Deanna's Diary!
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deannnaa
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So I said I'd post meaurements, and here they are:
Neck: 12.75"
L Arm: 13.5
R Arm: 14.5
L Forearm: 9"
R Forearm: 9"
Bust: 39"
Under bust: 34.5"
Waist: 32.5"
Belly: 38.75"
Hips: 39.25"
L Thigh: 24.5"
R Thigh: 24.25"
L Calf: 16"
R Calf: 15.5"
Grr, my calves will not shrink! They are very muscular but still, they too big for my liking! Anyway, last night when I was recoding these I found my previous measurements from EXACTLY 2 months ago! IDR if I measured in the same places, but it says I've lost 5.25" overall! Pretty good since that's not eating so well and not consistantly working out. New measurments in 2 weeks!
Eating got a little out of control today: my aim of 1200-1300 calories went up to about 1600, which isn't bad, but I wanted lower calories. I snacked a little too much :X Plus, my eating schedule was off today so that has a lot to blame for it. Not beating myself up though, tomorrow is gonna be great! Have to eat low cause Friday is my cheat day!
WORKOUT:
Punch, Kick, Jam - 50 min
Ab Scult Pilates - 20 min
FOOD:
B- Chewy bar (pre-workout snack, 1 c. Egg Beaters, some grapes
L- Ham + cheese sub S- handful of Wheat Thins, 1.5 c. Cheerios w/ sugar and 1/2 c. 1% milk, some Junior Mints, some mini chocolate mint candies, 4 meatballs
D: Chicken
S; Yoplait 100 Calorie Thick and Creamy yogurt
After I got home tonight I did my pilates DVD and MAN did it hurt! My ab muscles are so weak, but not for long! I'm actually hoping I feel some soreness tomorrow
OH and tonight a friend of mine's mother saw me who I hadn't seen in months told me I looked great and asked if I was losing weight. Of course, I never know what to say because I don't think there's any noticable changes, so I just say "yeah I kinda" haha. Made me feel good though! In fact, all day I felt thinner and kind of looked it. The thin feeling usually comes around when I exercise in the AM, another reason to remind myself of when I don't wanna workout so early!
I apologize for any typos- I'm on my Blackberry plus I just got French tips today and they're gonna take some getting used to
-D
Neck: 12.75"
L Arm: 13.5
R Arm: 14.5
L Forearm: 9"
R Forearm: 9"
Bust: 39"
Under bust: 34.5"
Waist: 32.5"
Belly: 38.75"
Hips: 39.25"
L Thigh: 24.5"
R Thigh: 24.25"
L Calf: 16"
R Calf: 15.5"
Grr, my calves will not shrink! They are very muscular but still, they too big for my liking! Anyway, last night when I was recoding these I found my previous measurements from EXACTLY 2 months ago! IDR if I measured in the same places, but it says I've lost 5.25" overall! Pretty good since that's not eating so well and not consistantly working out. New measurments in 2 weeks!
Eating got a little out of control today: my aim of 1200-1300 calories went up to about 1600, which isn't bad, but I wanted lower calories. I snacked a little too much :X Plus, my eating schedule was off today so that has a lot to blame for it. Not beating myself up though, tomorrow is gonna be great! Have to eat low cause Friday is my cheat day!
WORKOUT:
Punch, Kick, Jam - 50 min
Ab Scult Pilates - 20 min
FOOD:
B- Chewy bar (pre-workout snack, 1 c. Egg Beaters, some grapes
L- Ham + cheese sub S- handful of Wheat Thins, 1.5 c. Cheerios w/ sugar and 1/2 c. 1% milk, some Junior Mints, some mini chocolate mint candies, 4 meatballs
D: Chicken
S; Yoplait 100 Calorie Thick and Creamy yogurt
After I got home tonight I did my pilates DVD and MAN did it hurt! My ab muscles are so weak, but not for long! I'm actually hoping I feel some soreness tomorrow
OH and tonight a friend of mine's mother saw me who I hadn't seen in months told me I looked great and asked if I was losing weight. Of course, I never know what to say because I don't think there's any noticable changes, so I just say "yeah I kinda" haha. Made me feel good though! In fact, all day I felt thinner and kind of looked it. The thin feeling usually comes around when I exercise in the AM, another reason to remind myself of when I don't wanna workout so early!
I apologize for any typos- I'm on my Blackberry plus I just got French tips today and they're gonna take some getting used to
-D
core_elements
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Great job on dropping the inches Deanna!
And i commend you for getting up so damn early to workout
That's craziness ... 4:45 am.
And i commend you for getting up so damn early to workout
That's craziness ... 4:45 am.
deannnaa
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core_elements: Thank you! Hopefully I'll be able to drop them a little faster this time (;
This morning I did not wake up to work out at 5:00am. It was more like, 5:30. That wouldn't be too bad except my exercise bra was no where to be found and I basically had nothing to workout in. I just had to do the 30 min strength DVD because it doesn't involve any jump around, so no need for extra support I wanted to do the 30 min cardio workout after I got home from work tonight, but I figured it wasn't the best idea because I was already tired and I can never wake up early after a work day, so exercising on top of work would knock me out for awhile! I'm PRAYING I get up with my alarm clock tomorrow AM because I usually sleep through it the mornings after I work and I won't have much time to workout after work tomorrow soo .. it's gotta be done in the morning! Plus, tomorrow is my cheat day(yay!) and I definitley want to get in a nice, long workout.
