Diary of Semi-Neurotic Ex-Secretary Soon-to-be-Sexier Sophia

sophia28 said:
Oh yeah, baby bring it on, my legs are becoming like steel I swear :) and my butt...... let's not even go there.. could crack nuts with it. Hahaha not really, but well almost.:sifone:
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lmfao!!! omgosh girl what a strange visual... sounds like you are doing great... yeahhh i am totally over my little meltdown yesterday... ahah ... but like... hmm... i still havent talked to him... but i feel better... its weird... i cant explain!

haha you sound like your are doing great... everyones noticing! lovely! ^^
 
YAY Sophia :) Getting into smaller jeans that didn't fit before is awesome, even if the size is misleading. I just posted puppy pics yesterday for ya since you asked for more...well I would have anyway eventually but not any time soon I bet, lol I need to get some cute ones of Mariah, my black kitty though. She's been gettin left out, lol. *hugz* ~Lisa
 
Awesome News!!! When people start noticing it makes everything we've done seem worth it!! And it's funny the way ur ex phrased it.. you gonna love guys.. lol Your doing great!!
 
^^

Angelica hun you never heard of that expression? Haha. I guess it must sound pretty weird in that case! Maybe it's a UK thing.
I do hope your bf makes himself heard at some point but it seems you're not too worried so I guess you know the reason & it's all cool. :)

Thanks so much Lisa and Amanda for popping in and supporting ... it means SO much. {HUGS}
I've been so freaking slack with diary-visiting myself just lately ..... never seem to have time and/or feeling zombified.

Amanda, lol, it's so true about men having their own way of expressing themselves. Makes me realise we truly are a different species and we just need to get on with it -- without strangling them in the process, lol.

Well... just checking in for the day...

Food today 01/03/09
Total cals 1,130

Exercise 01/03/09
Nell McAndrew Ultimate Challenge (1 hr 20 mins)
Today my workout left me positively euphoric. Crazy.
I love this dvd....wish I could do it every day but I'm nowhere NEAR fit enough.

Oh yeah, I had a slightly dodgy knee earlier this morning , but I said to my body "Sorry you can't wimp out on me now, that's not an option".
And, whattaya know, my knee after my workout actually felt 100% better and is now totally back to normal. Stupid knee.

Other than that, thank goodness I did exercise, and got myself a nice endorphin rush -- because to be honest, I had one of those days where I realise that life ultimately sucks. Never mind.
 
Hey, you joined the same time on this forum like me.. (Jan 2009)
You don't look shy on the picture to me.. o_O" But a picture doesn't say anything, so I actually don't know >.>

Good luck to your 2nd week! I believe you have the skills to get yourself slim again as before!
 
zombified...I've been experiencing that too lately. I'll be fine then it's like somebody pulled the plug and I'm exhausted. Been trying to up the vitamins and stuff but I always seem to feel like this when I'm losing weight. Exercise helps if I can get the energy to actually DO IT. Anyway missed ya the last few days :) Talk to ya soon ~Lisa
 
sophia!

i will miss you over the next month
but i cant wait to see how far we
have come in the next 30 days =D
talk to you soon!!!

<3
 
sophia28 said:
Well, today my ex said 'When I came to pick you up today, you looked all tiny. Are you losing weight or something?'
My ex is the king of irony (that's why he makes me laugh a lot), but that traslates to: I know you're on a diet and I can see it's working.
Yay!!!

Also.... yesterday, my ex's Ex Wife (confusing I know) stopped by to join us at the cafe' briefly and later told my ex that I was looking really good and that it looked like I'd lost weight. So ... very cool. Yay again !

And thirdly, my jeans were getting so baggy I tried my next-size-down Gap jeans and they fit FINE. Fabulous stuff.

So today I was wearing my size 8's instead of my size 10's (although note that Gap has a weird sizing system, so I'm not really a size 8 - tho I sure wish I was).

Wow it feels good to get results like these. Makes all the hard work worth it.

Exercise today 28/02/09
Turbo Jam - Turbo Sculpt (40 mins)
Turbo Jam - Ab Jam (20 mins)
Oh yeah, baby bring it on, my legs are becoming like steel I swear :) and my butt...... let's not even go there.. could crack nuts with it. Hahaha not really, but well almost.:sifone:
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All the above are very awesome!!!

