Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me

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What??? your only getting 5-6 hrs sleep??? girl, you know better than that! Ok, I'm not gonna be your mom, lol But I hope you start getting some more sleep soon.

You've been doing a great job and i'm super proud of you :D

Thanks for supporting me in my diary so much!!!
 
See, I consider 6 hours plenty (5 is when I just don't have time to sleep). More then that and you are just wasting the day. Then again, I also caffeinate heavily in the morning. :willy_nilly:
 
I'm good on 6.

Anything less and I'm dragging ass the entire day.

I prefer 7.

Sup Val. :)
 
Good morning!!! :biggrinjester:

Hi everyone! Yes, 7 or 8 hours of sleep is better, but as you see, I commute 50 minutes to work at must be there at 8am. AND I've been getting up early to do yoga....getting to bed at 10pm would be great, but there's Chris to take care of, and he doesn't work and he's a Night Owl....the last few days I have been cleaning and doing laundry (post vacation shit). Last night:

I made a delicious dinner. I went to the Farmers' Market and bought a bunch of stuff, notably a large chunk of Alaskan salmon. In a pot I put:

1 can coconut milk
green curry paste
fish juice
coconut water & spices (I didn't have vegtable stock)
fresh organic zucchini
fresh organic squash
bamboo shoots, cut small
fresh organic leeks
fresh organic collard greens
fresh organic orange bell pepper
fresh organic slightly chopped basil
fresh organic cilantro
fresh organic minced ginger
fresh organic finely minced garlic
French sea salt
large chunks of cut-up Alaskan Salmon fillet

:drool5: And I served it over a delicious Basmati rice/black rice/green, red and yellow lentils pilaf. :drool5:

Chris, who had been a chef at a few restaurants when he was well, was severely impressed, and said the nicest thing about my dish (it tasted amazing, nice presentation, optimum nutrition, etc.) was that he found it very well-rounded, whatever that means :rolleyes: He commended me for "not freaking out" while serving it to a chef. I guess in the business it's like that, or something. Like that movie Ratatouille or whatever. I laughed because I wasn't trying to impress anyone, I was trying to create a nutritious and delicious dinner with mostly local ingredients. He asked if it was "my own formula" and I said yeah pretty much. I've eaten enough Pacific Islander food to know what would be good. We has fresh, local, organic Plutos for dessert, and I served him iced Chai and Hemp milk (I had water).

Chris cannot eat very much on account of the diabetes has destroyed much of his teeth, fucked up his jaw, and also his throat muscles. BUT he managed the entire serving I gave him! :eek: I have never seen him eat so much :) AND he ate an entire Pluot. And said he felt really good, although his blood sugar went from 430 to 180 real fast and worried him (it's a constant battle with him, his monitor, insulin pump, and glucose chewies). I gave him some card readings and sent him on his way at about 11pm. I didn't get into bed until midnight, then I woke at 6:15 am and did yoga for 30 minutes before I packed up in a flurry and scrambled to work.

Yoga was great, I tried some different poses and said the name in Sanskrit aloud, while using my The Yoga Bible. I'll post that momentarily.

HAHA I forgot to weigh myself again! :banghead: Yoga distracted me. I don't feel any lighter than yesterday....
 
NOTHING IS STOPPING MY RUN TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!​

Dammit! I feel angsty because I have not ran since 8/28 :banghead:. And I'm supposed to be running 13.1 miles through downtown San Jose in 29 days????:svengo: For fucks' sake! :banghead:

Sorry.

I was explaining in Steve's journal that the inside of my left knee has prevented my flexibility in poses like Janu Sirsasana (head beyond the knee) and Upavista Konasana (seated angle) and especially Parsva Upavista Konasana (seated side stretch sequence). Sorry, I need to practice my Sanskrit whenever possible! I really would like to be a better yogi. Anyway, here's the problem:

http://weight-loss.fitness.com/weight-loss-diary/8425-journey-not-destination-663.html#post498992

I need a foam roller. I knew this day would come. It's better that I suck it up and get one....
 
That does sound like a great dish you made for your friend. What a trooper he sounds like, to be battling diabetes and having it take such a horrible toll on him physically, and still (from the sound of your posts) remaining positive about life, and living it. I would hope that I would be able to exhibit some of those amazing qualities if I were battling a major illness like that.

Is there a book called the yoga bible? I am pretty serious about starting a yoga routine ( I think it could be very beneficial to me, esp. being a Capricorn, lol...) I just noticed I haven't ran since 8/29, so I am almost as bad;)... Didn't make it to the gym last night either (i know i know)... I now need to run everyday thru Sunday to get my mileage in this week. It's all good tho, I can do it :)

-Sam
 
sammyboy24 said:
What a trooper he sounds like, to be battling diabetes and having it take such a horrible toll on him physically, and still (from the sound of your posts) remaining positive about life, and living it.
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He IS a trooper, but he is severely depressed and says that he wants to die because he is sick of the diabetic comas and the dangerous blood sugar tangos he has to go through (and he's allergic to a few types of insulin). It is pretty much my job now to cheer him up and convince him to stick around, and enjoy life. He says he loves me more than anything for that. We're not romantically involved, but he's pretty much my boyfriend I guess. :confused: I honestly care so much about him, I'd do just about anything for him, as unhealthy as that sounds. We get along famously and have almost exactly the same taste in things and similar education levels, and have never once been in a fight. He's very self-effacing, though, and I'm trying to help him build up a better self esteem.

