Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me

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HI!!!!!!!!

My birthday is the 4th and I've been seriously trying to get my weight down AND............

YAY I made it to 144.0 this morning!!! :party:

That is a 22.55 BMI and at this weight I think I look pretty fabulous. I like this weight, I want to be between 140-144 for the rest of my life but yeah, we'll see.

I have stopped eating chocolate for no apparent reason. Once in a while, but in moderation. I quit sugary things with the exception of candy laying around the office, and even then I use every fiber of my being to not eat it. I eat salmon, veggies, fruit, brown rice, whole grains, nuts, seeds, yogurt, greens, and cheese every day and the main reason was because my mom told me she forgot :banghead: that my fucking dad used to shoot insulin because he had Type 1 diabetes. WTF?!?! he gave up on it, but that's not what killed him. He WAS obese most of his life, despite the fact he worked hard. He was extremely lethargic and believed in large meals and no snacks. I can't work like that. Anyway, I snack, and I eat good foods, and I have completely stopped buying junk food. If I want ice cream (it's summer for godssake) I make someone share a portion and I convince them to eat 60% or more of it (I'm sneaky like that). I still drink plenty of beer! :svengo: And WATER! :D

I hiked up Half Dome (in Yosemite, one of the most beautiful Valleys in the world) on Sunday with a bunch of friends, here's a picture of me crying from a hysterical laughing trip I was going through (call it altitude sickness, the hike gains 4,000+ feet elevation). I'm on the far right with an orange Yosemite tank top, and I think I look relatively streamline-toned (and red faced!)

The trip inspired me to rock climb, my friend Chris (the one who is dying from diabetes and needs a pancreas transplant, who has an IQ over 200 and knows almost everything about everything except social things) used to rock climb from ages 14-16 before he got too sick. He has thousands of dollars worth of gear and promises to teach me. He also has a 14 foot wall in his backyard that I was practicing on.

Rock climbing makes muscles SORE in me that I didn't know I even HAD! Like, my upper back muscles INSIDE hurt. Jeez! Someday I plan on doing El Capitan in Yosemite, check THAT shit out on wiki if you never heard of that rock. It's amazing to look at!

The juicy stuff:
I am a pimp ass boss playa! LOL, just kidding, but only yesterday I received text messages from FIVE GUYS that are interested in me: one is my lover I just took on 3 weeks ago, who lives an hour away and just moved here from another state, and drives all the way to my house once a week to see me; one is a crazy guy I only know from online who fancies he loves me and wants me to make babies with him :rolleyes:; one was a guy I just met that day and made climb a 200 ft Redwood Tree (has anyone guessed I'm an adventure-sports kind of girl?) who was smitten (but is married, lord have mercy!); one was from the downhill racer guy who's currently on the East Coast and wants me to come hang out in his hotub when he gets back because his parents will be out of town (he's 22); and one from my platonic male friend/neighbor that got drunk once and begged me to kiss him, but we still hang out.

EXHAUSTING! Being single is interesting and fun for the ego, but yes, love and commitment elude me. That's fine, things change constantly. Well, except I still have the same Fuck Buddy I've had for a long long time, that just seems to work, but yes, we only like to have sex with each other and chat 1-3 times a week from the hours of 9pm-12am. He is currently out of the state on vacation. It feels right to be dating more than one guy, I tell you, one man's virtues make up for another man's flaws and my mind (and my body) get variable stimulation! It would be nice to be in love again, but then I'd be a prisoner again and freedom is pretty appealing at the moment.

The ex's girlfriend forbade him to speak to me, which is stupid but once again, everything changes and I'm not concerned, I'm having fun and am busy with all sorts of projects. I'd like to have him as a friend because we had lots of fun together aside from the emotional stuff, but life is long and who knows what will ever really happen!!

My homegirl who's working to be an editorial photographer promises to take black and white semi-nude pictures of me for my birthday, so I'm still:

running
kickboxing
doing yoga
lifting weights

twice a week on a good week (I don't always make all those twice a week), and now I have to add rick climbing to the list.

