Diary: Curvie Girlie: A Yo-Yo's Reformation

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For a 5'7" 140 lb woman who does heavy to moderate exercise, I need about 2150-2450 calories to maintain my weight

So to lose 2 lbs a week I have to eat about 1200-1400 calories a day. That is terrible news. :( I just can't do that. BUT to lose 1.5 lbs a week I would eat 1400-1600 calories per day. That still seems so little, but I should remember to stay in that range. I really have a hard time eating less than 2000 calories a day--1600 is torture for me!

OK. Enough venting!!! Tomorrow when I'm on my computer at work (this one doesn't have Excel) I'll try to make a graph of weight and calories over the course of the last month or more, depending on how big I want to make it. I want to see my calories vs. weight and look for correlations or patterns.

Ha ha, right now I'm eating a can of tuna with my kitty :) He sure likes it!

OK, so this is getting harder. I've never been on a diet this long. 90 DAYS as of today!!! :eek: I'm not giving up....

Plan:

Eat 1500-1800 calories per day, have my 1 or 2 cheat days a week but try to keep them under 2200 calories. Try to minimize the CDs to 1 per week.

Run 10 + miles a week as fast as I can handle.

Weight train 2 hours a week (2 days) with as heavy weights as I can

Keep active with housechores and walk at every opportunity

And reap in the rewards!!
 
What I'm looking forward to:

#1 EATING TO MAINTAIN WEIGHT :D

That means for a 130 lb 5'7" woman aged 24 that's 2099 to 2378 a day. Oh glorious days! Can't hardly wait until then...

#2 Having a movie-star's body. Of the curvier variety!

#3 Not being ashamed of my weight number. "How much do you weigh?" "Oh I weigh 130 lbs;) "

#4 Feeling 100% comfortable in my bikini this summer

#5 Starting a new diary thread: "Curvie Girlie: Maintaining Weight Loss" or something, I need to figure out a catchier name.

#6 Being a size 6!!! Or whatever I am at that weight, I really don't know what that is yet--and right now I believe I'm still a size 8...I think, let me check...ok that was realy hard. Looks like there's no real uniform chart and every manufacturer has a different standard. I think I'm 37" x 27" x 36" hips above butt, 38" with hips and widest part of butt. That is about a size 8, I believe. I think a 6 would be 35" x 26" x 36", maybe I don't know. My chest will probaby never be less than 36", which is fine with me, seriously, but I can probably get my waist down to 26", maybe 25" if I'm lucky. And I'm cool with hips and butt being 37". You know what? I don't care about the size. I just want to be 130lbs. We'll see what I am there.

#7 Having the same BMI as my damn skinny BF! Let's see, he's 6' 151 lbs, so that's 20.5. I'm looking to be 20.4--at 131 lbs, though, we'll have the same BMI. Ha ha! Then he can start calling me "small". Of course, this doesn't take into account the body fat--but of course, as a woman I need more bodyfat! ;)

#8 Being the thin one. I was the thick one. I didn't like it. My best girlfriends are skinny. I'm looking forward to being thin. It's not a huge deal--I'm happy, now actually! But I'm still wanting to taste the thin-ness life.

Ok I need to get off the computer!!!
 
One more thing: The BF

Our relationship has never been better! In retrospect I was pretty high-strung compared to him!! Wow, this diet thing has given me a hobby, one that makes me feel better about myself, and like I have more control over my choices. This is good for our relationship because when I'm mellow, he's mellow. In fact, he's one of the sweetest, laid-back men I know. He sure seems to appreciate that I'm seldom irritable anymore.

For those of you who don't know and are reading this post, I started my vow to be 134-130 lbs by 8/4/07 on December 26th 2006, and I did NOT tell my BF that I was determined to lose 25 lbs! I just didn't feel comfortable sharing the struggle with someone who has never struggled with his weight. He has been about 150 lbs since puberty and has never seen dramatic increases or decreases before. SO I kept the recording and planning and this forum a secret.