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sophia28 said:
Exercise 01/03/09
Nell McAndrew Ultimate Challenge (1 hr 20 mins)
Today my workout left me positively euphoric. Crazy.
I love this dvd....wish I could do it every day but I'm nowhere NEAR fit enough.

Other than that, thank goodness I did exercise, and got myself a nice endorphin rush -- because to be honest, I had one of those days where I realise that life ultimately sucks. Never mind.
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:hug2:Aaawww:hug2:I hear ya abt that working out hig, i havnet been pushing myself enough this week as im just exhausted and fighting a cold and my routines have changed cuz my cous moved in and so on...

I hope you start feeling better about life and such...
 
yay!!! Sophia...Omg....SIZE 8 is amazing!!!:party: I know what you mean about the manufacturer's though....I stick to one...EXPRESS (to measure me) ....:iagree:...I am so happy for you!!:Angel_anim: In no time...In no time...SLIM SLIM SLIM women!!! I was thinking about you last night when you were telling me, to not fear being thin...and I was like..."YOU KNOW WHAT...she is RIGHT!"....

....and I did it...ran 4.5 miles ;)!!! You are just on this exercise now aren't you!!! I'm gonna throw in the Yoga more often too...wish I had SLim in Six...I have Windsor Pilates, Hip Hop ABS, Yoga FLes, PowerYoga, Jillian Michaels, Belly Dance....etc....but no slim in six! :(

....WOW!!....So glad that the EX bf...is taking notice of your weight loss!!! Must mean you are looking Good baby!!! I've always been those types of girls to keep it cool with the bf's ex's as well....Go figure! Not that I try ...but I'm just cool like that! (also cause I'd rather have my enemies closer :reddevil:...hahah ;) ).....so I get ya when you say the Ex's ex....ahahaha!!! :coolgleamA:.....you are too funny! :D!

....my bf too...has been telling me lately that my body is starting to change alot!....watch out baby!!!!!!!! HERE WE COME!!!!!!! :coolgleamA:
 
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sophia28 said:
^^

Angelica hun you never heard of that expression? Haha. I guess it must sound pretty weird in that case! Maybe it's a UK thing.
I do hope your bf makes himself heard at some point but it seems you're not too worried so I guess you know the reason & it's all cool. :)

Thanks so much Lisa and Amanda for popping in and supporting ... it means SO much. {HUGS}
I've been so freaking slack with diary-visiting myself just lately ..... never seem to have time and/or feeling zombified.

Amanda, lol, it's so true about men having their own way of expressing themselves. Makes me realise we truly are a different species and we just need to get on with it -- without strangling them in the process, lol.

Well... just checking in for the day...

Food today 01/03/09
Total cals 1,130

Exercise 01/03/09
Nell McAndrew Ultimate Challenge (1 hr 20 mins)
Today my workout left me positively euphoric. Crazy.
I love this dvd....wish I could do it every day but I'm nowhere NEAR fit enough.

Oh yeah, I had a slightly dodgy knee earlier this morning , but I said to my body "Sorry you can't wimp out on me now, that's not an option".
And, whattaya know, my knee after my workout actually felt 100% better and is now totally back to normal. Stupid knee.

Other than that, thank goodness I did exercise, and got myself a nice endorphin rush -- because to be honest, I had one of those days where I realise that life ultimately sucks. Never mind.
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Hiya Sophia!!
Just thought I would pop in and congratulate you on your successes so far! Your doing awesome, keep up the good work.

I finally decided to do something that I havent done in a while and look for some exercise dvds that might catch my eye. And I was thinking of you and Angelica and realized they might not be such a bad idea. So I have found some good ones. And thanks to you, I bought them lmao. I just figured that the dvds wouldnt work, that I had to be apart of some gym or something, but look at you! You are doing so stokingly awesome!

But I am also joining Curves, which is only ten minutes down the road, Very social setting I guess.

Your diary is so peppy! and as far as the endorphins rush, I can understand. The exercise I did walking outside last year, really helped me get through the blues of winter. It was sunny everyday.

