Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me

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Busy today!

Update: Diet was good, Friday was my cheat day and I was in my range this weekend, astoundingly! SO I conquered another challenge week! :party: Weight is up to 143.5 lbs, though! Yesterday was in the high end (2100) and I believe there was a lot of salt in the Seafood Mistomare plate I ordered at Cafe Mare with PZ (scallops, clams, mussels, shrimp, and calamari in tomato sauce with Cappellini). I'm also in the follicular phase just before ovulation, and from experience, I tend to gain a couple pounds before I lose a couple pounds in the beginning of the luteal phase. Trust me, it's important to know one's cycle!

This weekend: PZ and I went to an outdoor rave. We thought the music would be fresh, and that some of our favorite DJs would be playing but the sets from 10-1:30am were all techno and stale as fuck. I was never into techno or rave music--it's so CHEESEY with 80s song clips and a weak bass line. The synthetic "tee ticka tee" drum is the cheesiest part besides the trance-y breaks. No Dubstep or Fresh Experimental was being played while we were there. The laser show was awesome, though--crazy dancing lights that lit up the whole "dancefloor", which was mud in an open field in Watsonville, LOL! But it was so dark we couldn't see to find any of our friends, and when we sat down on the only seat (a split plank) to observe the kids with their glow-toys, we started making fun of everything and remarking on how sloppy and E-tarded all the kids seemed, and how there was a disturbing and disproportionate amount of teenagers present. What killed it for me most was, when I looked over in the dark at the kid next to me (who probably was like, 19), I saw a book and a huge rail of cocaine laid out :ack2: I fucking hate that drug, it's soooooooooooo stupid and it makes me think of 80s yuppies and thieving crackheads :cuss:. I was so disgusted, I grabbed up PZ and we walked away and hung out elsewhere until kids left the seat and then we sat back down. It's not like I came to the party expecting no one to fuck with drugs, I just prefer not to SEE that shit laid out NEXT to me. We heard later that the second DJ stage, which was supposed to be set up by 1am, was set up around 3 and run off car batteries, and the sound kept sucking up and our beloved DJs like Mad Zach and the Dub Pirates had an awful time spinning--but we left at 1:30am. The music and the scene was too sloppy and stale for us. HOWEVER, we really enjoyed each others' company and had fun talking shit :D

Sunday I dropped all plans to do 10:30am Yoga and 4pm breakdancing; PZ and I instead spent a wonderful, spontaneous, unplanned, and romantic time together :beating: First, we went to the natty foods store and had wheat grass and vegetarian wraps for breakfast :D. Then we took Bounty, the half Pincher half European Doberman, for a walk on the beach; Bounty was whiny and naughty when we got around other dogs. I suggested we take him instead to the Forest of Nisene Marks for a long walk. PZ had never been there but is a Nature Boy who grew up in the woods, and was happy to go. The day was lovely and Bounty was a much better doggie--in fact, we noticed that he did better on his leash with ME than he did with PZ. I theorized that it was because I am a female and Bounty is an unfixed male--he probably instinctively balks at being controlled by another male (PZ) even though her knows him better. Our walk was 2 hours long! It was good for all three of us! Then we started talking V-Day and I mentioned Donnelly's World Famous Chocolates in Santa Cruz. I took PZ there and he got to taste, for the first time, the delicious hand-crafted truffles I have enjoyed since I moved to this county in 2002. THEN I took him to Cafe Mare because he's part Italian, and we enjoyed a great meal together. He'd never been there, either. SO I took him to 3 new places yesterday :hurray: We snuggled and watched a movie (Stranger than Fiction) before I went home. I feel even more comfy and close to him now, what a great time we had! :party: We have great conversations and get along famously. Imagine that! :eek2: I had to admit I have Post Traumatic Relationship Syndrome and told him I'm not used to having a great time with my boyfriend. He was definitely supportive of me :D

Tonight: I plan on 2 Yoga classes. I'm still coughing but not as bad--my throat infection should be gone, soon. PZ bought a giant, brand-new air purifier for his room and the air is MUCH better, so I should have less issues when I sleep over.

