Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me

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Diet: Just about 2100 calories, so yes I made it, but for the second day in a row it's at the high end. My needs are still probably around 2300 per day, but I am TOO SICK to strain myself with cardio--my lungs are jacked up :ack2: I've already lost 4 pounds, there is NOTHING wrong with keeping my weight stable for this week until I get well enough to push myself. RIGHT? It is really hard to diet when I feel so crappy! :cuss: At the very least, I'm still getting in deficits. Small ones, but deficits nonetheless.

Weight: Dunno, PZ don't have a scale. It's fine, one shouldn't weigh herself everyday unless she's about to go on a bender of eating, and wants to catch herself! :lurk5:

Yoga: Mangala pushed us to hold some standing poses quite long until my thighs burned like crazy (but then, I go deep into the Virabhadrasanas and keep my thigh parallel to the floor). But Delena (the ass kicker with Ashtanga Yoga) is still in Thailand and Indonesia until Valentine's Day, and so far none of her substitutes have been as hard on us as she is, heh. I like the subs so far, many of them have series that feel REALLY GOOD. Having a desk job for as many years (3) as I've had might have FUCKED ME UP by now, but my activity after (and at rare times, before) work has kept me in good shape. I don't mean shape like fit, I mean "good shape" as in not all screwed up from sitting in a chair typing. Some days I'm stiff and or sore--then after evening Yoga I'm ALL BETTER :) until the next day.

Tonight: Chris and I are going to the climbing gym (finally) and I'm going to boulder. He might teach me to belay so I can pass my test. We'll see. That's at 5:30, then at 7:30 there is Yoga 2 with the substitute Maria--I remember her from last week. I really liked her style, she made us do a ton of Vinyasas so I expect to sweat tonight. I don't feel up to it, but I'm gonna do it anyway. I can't wait to kick this SECOND COLD. Fuck :cuss:
 
Hey Val, well i read the last 3 pages of your diary , i do this everytime, I hesitate to come in and dont cuz it takes me forever to catch up on your crazy life and fast diary, lol

Ok lets see if I can remeber the things i was gonna comment on,

I will start with the obvious, Korrie and a gay bar/fetish party...uuummm i think tha twill be the day:)LOL!


(no offence Korrie, but you are so straight laced and such, LOL...well you know, I just cant picture you in either situation:)

CONGRATS on your BIG weight loss:hug2:You deserve it and it is hard work to get it off:D

What else was there...

Oh Ive always wanted to try climbing but im afraid of my weight, *UGH* I wanna loose quite a bit more first...Ya know how it goes...

The sexual gratification in big bold letters made me giggled and then reading about you lasting 4 mins, made me giggle more:D

Are you excited about V-Day with PZ?

Anyway even thou i dont drop by alot, I do think of ya and appreciate your support:)!!!

:hug2::hug2::hug2:

Oh and everytime I am practising I think of you:)
 
I will start with the obvious, Korrie and a gay bar/fetish party...uuummm i think tha twill be the day:)LOL!

HAHAHAHAHA!:smilielol5: I know I was thinking that when I typed it--but Korrie is super open-minded and not offendable, I can't help but think she might have fun anyway--might make a few drunks Born Again Christians while she's at it :D


CONGRATS on your BIG weight loss:hug2:You deserve it and it is hard work to get it off:D

Thank you, you are ALWAYS so sweet with your kudos and words :hug2:

Are you excited about V-Day with PZ?

YES! V-Day marks the end of my abstaining from alcohol--I plan on getting TOO DRUNK TO FUCK, hahahaha!

Oh and everytime I am practising I think of you:)
HOW SWEET! :grouphug: I'm thrilled you're practicing and it feels great and you love it--it's so good for you, especially for us Fire Sign women, YEEE HAW! :flame:
 
Kor is cool, yes , however I just dunno abt that one, lol!

Yoga ya I do love it, I have been feeling so good with the weight loss my activity my balance I seem to have found...my mediation, the meditation and the yoga have totally been mellowing me out...Im gonna go and try to do some yoga before bed...My legs are finally feelin a bit better but I dunno if it the naproxen or time, lol...

:DTo drunk to fuck:DHow does PZ feel about that:D?
 