Well best wishes and keep up the good work... :hurray::hurray::hurray:

Yo go chicky!!
always :cheers2:
Natsky
 
:seeya:Back with A Bang..........:hurray:... well more like a whimper really....





I'm back...and ready to sort out my food issues (cos I've been having serious food issues).... it's now become a ridiculous state of affairs, I manage to stay healthy for a day or two, then slip right back to stuffing my face like there's not tomorrow. Normally just before bed --- worse time to eat like a pig, which is of course typical of moi.



I've gotta tackle this before it gets out of control. I managed to lose 23 kgs last time I was doing this, and even though I have less to lose this time around, it is just as FRUSTRATING. It's driving me to distraction.



The last time I used this forum and diet/exercise diary, was Jan 2009; I lost a total of 23 kgs (50.7 lbs) by autumn of that year.


So IT CAN BE DONE.



When I first started I weighed 163 pounds (74 kgs) .........I persevered with diet/exercise and by 1st July I weighed 120 lbs (55kg) ---



By end of September I was down to 50 kgs (110 lbs).


After that, I managed to maintain a steady weight range - basically fluctuated between 49 kgs and 52 kgs for that whole period - until mid-Jan 2010 where I maintained at 55 kg (120 lbs)...


Then in July 2011, everything went totally down the pan... for whatever reason... my eating was out of control .... and I just started gaining more .. and more and more and more weight.



So here I am, ready to do battle again!!



Luckily I am starting off at a slightly lower weight this time, but I still need, desperately need, some self-discipline and some form of accountability (where I think the diary will help) because I have been now trying to shift this these 6/7 kgs for about a year now and it's getting RIDICULOUS.



Plan is to stick to a 1200 calorie per day diet, and with any luck, it should work just like it did in '09. (we pray and hope so anyway). every morsel of food that passes my mouth will be noted here, anything more than the allotted amount will be here for me to read in black and white and this method might just knock some sense into me... hence hopefully NO MORE NIGHTLY BINGES. PLEASE.



Exercise is a little bit on the back burner for now, my main intention is to get a little lighter first as right now, doing my workouts makes me feel like a baby elephant throwing itself about-- not pleasant!



I aim to get down to 52 kgs again. Summer is coming, Spring is here (God help me) :eek:and I need to get to a weight where I don't have my usual nightmare where a) I can't go out without hiding under layers of clothing because I am so embarrassed at my fat ass lard and b) having to skip/ refuse dates because I'm too damn ashamed of my body.



Also I have in a new 'line of work' shall we say, in which body fitness is very important, and I can't believe I've been so slack as to jeopardize my job - I have been totally uncontrolled, and I will admit, compulsively eating for too long now and it's GOT TO STOP.



Apart from diet, another aim is to eat nothing after 7.30 pm/ 8.00 pm as this night binge thing is really a problem --- I succeeded last time so I will do it AGAIN. Going to bed hungry will not kill me !!


So here goes.... on the road to a slimmer more confident me, I hope!!!




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Might as well bang this on the head right now: Ingredients of my pig-out last night:

1 slice bread with cheese and 'Light' Salad Cream

Two slices brown bread with smoked salmon &amp; cheese (managed to consume almost an entire large packet of smoked salmon, basically)

Two packets of Walkers prawn cocktail crisps

1 Bonne Maman 'le petit chocolat' small cake

About a handful of Cadbury's Milk Whole nut chocolate



Verdict = Yuk.



Do I want to be in that 'place' again, and again, and again, every single night? Hell no.

Do I want to stop this nonsense once and for all? yes. Hence the accountability diary, starting NOW.



NB:All the above food was on TOP of a full, reasonably-sized dinner, and lunch, so it wasn't triggered by under-eating or starving myself, in any way. I can't stop eating, it's become a real issue and before I need to get a grip now before I grow to elephantine proportions. That's not where I want to be, all over again, like I was in 2009.



I need to lose a stone, more or less, that's 14 lbs.... it's not THAT difficult ... and yet I keep falling back into the old snacking, eating super fattening things, etc. It's not brain surgery is it. And while I lose this stone I need to sort my head out and and realise that I can't go on with this food thing; if I'm not eating, I'm thinking about food. What's that about??

It's really not normal and it's got to stop.



