Diary: Curvie Girlie: A Yo-Yo's Reformation

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Perfect Night

It'll make you all sick, the love and mushiness that AIL and I exchanged. Hmmm, not once was he an asshole.

We met at Thai Orchid and had dinner, then went to the Brewery for ONE beer before going to my house to retire.

He said all sorts of wonderful things. The thing is, he's so changeable. He's innocently open and honest and it sucks sometimes, other times it's great. Sunday he had emailed me this:

"i sure did miss you this weekend, i was thinking of you the whole
time! you may not think so, but i do miss my bunny a lot more than i
say. i love you so much love! im thinking ill come and sleep over there
tomorrow, if thats ok with you? i miss you!!!"

And I was just in the midst of considering breaking up with the bastard! Heart wrenched back to positive, I said ok cool. Then yesterday we had a great time together, and went to be and snuggled (really, I have :reddevil: going on anyway). He said stuff like,

"I missed you profoundly this weekend"
"Being here is even more comfortable than sleeping at home"
"It feels so perfect and right when I touch you"
"I want to hold you and never let go"

Are you sick yet? :puke:

I was just caught up with a head full of dopamine, so I was happy and cuddling and saying similar (true) things back. When his alarm went off he ignored it and clung to me until he was going to be pretty late for work. He also invited me to his family's Thanksgiving they're doing Friday.

How do I feel about it? Just good, right now. Nothing complicated and I can't bear to bring myself to worry about the future. I feel relieved, and emotionally fulfilled so I can go on with my life and be happy. I'm not even worrying about the possibly codependency at the moment. This morning I just woke earlier than normal and didn't sleep, I just grabbed his chubby butt and was happy. :D

Anyway, eating is good, I'm still following a low GL diet and avoiding processed things. Being a good bunny.
 
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I'm glad he was sweet and emotionally fulfilling last night. It sounds like maybe he is realizing how close he is to losing you and wants to do what it takes. I hope the change is lasting!
 
I'm happy that you and AIL had a lovely night together. Maybe he's finally getting smart. I hope so. Ha, it seems that you and I are having some similar man issues. On/off, good/bad. I totally know how you feel. :beatdeadhorse5:
 
Update:

Knee: Good! I did Kickboe with ZERO pain and I'm walking fine. I don't think I should run yet though....maybe another week of elliptical to be safe, I'm not keen on repetitive injuries.

Food: I was HUNGRY today but I stuck to low GI foods with the exception of a milk chocolate binge in the afternoon :p Grrrr! But after Kickboe, I chose a dinner of Acai juice, organic yogurt, 2 sticks of honey, and 2 small .75 oz of Black Diamond cheddar cheese. My mind, lacking seretonin from my period, wanted pizza or some other comfort food. My body wanted fat and calcium. I listened to my body instead. Yay me!

General feeling: Emotionally and mentally, I am A-OK! :D Physically? Tired, bloated, crampy, brain wanting more precious neurotransmitters. If I sleep I'll be fine.

Weight Loss motivation: Renewed. I'm planning a serious weight loss plan that mimics my last plan that worked last year. I'm tired so I'm going to rest and veg out, but I have to write things down physically to plan meals for tomorrow and Thursday.

Excitement Level: HIGH!!
a. I get to meet Tom Friday! :D
b. Thanksgiving, my maternal grandparents and my mom and stepdad are going with me to my paternal grandpa's sister's house! SO this is the first TG I have EVER got two sides together--all my doing :D My family loves each other cross the lines--so it'll be a BLAST. I ADORE my family, I only have issues with mom--hpe she doesn't drink too much!! :leaving:
c. I'm going to lose 5 pounds by New Year's. Dammit! I WILL!!! :mad:
 
bikinibound said:
I'm happy that you and AIL had a lovely night together. Maybe he's finally getting smart. I hope so. Ha, it seems that you and I are having some similar man issues. On/off, good/bad. I totally know how you feel. :beatdeadhorse5:
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Tell me about it. Bare-minimum, last-minute muthafuckers. :rotflmao: What can ya do?!?!? Good thing we have an excellent senses of humor :D
 
I have a friend who SWEARS by Acai juice (Monavie) for all his ills, insomnia, joint pain, his wifes headaches and PMS, etc. Does it help you, or do you just like it?
 
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I have a friend who SWEARS by Acai juice (Monavie) for all his ills, insomnia, joint pain, his wifes headaches and PMS, etc. Does it help you, or do you just like it?
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Oh Amber, I don't know yet! I LIKE the taste and I feel good about the fatty acids, antioxidants and fiber and all that. I HOPE that it benefits me in the long run! I actually have a creaky body right now and I'm mystified--I fucking took time off exercise, I eat GREAT.....I started up taking a multi vitamin again. If the creakiness doesn't go away I'm going to research supplements for that.
 
Thanks Amber!

As an aside:
I HATE that SJ Parker's character from Sex & the City Carrie is ALWAYS fucking eating, and like sugary shitty foods and hot dogs and french fries, and the bitch is thin as a rake!!!
 
Hey Val~
Just popping in real quick to wish you a nice Thanksgiving.
Hope your knee gets to feeling better real soon. Personally myself I don't run unless I am being chased by an axe murderer or something! LOL :smilielol5:but if that is what you like than I say GO FOR IT!
Have a great Turkey Day!
 
Hey Val! TG sounds fun!

Do you ever drink pomegranate juice? I'm hooked on the shit AND it makes an awesome martini!
 
Knee: Good! I did Kickboe with ZERO pain and I'm walking fine. I don't think I should run yet though....maybe another week of elliptical to be safe, I'm not keen on repetitive injuries.
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HEEEELLLL YEAH!!!! Keep on keepin on, darlin.

MH4L
--James
 
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