Diary: Curvie Girlie: A Yo-Yo's Reformation

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It sounds like a blast doing that wine making!! OH YEAH, I would like that kind of work as well. And you got some free stuff too, you lucky, lucky lady! How many days a week are you doing the Kickboe classes? Are you weight training 3 days a week?? I'm trying to work up my schedule a little and maybe add kickboxing. Sounds like your weekend was a good one, I'm so happy!! And you got to go to the city too, MAN **Kim sits here jealous**. Oh and you mentioned in Tom's diary about going to Rogue's Manor with me and my hubby, OH YEAH!! We would have a blast!! And there is never a third wheel in our company. We include EVERYONE!! We will have to go for sure!!:rofl: Hope your day is going well!
Kim
 
Kim: Thank you, I had a great weekend!

Rogue Manor looks really, really nice--I'm jealous!:D

I have been kickboe-ing Tuesdays and Thursdays. I weight trained 3xs last week. Here's my schedule for this week if all goes well:

Monday: Weights 1 hour, running 45 minutes in woods [CHECK]
Tuesday: Kickboe & Ab lab
Wednesday: Perhaps a 20 minute run in the AM; weights 1 hour, yoga 1 hour
Thursday: Kickboe & Ab Lab
Friday: Weights and perhaps running in the AM, or 45 minutes in the PM afterwards.
Saturday: Running and/or biking
Sunday: Running and/or biking OR rest day, depending.
 
Hey kiddo, swinging by to update myself and geezus, I didn't get much into the lovefest material but your workouts caught my eye. I dig someone who gives it their all, maybe this is why I don't gel here with a bunch of others. I'd just as soon read about someone kicking their own ass. I apologize for 'being that guy' but it's I've known for the last year and a half.

I approve of your grind. Stay fit and keep leading the way for those who don't quite get it yet. You gave me the boost I needed to return to my routine today. Four days off has really left me lacking a jump-start. I'm iPod'n my way out on a walk here shortly, thx.
 
HI Randy! Nice signature!

Wow, you're thanking me for motivation?!?!:rotflmao:

You're welcome! get back into the grind, 4 days off is plenty! ;)

My love life seems to affect my caloric intake, and also writing about it here is a release.

Disclaimer: I worked my way up to my current level of fitness, since December last year. Just so everyone knows.

As far as running goes, as a 140-something-lbs-5'7", I have an easier time than say, a much heavier person. Running is tough on the joints, another reason why I'm all about weight training. Not saying heavy people can't run without injury, just commenting on the impact issue.

Also I need to work out that much because I eat and drink so much!!:mad:
 
Sure, I do thank you. I enjoy a good dose of inspiration and I found it here today. No shame in me admitting that.

aaah, I totally agree about running and the joint abuse and at my age I avoid it like the plague. Good on you having youth on your side. That, my friend, is irreplaceable.

I was digging the extra lady-burning cals I was rippin' up June and July but now that's an after thought presently. meh, no worries here. I'm fine going back to the scouting process, to me, it's half the fun. I never lost my weight for the socialments but it has turned into part of the reward all the same.

The sig, well it's a temporary thing obviously.
 
Hi Val, sorry I've been AWOL for a few days :) Sounds like a good weekend making wine :) Don't worry about the extra pound or so - it's temporary and with all that exercising it'll soon come off again. You work your ass off at the exercise so just keep it up and everything will fall into place!
 
More misfortune has befallen me--but I'll get to that some other time.:(

I have followed my plan with exercise, although yesterday I only weight trained and did yoga instead of those AND running.:)

My weight is at 145.5 today--waiting for it to go down. Kickboe today, and tomorrow I have the day off. My last paid day off--part time starts the 17th...
 
:eek:Oh NO!! Who did it?? Do I need to come to Cali and open up a can of whoop ass on someone??? :D I hope the misfortune is nothing to serious, and you can regroup from it. Stick with your workout program, your doing some massive cardio. Your weight will start coming down, don't get frustrated about it, it will just be a slow steady pace this time. You have a lot of other items you need to tend to as well, so don't be hard on yourself. I really want to know what's going on, so if you get a chance, let me know. I hope your okay? Will be waiting to hear!
***BIG HUGS**** VBF
Kim
 
Oh honey, I hope it's nothing major. It's about time lots of great things starting happening to you. Hope you get time to fill us in soon. x
 
Hope things are OK despite the recent misfortune that has apparently "befallen" you. Poor sight! Let us know if we can help :).
 
OMG! Are you alright? Well you can type...so that's good. How about all the rest of you?

Car accidents suck! Hope you're okay!

David
 
Hey Val- thanks for your posts in my journal while I was MIA.
And from my extensive (or is it expensive) experience with car accidents, my immediate advice to you is to please take a few hours to relax. Take a bath, watch a funn movie, call a friend who makes you laugh. Just dont focus on it, because as long as you are ok, the whole situation will be ok. Take care hun!
 