Anyway,



Diet Diary for today



So far:



1 slice brown bread

1 tsp Light Philadelphia

1 slice half fat Leerdammer

3/4 cereal Nutrigrain cereal bar





This afternoon, went to do some food shopping with the ex ... luckily I was not tempted to buy a whole load of junk, but instead bought some things that will help me stick to my goals - e.g. loads of water - diffferent types (still, flavoured, sparkling etc), veggies, fruit, very basic things. And I intend to chuck EVERY SINGLE THING that is fattening out of my kitchen asap.


I am very aware, and realised last time round that it is one of the most important things to do if you want to lose weight:........

----&gt; DON'T HAVE FATTENING FOODS IN THE HOUSE.



Hence, out with the Hoummus, the chocolate, the crisps, the pastries and all the other junk.



Was going to do a workout but I'm dying my hair now so I'll have to leave it for today; I might actually wait until I've lost a few pounds, Right now I couldn't even lift my buttocks 1 inch off the ground to do a hip thrusts!! I've become such a fat unfit old bag.
 
Diet Diary 4 March 2012 (cont'd)

Dinner=

Chinese lettuce, baby tomatoes, cucumber salad

Kraft Light Honey Mustard Dressing, 1 tbsp

1 tbsp olive oil

140g skinless chicken breast

1/2 Tesco baguette

2 tbsps Bisto Gravy Granules in 1/4 pint water



Miscellaneous/Snacks=

1 orange

Semi-skimmed milk in tea/coffee

1 Mars mini roll



TOTAL = 1,345



So I went slightly over, but it's DAY 1 , so I'm just easing in gently.,,,



=== NOTE TO SELF ===



--&gt; It's OK to feel hungry once in a while, it's not the end of the world.


Somehow I panic &amp; almost go off the rails at the slightest twinge of hunger,even just feeling a bit peckish.

I don't know why it worries me so much. I need to really chill out &amp; come to some level of acceptance ... of the fact that I shall feel hungry and will be able to deal with it.

It will take a week or so, for my body to adjust to less food, and then the hunger pangs will diminish anyway.

I shall get used to this.

I have no other choice. The other choice is to balloon all the way back up to 75 kgs, and I DO NOT WANT THAT TO HAPPEN.



--&gt; Hunger pangs last about 20 mins if you wait them out. I can bear anything for 20 minutes.



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This evening I watched a Spanish thriller and managed to keep my mind off the food for a while at least.

Every little helps as they say.

So far so good. Day one and we're hanging in there. I'm having my glass of sparkling water with slice of lemon, and then off to bed. Sleep = crucial for weight loss

Probably everyone knows this, and I've been aware of it for years, but I'll quote:



Researchers have also found that people who sleep less than seven hours per night are more likely to be overweight or obese.

It is thought that the lack of sleep impacts the balance of hormones in the body that affect appetite.

The hormones ghrelin and leptin, important for the regulation of appetite, have been found to be disrupted by lack of sleep.



That's one reason why I sleep so damn much cos if i get less than 8/9 hours I can guarantee I shall spend a hellish day feeling famished and out of control.
 
=== ANOTHER NOTE TO SELF ===



When I'm dieting and my body keeps screaming at me that it's being 'deprived' or underfed, and all that nonsense, I must keep in mind:

there are people out there who eat less than me (me on a diet, that is), For example, my ex. He eats way less, and yet you don't see

him walking around crying about how hungry he is -- right??



And also, my Dad - same situation, eats very little and isn't disintegrating into puddle of despair at how hungry he is.

Also, my .. erm... Friend with Benefits... this is the kind of guy who will decline sharing some of your delivery pizza because he had dinner

a few hours ago. Whereas, myself, in non-diet mode, having dinner a few hours ago wouldn't stop me having a few pieces of pizza, infact probably

could put away the whole damn lot.



My old friend Avril, eats like a bird. Does she walk around miserably starving? No.



You see, it's all a question of habit. Just like when I finally got down to my target weight, I was so used to 1,200 cals that I wasn't even hungry anymore

And to create a habit you have to do it again, and again, and again and again - every single day, for months. And that takes hard work and perseverance, which is why diets only work if you stick to them, for a long time. We're not talking weeks, but months, maybe a year or more. It's a fact, and after countless diets I've realised the importance of sticking to the meal plan; you might slip up but you keep on going. Whatever happens, if you continue like this, you create a new eating behaviour and the pounds start falling off.



