Diary: Curvie Girlie: A Yo-Yo's Reformation

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Hi Valerie! I am trying to catch up on four days of posts....wow, I missed a lot!! Congrats on the job! Booo on the news of "boring object of lust"....(maybe next time, forget conversation....it's hard to converse when drooling anyhow... :D )

Good luck on your training and race!
 
bethann1156 said:
Hi Valerie! I am trying to catch up on four days of posts....wow, I missed a lot!! Congrats on the job! Booo on the news of "boring object of lust"....(maybe next time, forget conversation....it's hard to converse when drooling anyhow... :D )

Good luck on your training and race!
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Thank you very much, Beth! Don't worry--I have a whopper of a story from last night but I don't have the time to write it YET!!!
 
Best Show EVER!!!!

Oh my God.

Last night I saw the best fucking show EVER--and trust me, I've seen coutless great shows.

BEST VENUE: Moe's Alley, Santa Cruz

WHO: Haiku D'etat--best show I've ever seen. This group is intellectual hip hop at its best--goofy, upbeat, crazy lyrical style and positive messages--used to be the Freestyle Fellowship, and they are from L.A. LaMerc Park area (whereever that is!)

WHY IT WAS SO DAMN AWESOME:

#1 Busdriver showed up and performed for a litle bit!! If you don't know who he is, he's a beautiful, talented but nerdy rapper from L.A.'s underground Project Blowed. Watch this!
YouTube - Busdriver - Avantcore

#2 Mikah Nine was in the best mood, and was utterly out of control--singing acopelo, doing his high-voiced jazz thing, being really GOOFY, dancing up a storm, and he's a HUGE man, I'm not shittin--compared to tiny Abstract Rude and small Aceyalone! What he's like, 6'6"!! Mikah Nine is my absolute favorite--if there's any stranger I love and respect, it's him--listened to his stuff over and over again. Lyrical genius!!

#3 I got pictures galore and video (I will post on youtube later) and actual pictures with Abby and Mikah

#4 I got to tell Mikah Nine, in person, how much I love him, how talented I think he is, and how much I appreciate him as an artist. He was thrilled, and wiggled his giant body in happiness. He's such a goofy, lovey-dovey man--always singing about "When people do you wrong--Stay Strong," and "The meaning of Life is Love," and all these positive, Jesus-like messages. I just love the man. And my dream came true: I finally got to tell him to his face.

#5 the show was kick ass and they kept it up, even though the owner was trying to kick us all out.

#6 I wore my shirt that I made from still pictures in a series of Mikah and Acey from the last HD show a few years back, and showed M and then Acey--they were very impressed!

#7 I ended up front and center, dancing my ass off with Rachel, a girl I met with Al and Linsey. Her b-day is 4 days after my Honey Bunny's and we hit it off like no other. We were all about it, dancing up a storm so bad that Aceyalone was like, "Why DO we love Santa Cruz so much?....It's the women." And iwe knew he was partly referring to all the love and energy me and Rach were radiating to the group. Slapped hands with them all, and when Mikah came to me I put my arms out like, "What you ain't gonna hug me?" and he hugged me--and KISSED MY RIGHT CHEEK!! OH! I was like praying I wouldn't fall over. I felt like a 1950s Beatles fan! So cheesy.

#8 Serendipity Project kicked ass and I really adore Alma--met her in the bathroom later and got to gush about how talented she is!

#9 The whole vibe in the place was killer and I made friends with random cool strangers.

#10 Made buddies with the bouncer Uriah and we're going to trial run together--he's into it and he works for CA State parks and knows all sorts of trails to run on!



Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....picture time!

Me and Mikah Nine:


Me and Abstract Rude:



Busdriver:


Aceyalone:
 
Back to business

Food yesterday: Ate to maintenance. Danced until 1:45 am with a weight day? Still had energy! Amazing to even ME! At the show there was a vegan Roach Coach and I ignored the wheat free cookies and pizza and got veggie lentil stew with a whole wheat bun.