We SHALL run, no worries, we were merely on a hiatus :D
 
Going thru all that he has gone through, I'm sure it's natural to be upset about living and having to go thru all of it. That's great you take such good care of him. Your a great friend :)

My best friend and I have never fought either. She and I have similar tastes (she thinks I have impeccible taste, so she is always asking me about things- she wants me to help plan her wedding next year with her and be her maid of honor, lol). We finish each other's sentences and can tell what each other is thinking just by looking at each other... We've only been really close for about the last 5 years or so. She and I went to school together all thru middle and highschool and weren't friends at all. We reconnected when were about 21. She is the absolute funniest, coolest person I know and I love her to death and would probably do anything for her as well...

-Sam
 
Thank you Sam, my friends are the most important things in my life with the exception of my family, of course :D That's why I'm broke all the time! ;) I like to take care of them :D

Yeah, Chris and I are real real close but we don't mind read (yet). You know something? We haven't even disagreed on anything (yet). Fucking amazing. We have very similar outlooks. Although we're both intuitive and emotional (he's a Cancer), we're also both intellectuals who choose words carefully when chatting about issues or other people--"objective," if you will. HAHA but being versed in cultural anthropology I'd have to say objectivity is impossible ;)
 
That`s so great that he has someone so caring like you. It takes it`s toll on both of you, I`m sure and while you think he`s in a bad place, I don`t he could be where he is without a best friend. It`s amazing what someone with a good set of these --> :bigear: can do for ya. My sister-in-law is diabetic and it`s really hard to watch her because she doesn`t eat properly and is a big drinker (she manages a bar) and ends up in the hospital too often but just won`t listen to her family. She`s the eldest (and in her head the smartest), so she thinks she has it under control.

You sound flexible. Haha. I`m jealous.
 
Homer said:
My sister-in-law is diabetic and it`s really hard to watch her because she doesn`t eat properly and is a big drinker (she manages a bar) and ends up in the hospital too often but just won`t listen to her family.
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This is a very sad situation indeed. It's almost on par with a drug-addict family member, ya know? Wait.....um if she drinks a lot then I guess, yeah, alcohol is a drug.....what I meant was the diabetes/eating improperly part. Hospitals are no fun. I had to visit Chris at the hospital a few weeks ago, when his blood Ph went to 7.1 (7.4 is normal, 7.1 is like, brain-boiling).

I am not as flexible as I'd like to be. Sam and I are going to be yogis some day :D
 
I'm almost off on my run and it's 81 degrees with a "real feel" of 90--YIKES!!! :eek: Uhhuhuhuh...wish me luck! :rolleyes:

The hickey on my neck and the handprint on my ass are very faintly still there from my Hawaii ho. Sigh.......I miss that guy :(
 
Yeah, I used to refer to my male Fuck Buddies as "lovers," but got laughed at, so I call them hos, now. Or F.B.s. Doesn't mean I don't care about them. It means I think it's funny :D
 
Besides, if you're single, you're single. Mackin' should be your duty.

Sorry, I have a very stereotypically "male" outlook on dating and I constantly get criticized by people who have old-fashioned views on women. Hhaha, but it doesn't stop me or bring me down, I'M getting action, the haters are usually not. ;)
 
Mackin' should be my duty:cool: I'm workin' on it ;)

Good luck on your run! I'm definitely hitting the treadmill later on tonite. Our hiatus is over!!!! :)

-Sam
 
Nibbit said:
And you shouldn't let them get you down! You rule :cool:
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hahaha I do not :rolleyes: But that's sweet of you. Nearly everyone on this site has self esteem issues no doubt, if not now, then once, and I've come a LONG FUCKING WAY. If I seem arrogant, oh well--I need to stay strong and do things that make me happy, but like we say in yoga, "Let all beings benefit from our practice." My "hos" benefit from my practice; I enrich their lives and give them wild pleasure, which in turn, makes me happy, and pleases me. It's not my fault that other people have energy blockages in their Swadhisthana chakra, and have to view my behavior as negative. Word to the muthafucker on dat! And in addition, safety, first :)

Sam: Glad I could get you meditating on your Swadhisthana ;)

I ran 45 minutes. 8 were spent on pavement, to and from the beach. The rest were spent on the sand. It was hot, sweaty work and deliciously difficult. I like training on sand and trails, because it's texture challenges me. When I race on flat pavement, I glide along pretty quickly :D

Lunch is leftover salmon coconut curry over pilaf.....AHHHHH life is GOOD.
 
I don't think you seem arrogant at all. It's your diary and your allowed to talk about whatever you want... I'm the same way with mine. I sometimes wonder if I brag too much or talk about shit no one cares about in mine but, then I remember it's my diary and if people don't want to read about all the things that are going on in my life (good and bad) then they know the door is the back button on the screen, right? BTW, I love your diary :)

-Sam
 
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