Speaking of cheat days, I've seen some people around the boards disagree with that idea, but I for one am a HUGE advocate! Knowing that my cheat day is in "X' amount of days keeps me on track for the rest of the days. Naturally, I crave pizza and ice cream and other unhealthy things during the week, and saying no is hard. But I just put the food I want on my "Cheat Day Foods' list and if I still want it Friday, I'll eat it! I don't go crazy the whole day and my calories won't go over 2000, if that, but I'm way mor relaxed on my food choices and indulge on a sweet treat or some pizza! I guess the term "cheat" isn't the right word, since it implied "cheating" on "diet", and I'm DEFINITELY not dieting. It's just a break from the healthy eating during the week
Ok, that's my two cents about that.
WORKOUT:
3T - 30 min
FOOD:
B- 1 c. Egg Beaters, slice of wheat toast w/ butter and jelly
L- Baked BBQ Lays, CC Chewy bar
S- 1.75 c. Cheerios w/ skim milk and sugar, handful (or two) Wheat Thins
D- 1/2ish c. broccoli w/ some butter and salt, skinless chicken
S- Yoplait 100 Calorie Thick and Creamy yogurt
Not a bad day. ARGHH those Wheat Thins are killing me, though! I love them sooo much, it's hard to say "no" or limit myself. I just can't buy them anymore!
Here's hoping I can miraculously wake up bright and early tomorrow
-D
This morning I did not wake up to work out at 5:00am. It was more like, 5:30. That wouldn't be too bad except my exercise bra was no where to be found and I basically had nothing to workout in. I just had to do the 30 min strength DVD because it doesn't involve any jump around, so no need for extra support
I wanted to do the 30 min cardio workout after I got home from work tonight, but I figured it wasn't the best idea because I was already tired and I can never wake up early after a work day, so exercising on top of work would knock me out for awhile! I'm PRAYING I get up with my alarm clock tomorrow AM because I usually sleep through it the mornings after I work and I won't have much time to workout after work tomorrow soo .. it's gotta be done in the morning! Plus, tomorrow is my cheat day(yay!) and I definitley want to get in a nice, long workout.Speaking of cheat days, I've seen some people around the boards disagree with that idea, but I for one am a HUGE advocate! Knowing that my cheat day is in "X' amount of days keeps me on track for the rest of the days. Naturally, I crave pizza and ice cream and other unhealthy things during the week, and saying no is hard. But I just put the food I want on my "Cheat Day Foods' list and if I still want it Friday, I'll eat it! I don't go crazy the whole day and my calories won't go over 2000, if that, but I'm way mor relaxed on my food choices and indulge on a sweet treat or some pizza! I guess the term "cheat" isn't the right word, since it implied "cheating" on "diet", and I'm DEFINITELY not dieting. It's just a break from the healthy eating during the week
Ok, that's my two cents about that.
WORKOUT:
3T - 30 min
FOOD:
B- 1 c. Egg Beaters, slice of wheat toast w/ butter and jelly
L- Baked BBQ Lays, CC Chewy bar
S- 1.75 c. Cheerios w/ skim milk and sugar, handful (or two) Wheat Thins
D- 1/2ish c. broccoli w/ some butter and salt, skinless chicken
S- Yoplait 100 Calorie Thick and Creamy yogurt
Not a bad day. ARGHH those Wheat Thins are killing me, though! I love them sooo much, it's hard to say "no" or limit myself. I just can't buy them anymore!
Here's hoping I can miraculously wake up bright and early tomorrow
-D
deannnaa
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Ughh, this weekend was terrible and not just eating/exercise-wise. Like I assumed, I wasn't able to wake up early in the AM Friday morning since I'd worked the night before, then I had to go right to work from 3-9 and by the time I got home I was wiped and in no mood to workout. Mainly, I received some new Friday night that basically has had me devastated this whole weekend. I had planned on working out Saturday morning (usually my rest day but I to make up for bthe night before) but when I woke up my legs were sore from working the night before and I felt so depressed I couldn't even get out of bed. Feeling as bad as I did made me lose my appetite the whole day so I didn't eat much and barely drank any water for the same reason. Then today I was supposed to be up at 3am for something (after working for 8 hours til 11pm go figure), so I had a PB+J sandwhich around 1am and I didn't even end up going so that was really the kickoff to my bad eating today. Like Saturday, I started off eating very little and by night kind of made up for it. I actaully felt really sick tonight, probably from eating badly. I haven't exercised at all either, and I feel way guilty :/ Anyway, I've just had a truly awful weekend and needed to vent, though I'm not positive everything I wrote made any sense. I feel a little better though ..
Not posting what I ate, this weekend was crazy. But I'm relieved to go back to my regular schedule and eating/exercising. Funny enough, I ate sooo well this week, averaging about 1300 calories a day, yet not exercising much, when usually it's the other way around I couldn't help but step on the scale this morning, and it said 160.8! I'm not sure if it's true, but after not much exercise and a messed up past few days, that shows a weight loss I didn't see with working out 5 days a week. And even if I'm not 160, I don't remember when the last time I saw those numbers on any scale, accurate or not! Well, we'll see tomorrow AM- my weigh in day!
Better go to bed so I have some chance of an early workout.
-D
Not posting what I ate, this weekend was crazy. But I'm relieved to go back to my regular schedule and eating/exercising. Funny enough, I ate sooo well this week, averaging about 1300 calories a day, yet not exercising much, when usually it's the other way around
I couldn't help but step on the scale this morning, and it said 160.8! I'm not sure if it's true, but after not much exercise and a messed up past few days, that shows a weight loss I didn't see with working out 5 days a week. And even if I'm not 160, I don't remember when the last time I saw those numbers on any scale, accurate or not! Well, we'll see tomorrow AM- my weigh in day!Better go to bed so I have some chance of an early workout.