Anyway, the only thing he said was, 6 weeks after I started and I was about 150 lbs or so, "Whatever exercise you're doing, keep doing it--you look fantastic lately" or something like that. He actually said, "I'm smitten." Since then, not one word about my body or my weight or anything. I haven't told him how much I weigh. I haven't told him my plans for dropping another 10 lbs. Here's how I know he's noticed:

--He tells me with his eyes...and hands! He looks at me like a person who is measuring something with his eyes, like a surveyor.

--He feels my body more, especially my stomach. When I was chubbier, he did not often run his hands down my abs. Now it's flat, and his hands go there every night. :)

--He acts pleased with it. I sense that he is really pleased about my body transformation because it suits his aesthetics--I have a feeling he is purposely keeping his mouth shut because he wants me to know that he loves me with or without those 15 extra lbs. You know what? That is totally right on. I sure do love him!

This weight loss has done so much for my happiness....it really sucks being dissatisfied with one's body. It's like, everything in life was cool and I thought the only thing I didn't like about myself and my life was the excess lbs of fat. Now that they're mostly gone, I truly feel relieved and content.

On that note, last night I allowed my BF to give me a piggy-back ride downstairs to bed. I was drunk from all the good wine and really tired. He offered. 15 lbs ago I would have been like, "No! no" because I was embarrassed about weighing more than him. Now I said, "sure" and he didn't complain about me being heavy, or nothing. He didn't even seem very strained. I'm really excited about being carried and thrown around when I'm 130lbs--hell, I can carry and throw around a 130 lb person!

OK, time to get off the computer!:)
 
You're so enthusiastic! I LOVE IT! You have every right to be. You're doing a damn fine job.
I would never let me boyfriend pick me up because I always thought I was too heavy. Two days ago, we were in the kitchen and started horseing around. He scooped me up and put me over his shoulder. First, I felt a sense of panic, like "Oh no! I hope his knees don't buckle!" But then I was like "What am I thinking? He's a strong guy and I am NOT a fatso. Carry on!"
 
Afternoon Curvie lady :) Sounds like you busted through that mini-goal. I hope weigh in day is good for you tomorrow :) You are so close to your goal and you are putting in so much effort and thought to all this. You, and others on here are inspiring me to keep trying different things and work hard at those things that work. Sounds like you have a fantastic relationship with your boyfriend and you have figured out a lot about yourself over the last year or two. Enjoy your Sunday! Rachie
 
Thank you Ladies!

Thanks girls for your support--I know I posted a whole lot today.

Today I realized I had not had a day off exercise to rest since March 3rd. Also, my body was really, really sore and tired--I was also hung over. So today I did not work out. I went with the boys (housemate, BF, and our mutual buddy) to the park to play Bocce ball. I didn't play, I read my "Wine Bible" instead. Studying for class and such. It was nice to be outside and read. I think I ate about 2000 calories today, and I'm fine with that. My probelm is this: I haven't gotten enough sleep lately. Not sleeping makes a person eat more, AND interferes with the positive stuff Human Growth Hormone does for you (HGH is stimulated into production by HIIT, endurance training, and intense weight training, and aids fat loss and muscle maintenance, also maintaining youthfulness). Either way, I'm going to bed early and I'm going to try to sleep more (I usually get 8 hours but I'd like to get 9).

I took a bunch of pictures of the boys, and also of my face--I'm amazed at how much fat I've lost in my chubby bunny face. I've been feeling skinny in the past fews days! It's a nice feeling.:) This coming week: Hardcore Me. I am going to really watch my calories and also work out just as hard as ever. OK, I'm tired.
 
let me just start by saying that you look so damn sexy in that avatar! woohoo!

i don't think i have ever told you just how much i love reading your diary! you are so book smart while being fucking awesome at the same time! and i love the fact that i feel comfortable enough to say "fucking awesome" in your diary, because you won't mind! :)

your dedication and determination is infectious. i love that you know everything to the number... i wish i knew that! i actually want to figure out my calorie deficits, patterns, and things like that now, even though i'm not smart enough to do it! ;)

and a huge congrats on the boyfriend. he seems like a great guy... and you two seem like a perfect fit! it is so amazing how much confidence in one's self can change everything. it truly changes your life!

anyways, point is that i am so incredibly happy for you, and i think you're fucking awesome!