Ok that's it from me -- over and out -- I'm off to bed :)
 
Diet Diary

Same as yesterday - except did not have any oranges or Bisto.




Workout

Jane Fonda 1982 Original W/Out (Advanced)
 
Originally Posted by Sunflower


You're doing really well :D Keep it up! Have you done a weigh in yet or doing it weekly?
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Thanks, Sunflower
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The intention is to weigh myself daily, but I forgot to, these last 2 days, since I've been rather distracted.

I reckon weighing myself daily will be a constant reminder to keep myself in check.



So today I feel very low, which happens every time I go on a diet.

I don't know why I have to get so freakin depressed just because I'm eating less ---but it makes me realise how food has such an impact on my life -- if it affects my mood THIS much.

Not good.



DAY 3 and still going strong. So it's all good.



Diet Diary

Same as yesterday :-


1 slice brown bread

1 tsp Light Philadelphia

1 slice half fat Leerdammer

3/4 cereal Nutrigrain cereal bar



Big salad - Chinese lettuce, baby tomatoes, cucumber

Kraft Light Honey Mustard Dressing, 1 tbsp

1 tbsp olive oil

140g skinless chicken breast

1/2 Tesco small baguette


Miscellaneous/Snacks=

Semi-skimmed milk in tea/coffee

1 jaffa mini roll

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TOTAL: - 1,130 cals



I am a very boring eater, and the only way I can stick to a diet is to eat mostly the same things every day.

I've done this for periods of even 2-3 years straight without cheating so it's no problemo.



Didn't work out - having a rest day.



I am currently:




Staving off hunger pangs with sparkling water and lemon

Eating very very SLOOOWWWWLY, so that my dinner gradually starts looking enormous &amp; enough to feed an army

Thinking about summer, Italy and bikinis when I get the urge to binge.
 
ASomething that helps me overcome those hunger strikes, is drinking lots of water.

Water has 0 calories, so filling up on it is a great help.
 
Just wanted to say good luck on your journey.I really like the way you write your diary making notes to yourself!

you seem really determined and in control!!

Are u going to ITaly for vacation?thinking about yourself in a bikin should work!also drink lots of water.it really helps with the hunger.


Also i wanted to say that mabe you Freak out when you feel a little hungey cause you are scared you might pig out.You could have some carrots in your fridge for time of need!Or try think of other low cal snacks to have around.No naughty stuff around if you can,if you live alone.
 
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Well, I'm back ....!!! and I'm back with a vengeance !

Yep, once again I need the accountability of a diary to keep me in line, because my weight is going bananas, and it's got to stop.

After I stopped writing this weight loss diary, due to being rather overwhelmed with other 'real life' stuff, I did eventually manage to shed all the excess weight and, most importantly, to maintain it - I managed a fabulous weight range of 50 to 55 kg for more than a year! Nothing short of miraculous.

However, over the past several months my weight has been creeping up ... and up...and up.... and although I'm haven't quite gone back to Square One, I'm really not far off...!! and I refuse to go back there (75 kgs!!!), so this is my time for action, and no turning back, no excuses, eat clean, workout like a fiend.

My weight increase is mainly as a direct cause of some very upsetting and life-changing events which all seemed to hit me at once, and as so often happens, the diet got left on the back burner.

Luckily I kept up the exercising on and off, at least that is something I'm proud of; I still have some remnants of fitness left --- in my thin days I was doing 2 hours a day, every day!! -- and even if not as strong and fit as I was, I'm not a total couch-potato-can't-do-a-jumping-jack-without-passing-out.

My weight this morning was 65.1 kg (yuk) --- I'm petite so cannot carry off this kind of weight, trust me, if i was taller i wouldn't look so pudgy.

My goal weight is 55 kg --- 10 kilos to lose !!! I can do it ! I CAN and WILL do it.

Xmas is over, not more mince pies and all that junk, it's just plain clean food ... and above all, training myself once again to see food as fuel, and nothing more.


Here's to a new me, and hoping next year is better than 2012 (which sucked) and a happy New Year 2013 to everyone. :) :hurray::hurray:
 
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