a few years, I didn't really care about how fat I was...it was a time of survival and not much else. (Not because he was violent, but because I didn't really want to live) We finally separated, but we still lived together as room mates for 3 years which was soooo stressful and I really didn't have the room to watch my weight at that time in my life. I met my current husband and got a divorce to marry again 29 days later. My husband is average weight and has been very supportive while not pressuring me to lose the weight. I started by losing about 20 lbs when I first moved in with him. We were living with his aunt (he's a Canadian immigrant and had to wait for permission to work in this country) and she lives in the country with an in-ground pool. I was swimming and walking, and lost that weight without really trying. We finally got our own place and I started cooking again. I love to cook and fancy myself as a minor foodie so it's been hard. I gained most of my weight back. I finally decided after seeing what my ex-husband has been going through with weight-related illness that I don't want to end up like him. The boys live with him, but I'm wondering if they'll be able to stay because of how severe his health problems are. He's not doing much to help himself, and if nothing else, I want to live for my kids. I want them to see that one of us is willing to do what it takes so that they won't be left with neither of us. The boys are 13 and 15 now and 3 out of the 4 of them have weight issues, too. I would love to help them change now instead of waiting until they're 35 like I did.
If you read all of that, thank you! Here's a link to my diet and exercise diary. Feel free to look it over and make suggestions. I don't mind constructive criticism at all...I'm pretty thick skinned.
Donia's Food, Diet, and Fitness Diary - TheDailyPlate.com
ETA~~Link for my 331 pound before shot http://weight-loss.fitness.com/before-after-between/12107-my-first-post.html
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