Thank you, everyone!
Maureen, I'll get back to you on that one.
This morning I flipped my lid because I hit a new low that I haven't seen since 8-2007:
I know.
I haven't been starving myself or anything! I swear!!!
My Weekend
Friday I skipped dinner but had bananas and peanut butter in bed with PZ, like I said; I didn't touch a drop of alcohol since 1-12-09, which gave me more calorie allowance to play with food.
THAT was cool. Friday night was fun--the aerial show, clowning, and firebreathing were awesome and since it was a show for all ages, they were not serving alcohol. No prob there. I didn't get any pictures!! But I bet I can find some online because a stupid photographer was snapping shots ALL NIGHT and in people's faces and wouldn't stop--not even just the performances but us hippies, dancing--AND
teenagers and their grandmas were there, watching me and my freaky-friends dance and stuff, and I just felt like the Underground scene was being studied and gawked at (AND it was being videotaped) and it bothered me so much (classically trained in cultural Anthropology, I felt like a specimen and did NOT want pictures of me without my permission, by an outsider) that I asked PZ if we could leave at 10:30pm. He was, as usual, totally relaxed and easy going and agreeable. We went back to his place and I gave him my own aerial show on his cloth hammock--good LAWRD you can do a lot of cvool things on those--and talk about physical therapy for your back! So I missed the contortionist
BOO! Anyway, Friday was a 1800 cal day,
Saturday I had a somewhat difficult time pouring wine and not drinking a drop. I had to carefully sniff each new bottle to make sure it wasn't corked, but I've had enough experience with that now, that I can tell a corked bottle through smell alone and don't have to taste and spit. We were BUSY but I managed to keep my cool, remain polite and not stressed, and repeat myself about the 3 wines I was pouring at my station
hundreds of times without getting bitchy. THANKFULLY! After work I went to PZ's with some cleaning supplies and scrubbed his bathroom while he vacuumed his room and ceiling. I made sure to apologize if I was insulting him, but I told him that if something's bothering me (dirty bathrooms do), I like to fix it myself instead of complaining. I killed a lot of spiders, unfortunately. I don't like doing that, but they probably would just come back in if I put them outside.
To relax, I took a shower and did 40 minutes of Yoga on my own in his room to cool didgeridoo music that he has. I even got into Scorpion pose for him with a little help from the wall (he's a double Scorpio if you remember), but he was still kinda sick from the food poisoning and worn out, just relaxing on his bed. I snacked at the winery, then had seared ahi with wasabi that PZ bought me from takeout from a restaurant, then we went to meet up with my friends Alex and Zach (buddies from high school). I got to introduce them all. No one was drinking, but we all met up at the Food Bin (natty food co-op) to get some snacks. PZ and I went back to his place afterward (because he was exhausted) and we laid in bed and watched
The Happening. Damn that movie is good, and freaky! Good old Marky Mark! It would have been a boring Saturday for some, but I enjoyed the Yoga, time with PZ, and the visit with my buddies and the movie very much. Sunday, no hangover or even residual feelings of dehydration--it was great!
Sunday I slept in until 10, then kissed PZ goodbye and went to Yoga 2 with Kelly--and got a REALLY great workout in. I drove all the way home, did a load of laundry, and drove all the way back to PZ's and we went to the huge party house of the kids we know where Mojo was going to teach us breakdancing. Mojo is a 22 year old Julliard drop out with an AMAZING body and she's SOOOOOOO nice and cool. She made us do so much stretching and core exercises--whoa! She taught us Top Rock, Six Step, One Step, and a Baby Freeze. PZ was GOOD and did a great freeze--we both had a great time and WOW--imagine that. A boyfriend who's interested in what I'm interested in, and actually came out and learned something new with me
I never had someone like that!!! It was a great bonding experience.
However once at his place I changed my clothes and kicked rocks to go to the Cypress and eat dinner with Chris without inviting PZ. I have yet to introduce them--I WILL!!! I just wanted some alone time with Chris and I felt I'd spent enough time with PZ this weekend. He was easy going and chill as usual but I'm not sure if he was slighted that I didn't invite him. I guess I'll find out later! Anyway Chris and I watched my teacher and "classmate" belly dance with swords, they looked SO cute, pictures attached.
Calories
Saturday was a 2500 cal day, but Sunday morning I weighed in at
140.5 lbs and flipped out because I didn't understand how I could drop 4 pounds in a week (despite the fact that I'm dieting and exercising more AND my period is almost over--wait that might explain it!). Sunday was a 1600 calorie day--I wasn't even that hungry and I was too busy doing Yoga, driving all over the place, dancing, and dancing some more at the Cypress lounge after the performances with my zills. I'm getting better at them! I figure 1600 and 2500 for two days is equivalent to two 2050 cal days--combined with the fact that I dropped so much weight, I gave myself the team points
So I'm officially in the 130s. I can't fucking believe how fast that went. I have no idea if this is a "false reading" or if it'll be the same tomorrow or Tuesday. I have no idea if my metabolism is abnormally fast or what. All I did was exercise my ass off and keep my calories between 1800-2100 most days, for a couple weeks.
My final thoughts are that I should stick to my first instinct and not overthink it--just enjoy successful weight loss. I shouldn't succumb to fear of not staying here at this weight--if I go back to 144, I'll be satisfied with the fact that that's
all my physical deficits calculated to, and keep going--and eventually I'll get back to the 130s again. I'm going to keep on exercising and eating between 1800-2100 calories since it's obviously working.....still I'm bewildered that it worked so damn fast!
Good luck! Don't feel too embarrassed, people have bad memories!
He is slowly getting adjusted to the anti-psychotic drug.....poor guy! He told me "most people would freak out, ya know, jump in front of a bus"--so if that's true, he's doing great 
I need it to be at least 25 and the roads to be clear for me to go. 
I'd left the window open for him to go outside, and when I came home last night I made sure to hug him and talk to him first thing. I'm glad I wasn't shunned again! That was wack 
ALSO on Sunday is belly dancing during dinner at the Cypress and my teacher's performing! 
