I've been struggling. Consistency, balance. Since being in this job, I've been trying to play "catch up" with my eating and exercising. I've been sometimes not eating for hours, and then binging later at night, or I haven't worked out for days and then when the weekend comes, I'm trying to get 5 missed workouts into 2 days. Maybe I just have to find my groove again and start with one thing.
I read a post in the Harsh Truth and it was good advice. Sometimes, in my case, most times, we fall off the wagon and instead of slowly getting back on, we go into overload mode to make up for those few last falls. The advice essentially said, make better choices and start over.
I guess I feel like I had failed and to make up for my failure, I'm going to do the extra credit to catch up, hence the 3 day spinning spree this week. I hadn't always struggled with my eating. I was always the girl that could eat anything and not gain a single pound. Now in my 30s, I can't do that anymore, even when I had a 90 minute spinning class that day.
I keep going back to 3 months ago, where I was doing incredible and made few changes in habits other than bringing my own lunch and making sure I got in my weights and cardio. At that time, it didn't even seem like a hard transition. I just did it and it seemed easy.
Now I don't know why I can't make those same "easy" decisions. Such a struggle...