I'll be back later.
 
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Mornin' doll..
**sigh** truffles and pasta :drool5:

Okay I'm seriously :banghead: the girl that took my dobbie...WANTS TO GIVE HIM BACK!! WHAT!!! I seriously think she's making up some of the crazy stuff she says he's doing...if she isnt, then he has gone nutso since I had him!! that will be 3 different homes he's had in less than a month!! I can't do it. Not to me and not to him!! It's draining on the emotions!! **sigh**
 
i am not that observant lol

Maybe you're a "rose-colored glasses wear-er" and just don't WANT to notice the uglier side of humanity as often?

aww... i wish my guy was more observant... he never notices anything wether its dying my hair from light brown to dark red

HA! I feel ya, my ex was colorblind. I dyed my hair to auburn once and had to tell him 24 hours after he saw it for him to say, "Uh, I guess it looks red"

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...And you're sizes are HOT....I was real curious as to what my sizes were in comparison to what you measured and WOOOA....lol...I couldn't help but laugh as I took them!!! I actually thought about doing this on the drive over to work this morning....and there it was...YOU DID IT FIRST!!! Sooooo i copied it...!! ;)

...And I love YOGA.

I'm glad you're loving Yoga :D :party: :hurray:
Thanks on the size! I'm pleased with the measurements pretty much. Course, we can all envy Dee's 24" waist ;)

haha PZ also sounds like my guy.. and my guy is a Scorpio as well! It's funny because my life is surrounded by Scorpios.
He likes to hide under his pile of pillows and blankets sometimes. I teased him to come out or I'd pull him out by his stinger ;)

Such a nice complement. :D

I paid him a better one: Saturday night in bed I was cuddling him and I noticed he was rigid and slightly glassy-eyed. I kinda ordered, "Cuddle harder!" and he smiled and said cutely, "I'm cuddling as hard as I can! I had a rough day.....didn't want to drag you down," and alluded to his recent personal stresses that I know about. I then waxed eloquent on how right here, right now, there was no reason to stress over things that he could do nothing about. I said it's best to stay happy in the moment and face, with courage and skill, his issues when he comes to them, with the intent to FIX the problems and not worry over them. He seemed to realize I was right and I threw in, "Besides, even in the worst case scenario, rest assured that I'll still be here for you." :) His entire body relaxed and he cuddled harder and was all smiles for the rest of the weekend :hurray: I felt closer to him than I have at that moment and it made Sunday extra warm-hearted.
 
PZ sounds like he's really observant. He's definitely got your number, because YOU ARE THE BOMB! And I know he's really into you ... well, you know what to do

Thanks so much sweetheart! :hug2: We had a great, bonding weekend. I also discovered he shares my political and philosophical views as well--and has his own opinions that I respect. Completely the opposite from my ex! This is fucking great :party:

Congratulations on being a size 8. Wow. That's nearly skinny by my standards! :cool: It seems to me that you're at the end of your journey, and at the beginning of the second phase- maintaining the weight?

Yes and THANK YOU! :) Maintaining is a bitch and very difficult for a person who tends to over-eat and drink at times. When you get to your goal, you shall see!!! :smash: Best luck and determination to you!



At my goal weight of 155 lbs at 5'8 and with my frame -

I get in a size 10/11 - at around 160-163 it leans more to an 11/12 and some 13's..

It really depends on how tone I am at those weights.