I ran a race on 4th of July and came in first for women 25-29, 11th for women overall. I ran a race 2 weeks before that and came in 2nd in my age group, 12th overall (that was a very competitive race, whhoooo the women were FAST!). I ran Bay to Breakers (7.46 miles across the San Francisco Peninsula) and although I started in the back, I made my way up and came in at 59:31 (7:59 pace) and was 57th for women 25-29, the 144th woman, and 1023 overall out of 35,000 people. I signed up for the Rock and Roll Half Marathon in San Jose for October 5th (13 miles) and have never ran that far in my life. I'm going to train for that. I have not injured myself so far that I can remember this year. The Yosemite hike made me have weak ankles at the end (19 miles round trip) but everyone else had knee problems and I am lucky that my knees never bother me (is it the free weight training or what?!?!). I'm proud of my abilities, and men constantly compliment me, which is nice, but puzzling because I'm still not particularly vain and think maybe if I lived in L.A. (the land of beautiful if not fake women) that I wouldn't be noticed as much (???) Women my age, if they're not exercising, tend to get soft (to be nice) at this age and I'm lucky I figured out that exercising is a way of life and the best choice for me.

WHEW!

I don't have time to check around and my house doesn't have internet and my break is over!

I love you and miss you, take care and hope you're all getting closer to your goals!
 
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Hey there!

Sounds like you're having a great time! I loved rock climbing (top roping) in college it was lot's of fun. Maybe I'll get into it again when I'm all fit and stuff!

Take care!

David C
 
God damn that's a long and happening post! Glad to hear you're doing so well. All the racing, fucking, flirting, weight losing, adventures... everything... sounds like a lot of fun!
 
Steve said:
All the racing, fucking, flirting, weight losing, adventures... everything... sounds like a lot of fun!
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When you're as active as I am, the sex drive sort of goes out of control--not to mention men who are not in a relationship usually are up for fun several times, which is more than I can say for the ex towards the stale parts of our relationship! Also, I'm extremely orgasmic, and pretty much can't really speak after one, my eyes roll in the back of my head as my neuron synapses flood with dopamine (or is it oxytocin?)--good times! :sifone:
 
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Flexibility is great for rock climbing. Women are often very good technical climbers because they use all of their resources. Flexibility, leg strength, smarts...where men often rely too much on upper body strength.

Our college rock climbing instructor could do chin-ups with his fingertips between courses of bricks on the wall of the gym.

I was best at belaying :) I was also good at grilling dinner during the weekend trips! Since I was already 18 in college I also bought beer.

David
 
DCarr10760 said:
Flexibility is great for rock climbing. Women are often very good technical climbers because they use all of their resources. Flexibility, leg strength, smarts...where men often rely too much on upper body strength.
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I'm reading a good book called Flash Training by this guy named Eric Hörst, and it's got lots of good things to note when you're on a rock (artificial or otherwise). When I was training with Chris, he made me realize it's TOTALLY MENTAL. He said, "get up right there, and jump up and grab that large handle-shaped grip with both hands" and I was like, "I can't!" and he said, "sure you can. Just do it." And I fussed for a minute, then I figured ah hell the crash pad is below me and I JUMPED UP and managed to grab it (only with one hand) without falling. I did it 2 more times and it got easier, which is the concept the book was pressing, that the human brain burns permanent pathways for activities you do over and over. The only way I am going to be a good rock climber is if I rock climb (what a concept) and do it on many different surfaces in many different places of the world.
 
Chris used to be able to do pinky pull-ups!

I'm pretty good at not falling, but I like the feeling of jumping 30 ft (into water), so hopefully I won't get scared out of climbing like a girl I was talking to. She was Aid climing and fell 35 ft!!! One of the bolts fell out, but she survived and of course her dynamic rope didn't cause her injury, but she doesn't trust her equipment enough to climb anymore. I like jumping but I don't want to fall even 10 feet when I'm flailing and not expecting it! At least I have absolutely no fear of heights.
 
Yeah, I have no fear of heights either. My first real job out of high school (before I went to college) was painting billboards. We got an extra 25 cents an hour for jobs that were 75 feet up or higher with a 50 foot free fall. If you were on a board that was 26 feet up on a building that was 49 feet tall you didn't get the extra pay because if you fell you would hit the building roof first before falling . Crazy. I loved climbing up the tall boards. The really tall ones twisted and swayed in the wind (which I liked).

My first rock climb (Otter Cliffs in Maine) was on a College trip. I fell and the girl belaying me dropped the line so I careened down the face about 15 feet before the instructor stopped me (it wasn't that high). I was wearing my watch and the face had flipped to the inside of my wrist and the fall wiped all of the workings right away. All of my fingerprints were ground off. Fortunately I had enough callouses that there was no bloodletting that day. Despite the drama it was fun.

It's cool that you are getting involved in it. I thought the women in the outdoors program were the hottest. I like strong, capable women anyway.

