~*~ Confessions and Thoughts of a Girl Looking to the Future~*~

[bikinibound]

Can I get a woot woot?!

I knew you'd do well! Congrats on your 6lbs!! See, all that pushing through pain and creepy assholes is paying off! Woo hoo! I'm so happy for you!

 

[still.hurting]

Hi Jenna !

Just so you know.. your weigh-in today INSPIRED me. Yes, it inspired me. I ate very well today, got some EXERCISE (for once), drank some green tea and told myself to just relax. Youve made me realize that just because I had 2 bad weeks doesnt mean I have to keep going that way! I can get back into it any moment I choose. I just have to make the decision to jump back in there and start losing again with the rest of you LOSERS. haha. There's a quote sort of like that.. it's: "You dont drown by falling in the water, you drown by staying there." and also another one that got me back up and going is: "a year from now you may wish you'd started today !"

Anyways, I dont know why Im in such a good mood right now. I felt like crap earlier, was so upset and started getting cramps, but a few hours later, I feel sooo much better, even though the cramps are still there ! Maybe it was the green tea.. or not. ahaha. *ahem* anyways, I should stop before I end up writing a whole novel in your diary. CONGRATULATIONS AGAIN JENNA ! Your wonderful work is SO motivational! I thank you SO much! I cant wait to see a pic of how wonderful your transformation will be! You are already very beautiful, but you will be EVEN MORE beautiful and gorgeous in a few months! Keep going ! !

You're doing so great!

xo !

 

[MsGhettoBooty]

So ummmm.... let me ask you this, amazing shrinking Jenna..... now was that 6lbs loss after you took a dump? LMAO!!!! I love yas, girl. Congrats with the 6 lbs! You're doing phenomenal, my favorite big boobied soon to be lawyer!

-Sheryl

 

[bikinibound]

So ummmm.... let me ask you this, amazing shrinking Jenna..... now was that 6lbs loss after you took a dump? LMAO!!!! I love yas, girl. Congrats with the 6 lbs! You're doing phenomenal, my favorite big boobied soon to be lawyer!

-Sheryl

I think Sheryl is even more obsessed with our bowel movements than she is with zucchini!

 

[MsGhettoBooty]

I think Sheryl is even more obsessed with our bowel movements than she is with zucchini!

Oh Oh speaking of zucchinis... I have something for you and Jenna. I'll post it in your diaries and well, mine as well.. because it wouldn't be right if I didn't. LMAO

-Sheryl

PS and yes, I'm obsessed with that shit that goes on around here. LMAO!

 

[Boam46]

Congrats!!

You've earned it - way to go!

Thanks Griff ::HUGS::

YAY Jenna!!!
Congrats hun, that's awesome!! You worked hard, be proud!

Thanks I am proud... It feel good to get on every 2 weeks or so and see a big drop... hopfully for the next one i'll be in the 240's

CONGRATULATIONS JENNA !

Thanks Kari ::HUGS::

Jenna
I am so proud of you!!! You are doing Fabtabulous (my new word for the week LOL)
Hey hope your last final goes well and that the doctor's appt you have will go smoothly too. Don't worry about the gym. It's just like what so many other folks have already told you...........take care of you first and the gym can wait until tomorrow.
Bellaryna

Thanks Bellaryna! I hope it goes well too... I want these headaches to stop interfering in my life! LOL

Hey Jenna!!!!

WOW 6 more pounds that is soooooo awesome!!! You are doing soooooo good....in no time you'll be the "hot, big breasted, lawyer"!!!!!lolol Hope evrything is going great!!!

Rena

Thanks Rena ::HUGS:: ... its great to have you here again! We missed you and we got very worried about your poop!

That is AWESOME Jenna!!
Keep it up!

Thanks Paul ::HUGS::... Maybe I'll start melting like you!

Can I get a woot woot?!

I knew you'd do well! Congrats on your 6lbs!! See, all that pushing through pain and creepy assholes is paying off! Woo hoo! I'm so happy for you!