We are all so different..lol...
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:hug2: Hey Stacy!!!!! :D
Yes, the human body is amazing and we can all just be grateful for what we love about our own rather than trip out over the stuff that we don't think it conventionally attractive. I love being a size 8, but since I'm now comfy with it I'm more interested in its athletic abilities. But hey, I'm excited about wearing summer clothes, too! :party:
 
Okay I'm seriously :banghead: the girl that took my dobbie...WANTS TO GIVE HIM BACK!! WHAT!!! I seriously think she's making up some of the crazy stuff she says he's doing...if she isnt, then he has gone nutso since I had him!! that will be 3 different homes he's had in less than a month!! I can't do it. Not to me and not to him!! It's draining on the emotions!! **sigh**

Lindsey, you poor poor thing :cry:

Spending the weekend with Bounty made me appreciate his breed more. He is SUCH A LOVE :beating: But yes, he IS out of his element--he's used to being with PZ's brother patrolling a ranch and being fawned over by visitors. Now he's laying around PZ's house and missing his "daddy." I felt very happy about suggesting to PZ we take him on a very long walk (2 hours) in the woods, where he's more comfortable. I think dogs deserve long walks versus short ones and it WAS a lazy Sunday.

Anyway, I feel for you. Your poor Dobbie is probably stressed out and sad :cry:
 
The fact that you're getting along with PZ so famously makes me think this just might be the real deal, Val ;)

At the very least, he's your true love in like :p

How are you feeling anyway?
 
:ack2: I thought rigid was good!? :biggrinjester:

HA!

At the very least, he's your true love in like :p

How are you feeling anyway?

I feel like this: I like him so much, and I enjoy spending time with him. I'm sort of stunned that he's so cool and we get along so well, and that it's not a struggle for us :eek: I'm also stunned that I actually have a real boyfriend, and he ACTS like a good, real boyfriend. I'm glad the sex is great :D I'm tickled that he listens to me, and also that when I want to do something his attitude is "I'm down for whatever," but then again I'm usually suggesting funtimes outside or parties, and he's into that as much as I am. He's almost too good to be true so I'm still slightly wary--HOWEVER, we're cuddling and hugging and kissing more, and it feels more natural. SO I'm warming up to him. Pace is good--this is going on the 7th week of dating.
 
Valentine's Day

OMG! :eek2:

I forgot to mention--I said, "V-DAY! Hey Peezey, what do you want to do for Valentine's Day? Besides drink Champagne?"

Without hesitation and with eyes lighting up he said, "Watch the Elephant Seals."

SAY WHAT?!?!?! :confused:

"The Elephant Seals brood North of here at the beach this time of year," he went on, and I started to freak out.

"Damn, Peezey, what a cool-ass boyfriend you are! That's so different and sounds fun, fuck yeah, let's do it!" HAHA! Remember PZ was an Ecology major and he spent some time in Bio-Lab watching the Elephant Seals and he went on to tell me about their habitat and behavior. I am totally down for this. We're gonna drink Champagne and eat chocolate and watch some seal drama, ha!

Beat that :D

LOL
 
When you don't have to work at it, that's a good sign. Although all people will have their moments of conflict, and how a couple deals with that is also important. It's nice that you felt at ease to mention a problem to PZ and he was comfortable to go with your solution. Very good signs. :D
 
It's nice that you felt at ease to mention a problem to PZ and he was comfortable to go with your solution. Very good signs. :D

Yeah, I think so! You here at WLF also give me great inspiration and school me on how to support others :grouphug: I learn a lot about what works for people and what doesn't, generally speaking. The different perspectives make it easier for me, in real life, to step back from a situation and assess what kind of solutions are best. PZ's not a dumbass, but like all of us, he gets stressed and like most Scorpios, can dwell on The Possibility of Negative Outcomes or basically, he prepares for the worst. I'm an optimist and pretty much expect everything to be peachy--and if it isn't, I MAKE it peachy by looking at things from a positive spin. I think he likes that about me.
 
OMG, does PZ have an older brother :D

This guy sounds like a keeper!!! Watching the elephant seals on Valentine's Day? What could be better than that?

Please take some pics, Val. I would absolutely LOVE to see those seals :) And maybe you and PZ, too :p

This is sooooooooooooooooooo fantastic! :party:
 
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