Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me

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Oh man, Sam, it doesn't even BEGIN to capture the brilliant sparkle sheen of the olivine sand.....*wistful sigh* Hmm, I've found that kickin mad game is as easy as you allow yourself to be direct. Apparently if you want something, GO FOR IT. That goes for men, too--although V.F.B was actually a set up thanks to mi amiga. I was at Whole Foods in Oakland last night, purchasing some little cakes for my (gay) friend Tim's birthday; a GORGEOUS, almost perfect-looking curly brown haired bearded hippy boy about my age was walking toward me and smiled warmly at me (I think I looked cute, I had makeup and jewelery and a tight T-shirt that said OAKLAND, CA on it with shorts and my friends all were complimenting my "tan"). I did a double take because I was strucken shy. I COULD VERY WELL have run up to him and been like,

"Hey....your penis is staring at my vagina.......I think they should make out." :reddevil: :rotflmao:

Tim told me to say that! Hilarious!

But I did nothing. Goodbye, beautiful, warm, curly haired hippy boy....:cry:
 
I like to think of myself as direct,lol... What you thought of saying was pretty direct, and I could perhaps picture myself saying something similar one day, hehe... I just don't know if I've been in the right enviroment yet... I guess I had a few prospects come up to me at the bar the other night but, I guess I'm just a little picky.... All I know is that when it does happen it's on like donkey kong beeyotch!!! LOL.

-Sam
 
OMG I would NOT use that one!!! :smilielol5: I was kidding!!!! Really!!!! :biggrinjester:

Ugh I know you guys don't believe me :( HAHA! And being picky is understandable to an extent, for goodness sakes I'm selective as anyone else, it's just that I meet so many interesting and attractive men, whose prowess is always in question. Ya NEVER KNOW the chemistry you could have with a potential F.B.! And YA NEVER KNOW what kind of tricks they could whip out! Shit, I just got candle wax poured on me for the first time and boy was it FUN! :party: If I'd been more closeminded, I'd never have that experience to smile about :D
 
Ya, being open minded is beneficial. I like to think of myself as pretty open-minded and open to things like that, lol... If I ever did say something like that above, there would probably be a bit of liquid courage behind it :D I'm not uber picky persay, I'm not a rude bitch at all, at least I don't think... I just have limits and standards in my head, and if I'm going to break the celibacy streak I'm on, it's gotta be worth it... right?
 
Looks like September is the time to get on the straight and narrow. I'm off booze pretty much completely. I might make an exception one weekend where the wife and I are supposed to go away together, but other then that it'll be OH free. :svengo:

It's funny, I don't really think about you being shy, but I guess when it comes to those good looking hippies you suddenly get all quiet. Hmm. :biggrinjester:
 
sammyboy24 said:
I just have limits and standards in my head, and if I'm going to break the celibacy streak I'm on, it's gotta be worth it... right?
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Oh, this is voluntary celibacy? I must have forgotten about that--and yeah, totally, wait for a babe. Well, see, you also must make sure you don't fall into traps of shallowness. My F.B.s aren't the most gorgeous men in the world (heh heh, well a few of the past ones may have been), but they are TOP NOTCH people with particular skills I enjoy :D And I don't regret a single one since I've been very happy with myself (when I was very upset there was two that I should have stayed away from, and one wasn't even intercourse). Standards and limits! How very Capricorny ;) No, totally, boat-floating and such. From my own experience, there are qualities that are deal breakers (would not TOUCH) and others that are more open to interpretation (like, maybe not a perfect body--big deal!). I run into lots of people (unlike you--you're a sweetie!) who are probably unconsciously envious of my freedom and experimental attitude, so they hate, and it sucks, BUT the important thing is that I am ridiculously happy, thrilled, and orgasmic with fun-filled adventures :D If someone is resentful because they're not in that state, I don't blame em. I would be! A year ago, fo sheezy! I pretty much got exactly what I wanted. Who can say that all the time? And someday, I might get a LTR that is exactly what I want. I'd be down with that, too. Uh heh heh just not at the moment......
 
Trops said:
Looks like September is the time to get on the straight and narrow. I'm off booze pretty much completely. I might make an exception one weekend where the wife and I are supposed to go away together, but other then that it'll be OH free. :svengo:

It's funny, I don't really think about you being shy, but I guess when it comes to those good looking hippies you suddenly get all quiet. Hmm. :biggrinjester:
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Yup, sure is that time! I'm excited to feel good all day everyday ;) August was a giant PARTAY and rightly so, being my birthday month :D

Dude, this guy was BLINDINGLY beautiful. It was like trying to look into the SUN. And he caught me off guard because he was already gazing at me and smiling, it wasn't like I spotted him and had time to get my bearings....and I'm pretty sure his penis was staring at my vagina! Too bad I didn't think fast enough to point that out...hahaha!
 