:D

(oh -- and i hear you on the great sex life! mine is about 1,000 times better now that i have so much more confidence to experience/try new things! :D)
 
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hi ya curvie! you look mahhhhvelous! really!! You deserve a day off to rest and relax a bit from your routine. Its good for the soul, too. have a good monday! making the rounds to say hi this morning...will check in with ya later.

beth
 
Curvie Girlie said:
#1 EATING TO MAINTAIN WEIGHT :D

That means for a 130 lb 5'7" woman aged 24 that's 2099 to 2378 a day. Oh glorious days! Can't hardly wait until then...

#2 Having a movie-star's body. Of the curvier variety!

#3 Not being ashamed of my weight number. "How much do you weigh?" "Oh I weigh 130 lbs;) "

#4 Feeling 100% comfortable in my bikini this summer

#5 Starting a new diary thread: "Curvie Girlie: Maintaining Weight Loss" or something, I need to figure out a catchier name.

#6 Being a size 6!!! Or whatever I am at that weight, I really don't know what that is yet--and right now I believe I'm still a size 8...I think, let me check...ok that was realy hard. Looks like there's no real uniform chart and every manufacturer has a different standard. I think I'm 37" x 27" x 36" hips above butt, 38" with hips and widest part of butt. That is about a size 8, I believe. I think a 6 would be 35" x 26" x 36", maybe I don't know. My chest will probaby never be less than 36", which is fine with me, seriously, but I can probably get my waist down to 26", maybe 25" if I'm lucky. And I'm cool with hips and butt being 37". You know what? I don't care about the size. I just want to be 130lbs. We'll see what I am there.

#7 Having the same BMI as my damn skinny BF! Let's see, he's 6' 151 lbs, so that's 20.5. I'm looking to be 20.4--at 131 lbs, though, we'll have the same BMI. Ha ha! Then he can start calling me "small". Of course, this doesn't take into account the body fat--but of course, as a woman I need more bodyfat! ;)

#8 Being the thin one. I was the thick one. I didn't like it. My best girlfriends are skinny. I'm looking forward to being thin. It's not a huge deal--I'm happy, now actually! But I'm still wanting to taste the thin-ness life.

Ok I need to get off the computer!!!
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When you are closer to your "setpoint" weight, it doesn't quite work like this. I mean, you can't go by how much energy is packed into a pound of fat and create your deficit based on this fact. When you are lacking body fat, which you are getting down there, your body starts acting differently while dieting. It will fight your efforts to lose more weight essentially.

Oh yea, and good morning, love the new AVI, and there are a lot of words in this journal. More pics and less words, dammit!

J/K, I promise, I am not one of those guys that looks at you like a piece of meat. :p
 
Wow! You are one prolific writer -- but always lots of fun to read your journal, and inspiring, too.

And you sound like one hell of a wine connoisseur, too. I usually drink 2 buck Chuck, but I remember once I had a bottle of 1957 Chateau D'Yquem. Now that was some delicious wine!
 
Curvie Girlie said:
#8 Being the thin one. I was the thick one. I didn't like it. My best girlfriends are skinny. I'm looking forward to being thin. It's not a huge deal--I'm happy, now actually! But I'm still wanting to taste the thin-ness life.
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I so know what you are talking about with your gfs. I'm not big compared to other people, but to them I'm the "toned" one. That's their word for "thick".

I've just read your recent posts and I love it! You're doing so great with your weight loss and only 10 more pounds to go! Keep it up!:D
 
daiseeangel said:
let me just start by saying that you look so damn sexy in that avatar! woohoo!

i don't think i have ever told you just how much i love reading your diary! you are so book smart while being fucking awesome at the same time! and i love the fact that i feel comfortable enough to say "fucking awesome" in your diary, because you won't mind! :)
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I am so flattered--thanks very much!! I love to write, always have, and last year I didn't write at all and my self-esteem really plummeted. Also, I started holding things inside and it came out in adverse ways :( But writing helps!! Thanks for all the sweet kindness you've given--not just in my diary but in everyone else's!! You're definitely smart enough to figure things out!! And thanks, my BF has never been sweeter or nicer lately--probably because neither have I, since I feel so good about myself. That saying is right--you can't love someone properly until you love yourself. It sounds selfish, but it's still true--because behavior reflects the indside. I think. Thanks again!

