diary of the tubby Teenager

Beware depressed rant

Well its 1:20 am now & what an eventful day it was my "leaving party" it was actually quite good and I only cried 5 times I also babysat for a lady mum knows playing cars for 3hours straight and reading Thomas the tank 14 times :mad: and she just came to pick her son up [who was sleeping at the time funny enough I was too] no goodbye or the actually money she owed me for babysitting just walked straight out the door! & shes disturbed my sleep so im no longer tired . Is their something written on my face that reads out GUILLABLE MUG walk all over me however I think that the emotions have suddenly hounded me down and I am really depressed by the way I didn’t do to badly with the Buffy today and ate very little however now nobody’s sat with me and all my families out PARTYING whilst 16 year old me site here lonely binging on a big wedge of fowl wedding cake and I’m not even hungry so why the fuck am I eating it! With no one to talk to about my worries & thoughts...... Grr I feel sooo down, and sick now too think theirs tooi much brandy or something in it but for the first time 25 days i dont really care how many calories i eat!!!! :mad:
 
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here we go , ere we go ...

wow reading the last post i realize how upset i really was at that time & after not writing in my calories diary for 5 days i felt i was at the right stage [not to start again , but to carry on .

I'm now living in south wales with my family and yesterday i climbed the mountain behind us which takes all together about 2 n a half hours too get up and down and today i went round the village and town center looking for a job .. i don't know if they really do not have any jobs or they just don't like the look of me but i don't really care and i am determined just too find a little part time job.
 
Hi there Emma,

I decided to drop into your journal at the request of the lovely "Fat Suit Going" aka Sara. She's awesome. haha

emmaroo91 said:
really i always thought that when your counting calories you take away what you burnt on excersise and should aim for a minimum of 1200 - 1500 kcals a day , because i have been keepy a calories book for almost 3 weeks now and counting them all up in that

-Emma.
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For the most part, just count whatever calories you consume. Make sure to use the calculators to figure out how much you should be eating. Don't short change yourself, because either 1) you'll get frustrated at how strict your diet is and find it too difficult to maintain, 2) you'll go too low and will end up in starvation mode where it will eventually bugger your metabolism badly... That's where plateaus come into play. Don't make food an enemy... if anything, it will help you to lose, especially if you're taking 2 hour long walks. Good luck with it....

-Sheryl :)
 
Hi Emma,
So how did the move go? Lots of lifting bags, boxes and furniture?!

I hope you dont mind me asking Sheryl to drop by your diary, she is on the counting calorie and exercise type of health plan too, and thought she may be able to offer some advice to you along your journey! We all need the support. :)
It is sooooo true about not eating enough. If you don't eat enough your body thinks there is a famine and is very reluctant to let go of any fat. So you need to eat enough not to get in that place! Keep it up.
Gotta run, catch you soon.
Sara
 
Had a fab Day yesterday

climbed another mountain for the first time it was a lot bigger than the last one too and i really loved it even though we didn't follow the footpath [which made it even more exciting] and went the wrong way round we found a fresh water spring :p and the dog went swimming in it i really did enjoy myself and as the other posts told me to try & add a few more calories i did although i think their was a few to many grains lol :)



what i ate yesterday..

breakfast- 2 weatabix and a little bit of milk , one piece of white bread

lunch- tin of .. oily fish in tomato sauce with 2 pieces of white bread[no butter]

dinner- spaghetti bolognase and pasta [no garlic bread, no condiments]

snacks - 3 apples , 1 low fat tomato cup of soup and a handfull of rice crackers
 
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Fat Suit Going! said:
Hi Emma,
So how did the move go? Lots of lifting bags, boxes and furniture?!
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No actually their was very little lifting and stuff thats what the haulage men are for lol i didn't want them to think i was stealing their limelight :rolleyes: hahar
thanks for asking though
 
silly,silly Girl

can not believe i turned the offer down to go swimming i know that its so,so good for you and nobody knows me here, but i just don't have the confidence to pull it off yet unless i get to were a full length scuba suit .. but then more people would look anyway.

I used to love swimming and was even fat when i used to but i just didn't used to care what others would think then . i wish so much i was like that now :confused:


-Emma.
 
Hi, I saw you around on the boards and thought I'd say hi. Swimming in public is difficult especially when you're young. My best advice is to find a cute, figure flattering swimsuit. For the most part, people really are too worried about their own bodies in their suits than they are about yours.

Have a great day!
 
Heya =) I think you're doing a great job so far, specially with your controlling of what you eat.

Aw...you should have gone swimming dear! I'm as self concious and self judgemental as any other girl, be her big of small, but what really helps is keeping in mind "Whether I wear black to hide my weight, weather I wear sweaters, jeans everyone can see me and knw I'm a "big girl", if I'm in a swimsuit, they still see the same thing." Also, keep in mind, generally, everybody is so worried about themselves, that they don't pay much attention to others. And if they do say something, remember you're on your way to improving yourself and soon, you'll be looking just as good as anyone else out there swimming! =)

Goood luck and hello!
 