Besides, although I'm comfortable with myself most of the time and get compliments a lot, I'm not really vain enough to assume that a GORGEOUS guy is going to think I'm hot stuff, even if I'm fresh back from Hawaii in a "I hella <3 Oakland" shirt....although it would be nice to think so. Mind you, I was chubby-ish most of my adult life, or so it seemed, so being fit right now and considered somewhat attractive is pretty mind-boggling. I try not to think about it and I instead focus on happiness and self-worth. Perhaps that's what makes people find me attractive, it seems to make other people I see shine out....
 
Curvie Girlie said:
Besides, although I'm comfortable with myself most of the time and get compliments a lot, I'm not really vain enough to assume that a GORGEOUS guy is going to think I'm hot stuff, even if I'm fresh back from Hawaii in a "I hella <3 Oakland" shirt....although it would be nice to think so. Mind you, I was chubby-ish most of my adult life, or so it seemed, so being fit right now and considered somewhat attractive is pretty mind-boggling. I try not to think about it and I instead focus on happiness and self-worth. Perhaps that's what makes people find me attractive, it seems to make other people I see shine out....
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YUP, that's exactly what it is......that's even what INTRIGUED the hell out of me about you......GOT ME TO WANNA READ YOUR WHOLE LIFE!!! :smilielol5:....I stalked YOU!!! LOL ;).....I love that about you.....FOCUS ON HAPPINESS AND SELF WORTH! :iagree:
 
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YUP, that's exactly what it is......that's even what INTRIGUED the hell out of me about you......GOT ME TO WANNA READ YOUR WHOLE LIFE!!! :smilielol5:....I stalked YOU!!! LOL ;).....I love that about you.....FOCUS ON HAPPINESS AND SELF WORTH! :iagree:
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Oh for fucks sake that is heart warming shit! Let's make out ;) Haha! You're a sweetheart :beating: :hug2:
 
The saying goes that beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but I don't know anyone who thinks that a person being confidant and comfortable with themselves as a negative.

Besides, are you sure that this guy is blinding beautiful, and not blindingly ugly? It's the blinding part that works for us ugly guys :troll:
 
Trops said:
Besides, are you sure that this guy is blinding beautiful, and not blindingly ugly? It's the blinding part that works for us ugly guys :troll:
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Hahaha, the ex used to joke, before his ego got out of control, that is was my bad eyesight that made me think he was so cute. Who knows, maybe that hot hippy guy had the perfect genetics to mesh with mine, and only my vagina and his penis really knew that.....HAHAHAHAHA ok I'll stop.......:biggrinjester:

Ever heard of Roald Dahl? His book The Twits really impacted me on the idea of inner beauty....I wish I could show you the picture of the page where he explains it.....
 
Big Roald Dahl fan. We just read The Twits on the way home from vacation last month and I know the exact description. I loved it.
 
Word! Overweight, stick out teeth, blemishes--but if you look like that and think positively you will always be beautiful or something like that :) I think that book ruined my possibility at being a shallow person at a young age. Ever since then I was disgusted at how everyone in school was so obsessed with superficial good looks. Still, when it comes to F.B.s, they have to be SOMEWHAT cute for me to be anything other than just a buddy :D
 
Oh yeah:

Lunch on the beach in the Indian Summer Sun:
grilled terriyaki salmon____220 calories
some Gigande Beans____200 calories
water_____haha!
 
As we were reading that I was thinking about what the kids would think about people we know, wonderful people, who look like that. I just let it go. They'll figure it all out themselves. My son really didn't like the Twits crushing themselves into oblivion. That part disturbed him.

Last year we read The Witches. That starts out scary but turns out good. They had to trust me there. I had to stop for a while so that they wouldn't get too scared, but after a while we continued and all was ok.
 
Plans for this evening:

Kickbox for the first time in 13 days! :party:

Find a delicious dinner that is not too expensive, and has whole grains in it--I think I have been heavy on the protein and fat today. Which is good, but still--whole grains are necessary, and COLLARD GREENS FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!! Just give me some collards on a bed of wild rice with tahini dressing and sesame sprouts. Wow, throw in some cherry tomatoes and I'm a happy camper!!!

Call and hang out with my girlfriends. One girl broke up with her boyfriend and I am BUMMED because they had an (apparently) excellent relationship. And my homegirl who is pretty much just like me in a lot of ways is leaving for L.A. for a week :( Boo, I already missed her in HI!!!
 
Trops said:
Last year we read The Witches. That starts out scary but turns out good. They had to trust me there. I had to stop for a while so that they wouldn't get too scared, but after a while we continued and all was ok.
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As a child I always liked to be scared. I still do! Especially in bed :reddevil:--makes it exciting!!!! :biggrinjester:

I think I love Matilda and James and the Giant Peach the best but I can't decide!
 
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