You said minor, but then you said you need a new car. Uh OH, that doesn't sound right. Girlfriend, are you okay? I'm so truly sorry!!! I wish there was something I could do to help. Is it at least drivable right now?? Can you get a loaner in the meantime while your looking for something else, or trying to get yours repaired?? I HATE CAR STUFF!!!! **hug, hug** I only wish I could do more!! If you can drive out to Oklahoma I'll lend you my spare, my brother was using it for a few weeks while his was in the shop, it's nothing fancy, a 1998 Mercury Sable. LOL LOL but, it works. It's yours if you need it!! :D
Kim
 
We're both fine! Not my car, but the rear bumper of the Xterra is barely damaged.

KIM! You make me smile--I'll take it!! :D

Here's something I wrote last night:

Ok
I know I have startlingly awful bouts of pessimism...
And I "shouldn't" ever go there but I have and probably will again.

But I'll tell you one thing--don't ever fucking give up!
Life is always changing, lately life dealt me a BITCH of a hand. You think I'm complaining? I may have my goddam license revoked if all goes bad. I barely have a love life. My job is going to turn part time biatch starting the 17th. My dreams of being a winemaker may possibly be realized, which is the silver lining....I have dear friends in the industry who are willing to pay me for interning.

But as I see my precious savings dwindle away, and as I see my possible mobility being taken away by the state of California after hundreds of dollars, and as I lie alone at night and wishing I didn't want a life partner in my life because the absence is pretty painful, sometimes just mildly annoying, other times more dramatic and lamentful, I still am optimistic.

Maybe it's the chanting and mediation, yoga and Ohming that has gotten me to this verdict, but listen up because I'm being wise and you need to hear it, whether you agree or not:

Life changes. Embrace it. Face your fears and problems with courage in your heart. Don't take the easy way out--take the path less taken, the fucking painful and hard route because it's more than "building character." It's living with courage and VALOR, strength and power. Don't die for what you don't believe in. Live for change and wisdom and love.

Above all, love love. Separate unhealthiness from real love. Put family above all else, and take care of your friends. Show them you care about them, and put effort and work into the relationships you make. Never become jaded and use people--that's cruelly easy to do and not what you are on this planet for.

You and I are on this planet to make it better. To bring light and sunshine and rainbows and love and laughter and life into each other's lives. There is the negative. We all get to the lowest low. That is OK. Sometimes these words will not offer a bit of comfort and we are at the end of our ropes. BUT that changes. I can't speak for those who are suicidal, who have experienced hatred and murder and betrayal beyond belief. I can't until I experience it.

There are infinite ways to experience and view your life. You have ultimate choice. Life circumstances and/or hormones may appear to dictate your world view day to day. That is ALSO OK, fluctuations are A-OK. But I'll tell you about me personally:
I've been through hell
I put myself through hell
Hard times hit me lately and it ain't over yet
But I'll keep going because life is beautiful. It was all worth it. It was. It is.

It's always worth it. But suck it up and face it and stay strong because even when you are weak, you are strong. Life is paradoxial and don't be afraid of hard work. Life is difficult. Life can be easy-breezey too.

One thing? When you find that perfect moment...when you're dileriously stable, secure, happy and carefree...embrace it and ride that bitch our until the bitter end, because it'll be gone before you can even finish enjoying it....trust me.

When I was laying on the beach of Manuese Village in Samoa, Savaii Island when I was 23 years and 5 days old, I was at a place in the world where I could view the sunrise and sunset from the same spot (Southern/Eastern hemisphere during THEIR winter on an island with a "flat" Northern top). I relished it and gripped the sand with my eyes closed and begged for it to never end. Oh Cuzin, but all good things come to pass. It was over before I could blink an eye. Only 3 days, people, of relishing that feeling of just LAYING there, enjoying being alive.

But the memory lives on forever in my mind...at least until I suffer severe head trauma and lose my memories. HA! The ultimate irony.

Even then I bet I could come up with something positive.

I'll be forever positive when I crawl up out of the rubble. You be there with me????
 
Girlfriend, I think your missing your calling, you would be an excellent writer!! I loved all of that, it was so honest and humbling. Thanks for letting us share that with you. Your such a sweetheart!! :beating: And I hope you took it all in after you wrote it, because that is how it should be! Your positive outlook brought me to life today! Thanks again!!! I know someday I'm going to see you making your own wine, in your own winery, YOU WATCH!!:D I'll be there for the grand opening, I PROMISE YOU THAT!! and remember, I always hold up to my promises.
Kim
 
Hey, just a quick visit before I am stuck in my lab all night... I'll have to work my way through your longer post in just a few moments but wanted to say I'm sorry about the car situation. Glad to hear you are okay. Car accidents are horrible, sorry you had to go through that. I'll be back to continue reading your post, I promise! x
 
Hey you - so are you adn the b/f back together - Im glad it was all wonderful adn great for you - you deserve nothign but the best girly!!!

