Diary: Curvie Girlie: A Yo-Yo's Reformation

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Arrogance can really irk me, but on the other hand two of my dearest friends in the world (one from college and one from now) are among the most arrogant people on the planet. I wasn't just their friend, I wound up being their public relations person explaining what they meant in a nicer way. I am glad you're on your way to transforming your relationship. Its hard to change relationship dynamics. Most people just leave. If you survive this and it is an if, you guys will be rock solid.
 
Cannon 2006 said:
I wound up being their public relations person explaining what they meant in a nicer way. I am glad you're on your way to transforming your relationship. Its hard to change relationship dynamics. Most people just leave. If you survive this and it is an if, you guys will be rock solid.
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LOL!!! You're a diamond in the rough, Joe--WLF wouldn't be the same without you! :hug2:

That's a good way of looking at it! Rock solid, that makes me happy--and you're right. Sad thing is, I saw myself with this man as a life partner down the road--so it hurt more to think of leaving. But if we're still together and still feel this way....hey what can I say? I'm up for changing, instead of leaving.
 
Rock solid, indeed. I think you guys will be fine once you work out what makes you both happy.

And... running up a mountain? Wow. I'm so out of shape. Hahaha... I'm going to be huffing and puffing my way up Rainier, exclaiming along the way, "Dammit! I swore I'd see a glacier before I died or they melt away. So I'm gonna see one!"

Good luck on going up MM at a faster pace than a walk. I think you can do it. I think I'd fall over from exhaustion.

- Sunny
 
Sunny and Korrie: thanks for the workout well wishing!!!

I have procrastinated enough, WLF is like crack to me aparently, here I am in the dark office when I should be outside, in SLO...ok I'm going now!!!
 
Do you have access to a treadmill? Maybe you could go for a run on that, see how far you can go, and see how you feel at the end. You might discover that you can run really far. :D

- Sunny
 
Sunny: you are so sweet! but I am a wild animal. I cannot run inside. i tried and I'm like a lioness in a cage. Miserable, wrong, no good--I need my mountain.

Update: SO I "ran" up Mt Madonna. My achilles tendons, calves, and hamstrings were strained miserably and I could only jog at probably a 12 minute mile pace straight up, and I had to stop periodically and walk quickly.

I got to the highest peak, and I was listening to Curtis Mayfield. I was listening to Do Wop is Strong in Here when I lifted my arms up into the wind.

I faced the craggy mountains and ocean in the distance, ignoring the city below on the sides. I sat on the highest peak of the Mountain and put my palms up. I prayed, but this time I included myself as part of the inquiry.

I said, "please give me strength to heal. I need to know what to do."

I heard something in my brain. Could have been myself. Could have been the gods. Could have been common sense. Could have been my imagination. Could have been my ancestors.

It said:

"Live. Learn. Listen. Have patience, calm, and serenity."

I said, "Ok but what about Love?"

I heard,

"That is a different lesson." Nothing else.

I felt chocked up and nearly cried, but I understood and felt better. I ran down the mountain with a different sense of self.

My lingering assertion: who the fuck am I to think I understand life and love???? It is a neverending lesson.



Food has been good, had Cold Stone ice cream, it is almost 8p and have to drive to SC tonight. I feel good, and calm, and serene. Ready for work tommorrow :rolleyes:
 
Look at her beat it up the mountain. That is impressive.

I will think of you tomorrow as I push my bike up a hill, or maybe I'll slice my way up it as I sometimes do.

Yes, you saw me in Cerella's diary. SHe has hinted at a girls weekend with her and me an d Brazenlysasse. Wouldn't that be fun.

She did speak of wanting to go see you in California.

Hey, I'm really glad you're on the forum sharing your wonderful self with all of us, your energy, drive and smarts, its really something to admire in a younger single woman.
 
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Hey, I'm really glad you're on the forum sharing your wonderful self with all of us, your energy, drive and smarts, its really something to admire in a younger single woman.
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Glad you had fun with Cerella!! Is she as a good time as I think? ;)

Thank you so! :eek: I think I'm too heavy for most, but a lot of folks on here seem to enjoy my presence, and I'm too interested in their lives to ever leave--plus I wanna reach my damn goal!! :rotflmao:
 
I'm definitely not one of those girlfriends who's always encouraging someone to leave the guy or think the guy is a creep just because he's being a jerk in the relationship sometimes. If you're hot for someone it really doesn't matter about the bad as much, you're just hooked. Normally I wouldve been out by now, but with the baby I'll need to give it way more of a chance or at least wait a while because they love to hang out together (he IS really good with the baby). Luckily financially there is no problem with me being on my own so I always have that option and I'm not stuck for that reason thankfully.
 