-D
deannnaa
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UGH! I haven't posted on here or anyone elses journal for a while! I feel so guilty cause I know I have to keep this up if I want to lose weight. This week was a little more hectic than usual I guess.
I worked Tues-Fri, so the only time I was able to work out was Wednesday morning. Only ONCE so far this week!! :O Badddd, I know. But, besides Monday night/Tuesday morning, I literally had NO time to work out ): I feel SOO guilty for not working out! I had to drag myself out of bed Wednesday morning because I was used to not working out over the past few days, and I just wanted to sleep. I have to seriously kick my a*(* into gear and workout tomorrow and Sunday, so at least that'd be 3 days. Thankfully my work schedule is a bit more compliant with my workout schedule!
My eating was a kind of high this week. Monday, around 1600; Tuesday 1600; Wednesday, 1300; Thursday, 1400. As you can see I ate about 300 calories more than planned ): 1600 isn't bad, it's what I should eat to lose 1 lb a week, but after eating so low it feels waaaay to high! I don't know what happened with the eating this week, but next week WILL be better, same with exercise! I'm worried about weigh-in Monday because I feel like I haven't lost any weight, nor inches (ok, stepped on the scale the other night and it was most likely inaccurate, and then I measured my stomach and arms real quick just to see and I didn't look like there was any change) but hopefully then numbers will all be less than last week!
-D
I worked Tues-Fri, so the only time I was able to work out was Wednesday morning. Only ONCE so far this week!! :O Badddd, I know. But, besides Monday night/Tuesday morning, I literally had NO time to work out ): I feel SOO guilty for not working out! I had to drag myself out of bed Wednesday morning because I was used to not working out over the past few days, and I just wanted to sleep. I have to seriously kick my a*(* into gear and workout tomorrow and Sunday, so at least that'd be 3 days. Thankfully my work schedule is a bit more compliant with my workout schedule!
My eating was a kind of high this week. Monday, around 1600; Tuesday 1600; Wednesday, 1300; Thursday, 1400. As you can see I ate about 300 calories more than planned ): 1600 isn't bad, it's what I should eat to lose 1 lb a week, but after eating so low it feels waaaay to high! I don't know what happened with the eating this week, but next week WILL be better, same with exercise! I'm worried about weigh-in Monday because I feel like I haven't lost any weight, nor inches (ok, stepped on the scale the other night and it was most likely inaccurate, and then I measured my stomach and arms real quick just to see and I didn't look like there was any change
) but hopefully then numbers will all be less than last week!-D
xorie
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Great job with keeping yourself motivated. I wish I had that sort of gumption... or just plain time to workout as much as you!
Keep up the good work, and like you told yourself, be patient. With your regular exercise and good food intake the weight will come off. Someone told me once that if you can lose weight slowly because you're changing your lifestyle rather than "dieting" the weight tends to stay off, rather then you losing it and it coming right back. (like it did to me)
Keep up the great work, and I bet you'll be at your goal in no time!
Keep up the good work, and like you told yourself, be patient. With your regular exercise and good food intake the weight will come off. Someone told me once that if you can lose weight slowly because you're changing your lifestyle rather than "dieting" the weight tends to stay off, rather then you losing it and it coming right back. (like it did to me)
Keep up the great work, and I bet you'll be at your goal in no time!
deannnaa
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xorie- aw thanks! and thank you for stopping by!
Sooo, no workout this morning for me. I figured that since I'm sick and had an 8 hour work day ahead of me, I shoud get as much rest as possible. Maybe tomorrow I will? AHH I hope so :/ I have been doing terrible with workouts and it's pissing me off! I just have no motivation to workout. The actual workout part I'm fine with, but getting the motivivation and energy to start is what I'm lacking. Not working out on top of not eating as well as I'd plan is definitely gonna bit me in the butt Monday morning when I weigh in. I'm also supposed to do measurements tomorrow, but I'm thinking maybe I'll save both for the last of the month. Plus it gives me time to step it up. I NEEEED to get back into working out or I'll never reach my goals. UGHH, I'm SO worried that I'm gonna get off track as always and losing weight will go right back on the back burner!
FOOD:
B- 2 Eggo waffles w/ butter and syrup
"L"- Raspberry square
D- DD ham and swiss cheese flatbread sandwhich
s- small vanilla whoopie pie, 2 c. Apple Jacks w/ skim milk, 4 crackers, tiny piece of cheese
I mean, not HORRRIBLE but like, 500 calories over what I planned. I think I'm noticing something though- when have a really sugary meal or treat, I lose focus the rest of the day and don't eat right. I'm totally gonna follow the same meals from the other week when I did well! I am proud though, eating was the toughest thing for me to change. This summer I probably had about 2300 calories per day on average, now I'm at around 1300 and I don't feel deprived! I do have to work on my eating habits on the weekends, which usually get tossed aside.
OH YEAH! I have this button-up Oxford from Ralph Lauren in a size 10 which I have been trying on a few time a week to see how wel it fits, and I think today it fit looser than the last time! My goal is to have it fit comfortably by the end of the week! To be hoenst, that's been my goal for the past two weeks, but I'm DEFINITELY gonna do it this time
-D
Sooo, no workout this morning for me. I figured that since I'm sick and had an 8 hour work day ahead of me, I shoud get as much rest as possible. Maybe tomorrow I will? AHH I hope so :/ I have been doing terrible with workouts and it's pissing me off! I just have no motivation to workout. The actual workout part I'm fine with, but getting the motivivation and energy to start is what I'm lacking. Not working out on top of not eating as well as I'd plan is definitely gonna bit me in the butt Monday morning when I weigh in. I'm also supposed to do measurements tomorrow, but I'm thinking maybe I'll save both for the last of the month. Plus it gives me time to step it up. I NEEEED to get back into working out or I'll never reach my goals. UGHH, I'm SO worried that I'm gonna get off track as always and losing weight will go right back on the back burner!