I quit drinking and smoking at least until Sunday, so I had absolutely no alcohol last night--and the hilarioius thing was Haiku D'etat is notorious for passing around huge joints--and they did, smoking on stage and everything. But I had NONE--but secondhand I suppose. Anyway, it's a very good thing for my game--I want to place, dammit!

140 this morning. No sweat, I am going to do fine with my calories today!
 
TomO said:
Yes, absolutely, unless the goal simply isn't healthy, or the person is advocating a method of weight loss that is unhealthy or a scam. Then I personally feel compelled to say something, because others here may read that stuff and think it's OK.

For example, if someone your height wanted to drop to 90 pounds, I wouldn't want to encourage them to do that.
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Second time I've agreed with ya in the past week ;). But I understand what they're saying too, that people who have under 30 pounds to lose are not really taken that seriously sometimes, and as the person gets closer to 5 pounds from their goal they almost come across as down right smug/anorexic just for keeping it all up when they're that low. Until WE all get there that is :D.
 
Blancita said:
as the person gets closer to 5 pounds from their goal they almost come across as down right smug/anorexic just for keeping it all up when they're that low. Until WE all get there that is :D.
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True that!

Casey: Thank you, it was one of the best moments of my life as far as excitement and elation minus romantic love moments! They haev this song that says, "All good things they say, never last," and it made me sentimental as I realize our best moments slip right through our fingers until all we have left is memories....but that's cool, more to come!
 
How are you doing, Valerie?

Well, Valerie, I'm pretty exhausted. I only got about 4 and a half hours of sleep after dancing for a few hours and getting home at 1:45am, and I weight trained really hard yesterday.

Are you going to work out today?

No, I was panicked at first thinking I SHOULD and I'm going to MISS my fav Kickboe class, but I realize I am physically exhausted, and I better rest today--I'm still thinking of my race on Sunday and how I should treat my body right. Also Steve and Tom were talking about how you HAVE to take days of exercise sometimes otherwise you won't improve--and I put a lot of stress on myself yesterday (and today since I woke up on time for work).

How is your eating?'

Well, I am up to 1812 already and it's only 4:45pm. However, I'm going to bed VERY early so I may be able to just drink water until bed and get some kind of deficit....or I could have a light 2nd dinner. I ate dinner early because my tired body is demanding food--I always tend to eat more when I'm tired.

What are your plans tonight?

I have to go to the book store and get a book or two on Loire Valley wines for my research paper...or the library, depending on if I think I should HAVE a book to keep. I also need to do some grocery shopping because my snacks lately are getting to be high-calorie and I have no fruit around--so getting apples and such will make lower-calorie snacks more available. Man, I'm tired. I also am going to drop off my application to my new 2nd part time job to the restaurant owner tonight before bed.

How are you feeling?

Bloated, anti-climatic, exhausted, grumpy about no exercise, feeling the "9 days before my period" blues of the luteal phase again, worried about eating too much the next 12 days, and missing my boyfriend. :(

Ultimately, what is up?

Just trying to stay positive!
 
LOL LOL that's funny we must be on the exact cycle. I feel the same way tonight, tired, grumpy and ready to go to bed. Tomorrow will be a new day and I'm sure you will wake up rested and ready to go. I sure hope you get this 2nd job, that will make things a bit easier on the money front for you. But I'm not sure if it will help out things in the sleep department much. Well, I hope your day tomorrow goes well, I'll look forward to your post! Night!
Kim
 
Thank you Kim m'dear!

Yesterday: Ate 300 calories+ maintenance. Weight today: 138.5.

Whew! :)​

Tom, I said, "Thank god!" when I saw the number. Then I thought, "Oh shit, I'm praying to the scale god!" ;)

CYM and Casey were talking about "feeling fat" or "fake thin" in Casey's journal: in a nutshell, it's like this: you had some meat on you. You lost 10+ pounds of fat. You take a break from dieting and exercise for whatever reason. All of a sudden, even though your body has not even had time to change, you feel it spiraling back to chunky. But it's all in your head.

