Diary of a Mad Fat Asian

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Daybehavior

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AHey guys, I'm Tony and I'm not new here. As a matter of fact I was very active here until March but never had a diary. I was doing really well up to that point but a combination of bad things began to happen in March. My school work load became utterly ridiculous, and my grandparents both went into the hospital, so I could no longer go to the gym everyday after class as I had been doing. I ended up spending a lot of time helping them recover and making sure they weren't going to relapse or something. To make things worse, a friend convinced me to hop back on World of Warcraft again, which had me glued to my seat for many, many weeks.

Anyway, its nearly six months later and I'm almost back where I started. With the help of this forum, I was able to lose about forty pounds in four months. I was so happy, as that was the best I had ever accomplished. It's easy to blame life circumstances but the truth is I should have known better. I could have made a better effort to at least maintain my weight. What I am doing now is "closing the barn door after the horses have escaped." But F it, the past is done, and I know I can kill it as I did when I first joined. The only thing that sucks now is that I've lost access to my gym since graduating :(

Little about me:

I've always been the only fat person in my family and it feels horrible. My mom and dad always lectured me about my weight and health problems. I know they mean well but it does get annoying. I guess they're right in a sense. Asians are supposed to be slender and agile, not fat and clunky :D
Can I please fit that stereotype??? Haha.

I love horror films, Poker, American & European history and political science (Yeah I'm a bit of a nerd). I don't consider myself a gamer but I love Fallout, Silent Hill, and WoW (occassionally). My favorite TV shows are The Walking Dead, American Pickers and COPS. I'm into all kinds of music! (ALL KINDS) Some of my favorite artists are: Kesha, Deftones, Alicia Keys, Dido, Crystal Castles, Rammstein, Norma Jean, Muse, The Beatles, Cascada, Ace of Base, ABBA, etc.

Sorry didn't mean for that to sound like a personal ad ^_^; OK anyway my goal is to lose 60 by the time I hit the big 3-0 in February. That's 12 lbs for five months / 3 lbs a week. Considering my size I think that's fairly realistic. For the love of God, one time. Let me hit this goal. I want to be able to wear normal clothes. I want to look handsome in a suit. I want to feel the exhilaration of victory over this beast that has hounded me for the last 29 years. One time, baby!
 
AHey Tony :), welcome back to losing weight!

My mom used to say mean things to me too, but yeah, they're just trying to tell us what we know already, we need to get into shape!

I'm so glad you got out of WoW! That game is such a time sink, and money...and health lol. It's fun, but so addicting. It's okay to play in moderation, but I was there too, I used to play so much I kept missing school.

What sort of plans do you have? I know you mentioned you have no gym membership. Maybe you could start with walking/running?
 
Hey Tony, welcome to the forum! I am getting into the vibe of reporting here as I have been kindof viewing from the sidelines over the past year. This forum has definitely motivated me to advance in my weight loss journey. Congrats on the 40 pounds so far! I wish you the best with your weight loss goals
 
Welcome to the forum Tony!!!

Shaping up for your 30th is defo going to motivate you from now to feb! Congrats on loosing 40 pounds that is brilliant, i hope your grandparents health has improved and i love the beatles too!! Your target weight loss sounds achievable so there is no doubt that you can accomplish this!! YOU GOT THIS MAN.


Best of luck on your road to a new healthier you!!
 
AThanks for dropping by guys, I really appreciate the words of encouragement :)

Today was officially my first day getting back to my old routine. I know what to do and how to do it. It's just a matter of getting back into that mindset I had months ago. I know its cheesy, but I kept a folder on my hard drive full of stuff to motivate me. I have pictures of my self at my fattest, as well as photos taken after various milestones. I had tons of motivations quotes, and things I wrote myself detailing why I wanted to lose weight. I used to go through that folder everyday and visualize what it would be like when it my goal weight. Things I would be doing that I was always too self conscious to do, how people would react to the new me, how I would look in a nice outfit that fit properly, etc. Today was the first day in many months I revisited that folder and it made me smile a bit. It made me sad a bit. But more importantly it has strengthened my resolve.

When things went downhill, I really never "gave up". It just happened and I waited to long to do anything about it. I don't know what's gonna happen from here on out, but this time I will attempt to always be conscious of myself and never grow complacent.