David
 
I forgot!

LOL you sound like such a Libra man! ;)

I forgot to say that I lost my footing on the cables on Half Dome when I was maneuvering around a girl who was having a panic attack and was clinging to one side (pictures attached to show what I mean) and for a second I was just flapping in the wind like a ragdoll on a clothesline, clinging by my hands. I just laughed. I was absolutely not afraid because I knew that I could trust my strength and quick thinking because, I found, that I have quick reflexes (I think we all who are have average brains do, maybe some people just don't trust them). Also, my liking of heights and danger helped. People around me were like, "Don't let goooo!" and I was like "I woooooon't!" The first two pictures are from the internet, the fires in California made the visibility pretty awful in the Valley as you can see from my "dome" picture:
 
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Haha, it always strikes me as funny when something like that happens and people yell, "Don't let go!" D'uh! good idea!

Looks like a beautiful spot to climb. Plenty of company though... if you did fall on the cable line you'd be bound to land on something soft. ;-)

Have you done any repelling, that's fun. Especially on an overhang when you are free-repelling.

I'll see if I can dig up and scan some old photos of my trips (before you were born) I was big and strong with long 70's hair. Funny.

David

David
 
Yep... still the Valerie I know and love!

I'm so happy to se you again!!!!

And you are such a badass! :D

* Guess what - I posted a bikini shot in my before/afters (and in my diary, too!) - can you believe it?! I'm still not perfect, but I'm getting better! :D
 
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Have you done any repelling, that's fun. Especially on an overhang when you are free-repelling.

I'll see if I can dig up and scan some old photos of my trips
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Isn't it rappelling? No, but I found the fastest way down the cables was in a rappelling-type motion on one cable, backwards, but of course my gloves got scrunched up (there's a pile of gloves on the bottom). I look forward to it, though, I can tell it's fun.

I look forward to any cool pictures you got!
 
DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMN!!! :eek2:​

Good for you, girl, you are so svelte now!!! Good work!

Don't worry I'll get some B/A bikini pics in here eventually! ;)
 
You're right, my bad, it's rappelling,

"reppelling" is when you say something dumb and your rep level falls precipitously :)

Now they have little rappelling brakes that are very controllable for speed, they say, but back in the way back we used figure eight shaped rapelling rings that the rope was woven through and you controlled the speed by friction If you started dropping fast and didn't have good callouses on your hands (no gloves or they'd get wrapped up in the hardware), things 'd heat up fast and you'd wind up on your fanny hard. But once you got a good rythm it's like flying (backwards and down).

I never much cared for climbing walls (no view) and I didn't much like ice climbing (where terra firma isn't all that firma) and I hated spelunking (sp?) (no view...at all).

But top roping and mountaineering are the best!

David
 
I need to learn more before I know exactly what you're talking about!! LOL

Sounds good to me! El Cap, I'm gonna climb you eventually!!!
 
Oh you'll learn fast enough. There is nothing like the rush of getting to the top and looking at the view of a peak that you can only get to by climbing (or parachuting).

You're just the kind of person to really get into it and enjoy it.

My ex-wife went climbing with me (and a group at college) and she put off climbing anything hard for days. Finally on the last day of the trip we were climbing on the cliffs in Maine at Acadia National Park. You had to rappel 75 feet down to a 10 ft wide shelf above the Ocean at low tide and climb back up. There were several climbs set up, she picked the easiest since it was her first vertical climb (she did several scrambles successfully in earlier days). But by now it was late afternoon and the tide was coming in which meant that the shelf at the bottom was dissappearing.

I finished my third and final climb (I thought) of the day and when I got to the top, the asst leader told me that Robin was having a breakdown on the rock and I needed to rappel down and help her to get up.

Now down on the shelf, which by now was only 3 feet wide stood the Trip Leader, a guy named Bob, who was a world class climber. Why couldn't he talk her up? She wouldn't listen to him and hugged the ledge she was stuck on sobbing, calling for me...

So I rappelled down again and he told me what to tell her and I yelled up his instructions and after 10 minutes she started to climb and made it up! By this time the water was up to our ankles so we had to climb up the two hardest routes because they had broken down all the others. That was my hardest climb.

Poor ex-wifey, when she got to the top, nobody congratulated her or anything and she hated climbing from that moment on. If she'd been given some positive reinforcement maybe she would've kept with it.

History

I bet you'll be an ace- Have fun, work on your hand/forearm strength and lifting your legs as high out to the side as you can.

David
 
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