I hate that.

It's like the feeling I get when I wake up without my honey bunny and I forgot, and I reach over to hug him and it's just empty bed. Stupid fear that all your hard effort is just going to vanish (if you aren't diligent enough, in this case). But in reality, unless you take weeks off exercise, 3-7 days ain't going to make you soft, and unless you eat a whole 3500 surplus calories, you're not going to gain even a pound of real fat. This is good! I'm going to keep this in mind. I need more rest days.

Time to roam....
 
Tom, I said, "Thank god!" when I saw the number. Then I thought, "Oh shit, I'm praying to the scale god!"
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This is as it should be, grasshopper. Now all you need is a 700 pack of incense, a hibachi grill, and 600 chicken wings.
 
Valerie, I swear, I am more tired reading about your night out, than I was before...and I was pretty damn tired before!! What a trip! Hope you are having a good day! Glad the scales are reflecting good numbers for ya! :)
 
The hibachi and chicken wings are for GOM (god of metabolism). My women friends also tell me that GOWR (goddess of water retention) likes burnt offerings of chicken wings.

Do this stuff late at night, so you're bf doesn't think you've gone off your rocker!
 
Hey I'm all in if you guys decide to do that. LOL Chicken wings, mmmmm they have to be HOT and SPICY!! Oh all this talk is making me thirsty, need to grab my 20oz of H2O will be back later to check in.
K
 
Miss Ladybug said:
Hey I'm all in if you guys decide to do that. LOL Chicken wings, mmmmm they have to be HOT and SPICY!! Oh all this talk is making me thirsty, need to grab my 20oz of H2O will be back later to check in.
K
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Hey! You don't get to EAT them -- these are offerings! Let's not get sacriligeous here!
 
Whoa I didn't even notice you all were chatting in here!!

Bethann: Thank you sweetheart, I am still shivering in elation from the concert and the kiss Mr. Mikah Nine gave me on my right cheek!

Tom: We might be both off our rocker!! ;)

Kim: Drink that water, girl! We're about to get bloated soon, the more the better!
 
Dun dun duuuhhhhhhhhn: Day 20

Day 20 of my Cycle​

I know me better than anyone, and from this dieting experience, however half-assed I've been since I hit 139, I have learned that Day 20-3, my will is weak and chocolate and excessive eating take over.

Every month I try to prevent that. Every month I have failed. Last month was the worst.

I love my body, I'm proud of myself, I think I look great for me, etc--but I fairly freaked out when I realized, "Holy shit my b-day is 3 months from Friday!!!" :eek:

That's 3 months for the last 9 lbs or so. I saw 137 a few times, and 136.5 one morning after sleeping until 3pm, but for the most part I have been sticking around 138-140 due to my huge appetite and my body just plain telling me, "YO-I like us at 139-ish. Eat up, Woman!"

What gives me the nerve to argue with that? Nothing. But a goal is a goal, and I want to see 130 before I die.

Ugh, how melodramatic! Hardy har har.

For office administration appreciation week, we all received Gardenia plants and a box of Harry and David truffles. those buggers are 100 calories each :eek: Wow. I stomached two. Otherwise I've had good food for 1320 calories. I plan on drinking tea for the remainder and having a decent dinner. That's the plan. I want to be proud of myself this luteal phase. ;)
 
ohmygod dont talk to me about luteal bloody phases. why are we so complicated!!! why couldnt we just "secrete" one hormone then lay an egg or something .. it would make my life so much easier.
i have to learn it for my exam.
you have ovulated and your follicle cells have remained in your ovaries, becoming a corpus luteum which is secreting small amounts of oestrogen and large amounts progesterone. this progesterone maintains your endometrium lining and FSH AND Luteinising hormones are inhibitted. this means that your corpus luteum will start to shrink and therefore progesterone will decrease and you will paint the town red and therefore the FSH levels in your blood will increase and the cycle will start again.
damn im good!
:p
 
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