Food for the Day:
(Disclaimer: I'm one of those people that eat pretty much whatever they feel like (to a reasonable limit). You might see some outrageous things from time to time, but I found this method worked for me last time, so I'm sticking to it)

-Meal One: Three hard boiled eggs with a bit of salt and pepper.

-Meal Two: My favorite Asian dish! Chopped up a bunch of chicken wings into bite sized pieces, sauteed it with minced garlic, ginger, red pepper flakes, salt, MSG. After the wings were almost cooked, added a bit of fish sauce, some oyster sauce and sweet soy. Finished it off with some Thai chili peppers, chopped green onions and cilantro at the end. Served with white rice. My god I was in heaven

-Late snack: 2 tbs of Peanut Butter with some saltine crackers

Exercise:
Dropped some friends of at the airport. I really dig airports so I walked up and down the terminal for about 45 minutes. DFW is quite huge! I wish I was able to walk around the concourse. Yeah my exercise sucks for now but I gotta ease back into this.
 
Hey! Welcome back. I'm new-ish here. LOL... I was active a LONG time ago.... back in 2007 I believe. I lost 60 lbs, stopped trying, gained most of it back, got pregnant, had a baby, now I'm trying to lose it all again! I'm not doing much for exercise at the moment because with an almost 7 month old that wants to be held most of the time, I don't get much time to myself. I'm starting with trying to watch my calories. So that's a little about me!


Good luck to you on your weight loss journey!
 
Hey Deybehaviour, im glad you have a clear goal in mind, losing your weight before your 30th i've find thats really important because it keeps you on the right track.

I have a picture of me at my heaviest aswell and i look at it often because im determined never to return to that. You seem really determined and im sure you're going to reach your goal. Best of luck and i look forward to reading your progress :coolgleama:
 
AThanks ladies, i look forward to seeing your progress as well :)

A bit of bad luck yesterday. One of my earphones went out, so instead of driving to the drug store to buy a replacement, I decided I would walk there and use that as my exercise since its a good 30 minute walk one way. When I came got back home, someone had smashed into my car bumper and knocked out one of my tail lights.

After giving me an estimate on the repair, the nosy mechanic asked to look under my hood since he said my car sounded suspicious. Then it turns out I also need a new gasket cover or some shit. I was like...uh ok. He printed out the estimate (which was around $300) but I told him id get back to him. So I guess Im walking until I decide what I want to do next. Then later that night my brother texted me he had been pickpocketed (most likely on the subway). He should've know better but I had to give him a hard time since he's my little bro.

Only ate once because I was still tilted due to the car situation. My friend Mark came over and we made dark meat chicken tacos. Extremely labor intensive meal because of the deboning of the drumsticks but it was really worth it. I'll admit it was a decadent meal since we had loads of fried tortillas, sour cream, sharp cheddar, and refried beans. The good news was I was only able to stomach four of those suckers. We drank some vodka cocktails afterward and it was a good night.
 
Hey Tony, seen you around the forum! Glad you've started a diary. Sorry about your car--Hope next week improves for you!!
 
Awww, sorry to hear about your car, that really sucks! I hope you're feeling better (happier) today!
 
Welcome back man,


You've done it before, you know you can do it again. Great to see you back around :)
 
A[quote name="Sunflower" url="/t/51499/diary-of-a-mad-fat-asian#post_804511"]Hey Tony, seen you around the forum! Glad you've started a diary. Sorry about your car--Hope next week improves for you!! [/quote]

[quote name="Risty" url="/t/51499/diary-of-a-mad-fat-asian#post_804829"]Awww, sorry to hear about your car, that really sucks! I hope you're feeling better (happier) today![/quote]


Thanks, dolls. I'm kinda over it now. I guess I'm used to having bad things happening to me LOL.


[quote name="Caiman" url="/t/51499/diary-of-a-mad-fat-asian#post_804842"]Welcome back man, You've done it before, you know you can do it again. Great to see you back around :)[/quote]

Thanks for the vote of confidence, old sport ;) I wanna see you get out of your rut and knock it outta the park by the end of the year! Though I know you wanted to lose more last year, I'm happy for you that you were able to keep those 40 off for almost a year now.

OK, so Texas is definitely not the best place to be working out outdoors. It was 106 throughout the day and its barely letting up now in the evening. I feel sorry for people with gardens and stuff. This weather is very discouraging. I'm really looking forward to moving and getting my own treadmill and elliptical machine.