FOOD:
B- 2 Eggo waffles w/ butter and syrup
"L"- Raspberry square
D- DD ham and swiss cheese flatbread sandwhich
s- small vanilla whoopie pie, 2 c. Apple Jacks w/ skim milk, 4 crackers, tiny piece of cheese
I mean, not HORRRIBLE but like, 500 calories over what I planned. I think I'm noticing something though- when have a really sugary meal or treat, I lose focus the rest of the day and don't eat right. I'm totally gonna follow the same meals from the other week when I did well! I am proud though, eating was the toughest thing for me to change. This summer I probably had about 2300 calories per day on average, now I'm at around 1300 and I don't feel deprived! I do have to work on my eating habits on the weekends, which usually get tossed aside.
OH YEAH! I have this button-up Oxford from Ralph Lauren in a size 10 which I have been trying on a few time a week to see how wel it fits, and I think today it fit looser than the last time! My goal is to have it fit comfortably by the end of the week! To be hoenst, that's been my goal for the past two weeks, but I'm DEFINITELY gonna do it this time
-D
xorie
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I totally understand where you are coming from on the workout motivational kick... I do the same thing. I like to workout...AFTER i start, but until then, I put it off, give myself excuses and the like to get out of doing it... Just do something little to start off, then once you realize you enjoy it, just keep going.
And hurray for fitting better in clothes! For me, that's the best part. I have a size 16 pants that I want to get back into, and I'm getting there. They fit my legs again, but now I need to work on my stomach. Keep up the good work!
And hurray for fitting better in clothes! For me, that's the best part.
I have a size 16 pants that I want to get back into, and I'm getting there. They fit my legs again, but now I need to work on my stomach. Keep up the good work!
deannnaa
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xorie- YES! That's exactly it! I just have to shut out the little voice in my head that gives me excuses not to workout long enough to actually START the workout! Congrats on the pants! I'm in the same situation, except with thst buttonup. It's looser in the stomach, but the arms are too tight. Fingers crossed it'll fit me better at the end of the week
Woke up at 4:50 as planned this morning I got to bed later than I wanted to last night (12:30ish) so I figured I probably woulnd't wake up til 5:30 and I'd be able to get in a 30 minutes workout .. but NOPE! Woke up right with the alarm and was surprising not tired! Of course, later in the day I was crashing, (read in Cosmo that a few hours after working out you're body goes into sleep mode, which is why working out in the evening is the way to go. I still love my AM workouts, though.) Felt sooo good after, I have to remind myself of it when I'm thinking of "reasons" why I can't workout! And it flew by- when it was over I was like, "Seriously? Why do I have to have a constant battle with myself everyday to get up the motivation to do that? That's NOTHING!" It was a great workout though, sweated like crazy!
WORKOUT:
Cardio Party - 50 min
FOOD:
B- 1 c. Egg Beaters, slice of wheat toast w/ butter and jelly
L- ham and cheese sub
S- handful of Weatables(?) some kind of wheat cracker, small vanilla whoopie pie, little "chocolate" candy things I got from the bank (only 50 calories)
D- 1 c. Egg Beaters, slice of wheat toast w/ butter and jelly
S- 100 calorie Yoplait yogurt
So of course I didn't expect to eat a whoopie pie, but I was late for work and didn't have time to stop and get a little package of peanut butter crackers like I wanted to! My work is raising money for breast cancer and we're having a bakesale, so there's a basket of treats in the break room (calling my name!)! This week was whoopie pies and next week is cookies and cupcakes I think .. Oh well, the whoopie pies are quite small/thin, delicious, and for a good cause!
-D
Woke up at 4:50 as planned this morning
I got to bed later than I wanted to last night (12:30ish) so I figured I probably woulnd't wake up til 5:30 and I'd be able to get in a 30 minutes workout .. but NOPE! Woke up right with the alarm and was surprising not tired! Of course, later in the day I was crashing, (read in Cosmo that a few hours after working out you're body goes into sleep mode, which is why working out in the evening is the way to go. I still love my AM workouts, though.) Felt sooo good after, I have to remind myself of it when I'm thinking of "reasons" why I can't workout! And it flew by- when it was over I was like, "Seriously? Why do I have to have a constant battle with myself everyday to get up the motivation to do that? That's NOTHING!" It was a great workout though, sweated like crazy!WORKOUT:
Cardio Party - 50 min
FOOD:
B- 1 c. Egg Beaters, slice of wheat toast w/ butter and jelly
L- ham and cheese sub
S- handful of Weatables(?) some kind of wheat cracker, small vanilla whoopie pie, little "chocolate" candy things I got from the bank (only 50 calories)
D- 1 c. Egg Beaters, slice of wheat toast w/ butter and jelly
S- 100 calorie Yoplait yogurt
So of course I didn't expect to eat a whoopie pie, but I was late for work and didn't have time to stop and get a little package of peanut butter crackers like I wanted to! My work is raising money for breast cancer and we're having a bakesale, so there's a basket of treats in the break room (calling my name!)! This week was whoopie pies and next week is cookies and cupcakes I think .. Oh well, the whoopie pies are quite small/thin, delicious, and for a good cause!