O0ooo yea .... I love dealign with creeps and pain! It has become a very effective method

Hi Jenna !

Just so you know.. your weigh-in today INSPIRED me. Yes, it inspired me. I ate very well today, got some EXERCISE (for once), drank some green tea and told myself to just relax. Youve made me realize that just because I had 2 bad weeks doesnt mean I have to keep going that way! I can get back into it any moment I choose. I just have to make the decision to jump back in there and start losing again with the rest of you LOSERS. haha.

I'm glad to help you in anyway I can... Your gonna do great! You're totally on the right path!

Anyways, I dont know why Im in such a good mood right now. I felt like crap earlier, was so upset and started getting cramps, but a few hours later, I feel sooo much better, even though the cramps are still there ! Maybe it was the green tea.. or not. ahaha. *ahem* anyways, I should stop before I end up writing a whole novel in your diary. CONGRATULATIONS AGAIN JENNA ! Your wonderful work is SO motivational! I thank you SO much! I cant wait to see a pic of how wonderful your transformation will be! You are already very beautiful, but you will be EVEN MORE beautiful and gorgeous in a few months! Keep going ! !

Its soo great to see you in a good mood!

So ummmm.... let me ask you this, amazing shrinking Jenna..... now was that 6lbs loss after you took a dump? LMAO!!!! I love yas, girl. Congrats with the 6 lbs! You're doing phenomenal, my favorite big boobied soon to be lawyer!

-Sheryl

Of course... i just took a 6 pound dump today... the last 15 days havn't counted for anything Its a really effective weight loss method!

I think Sheryl is even more obsessed with our bowel movements than she is with zucchini!

I think it may be an equal obsession!

Oh Oh speaking of zucchinis... I have something for you and Jenna. I'll post it in your diaries and well, mine as well.. because it wouldn't be right if I didn't. LMAO

-Sheryl

PS and yes, I'm obsessed with that shit that goes on around here. LMAO!

O man I can only imagine what is coming....

 

[Boam46]

Well... I was very happy with my weigh in today. I took my last final today too... so all I have left is to finish up my directed study work by next Wednesday Its soo awesome... I'm really almost done. Exercise for today was cleaning...which I have to do more of tomorrow morning. Because my mother is coming for the day... ugh!!

Food Today:
Breakfast:cream of wheat, 1 egg, and a peach
Lunch: Yesterday's dinner leftovers
Dinner: steak and mixed veggies

Thanks so much everyone for all yoru support Its really helped me along!

Next weigh in is graduation day... so hopfully I have an awesome graduation present that day!

 

[momma4alex]

woohoo

WOOOHOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! CONGRATS Jenna... Keep up the fantasic work. So when is the official graduation day?

6lbs less is a great way to start the day off isn't it. Keep it up and you'll reach your goal in no time.

Hope things go smoothly and you get a great report back from the doc tomorrow and also have a great day with your mom. Also as i said before don't worry about no gym time today or tomorrow your health comes before gym time any day of the year. Spend time w/your mom and relax you can go to the gym friday.

Have a great day tomorrow

 

[bikinibound]

Oh Oh speaking of zucchinis... I have something for you and Jenna. I'll post it in your diaries and well, mine as well.. because it wouldn't be right if I didn't. LMAO

-Sheryl

PS and yes, I'm obsessed with that shit that goes on around here. LMAO!

Jenna, I, like you, can only imagine what this could be. I bet it's a photo of her with a giant zucchini in her cleavage..lmbo! At least, I hope it's there, and not where we would imagine it to be!!!

 

[SoSel]

Oh pookie! I can't believe I missed the news. 6 less pounds of the amazing Jenna!? How is this world gonna deal with the loss? *wink*

I'm so HAPPY for you!

*big giant squishy hug*
[the one for special occasions]

 

[MsGhettoBooty]

My new beau

So being that it's cooling down a bit here in New York, I've decided to dump Mr. Oscar Lasko. Instead, I met myself a big, ol' Italian Stallion... I'd like to introduce you to the new man in my life: Vincenzo Zucchinirello.