Oh and what is going on with job stuff - still same old same old ? I need some of that energy and enthusiasm...I think after all the craziness of my life my body is more than happy to slow down for awhile:D
 
Curvie Girlie said:
We're both fine! Not my car, but the rear bumper of the Xterra is barely damaged.

KIM! You make me smile--I'll take it!! :D

Here's something I wrote last night:

Ok
I know I have startlingly awful bouts of pessimism...
And I "shouldn't" ever go there but I have and probably will again.

But I'll tell you one thing--don't ever fucking give up!
Life is always changing, lately life dealt me a BITCH of a hand. You think I'm complaining? I may have my goddam license revoked if all goes bad. I barely have a love life. My job is going to turn part time biatch starting the 17th. My dreams of being a winemaker may possibly be realized, which is the silver lining....I have dear friends in the industry who are willing to pay me for interning.

But as I see my precious savings dwindle away, and as I see my possible mobility being taken away by the state of California after hundreds of dollars, and as I lie alone at night and wishing I didn't want a life partner in my life because the absence is pretty painful, sometimes just mildly annoying, other times more dramatic and lamentful, I still am optimistic.

Maybe it's the chanting and mediation, yoga and Ohming that has gotten me to this verdict, but listen up because I'm being wise and you need to hear it, whether you agree or not:

Life changes. Embrace it. Face your fears and problems with courage in your heart. Don't take the easy way out--take the path less taken, the fucking painful and hard route because it's more than "building character." It's living with courage and VALOR, strength and power. Don't die for what you don't believe in. Live for change and wisdom and love.

Above all, love love. Separate unhealthiness from real love. Put family above all else, and take care of your friends. Show them you care about them, and put effort and work into the relationships you make. Never become jaded and use people--that's cruelly easy to do and not what you are on this planet for.

You and I are on this planet to make it better. To bring light and sunshine and rainbows and love and laughter and life into each other's lives. There is the negative. We all get to the lowest low. That is OK. Sometimes these words will not offer a bit of comfort and we are at the end of our ropes. BUT that changes. I can't speak for those who are suicidal, who have experienced hatred and murder and betrayal beyond belief. I can't until I experience it.

There are infinite ways to experience and view your life. You have ultimate choice. Life circumstances and/or hormones may appear to dictate your world view day to day. That is ALSO OK, fluctuations are A-OK. But I'll tell you about me personally:
I've been through hell
I put myself through hell
Hard times hit me lately and it ain't over yet
But I'll keep going because life is beautiful. It was all worth it. It was. It is.

It's always worth it. But suck it up and face it and stay strong because even when you are weak, you are strong. Life is paradoxial and don't be afraid of hard work. Life is difficult. Life can be easy-breezey too.

One thing? When you find that perfect moment...when you're dileriously stable, secure, happy and carefree...embrace it and ride that bitch our until the bitter end, because it'll be gone before you can even finish enjoying it....trust me.

When I was laying on the beach of Manuese Village in Samoa, Savaii Island when I was 23 years and 5 days old, I was at a place in the world where I could view the sunrise and sunset from the same spot (Southern/Eastern hemisphere during THEIR winter on an island with a "flat" Northern top). I relished it and gripped the sand with my eyes closed and begged for it to never end. Oh Cuzin, but all good things come to pass. It was over before I could blink an eye. Only 3 days, people, of relishing that feeling of just LAYING there, enjoying being alive.

But the memory lives on forever in my mind...at least until I suffer severe head trauma and lose my memories. HA! The ultimate irony.

Even then I bet I could come up with something positive.

I'll be forever positive when I crawl up out of the rubble. You be there with me????
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Thank you for this. :)
 
Okay I finally made it back and read your long post. My answer is...absolutely. All well said.
The only way to get through everything is to put your all into life. It's fine to have down times where you need to have a wallow. Life can be shitty and it's hitting you with a truck load of the stuff at the moment. If you don't do everything you can in terms of working hard at being you, developing yourself and relationships as well as work and everything that makes life what it is, you won't have those memories but you will be filled with regret. I say yes to things that frighten me because they frighten me. The only way to conquer your fears is to face them head on. You usually find that things weren't as bad as your imagination led you to believe. Val, as usual you are definitely considering those silver linings. As for what you'd be positive about if you lost those memories? How about you'd have emptied your hard drive to fill it with more great memories?
Now I must stop before I get too cliched ;)
Hope Friday is treating you well. x
 
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