-D
deannnaa
New member
Um, so today I was supposed to wake up at 4:50 to start working out but I ended up waking up at 6:45! CRAAAP! I should've seen it coming though, I didn't go to sleep til around 1AM, so that really screwed me over. Luckily I was able to find an hour today to get my workout in yay! I don't especially like working out at night, but I'll take that over no workout at all!
Does anyone else have a limited support system? Not many people know that I'm working on losing weight, but the people who do aren't very supportive. My family acts like they are, but they're always bringing home dessert, asking if I want more of something, and asking me if I'm eating enough because they don't want me to become anorexic .. well of course I'm eating enough, I'm just not eating 2,000 calories a day like before! It's HEALTHY eating, people! And my best friend and I had plans to get our nails done today, and when I told her we'd have to push the time ahead til later so I could workout. AND SHE ACTUALLY GOT UPSET! I believe her exact words were "OMG are you serious? Just starve yourself today." Ha;f jokingly, but STILL! We were with another friend at the time who also added in something like, "f*** working out". Thaaanks, lovin' the support, everyone. I know they love me and want me to be healthy, but they just don't GET IT! And of course my friend eats whatever she wants and doesn't work out, so she really doesn't understand. ARGH. At least I have the forums to find support and inspiration.
Ok, my rant is over!
WORKOUT:
Punch, Kick, Jam - 50 minutes
FOOD:
B- 1 c. Egg Beaters
S- bottom 1/2ish DD choc chip muffin
L- bag of SmartFood
D- Half a cheeseburger from Bugaboo Creek, some french fries, about 3 chunks of bread with butter, few chips w/ spinach dip
S- 100 calorie Yoplait yogurt
Dinner wasn't healthy, but I knew it wouldn't be so I purpossfully saved my calories earleir in the day to splurge a little tonight without going over my calories. About 1400 in all which is good. One thing I realized today is that I tend to eat when I'm supposed to, rather than when I'm hungry or not. So I decided I'd eat less for lunch, have a snack, then dinner. Usually when I have my afternoon snack I'm not even hungry, it's just something I have to do. Hopefully this saves some calories- we'll see how it goes tomorrow!
Weighed in today: 159.6!!!!
I'M IN THE 150's! That was my goal for the end of the month, and though I wanted to be in the lower 150's, at least a got there with the crappy week I had last week. I weighed myself and, because I've been stuck in the 160's FOR EVER, I just naturally look at the third number to see the change. So when I did this time, I saw the 9 and freaked out because I thought it meant 169! Until I got a closer look and noticed the 5 This week is going a lot better so I'm sure I'll have no problem getting lower into the 150's by the end of the week!
Long post, but I'm done! Gotta get to bed soon for my AM workout!
-D
Does anyone else have a limited support system? Not many people know that I'm working on losing weight, but the people who do aren't very supportive. My family acts like they are, but they're always bringing home dessert, asking if I want more of something, and asking me if I'm eating enough because they don't want me to become anorexic .. well of course I'm eating enough, I'm just not eating 2,000 calories a day like before! It's HEALTHY eating, people! And my best friend and I had plans to get our nails done today, and when I told her we'd have to push the time ahead til later so I could workout. AND SHE ACTUALLY GOT UPSET! I believe her exact words were "OMG are you serious? Just starve yourself today." Ha;f jokingly, but STILL! We were with another friend at the time who also added in something like, "f*** working out". Thaaanks, lovin' the support, everyone. I know they love me and want me to be healthy, but they just don't GET IT! And of course my friend eats whatever she wants and doesn't work out, so she really doesn't understand. ARGH. At least I have the forums to find support and inspiration.
Ok, my rant is over!
WORKOUT:
Punch, Kick, Jam - 50 minutes
FOOD:
B- 1 c. Egg Beaters
S- bottom 1/2ish DD choc chip muffin
L- bag of SmartFood
D- Half a cheeseburger from Bugaboo Creek, some french fries, about 3 chunks of bread with butter, few chips w/ spinach dip
S- 100 calorie Yoplait yogurt
Dinner wasn't healthy, but I knew it wouldn't be so I purpossfully saved my calories earleir in the day to splurge a little tonight without going over my calories. About 1400 in all which is good. One thing I realized today is that I tend to eat when I'm supposed to, rather than when I'm hungry or not. So I decided I'd eat less for lunch, have a snack, then dinner. Usually when I have my afternoon snack I'm not even hungry, it's just something I have to do. Hopefully this saves some calories- we'll see how it goes tomorrow!
Weighed in today: 159.6!!!!
I'M IN THE 150's! That was my goal for the end of the month, and though I wanted to be in the lower 150's, at least a got there with the crappy week I had last week. I weighed myself and, because I've been stuck in the 160's FOR EVER, I just naturally look at the third number to see the change. So when I did this time, I saw the 9 and freaked out because I thought it meant 169! Until I got a closer look and noticed the 5
This week is going a lot better so I'm sure I'll have no problem getting lower into the 150's by the end of the week!Long post, but I'm done! Gotta get to bed soon for my AM workout!
-D
xorie
New member
I don't have much of a support system, which is why I love this website. 99% of my friends are rather skinny, or VERY skinny, and don't have to work at losing the weight. Anytime i bring up how I want to lose weight or be healthier I constantly get "omg... your fine" or she just changes the subject to herself...thanks a lot friend...
So I know where you are coming from. Just move past it, and realize that the only one who really matters in this is you. She can wait to get her nails done.
Keep up the great work! And YAAAAY for being in the 150's I be you feel like I felt the first time (a long time ago before I put all the weight back on) when I hit 189. That was the date when the weight on the scale and the weight on my driver's license actually matched! lol
keep it up!!!!