I really miss my buddy Anton. I feel really alone doing this with no one else. This is where the magic of the forum comes in. I have you guys with me 24/7 ^_^

Walked for about 1 and a half hours and did a calisthenics routine consisting of squats, squat to pushup, planks, and one leg up crunchs. Man I havent been this knackered in a while. I was tempted to start sprinting during my walking but I really want to ease back in. Tomorrow perhaps.

Food wasn't too bad today. Meal 1: chicken soup with steamed cabbage and squash. Meal 2: Oven BBQ wings (4) with rice. I was bad and drank a can of Sunkist afterwards :p
 
Ugh, that heat sounds terrible. I hate the heat and I can't stand summer here and it's not as hot as there! When do you move? I love having my own equipment. So far, I just have a recumbent bike, but (if I had more room) I'd love to have a treadmill and elliptical as well!
 
AI hate the heat! But not as much as I hate the winter. I'd much prefer that nice medium temperature lol.

I'd love a treadmill, I just wish they were cheaper :(.

You know, I actually think I prefer to have no partner for this weight loss...then again, I'm very recluse. However, this forum is very helpful. It's inspiring to say the least :).

Do you only have 2 meals a day? Btw, cabbage is awesome! Love that stuff so much.
 
A@ Risty - Im planning to move to Calfornia by the end of the month, wish me luck!

@ Loch - Yeah I normally eat only two meals and snack in between. Bad habit i know :( I do want a treadmill but Im not gonna go all out on one. I just need a very basic one. I think I've seen some at Wal Mart for around 2-300. God knows how easily those break though LOL

Ahh, I keep forgetting to cancel my damn WoW account. I used to let it run for months when I wasn't playing, but I can't afford to keep doing that. I should do it right now but not enough mood. I'll come back to it eventually now is just not the right time. The game has become almost like a spouse to me. Sure its not as attractive or exciting as others out there *cough*RIFT*cough*, but it's yours, ya know?

Didn't have as much time as I wanted to exercise today, but I managed to get in a brisk 30 min walk, and that was only because I went to go buy cigarettes and the damn shop closed at 7 and for reason, none of the damn supermarkets in my area sold cigarettes so I had to buy them at the gas station.

So today was my weigh in day, and I only lost a pound, which I totally expected because that's what usually happens when I do a reboot. Unfortunately that puts me at a 2 lb deficit for my weight loss goal, meaning I have to lose five pounds by next to stay on track. If I had my gym, that would be no problem but I think this week will be an uphill battle. Its been a week since I've started and I've definitely gotten into the groove...the weight loss mind set, and I'm becoming more conscious of what I'm eating and getting used to the exercise. I feel that that getting the ball rolling, taking that first step is HARDEST part of the whole process. Once I get the momentum going, its easy to maintain, provided I make sure that I keep myself motivated regularly.

Anyway as for the food today, I went Asian and then Southern soul :D

Meal 1 -
Spicy Cucumber Salad with cold rice noodles and mixed greens. A handful of fried pork ear. (sounds gross but its just like pork rinds made with slices of pig ear)

Meal 2 -
Ham hocks stewed with collard greens and chunks of bacon. Two cornbread muffins

Snack -
Two bananas.
 
Haha, I haven't played WoW in forever! I stopped playing, got tired of it. Plus now with the baby there's no time. However, when Guild Wars 2 comes out, I'm definitely buying that and playing it! When it does come out, the baby should be old enough (over a year old) and give me more spare time... I hope.


2 meals a day is a bad habit! I mean snacking is good, but you should try to get in a third. Is it breakfast that you skip? Because that's the most important!
 
AI used to only eat twice a day. Now I eat something in the morning. It's hard to change habits, but it might help you in the long run.

I canceled my WoW. The nice thing is that, if you do cancel, they don't delete your stuff. You can always reactivate later down the road and it'll all be there.
 
AAww I hope your little one gives you time to play Guild Wars, Risty :D Loch, I used to eat in the mornings but I always felt so nauseous. I really do need to reintroduce that though.
Yay I killed WoW today :)

Small non-scale victory today (or NSV as the f'ing hipsters at MFP would say). I finally began sprinting again, albeit in short bursts of 30-45 secs. It felt good. I kinda missed the pain. I'm quite sore right now. Im hoping to increase my time to a minute or so bursts in the next few days.

