DCarr10760's Weight loss diary

Dave! You and I are birds of a feather. I read that us who like alcohol a lot are actually SUGAR ADDICTS and the treatment (I don't think there is a real cure, except IRON WILLPOWER which us, being hedonistic, do not have all the time! ;) ) is complex carbohydrates. Sugars, but low on the Glycemic index, and lots and lots of fiber. IF you decided to bring brown rice dishes, salads, and your favorite fruit to work, and ate like that religiously, you might find it much easier to resist doughnuts and junk like that. Or not. This is merely a suggestion, but I highly recommend it as it is working for me thus far. Well, anyway, we're rooting for your success!!!
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Valerie
 
Thanks for the article, I will read it later when bloodflow to my brain is at normal levels.

Yes, I am hung over. On a scale of 1 to 10, 1 being very mild, 10 being, "please just shoot me and put me out of my fakk'n misery" I'm at a 6.

So all in all, not so bad.

I did have a great time last night. I went to "Italian Night" at the Elks Club. My friend Dave is a member and we go there often when we go out together. Dinner is like 8 bucks, beers (pints) are $2.50.

The food was nothing special, but Dave and I go a long way back (over 30 years). It's great to spend time with him. We used to be real regular drinking buds, but family, kids, jobs and life in general whittled that back to 3 or 4 times a year. Sigh...

Elks club is funny, Dave and I at 47 are the youngest guys there by decades. Here amongst all you nubile young things, I feel like a geezer!

Oh well, no clue about how many calories I ate or drank and no walk this AM while my body deals with the poisons in my system. But today is a new day, I will feel better soon and we move on!

Have a great day all!

David C
 
Yesterday was better.

Very rainy stormy night. Ate perfectly through the day then had 3 pieces of veggie pizza for dinner so not perfect, but not at all bad.

I was going to spend most of the weekend working on renovating the front porch (I'm restoring our old house, sloooowly). But SWMBO has to work with her boss Monday and Tuesday, so she'll be busy studying and prepping. So I'll be Super-Dad instead.

Still in a funny sorta funky mood, I think I'm coming out of it though. Weird!

Have a nice weekend all!

David C
 
Yep, nearly swallowed my dentures when I read that... ;) jk Val :hug2:

So far my weekend has been okay. Did manage to get some work in on the house projects.

This am when I went out for my walk it was a beautiful clear sky, you could see all the stars and as I was walking I saw a shooting star, then another!

I remembered reading that there was going to be a meteor shower soon (the Orionids).

I was glad to see it. Makes me happy somehow.

So yesterday was better diet wise than the day before. I've been on a slow trajectory back toward eating well. So that's good. I'm slowly coming out of my funky mood too.

Hope everybody's enjoying their weekend!

David C
 
Today was my best day of eating in a long time and with the exception of a very large Martini at the In-Lays at dinner, ate completely "on plan."

Tomorrow I will be even better.

Good night all!

David C
 
Today was my best day of eating in a long time and with the exception of a very large Martini at the In-Lays at dinner, ate completely "on plan."

Tomorrow I will be even better.

Good night all!

David C

Wow David, that's awesome! I must say, who doesn't need a large Martini while visiting the in-laws sometimes (though mine are really nice). Shiat, good going that you had just one! Have a good night yourself :).
 
Wow David, that's awesome! I must say, who doesn't need a large Martini while visiting the in-laws sometimes (though mine are really nice). Shiat, good going that you had just one! Have a good night yourself :).

Lol, mine are nice too, I get along great with the FIL, SWMBO's step-dad. SWMBO and her Mom are pretty much indistinguishable (apart from their ages) so FIL and I have plenty to commiserate about...the Martini's help.

I rarely drink Martini's except there and Hells Kitchen (restaurant) on 9th Ave in the mid 40s somewhere. Great Happy hour, tiny bar, decent Mexican food. Walking distance from the Javits Center.

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So, the best laid plans...

Was gonna go on a walk this AM, but Davy woke up at three with a bad cough and was up until 5:30. SWMBO is resting up for her big day working with her supervisor, so I am the night shift...and the day shift, sigh.

So I will keep the food on plan and will have to play catch-up with the work outs.

Hope you all have a good Monday (contradiction in terms, I understand...)

David
 
Congrats on the eating well! Good one!!

Dentures, indeed! :rolleyes: My mom was only 22 when she had me--what a bummer! LOL!!!

Have a great Monday yourself!
 
Hey handsome,

good job with the eating on plan. :) So my crackhead ass is back in gear to torment and harass you... ;) By the way... guys with dentures are hot.. reason being.. well ummm... yah.... GUM IT, BABY!!! Grrrrrr! hahaaaa Wishing you a wonderful day, doll.

-Sheryl
 
Lol, Sheryl Glad you're back! Makes a man want to knock out his teeth!...

I think I'm back on track. I've been really sluggish and lazy and feeling all weird and introspective. But this morning I got up and was in my workout clothes in a flash. All last week it was a struggle getting out of bed. This AM it wasn't. I'd been craving junk and now I'm not.

Strange. We'll see how the day progresses, but at this moment, I feel good.

I had a nice walk.

Later Dudes and Dudettes!

David C
 
Rowing a boat...