bethann1156 said:
hi ya curvie! you look mahhhhvelous! really!! You deserve a day off to rest and relax a bit from your routine. Its good for the soul, too. have a good monday! making the rounds to say hi this morning...will check in with ya later.

beth
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Thanks so much--I thought that picture was silly, because I am--like it's the frank, "Yo, what is it?" look. I enjoy taking pictures of my face and deleting the shitty ones. That way I can show my kids, "hey I was good looking when I was young," ;)

Steve said:
When you are closer to your "setpoint" weight, it doesn't quite work like this. I mean, you can't go by how much energy is packed into a pound of fat and create your deficit based on this fact. When you are lacking body fat, which you are getting down there, your body starts acting differently while dieting. It will fight your efforts to lose more weight essentially.

Oh yea, and good morning, love the new AVI, and there are a lot of words in this journal. More pics and less words, dammit!

J/K, I promise, I am not one of those guys that looks at you like a piece of meat. :p
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Really? Bummer!! Well then I can expect to give myself more time to get rid of the last 5-10 lbs, depending on what happens. That's OK with me because I feel really great about my body now, hardly ever better, and that makes me so happy that it comes out as me acting like a better person. That's definitely a good thing!

I will get more pictures out, I promise. And duh, you're a wonderful person Steve, of course I wouldn't pigeon-hole you :)


TomO said:
Wow! You are one prolific writer -- but always lots of fun to read your journal, and inspiring, too.

And you sound like one hell of a wine connoisseur, too. I usually drink 2 buck Chuck, but I remember once I had a bottle of 1957 Chateau D'Yquem. Now that was some delicious wine!
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Thanks!!! Glad to be inspiring :) Hey I just learned about Chaeteua D-Yquem--that's Bordeaux, right? Left Bank? I don't remember exactly, but I could look it up later....
 
mnexercisegirl said:
I so know what you are talking about with your gfs. I'm not big compared to other people, but to them I'm the "toned" one. That's their word for "thick".

I've just read your recent posts and I love it! You're doing so great with your weight loss and only 10 more pounds to go! Keep it up!:D
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Thanks so much!!

You know what? About girlfriends: I always see them as prettier than they see themselves, and vice versa. I read somewhere that we over-estimate the attractiveness of our same-sex peers as a way to be more competitive for mates, or something unconscious like that. Whatever!
 
Curvie Girlie said:
Thanks!!! Glad to be inspiring :) Hey I just learned about Chaeteua D-Yquem--that's Bordeaux, right? Left Bank? I don't remember exactly, but I could look it up later....
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Love all the wine info...I am just starting to really get into wine, too...but certainly am a novice as far as my knowledge...your info on german wine was really interesting.

beth
 
Afternoon, it's lunchtime here :) Hope you are having a good day. I had an awesome bottle of red recently, I'll have to check the label so I can tell you the name and see what you think of it :)
 
Thanks for dropping in!!!

Will give out more wine info, I didn't know people were so interested :)

Mondays are heavy weigh days. I was 141.0 lbs--but I wasn't at all mad or disappointed or upset. I'm only 100% confident I'll get back into the upper 130s soon. All I have to do is eat less and continue with my workout plan. Today is weights day--I usually drop about 2 lbs the next day. Not like it all stays off--but all I have to do is watch what I eat, avoid alcohol and salt, and keep exercising. Also, mix up my workouts.

Anyway, I should work now, LOL!!!
 
Hi Curvie, Monday is my heaviest day too :( Must be the weekend or something? I chose Monday as my weigh in day BECAUSE it was the heaviest day and it would keep me motivated... now I am always pissed off on Monday's b/c the scale is mean to me ;) I think mixing up the workouts is a good call. Cross-training is supposed to be really good at confusing your body into losing weight :) As soon as my race is over I am going to do more cross-training. Remember you are still doing great!!! Sounds like you have things under control so keep up the good work :)
 
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