Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me

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<<<<<CURVIEEEE>>>>> Wssup Cita???? tried to catch up but you've been way tooo busy over here. :0) Have a rock'n NYE....congrats on the Peezy!! (for Sheezy).
 
MotherOf2 said:
I'm so glad you found a guy who treats you like your special. though you werent happy about losing your ex you seemed obviously unhappy in the relationship.
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WORD! That about sums it up fo rilly!

MotherOf2 said:
BTW you look awesome! and though you can't see any shape under those big tees in the older pics you can definately see the difference! and yes a round face was cute, but sexy is better ;)
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Oh thank you! I agree; back then I was with my ex ex boyfriend, who was actually really a cool boyfriend in a lot of ways (but an alcoholic and accident-prone and forgetful, scaring me stiff at times when he couldn't make it home and yes he got arrested once!), especially in the ways of never criticizing me or making me feel insecure--I sort of was like, "I have a boyfriend who loves me the way I am, why do I need to worry about what I look like?" This is A-OK to think, for sure. And I was riding my bike everywhere because I didn't get a car until I was 23, and I was kickboxing and weight training at the gym at least twice a week. I guess I was still healthy! But I was EATING SO MUCH. Really, I'd overeat everyday. I was vegan and I didn't touch fast food, but I'd enjoy a pint of Soycream and a BAG of vegan chocolate chip cookies, and made vegan pizza, and have piece after piece of toast.....it was bad!
 
jzthedetermined said:
Your NYE plans sound amazing!! Have a wonderful time, and enjoy your company!! "J"'s KICK BOOTY!!!
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Thanks so much, I'm super excited--TWELVE HOURS AND 35 DJS, good lawrd! :svengo:

paulab_5 said:
Wow your pics inspire me! I think I look alot like your "before" pic now... I know I'm not "fat" and I can look pretty good in my clothes but I'm not happy with how I feel at this weight; to me, I'm "puffy" lol and I want to be smaller and leaner for sure... YOU LADY are an inspiration to many! Thanks for sharing the pics! :D
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You're welcome, and in my opinion, I don't carry excess weight very well. Well, not in my face! Jeebus, my face gets hit hard! You know how sometimes ladies who are overweight get told "You're so beautiful, if only you lost some weight"? Well, no one said that, some people just told me I was fat! LOL, only my good friends, though :p At that point I thought I was cursed with chubby bunny genes and that I couldn't really get down to my 19-year-old weight of 135 lbs. What I realized later, was I had no sense of portion control, and that I could stand to bump up my workouts. At 22, I started running regularly (after getting down to 145, to stay there) and weight training more than sporadically. However, it is YOGA that appears to work best of all for me, since I am so damned hyphy. I swear, I know I was supposed to learn "non-attachment", but I am MISSING my precious Yoga teachers: Delana, Kelly, Lisa, and Mangala especially! :cry:
 
I_love_muscle said:
Seriously, you're so adorable! No wonder Peezey nubs you so much! Not to mention you're WAY fun, too.

I have to live vicariously through you on NYE, Val ... so if either of you or Peezey could take a few pics and post them, I'd be forever indebted to you ... well, maybe not FOREVER :D
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Hey THANK YOU so much, sweetie! :beating: I appreciate that.

I have suspicions that my face also is getting more angular with age--which is GREAT IMO because it's rather round and broad, anyway--when I take pictures I tend to turn my face so it looks more narrow, heh. :biggrinjester:

Chris (my best buddy) got a fantastic video camera that can shoot in infrared (green, actually) and also takes 10 megapixel pictures AND is a 6 GB hard drive--and he said he'll let me borrow it! I have GOT to take video......

reluctantcabbie said:
Val you're just so frigging gorgeous anyway....
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Oh that is so sweet, thank you Karl! :hug2:

cinderelly said:
Your very beautiful val...sweet and cute and sexxxy, you look great!
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Awwww Cerella :eek: Thanks so much, Sweetheart! :grouphug:

Korrie said:
whats the fetish ball??? sounds interesting, lol
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Are you being cheeky, Korrie? :confused: I posted ALL sorts of info, LOL--let me know if you're serious and I'll find the postings!