So I know where you are coming from. Just move past it, and realize that the only one who really matters in this is you. She can wait to get her nails done.
Keep up the great work! And YAAAAY for being in the 150's I be you feel like I felt the first time (a long time ago before I put all the weight back on) when I hit 189. That was the date when the weight on the scale and the weight on my driver's license actually matched! lol
keep it up!!!!
skkroll
New member
Sounds like your friends aren't very supportive! I get exactly what you mean though. I think it's just that our friends don't really understand the seriousness of your new lifestyle. I tell my friends about what I'm doing, and they just say "that's good." It doesn't really encourage me, but I think it's because they don't understand just HOW HARD I'm working towards my goal. I think once I get there and they see the results, they might be more supportive or excited for me. But that is why you have us on this forum
I think this is the best support BY FAR. Everyone is a great inspiration and these diaries are an awesome place to go to for motivation when you think you might be losing it!CONGRATS ON THE LOSS!!!! That is awesome for you
Keep it up!!!
deannnaa
New member
xorie- Thank you! And that's the same with my friends, they're all so skinny they don't even worry about what they eat or working out! AGH soo frustrating! When they tell me I'm "fine" or that I'm not fat, it's so annoying cause it's like, uh NO I'm not fine I need to lose weight!
skkroll- I'm glad others on here know where I'm coming from! You just don't really understand the process unless you have to go through it. That's what I love about these forums, everyone here knows what you're going through and is there for support and advice
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Didn't work out this morning like I planned. I was up really late reading! I just haven't read in a while so I had to squeeze some time in there at somepoint, it just ended up being way to late :/ Oh well, not gonna beat myself up. Found out I have to work Sunday, which was my day to just REST from this busy busy week and work out, but I'm not so sure the working out will happen. I guess three days this week is better than my one day last week!
WORKOUT:
NONE
FOOD:
B- 1 c. Egg Beaters. 2 slices wheat toast w/ jelly and butter
L- Cheesy garlic bread
S- 1.5 c. Cheerios w/ skim milk and sugar
D- 1.25 c. Egg Beaters, slice of wheat toast w/ jelly and butter, slice of pepperoni pizza
S- 100 calorie Yoplait yogurt
Sooo, I figured that since I was working today it's be ok to have a bigger lunch since I wouldn't be home to do any extra snacking before dinner .. and I wasn't, except I stupidly decided to have a slice of pizza on top of dinner? WTF. I actually intended to have a few bites (yeah right) but ended up eating the whole thing. There was another piece set aside for me, but I didn't touch it, so I guess that's a good thing. I just wanna kick myself when I make dumb decisions, but it actually just shows me what works for me through trial and error. Tomorrow is my cheat day, and I plan on "cheating" with a bagel from DD for breakfast, baked Lays and a cookie for lunch, and then something good for dinner! Definitely nothing too bad because I went over my 1200-1300 daily calories most days this week :X but only u to like, 1400-1500 daily so it's not terrible.
Off to bed- goodnight!
-D
skkroll- I'm glad others on here know where I'm coming from! You just don't really understand the process unless you have to go through it. That's what I love about these forums, everyone here knows what you're going through and is there for support and advice
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Didn't work out this morning like I planned. I was up really late reading! I just haven't read in a while so I had to squeeze some time in there at somepoint, it just ended up being way to late :/ Oh well, not gonna beat myself up. Found out I have to work Sunday, which was my day to just REST from this busy busy week and work out, but I'm not so sure the working out will happen. I guess three days this week is better than my one day last week!
WORKOUT:
NONE
FOOD:
B- 1 c. Egg Beaters. 2 slices wheat toast w/ jelly and butter
L- Cheesy garlic bread
S- 1.5 c. Cheerios w/ skim milk and sugar
D- 1.25 c. Egg Beaters, slice of wheat toast w/ jelly and butter, slice of pepperoni pizza
S- 100 calorie Yoplait yogurt
Sooo, I figured that since I was working today it's be ok to have a bigger lunch since I wouldn't be home to do any extra snacking before dinner .. and I wasn't, except I stupidly decided to have a slice of pizza on top of dinner? WTF. I actually intended to have a few bites (yeah right) but ended up eating the whole thing. There was another piece set aside for me, but I didn't touch it, so I guess that's a good thing. I just wanna kick myself when I make dumb decisions, but it actually just shows me what works for me through trial and error. Tomorrow is my cheat day, and I plan on "cheating" with a bagel from DD for breakfast, baked Lays and a cookie for lunch, and then something good for dinner! Definitely nothing too bad because I went over my 1200-1300 daily calories most days this week :X but only u to like, 1400-1500 daily so it's not terrible.
Off to bed- goodnight!
-D
Cord the Seeker
New member
Hi, Deanna
I just went through your diary, and you are doing really well so far. You're seeing real results and keeping your positive energy up.
May I make a suggestion, though?
Looking through your diet, you are eating a lot of processed foods. Try to incorporate less of those (personally, I would say drop all that stuff like chew bars and such, but you have to do what is going to be workable for you), and more fresh fruits and vegtables, which I hardly see in your diet at all.
Otherwise, you are doing great. Keep it up.
I just went through your diary, and you are doing really well so far. You're seeing real results and keeping your positive energy up.
May I make a suggestion, though?
Looking through your diet, you are eating a lot of processed foods. Try to incorporate less of those (personally, I would say drop all that stuff like chew bars and such, but you have to do what is going to be workable for you), and more fresh fruits and vegtables, which I hardly see in your diet at all.