LMFAO!!! I thought of you dirty bastards when I saw this sitting on my mother in law's counter. I looked at Sean and started cracking up so hard and told him, "OMG grab my camera!!!!" The shit I do to make you fuckers laugh your bellies off! Love you guys.... By the way, Jenna.... this pic is to celebrate your big loss so far! WOOT

-Sheryl

 

[still.hurting]

Hey Jenna,
Just stopping in to say hi since I havent seen you on MSN today.
I have to go to work in a little more than an hour for training !
Im so nervous, but excited ! I even exercised today ! woo !
I hope you're having a spectacular day. You are loved !



xo

 

[Boam46]

Hey Everyone!

Today was busy and good and bad... this is going to be long so I apologize in advance. Last night I barely was able to sleep... probably because I was slightly nervous about the neurologist.

Well I guess I should start from this morning. I rushed this morning to do some more cleanig before my mother got her because if my apartment isn't spotless (which it wasn't ) then they pick on everything and honestly... I just did not want to deal with it. So I go to the airport to get my mom... turns out her plan was going to be 45 minutes late... but they dont' allow you to sit and wait so I had to drive in a circle in the airport for 45 minutes or have a cop write me a ticket bang on my window and yell at me... I went with the driving around... how thrilling.

Finally my mom gets there... she gets int he car and we're driving to Newbury Street to get lunch and walk around. She gets a call from my father and she seems concerned about what he's saying. Apparently my whole family forgot to tell me that my Great Aunt whom I havn't seen in years whom I'm supposed to see when we go to Las Vegas in November is in the hospital. However, she is not only in the hospital... she went in because she had bronchitis that wouldn't go away... what do they find... Cancer grapefruit sized cancer in her ovaries. No one told me this though (eventhough my mother claims she did) ... small argument over that... I won. She's gettign a historectomy tomorrow. However, they went to look to see if the cancer spread... its everywhere... EVERYWHERE! So I don't get eased into this info like everyone else in my family... NO... I get a bombed dropped right on me. I don't start bawling like I feel like I want too... I don' know why. My grandmother of course today is rushing to Las Vegas... its her only sister... her younger sister.

We go on with our day. We're walking up Newbury Street ... have lunch... head over to the hospital. We have to ask the people at the information desk where to go... but they just didnt' know .. between the four people at the information desk they finally figure it out. They are supposed to give out INFORMATION to direct people! We get to the neurology department... they can't find any record of my appointment!!! Like it never existed... WTF!! I was getting so frustrated ... my mother flew in from NY to go to the appointment with me and you lost my appointment. Finally after waitig a 1/2 hour they found a doctor to see (not the one I was supposed to see of course). It went well... he said its probably just migraines and put me on preventative medicine. The one side effect until your body gets used to it... it makes you slow (like your memory and speech) ... bring on the jokes... PJ is already at it I have to go for an MRI next friday to rule out some sort of intracranial hypertension (doesn't that sound wonderful!!!!).

On to a better part of the day my mom and I went shopping for graduation cloths... and a new pair of jeans (my mom was disgusted by how big my other one's got) The lady at the store measured my waist ... I have lost 8 inches!!!! I was totally shocked 8 inches just from my waist. All the cloths I got were smaller... some of the shirts were 18's ... out of the 20's and into the teens... here I come!

Now I feel totally horrible about this next part... my mother pointed out that if my Aunt got sicker or died (OMG... I'm crying thinking about this!) my grandmother may not be able to come to my graduation. This totally tore me a part I understood why but felt soo devastated... I'm not sure how to feel. And I totally feel selfish for feeling bad about her maybe not being able to come... am I a horrible person? I just love my grandmother soo much... she was always there for me ...we're so close... i want to see her see me walk... I'm soo conflicted here

Then we picked up PJ and went to dinner and brought my mom to the airport to go home. Now i've had periods of beeing totally elated and crying hysterically.