Mamaz2ndbaby said:
<<<<<CURVIEEEE>>>>> Wssup Cita???? tried to catch up but you've been way tooo busy over here. :0) Have a rock'n NYE....congrats on the Peezy!! (for Sheezy).
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HEY how's it goin', Mama??? :biggrinjester: Thanks for the congratulatory warm-wishings! I gotta see if you're still kickin' game and takin' names!

paulab_5 said:
Hey lady, just checkin' in... hope you have a fantastic and successful day! :D
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Hi! :waving: so far so good!
 
Yesterday I went to my gym and weight trained :hurray: :cheers2:

I did 115 lb deadlifts, regular and Romanian, but only one set of 5 reps, four times. Hmmm....so 5 Reg, rest a minute, 5 Romanian, rest a minute, 5 Reg, rest a minute, and 5 Romanian. I also did 115 lbs barbell squats with "perfect form"--heh heh :biggrinjester: I watched Steve's youtube videos and although I knew all that shit already (;)), it always helps to be reminded what good form is when it comes to weight-bearing activities.

I did some barbell flies and stuff like that but found myself dropping to the floor and doing some Chaturanga / Kumbhakasana / Vasisthasana series because it felt better to me (tricep push up hold / plank / side plank). After some obliques and back work, I jumped on the elliptical for 20 minutes. MAN was I bored! :sleeping: I felt like it didn't do SHIT! :cuss: Really, I tried hard to exert myself but it wasn't working very well. I did sweat some, but not much. Basically, my gym workout felt 60% as effective as if I had gone running outside and taken a Yoga class.

Speaking of Yoga classes, I showered my body and dashed into the aerobics room to catch the 7:30 Yoga class (mind you, I'd stopped going to my gym Yoga classes and have been going to the A.Y.I. a few blocks away). The teacher was subbing for Moondance, and she was quite good, but before I knew it, we were going into Shavasana! The class was 60 minutes instead of 90, which is what I'm used to :(

So yesterday I felt like I got a decent workout, but not a great one. I think I need to trail run again as soon as it gets lighter out. Good thing Winter Solstice is over!

After all that I went to Chris's house. He was so happy to see me he forgot to put on his insulin pump (he'd just showered). His ear started bleeding!!! :eek: Then he found his pump and suffered through a bout of being "high," and not in the good way--we're talking HIGH in blood sugar, which is TERRIBLY PAINFUL :( I sat with him and massaged his temples and scratched the back of his neck while he was doubled over in pain, whimpering about how much he loves me :cry: I wished I could do more but there was nothing I could do and apparently me being there was better than him being doubled over in pain, alone! He told me he hasn't forgot to plug himself in in several years. Jeez! At least earlier in the day he was "at the Lab" getting bloodwork and stats recorded, and working on getting his pancreas......damn hoops.

My cold is slightly better but not perfect. My weight is back down to 145.5 lbs from the high I saw yesterday--I'm still counting calories but have seen surpluses over the weekend and am getting the hang of learning to live with hunger, to rack up deficits. Wish me luck!
 
Ya know last winter we went back east to visit Step's family for the holidays and they have an ellipitical in the basement and I used it several times and every time I felt like I wasn't doing a thing! I kept the revs and resistance high and went for over an hour and all I got out of it was numb toes from pressing against the food holders. I think a run would have been much better!

Sounds like your gym experience was a good one mostly. How you feeling today? After squats like that I wouldnt be able to walk!!! As a matter of fact I did a pretty hard wo on Sunday that I am still sore from... my legs are wimpy and they get so sore so easily!

You're such a good friend Val, I just wish you were a little closer!! I hope Chris starts feeling better.

I'm with ya on the living with hunger. I think I spent the last 2 weeks just snacking on whatever and now that I'm counting cals again I think my mind is constantly on food which makes me hungrier. But I'm sure that by tomorrow I will get over it and be used to it... I think this time I'm going for a higher restriction too which is being hard to do, so I might just go back to a 700 deficit...

