dear diary, i want to lose 20 pounds.

oh boy...

good evening
it is with dissapointed that I am writting this. Just like yesterday, today didn't go well. I had about 1300 calories, I did do my workout, but the calories arn't healthy ones. I had 3 pieces of chocolate + ice cream.
I am reall scared for my weigh in tomorrow...I think I went up.
OK, tomorrow there' going to be guests coming over, and there's going to be a feast. I'm challenging myself to have one small serving of each, no seconds, except for salad. I CAN DO THIS BECAUSE I WANT THIS.
Everything will get back on track, and I will restart posting my calorie intakes as well.
 
...

well of course, today was m weigh in for the start of week 3. I did not lose a pound because of my awesome feast of junk during the past 2 days. As I woke up and looked at myself in the mirror this morning I could not believe what I was seeing. Everyday I am dissapointed with my body, and when school will start I will feel even more bummed out because it is going to be hell dressing up every morning, not feeling comfortable in my own body.

I am challenging myself to write in this diary everyday until the end of the month to see how I progress.
I am also challenging myself to lose 4 pounds by January 31st.
Last, but not the least, I am challenging myself to work out 6 days/week, including two days at th gym. This will go on until the end of the month.

I am going to kill week 3. I can do this.
 
this train is back on its track

today went by AMAINGLY :)
i woke up, did my shred to the voice of Jillian Michaels, then went out to shop, wthout buying any clothes, for about 3 hours...after carrying heavy bags...it gets kind of exhausting to walk everywhere. Then after I got back home, and on my home grabbed some Thai Express. I didn't finish it, but just to make sure I wouldn't feel guilty I went out for a jog. Good idea? perhaps...Well executed? Not at all. I froze my ass off running, I didn't wear the right apparel, though I did wear my super warm Vancouver 2010 mitaines(which I bought today bahah). But I jogged/sprinted/walked for 30 minutes.... It was the longest my body could take before turning into ice.

So the stats for this beautiful day:
1 cup All Bran cereal w/ 1/2 cup 1% milk (184)
Thai express(General Thai)(650)
1 date(25)
Nuts(50)
Salad(100)

Jillian Michael's shred(-150)
Jogging/shopping and the sorts(-300)

TOTAL FOR DAY 17: 509cal
 
a lot of your days are rather low on calories particularly protein. Your binges would likely be less severe if you didn't try to force such a low calorie count.
 
with every goal accomplished...there is a reward!

so, today has been going relatively well. I had brunch at home mmm :)
Tomato omelett + pita bread (350)
pear (81)
I'm trying to listen to the previous comments and have 1200 cals today. I don' know why, but I feel as though when I have 1200 and + calories... it's a lot, I feel rather too full, and then I tend to think how I used to feel when I'd eat 2000 cals/day
I don't know what's going down in my head, but I'm working on it.
SO
My main point is... I am going to reward myself on Valentine's day if I manage to reach my goal... with CLOTHES! Well one item in particular


I am in love with these pants, and the only way I'll get them is if I lose it. Plus I am super motivated because tomorrow school starts and I'll be preparing my lunch and I'll be more in control!
:)
 
IMO, the reason you frequently end up binging is because you are hugely depriving yourself on days when you're not...
 
Ok

helloooo everybody.
SO, today I had 1200 calories. *High fives self* I didn't lose control and I feel full. I'm gonna keep this up for the rest of the week and see how my binging problem goes....so to be continued...