Sorry I'm such a bummer tonight. I'm just crying. I'm soo conflicted ... maybe confused. I have decided when I go for my physical that I am going to make my doctor start screening me for cancer now!

Food Today:
Breakfast: too busy and forgot (i'm an idiot)
Lunch: Burger (didn't eat the bun) and a salad (really good)
Dinner: 1 steamed shrimp wanton, greek salad, haddock stuffed with crab meat with a lobster sauce, steamed broccoli and green beans... plenty leftover for lunch tomorrow.

Sorry I'm such a bummber... i wasn't home all day. I'll try to get to all of your journals now.

Lots of Love and Hugs to Everyone... I totally need lots of hugs LOL

 

[still.hurting]

I dont even know what to say Jenna !

Im so sorry about your great aunt! If it makes you feel any better, my great grandmother, whom I love very much is in the hospital too with possible kidney failure.. and my great aunt died a year or so ago from chrones disease. I know the feeling, Its hard to deal with and its so hard to think about and not cry. You are NOT a horrible person like you asked! You have every right to feel upset, hurt, or even maybe a little angry because the situation is beyond your control. Its human Jenna, and its normal to feel a wave of different emotions when you have overwhemling information thrown at you. Keep your head up. I know you're a strong person, but being strong doesnt mean you're not allowed to cry! Theres nothing wrong with that, its a human's way of dealing with pain and grieving so you can begin to heal. I hope and pray that your great aunt will be alright and through some miracle, will be able to see you walk at your graduation, you deserve it. And whether she does or not- Im sure she is so very proud of you and what you've accomplished. Youre a wonderful person and I hope the best for you and that everything works out well.

As far as your weightloss is concerned, Im extremely proud of how far you've come! 8 inches Jenna, wow. That is worth being proud about! Celebrate by buying yourself some new, hot lingerie. hehe, in a MUCH smaller size! Go you! You're doing so awesome. Such an inspiration to me, and Im sure you inspire LOTS of other people as well ! Dont call yourself an idiot for missing breakfast.. It wont kill you you skinny bitch ! haha. Youve done well, and Im sure you will continue to do well! Im sorry that you're feeling so sad Jenna, I wish I could do something to help, because I feel I owe you so much because you gotten me through some tough times. *hugs* Im here for you if you need to vent to me. Thats what Im here for.

"Do you know what to do when life gets you down?
Just keep swimming, just keep swimming,
just keep swimming, swimming swimming.
What do we do? We swim."
-Dory (Finding Nemo)


keep going Jenna, look at life in the face and tell it to f*** off.


x's and o's!

 

[momma4alex]

Hey Jenna, Like I said to you earlier in messenger I am so sorry to hear about your Great Aunt. I know it about killed me to learn of my Great Uncle dying at the end of July and we really weren't all that close but we had just seen him smiling and joking around with us at the end of febuary when my grandma came down to visit. Plus my mom had seem him like a week before he passed. and said he was doing well and the docs were seeming hopeful that they had got all the cancer out when they removed one of his lungs. So i know all about this feeling conflicted stuff. Hope your aunt gets better and that your able to see her and say your goodbyes before she passes.

Also congrats on the 8 inches loss on your waist. I can't wait to take my measurements when i do probably at the end of this month. I am hoping to see a difference too.
Keep up the good work.

 

[SoSel]

:[ Sorry about your great aunt and that no one chose to tell you. My family is like that with me. I know how it can make a bad situation worse.

Don't sweat the MRI. I've had a couple on my head. [Might've been ct scans- hard to remember when you're in pain.] Knowing nothing is wrong is so relieving. Finding the cause is the start of the cure. Chin up. It will get better.

Good job on the food.

*hugs! hugs! hugs!*

 

[ellebelle1]

Hi Jenna, I'm so sorry to hear about your great aunt. :[
I hope that everything turns out for the best dear.


as for the MRI, it's just a giant tube looking machine that sounds like a bunch of chickens clucking and usually the room is pretty close to freezing. lol. But you get super warm blankets which makes it so much better. The whole process Isn't too bad unless you're claustrophobic. :]

Take care Jenna, I'm sending love an hugs your way.