Ha anyway, I'm rambling! I hope your having a good Tuesday!
 
MissDFITT said:
Ya know last winter we went back east to visit Step's family for the holidays and they have an ellipitical in the basement and I used it several times and every time I felt like I wasn't doing a thing!
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Word--we are Elliptical Haters ;) At least I can read the gossip magazines and feel embarrassed about it, heh :eek:

MissDFITT said:
How you feeling today? After squats like that I wouldnt be able to walk!!! As a matter of fact I did a pretty hard wo on Sunday that I am still sore from... my legs are wimpy and they get so sore so easily!
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You know, I'm sort of a studly woman in the sense that I'll do a pretty difficult workout and assume my fitness level is so great that I forget I did it--then I'll be sore and wonder what the fuck is wrong with me. It happened yesterday on Chris's couch. My hip was fatigued but I forgot all about the squats. I was shifting around and trying to get comfortable but couldn't. Chris axed me what was up, and I was like "Oooooh yeah!!!" DUH!!! :eek: I'd just squatted my heart out--Steve if you're reading this you'll be pleased to know I went all the way down and even a little below parallel :cool:


MissDFITT said:
You're such a good friend Val, I just wish you were a little closer!! I hope Chris starts feeling better.
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I know I wish so, too--I can hardly stand to see him like that a lot--it's rough but seriously.......he actually told me "You give me something to live for" but I keep in mind that he's all emotional from the drugs and I told him "Nah, I'm just reflecting back and reminding you how fucking awesome you are and how the world needs you in it, Chris." :beating: Warm hearted shit, I tell you, when it comes to life, death, and living with disease, the conversations get HEAVY trust me!

I do SO wish we could be friends in meatspace, Dee :cry:
 
Curvie Girlie said:
Word--we are Elliptical Haters ;) At least I can read the gossip magazines and feel embarrassed about it, heh :eek:
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I used to do Ellipticals for the sake of "shrinking my fat ass down a bit," but Lord, I'm way too ADHD for them damn things. After a few minutes I get bored and want to run around the gym tossing over trash cans. (OK... not that bad, but you know how ADHD kids are. LOL)



You know, I'm sort of a studly woman in the sense that I'll do a pretty difficult workout and assume my fitness level is so great that I forget I did it--then I'll be sore and wonder what the fuck is wrong with me. It happened yesterday on Chris's couch.
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You're so gangsta, Val Bunny.




I know I wish so, too--I can hardly stand to see him like that a lot--it's rough but seriously.......he actually told me "You give me something to live for" but I keep in mind that he's all emotional from the drugs and I told him "Nah, I'm just reflecting back and reminding you how fucking awesome you are and how the world needs you in it, Chris." :beating: Warm hearted shit, I tell you, when it comes to life, death, and living with disease, the conversations get HEAVY trust me!
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You really are a sweetheart, honey. Friends like yourself are very rare nowadays and I just wanted to say that Chris is very lucky to have a friend like you. :hug2: Enjoy your day, girly.

-Sheryl
 
Thank you, Sheryl! People keep saying that, but man........woman!..........if only you could meet this guy.......he's amazing! :eek2: I don't know why more people don't see this shit--and we get along famously. I can say anything about philosophy, psychology, physics, biology--and he knows what I'm talking about and busts out MORE knowledge. I'm the type who loves to learn from people, especially my friends! :grouphug: Plus I dunno how much longer I have with him..........
 
Good luck with the Bikram my dear :) You'll have a blast, especially if you follow it with some belly dancing!

Sorry to hear about Chris. Thank god you were there to help him thru the pain. Sometimes just having someone there to focus on, or just helping him so that he isn't alone with the pain... He's very lucky to have you and you're lucky to have him, like I've said before ;)

Elliptical.... I totally see what you all are saying about the ADD thing about it. Usually when I do Elliptical its only for 20 minutes or less, and I preceed it with some treadmill cardio... That's the plan at least. It's definitely in my cards lately. I need to get massive amounts of cardio in so that I can get this holiday "puffiness" off that I've been carrying around.

-Sam
 
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