Otherwise, you are doing great. Keep it up.
deannnaa
New member
cord the seeker: Hey! Thanks for stopping by! I agree, I definitely need more fruits and veggies in my diet. I guess I just find it hard to incorporate them in :/ I actually love fruit and some vegetables but I feel like they aren't enough to satisfy me so I don't eat much. I'm gonna start though! And the good news is I haven't had a Chewy bar in a while since I don't even buy them anymore! I ate too much so I figured I should just stop buying them.
Eating this weekend: BAD
Exercising this weeked: NON EXISTANT
Not even going to post what I ate since it's too awful and I can't even remember everything and it's TOTM which I'm using as an excuse for such bad eating, even though it's like this almost every weekend. WTF, why can't I control myself on the weekends?! I didn't plan on working out atlal this weekend cause I was too busy, so that doesn't bother me too much.
What worries me is that when I work during the week, I can never get up the next morning to work out and that is fine except when I have to work the next day again. I'm too tired to wake up early int he AM and I have too much work and I'm too tired to workout at night when I get home. I'm gonna have to buy several alarm clocks and place them by my head if I plan to wake up at 4:50 the next morning, seeing as how I don't even HEAR the alarm. Damn.
Planning on getting up in the AM to workout! But it's my day off tomorrow so I'm not too worried about not getting up since I can workout at night!
-D
Eating this weekend: BAD
Exercising this weeked: NON EXISTANT
Not even going to post what I ate since it's too awful and I can't even remember everything and it's TOTM which I'm using as an excuse for such bad eating, even though it's like this almost every weekend. WTF, why can't I control myself on the weekends?! I didn't plan on working out atlal this weekend cause I was too busy, so that doesn't bother me too much.
What worries me is that when I work during the week, I can never get up the next morning to work out and that is fine except when I have to work the next day again. I'm too tired to wake up early int he AM and I have too much work and I'm too tired to workout at night when I get home. I'm gonna have to buy several alarm clocks and place them by my head if I plan to wake up at 4:50 the next morning, seeing as how I don't even HEAR the alarm. Damn.
Planning on getting up in the AM to workout! But it's my day off tomorrow so I'm not too worried about not getting up since I can workout at night!
-D
deannnaa
New member
fadedstar: thank you! YES I know all too well how that goes .. This weekend was a prime example. I'm gonna have to actually plan out my meals to keep me in check!
So I finally worked out tonuight! It's been what like, 5 days?! Wow, not goood. I wanted to get up early to workout but that didn't happen, so I exercised around 8:30 and man did I have A LOT of energy. Such a good workout! I'm thinking maybe I should try and work out at night and see how that goes. The only thing is I like being able to just get it out of my way, so at night I can just relax. And of course, it won't work on days when I work til 8 or 9. Those days I'll just have to get up early (like tomorrow, ughh) This whole process has been a HUGE trial and error thing- it's hard trying to figure out what works best for me and gets me the best results. But I'm trying!
Last night = not so great eating/no workout .. moving on.
WORKOUT:
Cardio Party - 50 minutes
FOOD:
B- 1.5ish c. Cheerios w/ skim milk + sugar
S- Raspberry NutriGrain bar
L- DD Cinnamon raisin bage w/ plain cream cheese (the DD I went to has smaller-than-other-DD bagels and put waaaay less cream cheese, so the calories weren't TOO bad, but still a bad choice)
S- Raspberry square, 2 tiny butter cookies
D- ham, mashed potatoes, broccolli
S- few handfuls Fiber One Caramel something cereal, 100 calorie yogurt, 1.5 c. Fiber One cereal w/ skim milk
Waaay too many calories, like, 500 more than I'm supposed to eat :X I bought the wrong kind of Fiber One (wanted the plain, original kind) which has hardly any calories or anything, but I ended up with the 220 calorie kind .. AWESOME. I'm thinking though, that if I have that for breakfast, I won't be famished by lunch, therefore leading me to make better food choices and not devour my meal as if it was my last one. Another theory of mine I'll have to put to the test tomorrow!
I definitely need to workout longer. Don't get me wrong, my workouts are crazy high-impact and drench me in sweat, but 50 minutes?! Maybe I shouldn't bring this up now, since I'm still trying to work on quieting the voice that tried to convince me that working out is pointless (little voices .. yeah sounds like I'm crazy, but I promise it's not like that! haha) One of my plans (have lots of those, clearly) was/is to work out for about 50 min in the AM do some high-intensity cardio, then at night do strength training or Pilates for half an hour, since I can always find time to squeeze in 30 minutes. I'm going to try my HARDEST to stick with that tomorrow!
I need suggestions: what do you do when you get the urge to eat when you know you shouldn't and/or when you aren't even hungry? Also, when you're eating, how do you get yourself to just put down the food, even if there's some left, because you aren't hungry anymore? I struggle SOOO much with this, any tips would be greatly appreciated
Off to bed before the energy from my work out kicks in and keeps me up all night!
-D
YES I know all too well how that goes .. This weekend was a prime example. I'm gonna have to actually plan out my meals to keep me in check!So I finally worked out tonuight! It's been what like, 5 days?! Wow, not goood. I wanted to get up early to workout but that didn't happen, so I exercised around 8:30 and man did I have A LOT of energy. Such a good workout! I'm thinking maybe I should try and work out at night and see how that goes. The only thing is I like being able to just get it out of my way, so at night I can just relax. And of course, it won't work on days when I work til 8 or 9. Those days I'll just have to get up early (like tomorrow, ughh) This whole process has been a HUGE trial and error thing- it's hard trying to figure out what works best for me and gets me the best results. But I'm trying!
Last night = not so great eating/no workout .. moving on.