 

[Boam46]

Good Morning Everyone!

I figured out that I walked about 5 miles yesterday. So yesterday wasn't lost... 5 miles... that still counts as an exercise day! Yay!

Thanks so much for your support. This morning for some reason I'm feeling very emotionally drained. So out of it. So much happening... its just plain draining. I'm not in a bad mood... eventhough, i am sad... I'm just feeling drained.

This is the song of the day... I can't find anything the describes what I'm feeling any better.

Today I have a bunch of errands to run and I'm not feeling very hungry... so I'm just going to forcefeed myself.

"Nothing Gets Crossed Out"
Bright Eyes

The future has got me worried, such awful thoughts.
My head is a carousel of pictures.
The spinning never stops.
I just want someone to walk in front
and I'll follow the leader.
Like when I fell under the weight of a schoolboy crush.
Started carrying her books and doing lots of drugs. I almost forgot who I was,
but came to my senses.
Now I'm tryin' to be assertive.
I'm making plans.
Wanna rise to the occasion, yeah
meet all of their demands.
But all I do is just lay in bed
and hide under the covers.
I know I should be brave
but I'm just too afraid of all this change.
And it's too hard to focus through all this doubt.
I keep making these "To Do" lists but nothing gets crossed out.
Working on the record seems pointless now.
When the world ends, who's gonna hear it?
But Im tryin' and take some comfort in written words,
yeah Tim I heard your album and it's better than good.
When you get off tour I think we should hang and black out together.
Because I've been feeling sentimental for days gone by...
all those summers singing, drinking, laughing, wasting out time.
Remember all those songs and the way we smiled
in those basements made of music.
But now I've got to crawl, to get anywhere at all. I'm not as strong as I thought.
So when I'm lost in a crowd,
I hope that you'll pick me out.
Oh, how I long to be found.
The grass grew high. I laid down.
Now I wait for a hand to lift me up, help me stand.
I have been laying so low
Don't want to lay here no more.
Don't want to lay here no more.
Don't want to lay here no more.
Don't want to lay here no more.
But if everything that happens is supposed to be
and it is predetermined, can't change your destiny.
Then I guess I'll just keep moving, someday, maybe, I'll get to where I'm going.

As for the MRI's I have had 1 of my head, 2 or 3 of my right shoulder, and 2 of my right wrist forearm... so I've had my share. I just had laying still in that god forsaken tube with all that loud noise for an hour The best part is there assuming the plate in my arm is titanium based on the year it was put in and I don't set off metal detectors... this makes me feel very comfortable LOL

I hope everyone has an excellent day

Sending tons of Hugs and Love

 

[MsGhettoBooty]

First off, as always... I love ya girl and if you need to vent or whatever, just let me know. I do have free long distance. HA! If anything I really want to push the positive in this post in saying that you are doing fabulous with taking care of yourself. 8 inches, little mama.... now that my dear is a REAL commitment. I know things are shitty right now with your family, but don't lose faith. You just keep being strong, taking care of yourself, planning your graduation, and doing what you've been doing all this time, girl... you deserve it, damnitt.

The Zuchinator,

-Sheryl

 

[lindseybot3k]

AHHHH BRIGHT EYES! I didn't think anyone at this board would know of them! They're really good, but some of their songs are so long and exhausting, especially this one song that has an interview with it that takes forever!

Congrats on the 8 inch loss! I think that inches are a much better indicator of how well someone's doing rather than weight or BMI, really.

It's wrong that nobody thought to tell you about your aunt! *hug* I found out few months ago that my cousin has cervical cancer (she's only 26 or 27), and my father (her uncle) didn't tell me, but my mom did. You'd think people would realize the right way to go about things, but maybe they didn't tell you because you were stressing about school?