Kim: I LIKE it. I tend to think that many people are too impressionable, my own mind is pretty skeptical about most things. There's a delicate balance between being gullible, being skeptical and discriminating with knowledge, and being close minded, I think. It's tough sometimes! In real life, sometimes I'll say,
"I don't believe you. Where's your empirical evidence?" when someone tells me something--what a
bitch I am!

Other times I'll just pretend to believe somebody, to get them to shut up--that's usually with people I don't know too well! I'm meaner to my friends and family! LOL!!
Today:
Saturday on my walk in the woods with Trisha, I vented out my frustration with my life, which is basically this:
~I prioritize my time, and I put exercise and food and sleep and friends before chores and cleaning and organizing my material objects.
The perks: I'm happy and not stressed much
The pitfalls: the build-up of junk that needs organizing gathers dust and it always bugs me in the back of my mind.....a subconscious annoyance, "I have shit to
do."
Telling Trisha about it helped me organize everything I want to do. Then I talked about how I could do it, and then I apologized for talking too much! She was cool about it, she talked about her life problems and I suggested things for her, too. We ended our walk very happy and pleased and vented. When we got back to her house I wrote everything down I could think of, and then I put ONE task per day in my planner. If I do ONE LITTLE THING every day, things will get done without me feeling overwhelmed--and when I feel like that I give up and do something else--not with everything, but with stuff that isn't a real urgent priority for me. So in this way, I'll be better organized and happier, mentally. I'm the type of person who hates clutter, but whose room is cluttered and it drives me crazy! But I'm the type who is too overwhelmed by physical clutter to ever FINISH organizing it....boo hoo, I suck!
Anyway, I'm workin' on it, and I'm doing little piles at a time and checking things off. Aside from weight loss, I want to get my material possessions organized, and get rid of things I don't use or need. I've said it for years, but never get to that point before my next move--so I schlep everything into boxes and move the shit!
My major priorities are: I have to do online traffic school (I'm a speedy little bunny

) and I have to sell my smashed up car, and clean my rifles and shotguns, and study my text book..........on and on!
BUT my point is I'm also trying to focus on health, so this morning I woke up, as usual, with a bunch of things flying through my head. I fed my cat and the strays because they would bother me if I tried to meditate and that needed to be done--but AFTER, I sat down and meditated and chanted and ohmed. Not for too long, I only managed about 10 minutes, but that was a long time for ME! I went through my old car's trunk and emptied it. My goal for the day was to empty my entire car, but it is full of shit, and I started to feel overwhelmed by the dread-feeling I get "I don't have room for all this. Where am I going to put everything?" so I STOPPED when I had done enough. And I'll finish up tomorrow. I DID manage to grab some fabric I've had for 4 years that I'll never do anything with, and gave it to Peg (because she sews stuff for children's projects at her daughter's school), so I managed to get rid of SOMETHING. That actually feels good! I also found my little book, SCUM Manifesto by Valerie Solaris. HA HAHA HAHAHA!! If you don't know what that is:
SCUM Manifesto - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
A must read for any woman, just for shits and giggles. I love men, don't get me wrong! LOL!!
Ah, finding shit you forgot about--all part of the struggle of organizing!
Food today:
2 Kashi Go Lean bars (I was too busy this morning to make anything or do dishes)
Honey Crisp Apple (I found them!!!

)
4 Carmel Nips, Shrimp Salad, Crackers, green tea with agave.
Calories:
1040
Hunger right now:
None
Weights and yoga tonight! I shall not do any leg presses until I decide my body is ready (that's what screwed up my hips last Monday).