Climbed the springs mountain again today & am getting faster than even heres a face foto i took b4



btw i am so, so proud of myself at the mo because a few nights now my family have gotten take-away e - chines es,Indian,kebabs and every time offered/bought me something and every time I've said nope :] can't believe what a strong person i am whoooo
 
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oh dear! but ive learnt.

okay well I haven’t been so loyal recently too any readers of my diary or my diary its self I honestly think its because I just could not of been bothered although I have been a little slack about my eating and calorie counting i have still been eating proper foods and stuff apart from last week I indulged on takeaway I know, I know after feeling so great about beating the takeaway I go and eat some but really that week I had two chicken fillet burgers(with no sauces whatsoever) and one night when I had been drinking with my family (4 glasses of wines yep lots of kcals) I ate some pizza and quite a few chips from the fryer the good thing is I didn’t really sit feeling sorry for myself and just knew that I am getting back on track exspecially wherever you go around wales is up hill & i have been doing quite a bit of walking here and their.

I am also in the northwest at the moment for a week or so too see family and to collect my gcse results on Thursday :eek: , well I also went to see my an last night who hadn’t seen me for a month so gave me a hug which she has not done and seemed astounded saying how slim I looked ,skinny Minnie , and wow you look like a page three model :rotflmao: but too me I think she was being overly nice seen as I haven’t weighed myself more than twice in the time I have been on my diet because I know I have a tendency too obsess over the number and would just rather know by seeing my shape in the full body mirror or telling by my clothes such as wearing a size 18-20 and then fitting in my mums size 14 pants whoo! :)

well i hope to get back too you soon, & will like to update you everyday or so
xooxoxoox - Emma.
 
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Hey Emma,
Havent heard from you in a while, whats happening?
Keep us updated.
Sara
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Hello , sorry i have not written for a while i think its because i felt i was failing and quite embarresed but dont worry i think i just was slipping of the wagon and i knowthe only person im cheating is myself xoxoxo
 
Hard Work

I weighed myself last night a total weight loss of ..... 1st 1lb since i started on the 5th july so i now weigh 15st.6 lb still a long,long way too go but each stone makes the diffrence in this up-hill transformation :

xoxoxo
-Emma
 
BonBons you are one sneeky sweet

their was some toffee bonbons down stairs which you get from the tuck shop i just took 5 thinking they would account to about 350 kcal .. and guess what 850 thats me never touching another bonbon ever,even again and i have a lesson for you all .. always check the kcals before actually eating anything thats me trying to fit in as many situps as possible tonight get me back home too my mountains theirs no were to excersise here! :(



Breakfast - fruit salad (10 grapes, 1 apple, 1/2 clementine/7strawberries) [/SIZE & a "one" yoghurt

Lunch - tinned tomatoes on toast (white bread, no butter)

tea - salad (a few prawns, 3 crabsticks , 1 tomato, 2 spring onion, a bit of cucumber)

Snack - one 52g bar of Milky Way + 5 toffee bonbons :mad: don’t get me started on those shit bags!!!!! And the milky ways wont be happening again
 
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emmaroo91 said:
I weighed myself last night a total weight loss of ..... 1st 1lb since i started on the 5th july so i now weigh 15st.6 lb still a long,long way too go but each stone makes the diffrence in this up-hill transformation :

xoxoxo
-Emma
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Emma...1st 1 lb...that is fantastic! Congratulations, you should be mighty proud of yourself!
Keep it up!
Where abouts are you in the NW? Im originally from Cheshire, land of cheese and cats!
I find that it is better to cut out treats, hard at first but then the cravings go away. They fluctuate sugar levels in the blood so when the sugar levels crash you want more sugar and it sets you up for a fall! A young body like yours needs protein, vitamins and complex carbs but noooooooooobody needs the simple sugars..just some advice, hope it helps :)
Catch you soon.
Sara
 
Wow well done on your loss! Your doing great!

I underestimate calories, then i see what i have actually eaten and gone WHOA!!!!!!!!! haha

You are gorgeous as well! referring to your pic on the previous page.

Keep the good work up!
 
wahooo :D $$$$

Well i was crapping myself last night about the results i think i didnt fall asleep till 3ish i wished for everyone/anything out their to bring me luck or even positive energys so this morning i woke up and 7ish too sit and make my self beautifull for a couple of hours emphasising the new cheekbones powdering the (just that bit) pontier chin and then putting on my smaller sized clothes , when i got to school to pick them up my girls werent their yet so i went in with 2 other girls and sat in the corner no one even said they could tell i lost weight but oh well :) , and considering im not very bright i managed too get the grades i needed and PASS aswell as being able too go to my college and do my animal care nd course WOOP,WOOP :jump: my one of sin of the day is that i couldn't of had breakfast because it wouldnot of stayed down , although that seafood salad after my results was lush! the only problem now is on sunday im having all my girlies sleeping with lots of that v.high kcal alcahol lol
 
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loveat116 said:
Wow well done on your loss! Your doing great!

I underestimate calories, then i see what i have actually eaten and gone WHOA!!!!!!!!! haha

You are gorgeous as well! referring to your pic on the previous page.

Keep the good work up!
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Hello thankyou lots for for the praise
Har,har kcal counting sometimes i think if only i could look up this tasty choclatebar,bag of sweets and it be about 20 kcals :drooling:
 
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