The day was OK at the beginning but then turned a bit bad a few hours ago. Anton called and at first it was normal, like hows it going, etc. Then he asked me about some things I was supposed to do for him, which I never recalled saying I would do. Then he started being really condescending and a bit of a prick and that went on for a few minutes, and after getting a huge headache I was so not in the mood to argue with him about it, so I said I'd take care of it. I dunno I guess I have a bad habit of letting people walk all over me.

As I said in my last post, I'm planning to move to California, and Anton is gonna meet me there when he gets back from Russia. It's weird, we both have family in California, but we both ended in Texas through life circumstances. Neither of us have many family nor good friends here. I'm surprised we stayed this long. Either way, I'm excited but at the same time, not really looking forward to everything that needs to be done.

Then shortly after I finished with Anton, my oldest sister (who's in North Carolina) called and started me telling all this drama going on between her, my other sisters and my Mom. I was like FUUUUUUUUU. I really wasn't in the mood to hear her pour her heart out LOL. I sat there and listened to her for an hour anyway. That's what big brothers are for I guess? I dunno my family is so dysfunctional and she and I are like the only normal ones. We're the only ones that can relate to each other.

Anyway...on to the food. I think I need a very alcoholic drink...yes I'm eyeing that bottle of Smirnoff on the shelf.

Meal 1:
Medium Sized Chef Salad
-chopped honey turkey
-giant croutons!
-sharp cheddar
-one egg
-sunflower kernels
-Hidden Valley Bacon Ranch dressing

Meal 2:
Extra Spicy Beef Stir Fry. That's one good thing about Anton being gone. I could cook however the hell spicy as I want. Damn Europeans can't handle anything spicier than mashed potatoes -_- Too bad he can't cook to save his life. I guess that's all bachelors though, right?

-skirt steak
-green / red chili peppers
-bamboo shoots
-snow pea pods
-green onion
-garlic
-ginger
-soy / fish / oyster / dark soy sauces

Snack:
2 Nutty Bars....dangerous, dangerous things to have around the house.
 
AToday was a bit of disaster. I knew I was headed for trouble when Mark had invited for me to his place for a Labor Day BBQ, but I decided to go anyway because I didn't want to be rude. On my way there, I picked up a box of 50 fried spring rolls from the Asian deli. When I got there, Mark put me in charge of frying the chicken wings. So...I ended up smelling like chicken grease all day while he and his friends got drunk and shot squirrels in the backyard.

Throughout the course of the day this is what I had:

-8 spring rolls (its impossible for to eat just a few)
-4 fried chicken wings
-1 beef shiskebab
-2 Hot links with Chili and Cheese
-1 giant slice of yellow cake with a strawberry jam filling.
-nearly 2 liters combined Coke / Dr. Pepper / Sprite

-Two Cherry Vodka 7's
-Two Jaegerbombs

I think I ate mostly out of boredom. I thought I was over that kind of shit, but I guess not. I normally have a good time when I'm hanging out with Mark, but I really don't most of his friends, so I sat on the sidelines most of the day watching them do whatever with Mark checking up on me periodically. I was able to slip away for an hour to get my exercise in though. It wasnt very pleasant I feel so very out of place in his neighborhood. He lives in an extremely wealthy suburb of Fort Worth (Colleyville) and I just feel like trash every time I'm there.
I feel really crappy right now but I'll make it up by doubling my exercise tomorrow and realllly watch my food intake.
 
Awww, I'm sorry you feel out of place at your friends house. Try not to feel that way because you are just as good as they are, if not better ;) Hehe... I'm taking it that they have more money than you from what you said, but whatever, ,money isn't everything. I'm sure they don't see you as less than they are, so just try and relax and have a good time!


About the food, it happens. I had a huge food weekend. Was my wedding anniversary and we went out twice! Then it was my LO's baptism, so my mom had a brunch, lol. Then for dinner my grandma made lasagna to celebrate my wedding anniversary, my sister's wedding anniversary, the baptism of my and my other sister's babies (my sis's baby is 3 weeks younger), and my youngest sister's bday! I have 3 sisters, lol. Anyways, so yeah, I was well over my calories both saturday and sunday. Ah well, just gotta move forward.


I used to be the same way about breakfast. I would feel nauseated if I ate, but over time I got used to it and now I don't feel that way anymore. So maybe if you started with something small, like even oatmeal, or a bowl of cereal, or a toast or something, it's better than nothing!
 
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