Ok I lied, Im going to bed as I only have a few hrs to sleep, 3 hours only to be in bed *UGH*...One day I wont be single, LOL...One day i will have help (hopefully)

I am for sure going to boot camp tonight, tonight is upper body so my legs wont need to work so much just need to support me, LOL...
 

:DTo drunk to fuck:DHow does PZ feel about that:D?

I dunno I haven't talked to him about V-Day--it's too early and I'm embarrassed to express how much I love that day--I view it as a time for love, chocolate, Thai dinner, Champagne, and wearing red, one of my favorite colors--all good things :D But lots of people, esp. guys, hate the day and I dunno what he thinks yet and would rather not have him worry about it. I was sorta kidding about getting drunk.

9 days, not a drop to drink. (today will mark Day 10). So far, so good, no problems, no cravings. Being sick helps.

J: Hell yes!
 
I bet that sleeping with PZ was an absolute dream, Val :)

Isn't it nice when things just "feel" right?

Hey, don't shy away from the V-Day thing ... Travis and Matt haven't, and neither have I ... we're actually trying to plan it together!!!!
 
Thanks for the support J!

M: Yes but he gets real sweaty in the middle of the night and it's terrible to reach over and touch him. I was, regrettably, too ill and tired this morning to agree to a morning romp :(
 
LOL I think our brains automatically think food when we are "'dieting." I get the same way when I start restricting again... its totally mental.

I hope things are going well on your end... its almost the weekend!! YAY!! School just started and I'm already tired... DAMNIT!!

Anywho! Just wanted to stop by and say hello!

Love yas!!
 
LOL I think our brains automatically think food when we are "'dieting." I get the same way when I start restricting again... its totally mental.

Love yas!!

Love ya too! :grouphug: Yes I read studies that show when people are dieting, they start to obsess about food. Some people act like it ain't no thang (AHEM! :)) but I'm the type to freak out over it. With my physiology, my brain for some reason starts to panic if I'm not eating as much as I'm naturally inclined to eat :eek:.

Paul: Thank you! :D
 
I am the same way too, Val. The last month, with eating like shit, whatever I want whenever I want it... I would go forever without eating. Soon as I get back on my proper diet and being careful about my intake, I'm hungry every couple hours without fail.

Maybe it was the shitty food choices and portions?! I don't know. But there's a huge difference in hunger occurrences from before and now.
 
I had my delicious frozen black bean, potato, and tofu burrito for lunch and enjoyed every second of it! :drool5:

Steve brought up the point that my body is stressed from my dieting and losing weight, which might explain why it's backlashing at me :boxing:, in a way, and why the past 3 days I have been at the high end of my calorie range (2100). Normally at this time, IF I was NOT counting calories, I'd eat :drool5: and eat :drool5: and eat my way up a few pounds. My body is GREAT at fighting weight loss :boxing: Calorie counting, like I said before, is the only way I can FIGHT BACK--keeps perspective. But it also puzzles the hell out of me and makes me wonder if I have a super-fast metabolism :confused: I lose weight very quickly if I manage to stay just under 2000 calories a day :confused: It's weird.

So I will not be angry or discouraged if I maintain my weight for the rest of the challenge. 4 lbs in 6 weeks is, IMO, really good :hurray: for a person like me (with a mid-range healthy BMI). I just don't want to gain the fat back. And I'm pretty sure it's fat I lost--if I look at my body and pinch it, that's what it seems. Although, I haven't lifted weights in so long :angelsad2: I will, though--when I feel a bit better *cough* But a last word on the challenge--I might still lose another pound or two even if I hit the highest calories I allow myself for the rest of the 6 weeks, just because my needs are probably 2300+.......
 
The last month, with eating like shit, whatever I want whenever I want it... I would go forever without eating. Soon as I get back on my proper diet and being careful about my intake, I'm hungry every couple hours without fail.

HA! I never "go forever" without eating :D But yeah, maybe you had big ass meals and were full for a long time, and now you're eating smaller portions and get hungrier faster? Or maybe you were eating fried foods? I don't, at least, not much at all--when I eat fried foods I feel like shit later. My fav is calamari :drooling: Oh, and sweet potato fries with aoli!
 
Hey there Muggwuffin :) I'm 141.5 as of yesterday and I wouldn't mind being 140 for the rest of my life....but my ultimate goal is 135 lbs. So very close! But I have fitness and flexibility goals that are taking precedence, too.
 
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