WORKOUT:
Cardio Party - 50 minutes
FOOD:
B- 1.5ish c. Cheerios w/ skim milk + sugar
S- Raspberry NutriGrain bar
L- DD Cinnamon raisin bage w/ plain cream cheese (the DD I went to has smaller-than-other-DD bagels and put waaaay less cream cheese, so the calories weren't TOO bad, but still a bad choice)
S- Raspberry square, 2 tiny butter cookies
D- ham, mashed potatoes, broccolli
S- few handfuls Fiber One Caramel something cereal, 100 calorie yogurt, 1.5 c. Fiber One cereal w/ skim milk
Waaay too many calories, like, 500 more than I'm supposed to eat :X I bought the wrong kind of Fiber One (wanted the plain, original kind) which has hardly any calories or anything, but I ended up with the 220 calorie kind .. AWESOME. I'm thinking though, that if I have that for breakfast, I won't be famished by lunch, therefore leading me to make better food choices and not devour my meal as if it was my last one. Another theory of mine I'll have to put to the test tomorrow!
I definitely need to workout longer. Don't get me wrong, my workouts are crazy high-impact and drench me in sweat, but 50 minutes?! Maybe I shouldn't bring this up now, since I'm still trying to work on quieting the voice that tried to convince me that working out is pointless (little voices .. yeah sounds like I'm crazy, but I promise it's not like that! haha) One of my plans (have lots of those, clearly) was/is to work out for about 50 min in the AM do some high-intensity cardio, then at night do strength training or Pilates for half an hour, since I can always find time to squeeze in 30 minutes. I'm going to try my HARDEST to stick with that tomorrow!
I need suggestions: what do you do when you get the urge to eat when you know you shouldn't and/or when you aren't even hungry? Also, when you're eating, how do you get yourself to just put down the food, even if there's some left, because you aren't hungry anymore? I struggle SOOO much with this, any tips would be greatly appreciated
Off to bed before the energy from my work out kicks in and keeps me up all night!
-D
deannnaa
New member
Soooo, I've worked out ONCE in the past three days and I haven't eaten well at all. I'm averaging about 1600 calories a day which is at least 300 calories more than I'm supposed to. 1600 isn't terrible, but it's frustrating when I don't stay in my limits. As for exercise, I have a hard time trying to find time! I did work out Wednesday night, which i wasn't planning, as I had to work late, but I got out an hour earlier than scheduled so I did my 30 minute workout. Since then, though, no exercise AHHH. I'm so scared this is gonna be like the 39 other weight loss attempts I've made, but I'm DETERMINED to lsoe weight for good this time! I think I even made a few "breakthroughs" in regards to what works for me in losing weight.
WORKOUT:
NONE ):
FOOD:
B- 1.25 c. Fiber One Caramel cereal w/ skim milk
S- 100 calorie Yoplait yogurt, 1 c. Fiber One Caramel cereal
L- DD ham + swiss flatbread sandwhich
D- Macaroni w/ butter + cheddar cheese, broccolli w/ some butter and little but if cheese
S- Klondike bar, 100 calorie Yoplait yogurt
Today was like, 1800 calories? BAD BAD BAD. I didn't even really want that Klondike bar, but oh well. I have a wedding to go to tomorrow, so I planned on that being the "cheat" day for this week instead of Friday, but I should hardly count it as one since this whole week as basically been one cheat day after another for me >:O BUT I'm gonna have some cake and still take my cheat day, cause I need a break from constantly thinking about what I'm going to be able to eat that day and when and blah blah blah. Going to get back on track Sunday though, PROMISE! Like, really on track post-on-boards-everyday workout-five/six-days-a-week weigh-in-only-on-Sundays deal. I really have to set some rules for myself and STICK WITH THEM! I'm kinda proud about posting something tonight because I literally had to force myself to, since I was being lazy. It's kind of the same with exercise, so this is like a small step!
Night!
-D
WORKOUT:
NONE ):
FOOD:
B- 1.25 c. Fiber One Caramel cereal w/ skim milk
S- 100 calorie Yoplait yogurt, 1 c. Fiber One Caramel cereal
L- DD ham + swiss flatbread sandwhich
D- Macaroni w/ butter + cheddar cheese, broccolli w/ some butter and little but if cheese
S- Klondike bar, 100 calorie Yoplait yogurt
Today was like, 1800 calories? BAD BAD BAD. I didn't even really want that Klondike bar, but oh well. I have a wedding to go to tomorrow, so I planned on that being the "cheat" day for this week instead of Friday, but I should hardly count it as one since this whole week as basically been one cheat day after another for me >:O BUT I'm gonna have some cake and still take my cheat day, cause I need a break from constantly thinking about what I'm going to be able to eat that day and when and blah blah blah. Going to get back on track Sunday though, PROMISE! Like, really on track post-on-boards-everyday workout-five/six-days-a-week weigh-in-only-on-Sundays deal. I really have to set some rules for myself and STICK WITH THEM! I'm kinda proud about posting something tonight because I literally had to force myself to, since I was being lazy. It's kind of the same with exercise, so this is like a small step!
Night!
-D
thecabbie
New member
Deanna, were you known as Deannax before? or something like that? 'coz I think I remember you from a huge team challenge we did last winter.
Re: support systems, yeah thats why I came here originally. because people at home were actually getting sick of hearing me talking about working out, or what I was doing to lose weight. It has become habit now, and I stuck to my guns, but I definitely get where you are coming from.
Re: support systems, yeah thats why I came here originally. because people at home were actually getting sick of hearing me talking about working out, or what I was doing to lose weight. It has become habit now, and I stuck to my guns, but I definitely get where you are coming from.