dragonlover
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Okay here goes nothing...I have finally decided to start a diary to see if it helps with my motavation at all. I started my journey of weight gain about 12 years ago when I got pregnant with my first kid. I didn't gain alot while pregnant and I lost it all right after. Two months after my son was born I hit a bout of depression brought on by a move out of my hometown and away from all of my family and friends.
11 years, 5 kids,a divorce, and a love of food later I finally decided that it was time for me to make a change in my life.I had gained over 70 pounds. I started thinking more about my weight around this time last year. I chose not to go on a "diet" or a plan of any kind because I wanted the change I made to be a lifetime change and not a quick fix. I didn't really do much to begin with. I started to pay more attention to what I was eating and how much I was eating and when I was eating. I really learned alot about my behaviors by doing this and realized that my eating habits suck!!
I eat when I am hungry. I eat when I am bored. I eat when I watch T.V. I eat when the kids eat. I eat even when I am not hungry(do you see a pattern here?! )
So the first change I made was to start to drink more water and to cut down on my soda consumption. I now drink maybe one soda a week. Maybe. I started taking daily vitamins next. Just those two small changes were enough to make me notice a difference in the way I felt everyday. I then decided it was time to go with something a bit bigger! I quit eating ice cream everyday! When I say everyday I guess I should also say how much I LOVE ice cream. I ate it at least twice a day sometimes more depending on my mood. And of course it wasn't like a bite or two it was a scoop or two twice a day . Oh I still eat it but now it is like once a week and it is A SCOOP no more!
I never bought a scale for my home because I was afraid that I would become obsessed with my weight and would let it turn to unhealthy practices if I did. The first time I realized that my jeans were getting loose and that I might be able to fit in a smaller size was the first time in a long time that I felt good about myself. In June 2006 I wore a size 22 in womens jeans. Today I wear a 16 in juniors!
Since last June I have lost almost 35 pounds. I love how I feel. I love the looks and comments from people I haven't seen in a while. I love the smaller clothes and being able to go shopping for the smaller sizes.
Now we get to today. I haven't had any real loss in weeks. I gain a few. I lose a few. I really hate these 5 pounds that keep trying to stick around . I am losing any motavation I had toward this journey. I have tried to keep my goals small. My first goal was to feel better about myself. I have achieved that goal and maintained it. My second goal is to change my eating habits. I have done ok with this one. I have started eating smaller portions and stopped eating the fried foods that I like to eat! My goal for my weight loss is to be down to 175 by the end of the year. I am having a hard time with this one. I want to achieve this goal but my motivation is disappearing. I finally broke down and bought a scale for my house and have tried not to step on it everyday and to not let the days I have gained weight bring me down but somedays it is hard.
I am determined to get back on track and get where I want to be in life! My lifetime weight-loss goal is to be back down to 140 pounds. I will be happy with 150 too!
11 years, 5 kids,a divorce, and a love of food later I finally decided that it was time for me to make a change in my life.I had gained over 70 pounds. I started thinking more about my weight around this time last year. I chose not to go on a "diet" or a plan of any kind because I wanted the change I made to be a lifetime change and not a quick fix. I didn't really do much to begin with. I started to pay more attention to what I was eating and how much I was eating and when I was eating. I really learned alot about my behaviors by doing this and realized that my eating habits suck!!
I eat when I am hungry. I eat when I am bored. I eat when I watch T.V. I eat when the kids eat. I eat even when I am not hungry(do you see a pattern here?! )So the first change I made was to start to drink more water and to cut down on my soda consumption. I now drink maybe one soda a week. Maybe. I started taking daily vitamins next. Just those two small changes were enough to make me notice a difference in the way I felt everyday. I then decided it was time to go with something a bit bigger! I quit eating ice cream
everyday! When I say everyday I guess I should also say how much I LOVE ice cream. I ate it at least twice a day sometimes more depending on my mood. And of course it wasn't like a bite or two it was a scoop or two twice a day . Oh I still eat it but now it is like once a week and it is A SCOOP no more!I never bought a scale for my home because I was afraid that I would become obsessed with my weight and would let it turn to unhealthy practices if I did. The first time I realized that my jeans were getting loose and that I might be able to fit in a smaller size was the first time in a long time that I felt good about myself. In June 2006 I wore a size 22 in womens jeans. Today I wear a 16 in juniors!
Since last June I have lost almost 35 pounds. I love how I feel. I love the looks and comments from people I haven't seen in a while. I love the smaller clothes and being able to go shopping for the smaller sizes.
Now we get to today. I haven't had any real loss in weeks. I gain a few. I lose a few. I really hate these 5 pounds that keep trying to stick around
. I am losing any motavation I had toward this journey. I have tried to keep my goals small. My first goal was to feel better about myself. I have achieved that goal and maintained it. My second goal is to change my eating habits. I have done ok with this one. I have started eating smaller portions and stopped eating the fried foods that I like to eat! My goal for my weight loss is to be down to 175 by the end of the year. I am having a hard time with this one. I want to achieve this goal but my motivation is disappearing. I finally broke down and bought a scale for my house and have tried not to step on it everyday and to not let the days I have gained weight bring me down but somedays it is hard.I am determined to get back on track and get where I want to be in life! My lifetime weight-loss goal is to be back down to 140 pounds. I will be happy with 150 too!
I feel so dumb!!
he really thinks he is funny........I don't think so.
I have decided that I won't change my ticker until I can maintain the loss for a couple of more days just to make sure that those two pounds are really gone! I have really been having a hard time with losing lately. I am crossong my fingers that they are gone for good!!