In a post in the "On Topic" forum I used a couple of boat-related analogies to describe weight loss.

I have one more...rowing a boat. I am all about analogies, especially maritime analogies, probably comes from growing up and living near the water.

When you row a boat (I'm not talking competitive rowing here, just conveyance) there are phases, which I will make up bullshit terms for.

The "power phase" where the oars are in the water, you're pushing against the blocks and really leaning back into it in a burst of energy, and driving the boat forward.

The "pause phase" not with every stroke, but occasionally, you pause after the power phase and you watch the world go by, catch your breath, turn around and check your heading. The boat is still moving forward from the momentum of the recent power phase, but you are "resting on your oars."

The "recharge phase" preparing to take another stroke, at this point you are coiling your body, pushing the oars up and forward, getting ready to cut in and stroke again. For a moment as you coil up you are moving your body contrary to the motion of the boat-moving backwards. But it is necessary in order to be ready to pull again.

Weight loss (along with a lot of life's endeavors), seems to me, is very much like that. Sometimes you are driving forward, doing everything right, moving well and sometimes you are resting on your oars. Sometimes you are preparing to move forward even though it might seem like you're not.

It is all well and good. All except for the current. If you are running with the current you make rapid progress. You can pause and still move forward, But if the current is against you, if you take too many pauses and too long to recharge, you stop moving forward and can even move backward!

Life is the current, your emotions are the current. Things you do not consciously control that bear against you.

Then there is fatigue. You can fight against the current until you exhaust yourself out or you can change your bearing so as not to fight the current head on. Row longer at less intensity. Progress slows but you don't go backward, you just don't go forward real fast either. But you can manage.

I guess that's where I am. Struggling against the current, tacking back and forth not making any obvious progress toward my goal, but still moving, every once in awhile diving straight in and getting ahead, but burning out and losing some ground. Then resuming. Getting tired. The trouble is that if I stop rowing, I will drift backward with the current into morbid obesity. My own personal current is very strong.

Up half the night with an ill child. Some rest would be good. But not today.

David C.
 
I was 240 again this morning, so...yay.

Walked in the rain this AM. Wasn't so bad.

Trouble at home...

I may be spotty in my attendance for awhile.

David C
 
take care of home - everything else will stil be here whn you get back...

nice post about rowing -I'm n ot sure I agree with
The trouble is that if I stop rowing, I will drift backward with the current into morbid obesity.
Currents are funny things -if your habits have changed - you might go sideways, you might go forward, backwards isn't the only place to go...
 
Thanks for the information in my diary David. Hope things clear up at home soon :).

Keep up your plan in the meantime, you're doing great so far!
 
Rainy morning, didn't feel like subjecting myself to walking in it...

Decided that I'd go downstairs and do 30 minutes of lifecycle and workout a bit with the weights.

I managed 6 minutes on the bike and a partial set of squats before I said to myself, "fuck this...I just don't want to do it!"

I tried to write a bit in my journal (paper) but the words didn't come...

I weighed myself this AM and I was 244 again so I am cycling between 238 and 246, it's been over a month now. So something isn't working. I haven't been cheating foods. I haven't been perfect but I am not eating what my maintenance is supposed to be for a 240 lb guy. I don't know what is wrong and must guess that my body has adapted to what I am doing now.

I don't have the energy to do more and I can't seem to allow myself to do less. So I am paused. Stasis. (A great word meaning immobility caused by the meeting of equal but opposing forces). Rowing against the current.

In my last post I alluded to trouble at home. Trouble of course is relative. I heard a story on NPR about a Cali-family who was evacuated from the home they had just purchased and returned to an ash heap, all their stuff, baby and wedding pictures, all the family stuff gone- everything. Their toddler son was still in the PJs that they fled in.

No, in reality, my life is a fucking paradise. SWMBO is in danger of losing her job due to massive layoffs (40%) in the sales force, where she works (Pharmaceutical Sales). We have plenty of money, there's no tragedy here, my job is secure and enough.

I wish she would get laid off, spend some years with Davy (in idle moments she has wished this aloud) but she has big dreams about retiring early with a big nest egg, living in Europe. She is watching that dream burn.

I try to suggest that she view this as an opportunity, to spend some time as a Mother, not worry about work, then when Davy goes to school find a part time job doing something fun she enjoys. Even if it is a big cut in pay (it would be) if it helps with the expenses it would be enough.

But her self worth is all tied up in financial success. So she's not ready to think about the future. Just the loss. And it hasn't even happened yet. It might not.

Boo fuckin' hoo! We may not be able to afford the vacation home...pity me!

This is not my life...

I guess we all have fires, some burn from inside.

David
 
Ya know what? This'll all work ITSELF out. The company will decide whether its laying her off or not, in due course, and if she gets layed off then she'll probably end up staying home for a while before she even considers going back to work. Its a pain in the ass getting resumes together and making contacts, plus its scary starting at a new job, so she'll probably end up slacking on getting a new one. Maybe not the years you would like but some more time with Davey. I personally wouldn't want to stay home for years myself. I wouldn't mind part-time forever though, which is practically what I do now since I usually have fridays off and often have another day off as well. But for full-time pay he he. Guess she'll be upset in the meantime but it'll all go according to the Master Plan regardless. LOL
 
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