STATS FOR THIS COLD DAY:

Tomato omelett + pita (350)
1 pear (81)
15 Almonds (60)
4 dates (100)
Supper: consisted of rice and stew (500)
Salad: 2 servings (100)
1 apple (80)
Exercise: 30 day shred (-150)

TOTAL: 1171:hurray:
 
I agree with the others... your calories are too low. Your BMR for your age, height, weight, and sex, is 1,524.75/day. (There is a calculator on fitness.com home page to figure that out). So try to aim towards 1,500. You are shooting for 1,200 right now, but that number is the lowest possible that you should go, and it should not be a frequent thing. It may seem hard to bump up the calories, but there are plenty of ways to do it without having to eat extra food JUST to get closer to the right number. Easy example - have an apple for a snack, and eat it with 1 tbsp of peanut butter. Just by adding the peanut butter, you added 100 calories. And it's healthy calories :) I'm sure you will find your balance soon. You're off to a good start, and way to go setting goals for yourself! Always having something to look forward to makes this whole process a lot easier and quicker!

~ Sarah
 
it's a lovely day today, don't you think?

First day back at school... well i don't enjoy going to 8:15 classes on mondays, but today I just felt jolly especially having a nice bowl of cereal and a banana and some green tea. It really tickled my stomach and awwww, feel good moment. I made myself a lunch and kept everything under control. PUT YOUR THUMBS UP IN THE AIR EVERYBODY!:hurray:

So the stats:

1 cup all bran strawberry mmmmmmm cereal w/ 1/2 cup 1% milk (184)
1 banana (110)
1 turkey sandwich (two weight watchers toasts+turkey cuts+tomato+mustard+hot peppers) (250)
1 grannysmith apple(80)
15 almonds(60)
Snack bites(100)
Supper: 1 hamburger+lettuce+tomato+hot peppers+ketchup/mustard+cheese(ohhh it had been a while since I last had cheese....mmmmm)(400)
1 pear(81)
2 dates(50)

exercise 30 day shred (-150)

TOTAL:1165 cals for the day.... I have about 300 to spare.... I'll have a big orange later, though at the moment I am quite full. Or just a spoonfull of pb :) mmmmm pb :)
 
busting it out, one pound at a time!

Helloooo :)
I am currently getting pumped to do my workout by listening to the new Vampire Weekend album, amazing!! If you don't know them, check them out. So today I had my first gym class of the semester... DANCE class. It actually seems quite fun and I can't wait to start leaning the choreography. Plus, dance is an awesome exercise, so bonus points for me ;)
Today went super well, I had prepared my lunch and breakfast yesterday night (well I wrote what I was going to eat in my little notepad) and so far so good. Today I actually reachedthe 1500 calories level and I feel pretty good...with the way its going in week 3, I hope I will have shed a pound or two by weigh-in day which is Friday morning! gotta keep up the good work i guess.

so the mathematics for today:

1 cup all bran cereal + 1/2 cup 1% milk = 184
1 kiwi = 46
1 nectarine = 52
1 turkey sandwich (2 weight watchers toasts/lettuce/a bit of cheese/ a bit of mayo) (i took my mom's sandwhich by accident...BUT I DONT REGRET IT, SO GOOD) = 300
15 carrots = 40
15 almonds = 60
1 hamburger = 350
1 apple = 80 w/ 1 tsp peanut butter = 90
1 date = 25
1 banana = 110
a few bites of rice+stew = 200 (I SUPPOSE)

gonna do 30 day shred in a few moments = -150 cals

TOTAL DAY 20!!!!:party:
1387 CALORIES!
 
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hey guys!!!!
day 21...10 more days and it'll be a month! my oh my! I am now starting to feel my body changing. This week, I actually got to see the scale move (yes...i peeked at the scale even if my weigh in is only on friday)! So I went shopping today...ok, i did get dissaointed because the clothes didn't fit me well...but I know that in a few months that will change. everything is changing for the better. Not only physically, but i am also changing emotionally. I feel so much happier.. ALL THE TIME! :D I am optimistic about my weight loss this time, and I am really changing my attitude towards food. Instead of stuffing my face until I feel sick, I tell myself "The food will still be there tomorrow. You can enjoy it then too"!
Ok, enough rambling (I've realized that I type into my diary as though I have verbal diarrhea...honestly I type before I think)

So the numbers:

2 scrambled eggs (200)
2 toasts (100)
1 banana(110)
1/2 cinammon bun (I was downtown AND starving) (150)
3 dates (75)
1 cup lentil soup(200)
rice+stew(500)
Salad(50)
Raisins+Almonds(75)

I am still debating whether or not I should do the 30 day shred tonight..I was going to take a day off but I'm not sure. Anyways, I was planning on hitting the gym tomorrow and do some cardio...so we'll see how that goes.

until tomorrow!
tootles!
 
dear reader

hellooo :)
i hope you are all doing well and are all keeping up with your weight loss progres.
GOOD NEWS: this morning when I stepped onto the scale i was 146 lbs!!!! that's two pounds lost!!!! (yes, my tracker isn't rly up to date)
I am in complete shock, i am extremely happy!! My hard work for the week paid off! Though, these past two days I have been slacking off my exercise, because I am extremely exhausted when I come back home from school (actually, thursday I hit the school gym) but today I decided to take a day off. I had my once a week cereal treat, and a few pieces of chocolate. In all I must have had around 2100 calories for the day, which is a lot, but it's also my hormones going bozonkers, so please cut me some slack.

As a punishment however for my bad behaviour today, I'll start my day off tomorrow with a run! we'll see how far I'll actually be able to go!

goodnight to all!
 
Hey! Well done on the weight loss! I'm also at uni and so it's really inspiring to see someone in the same situation get active and do something about losing weight! Keep up the hard work! :D
 
I couldn't do it. how pathetic.
I took one step forward and a giant step backwards. I went absolutely nuts today. I woke up and realized I couldn't go run because all of my gym stuff were at school. Then I thought I'd take it slowly by eating well then doing the 30 day shred. But no, I didn't. I just ate, and ate, and ate, until I felt sick, then I ate some more. Whatt the fuck is wrong with me? I work hard all week and then I throw in the towel, only to pick myself up again and clean up my mess.
Who does this? Why? I want this weight loss so badly, but why is it so hard for me to see a change on the scale? Why can't i lose an inch off of my waist? It's been practically a month that I've been keeping this journal and I'm still at square one. Adios valentine's day goal. Adios.
It's just too hard.
 
a new day, a sunny day

i've woken up feeling horrible from yesterday. I don't know what got into me, but i can't dwell on what i did, but only on what i can do to get back on track. It's saddening to say that my progress up until now (my 3 pound loss) has completely dissapeared. I am now a shattering 149 lbs, and I will not allow myself to go pass the 150 lbs mark. This is my time or never. It's today that matters, right this instant, not in two hours, nor tomorrow. I am restartin a diet or restarting a new diary.
I am keeping all the things as i've done until now to understand my mistakes and to remind myself of the dissapointments. It'll inspire me to not fall into the trap again. My weeks will however start on sunday mornings, fridays...just seemed too weird.
So, the things I will improve on this time:

1)Have atleast 1300-1500 calories a day, yes 1300 is low and I will not be aiming that, however I do not want to have 900 calorie days either, so bare with me
2)Jogging on friday evenings or/saturday mornings. Hitting the school gym twice a week, and still doing Jillian Michael's on all days when I don't. If I can only hit the gym once(say, a meeting or conference at school) I will jog twice that week
3)No more nibbing here and there and "forgetting" to write it in my journal
4)That's enough with the rules..

I don't want this to become a suffering, I want to keep this lifestyle and enjoy it. I want to be happy when I jog, when I exercise. I want to want it, not make myself want it.

And I want this, more than anyone can imagine, so it can't be hard. It won't be hard. I will not be making myself a prisoner of my own body.

Day 25 and beyond....I WILL KICK ASS!

My goals:
By Jan31st: 147 lbs
By Valentine's day:144 lbs
By Feb 28th: 140 lbs
By March 21st: 134 lbs (I will have spring break until then... I will exercise every day then)

I will stop here because who knows how my body will adjust, but for now these are my goals.

I can do this!
 
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