Shudda Cudda Wudda...
More than likely in your early 20s you weren't in the right place iin your head to make the changes you've made now...
As the old expression says - you are where you are... and every ends up where they are from a different point in their life...
You wil get where you want to be...
True dat.
I used to say this kind of shit all the time. "Man, if I knew then what I know now I'd be a monster."
Truth be told though, I don't know that. There's more to life than knowledge. Our actions are influenced by much more than what we know. I'm happy with who and where I am now and everything in the past culminated who I am today, so I really have no regrets.