I am (JUST ABOUT) a true size 8
OK, I am still sick--went to the Cypress Lounge to see my fav DJs and the special guest "DZ," and PZ and I ended up chillin on the couch for the most part. PZ is such a great sport--a down ass Beezey fah sheezy However, I suspect that he may have possessive feelings for me that have yet to be manifested negatively. Scorpios are known to have a kinda silent, brooding side to them although I've met my fair share of bubbly, extroverted ones. PZ ALSO is a double Scorpio because he has a Scorpio rising, and he definitely exhibits certain key characteristics. Here are the archetypes for Scorpio that
I learned about:
Scorpio is the only sign that has three animal totems. First, there is the well-known Scorpion with its active tail. Second, as the Scorpio learns to master its passion and hold its instincts at bay, it changes into the Eagle. The Eagle has more perspective, for it flies high above the surface of circumstances, swooping down with its power only to kill prey for food. In its third form, the Scorpion becomes the always-peaceful dove. The real meaning of Scorpio is thus shown. Scorpio is about metamorphosis. Scorpios transform the painful poisons of possessive passion into a higher consciousness based on universal love.
I'd say PZ is a "Peaceful Dove," LOL! And part Eagle--he's truly a wise and wonderful man--I can see the potential for "possessive passion" in him I guess, but equally, I sense he's definitely on a higher Love Consciousness.
The Scorpio motto might be "What is hidden is more interesting than what is obvious." You are the detectives of the zodiac. Your magnetic personality draws others to you. But you can also be secretive yourself, for you learn early on that when you express everything, others may be scared by the power of your feelings. You desperately want to have someone to merge with your feelings, but can become cold and withdrawn when hurt in love. You have the magic to light up the dark, but sometimes you would benefit by looking at the positive side of things rather than going into the darkness at all.
PZ is definitely magnetic (I was like a moth to a light bulb

) and perceptive. When we're hanging out he can be quiet, then he'll bust out with a statement about an observation he made on someone that is
100%-bullshit-and-sugar-coating FREE.

--WITHOUT being rude or juvenile. He doesn't miss much. I swear,
anytime we've met someone fake, rude, annoying, mean, or insecure, he's
straight called it (later, in private, after a long thoughtful silence) without seeming like he's judging. More like dead-panning a keen observation. I LIKE that about him. It is also flattering to
me, because he always says I'm "the bomb", thinks I'm top notch, and seems to like what I have to say, unless I start to go off on how wonderful Yoga is

I'm definitely sensing the boredom (although he actually practiced on his own 2 nights ago because he thought it might help his back, WHOO HOO!) when I do that and I'm gonna cut back the Yoga talk because I don't want to be annoying



HAHA! But yeah, on the secrecy: PZ more often seems to be thinking and feeling more than verbally expressing his emotions about and toward me (he does say things, just not often). I have no problem with that. As a matter of fact, I'm shy about deep emotional displays--after the melodramatic mishaps with the ex I'm
fini with that shit!

However, I keep getting subconscious hints that he might be.....oh how do I put this? That he desires a deeper emotional connection with me. And right now at this exact moment in our relationship, I'm not feelin' it. Sigh. Do I feel bad about this? Nah I have a healthy outlook on the situation. I'm going to be the best girlfriend I can be, and allow my own feelings to expand (or not) naturally at my own pace. If he has problems are starts to express them, I'm going to be reasonable, open, honest, and cerebral about it. That's the best I can do and seems right to me.
Anyway, I stopped by Chris's house for a visit, and Chris has the capabilities of a tailor. Ha! He even asked me, "does that make me a fag?" in all seriousness. I laughed heartedly and was like, "HELL no!" Anyway he knows how to take measurements properly........
I AM A SIZE 8
Just about--I thought that I might be smaller but the proof is in the pudding. I think the "average American woman" is more like a 12, I'm not sure. From "The average size for a woman has been considered an 8, with ASTM standards listing that size as a bust of 35 inches, a 27-inch waist, and 37.5 inch hips."
Here are my measurements, at 141.5 lbs and 5'6.5":
True chest (taken above my breasts, under the armpits)
33"
Bust (over largest part of my breasts)
35.5"
Waist, (smallest part)
28"
True Hips (just above the hip bones)
33"
Hips (over largest part of my booty)
38"
and a few extras:
Biceps (both were the same!)
11"
Thigh (largest part)
23.5"
Calves
14.5"
Fifty years ago, I think I would have been considered a large girl. Today, I am in the high range of medium, but in comparison to the Average American Woman, I'm smaller--by a lot. I think. I know lots of women here on WLF are very displeased with their measurements and weight even though they love their bodies AS IS, which is a difficult balancing act and a theme in Yoga:
"Love yourself as perfect how you are. Simultaneously, with courage and focus, make moves to practice deep with effortless effort into improving onceself." This is the philosophy of Yoga. In my opinion, this should be in the hearts of anyone wanting to lose fat and get fit. This is the mentality I am currently working with, and I've never been happier, nor have I ever felt more satisfied with my outlook.
But back to earth and possible contradictory insecurities, LOL! I'm happy with my body. The only thing I'd like is a smaller waist, but the thing is, my build is just not hour-glassy; more like a young tree's trunk, LOL! The front of my belly is pretty fucking lean--the only bunny chub Chris and I could discern was my lower back, which is (well, "was", let's give me a break I'm in decent shape) my "trouble spot." I suspect with the loss of 6.5 more pounds, I'd likely be about 35"x27"x37.5", a "true" size 8--maybe smaller, we'll see (IF I make it to 135 lbs).
End results: I'm happy the way I am. I also want to be 135 lbs just ONCE, please, before I die. Please?