Hey you - I dont have time right now to read through everything but I wanted to thank you for always being around for me - you have no idea how much it means to me and Im totally coming up that way sometime soon - there are a few things I need to take care of first...

If you have an inner voice speaking to you listen to it...when I turned 29 or just b4 I did - I had an overwhelming sence of calmness telling me everyhitng will work itself out by the time i am 30 - my job - my life - a man - just some feeling I have - I believe in my feelings and trust them and never question my gut - the few itmes Ive gone against it Ive regreted it...

As far as loving you already know how to do that - the way you care abt us is shown and proved everyday with your thoughtful words and encouragement...I do however loving verbally and physically I knwo are two different things...I can totally love you all verbally and be supportive have all the right things to say but in person I struggle more...and when it comes to a man completely different...

Anyway Val - your great all around if b/f cant see it and embrace it and want it it is all his lose and some other lucky mans gain down the road!!!
 
Happychubette said:
Look at her beat it up the mountain. That is impressive.

I will think of you tomorrow as I push my bike up a hill, or maybe I'll slice my way up it as I sometimes do.

Yes, you saw me in Cerella's diary. SHe has hinted at a girls weekend with her and me an d Brazenlysasse. Wouldn't that be fun.

She did speak of wanting to go see you in California.

Hey, I'm really glad you're on the forum sharing your wonderful self with all of us, your energy, drive and smarts, its really something to admire in a younger single woman.
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It is gonna happen Kelly - Michelle is moving htis weekend so once she gets all settled ina nd I get my new job down - we are totally gonna do it:D:D:D!!!

Curvie Girlie said:

Glad you had fun with Cerella!! Is she as a good time as I think? ;)

Thank you so! :eek: I think I'm too heavy for most, but a lot of folks on here seem to enjoy my presence, and I'm too interested in their lives to ever leave--plus I wanna reach my damn goal!! :rotflmao:
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Heh - well I dunno - lol - with me Im just pretty relaxed and go with the flow up for pretty much anything

As far as beign heavey I think I am the same way - alot of ppl never know how to take me at first meeting and such...

But I am what I am and what you see is what you get...Attitude is almost everyhting!!!
 
Wow, I'm impressed, running up that mountain. The gods eventually will speak to you about love. They spoke to me once, when I was young and freaking out over my divorce to my first wife and the loss of my relationship with my first child. They told me to figure out what kind of woman really, really made me happy, as opposed to the kind of women I got initially attracted to and infatuated with. I thought about it a lot, and realized that these were two completely different personalities, and that I had let myself just fall into relationships without ever examining that. A week later, I met Marlene, 33 years and 2 months ago.
 
Congrats on conquering that mountain. I'm sure you will be conquering a lot of them Val. My friend Fran's dad was a drywaller. He also played cello in his spare time. He played for Sinatra and Dean Martin and you can definitely hear him on Strangers in the Night, but he also played for the Temptations on Papa was a Rolling Stone and a ton of Curtis Mayfield songs. Anytime I hear Curtis Mayfield I always think of this 80 year old drywaller. I'm off on the road. Behave when I'm gone I'll be checking in when I'm back and I don't want to have to clean house or anything.
 
whew lady! Good job on the mountain. Sounds like you've been doing a lot of deep thinking lately. Conquering mountains like that is a great feeling and it sounds like it's helping you think about life. Hope you continue to do that, I think I need to master some of those mountains myself :)
 
So much to respond to! Will do after work!!! :D

But I know you all are dying to see me doing my favorite part of the job--pouring out of the office!!!





Don't I just make you want to drink?!?! :D​
 
"PICTURE PERFECT" as always!! Your just so beautiful in and out. Your local friend and family are truly lucky to have you!! No wonder men hit on you all the time, DUH!!!!!! Great job on making it to the top of that mountain. HURRAY!!!!!!! And you should always listen to the inner side, so if you heard something, then go with it, it doesn't matter who or what said it, it's sounds to me like a lot of good advise!!! Hope you have a wonderful day today!
Kim
 
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