~*~ Confessions and Thoughts of a Girl Looking to the Future~*~

I know the feeling!! I hate when I feel like people are staring or laughing at me....but try this on for size: I am the fat muslim girl at the gym. If being fat isnt enough everyone is staring at me waiting for me to pull out a bomb or something!!!lol I do the same thing....just turn up the music and zone out.

Rena
 
Thanks Kari... I am VERY proud of you too:hug2:

Rena: its the only way I can get through the gym... I have to enter my own little world... I actually even enjoy working out as long as I don't feel like everyone is looking at me.

Today was a good day. I got my workout done... I didn't go to my shitty class (god is it horrific)... I guess i'll go tomorrow after the gym:rolleyes:
Otherwise I just knocked around a bit.

Breakfast: Yogurt and apple
Snack: kashi tlc 7 grain crackers and muenster cheese
Lunch: lean cuisine chicken meditteranean
Dinner: I made honey chipotle chicken (it was marinated and on sticks when I bought it... it was really good.) and I made brown rice with carrots, lima beans, green beans, peas, and peppers and I put spices and herbs in it while it cooked it was really yummy:)

4 days until weigh in... I'm hoping for at least 4 pounds since I didn't go to the gym for all those days!

o0ooo and I jogged two days in a row LOL:rotflmao: :jump: :rotflmao:
 
Yeah, it took me awhile to get comfortable at yoga class, all these teeny tiny, ultra-bendy women around... Eventually I got used to it and just went and did my best and concentrated on how good it made me feel.

I will cross my fingers for your weigh in on Sunday!!
 
Yup.. I get the same damn looks that everyone's getting. Ummm why is that chubby girl running? I mean, I know I'm short and I know I'm chubby, but I sure as hell don't need everyone's eyes on me. Nosey bastards. Hmmm so as a result... I'm thinking about coming up with a line of workout clothes for the "curvacious woman." I'm going to name it "Keep Them Looking." I'm going to start printing witty comments on the ass area of running pants such as "Take a picture, it last longer" or "JLO ain't got nuttin' on me" or on workout shirts "Curvy and Cute- 2 things you'lll never be." It's still in the works. ;) You're doing so well and I'm proud of you, Jenna. Bugger those ninny biotches.

-Sheryl
 
ummhusayn said:
I know the feeling!! I hate when I feel like people are staring or laughing at me....but try this on for size: I am the fat muslim girl at the gym. If being fat isnt enough everyone is staring at me waiting for me to pull out a bomb or something!!!lol

Rena
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OMG Rena! I about pissed myself reading that!!! Hahaaaaaaa! You're awesome.

-Sheryl
 
Yea talk about a clothing line....i need a shirt that says "no i am not a terrorist and yes i speak english!"

Boam, I avoided the scale this morning...so far so good!!lol

Rena
 
Sheryl ... I am sooooooo in on a clothing line... even after we shrink away to skinny nothings;):rotflmao:

Rena that pisses me off too... people really need to get over themselves!

Good Morning Selena:hug2: ... How are you doing today?

Thanks for the support Amber... what really made me feel comfortable was when there were all these skinny people around who were having a harder time than me:) Oh... and I don't know how to count LOL... my weigh in is Monday on the 30th.

It appears I am starting a movement with this scale thing... dammit the scale just pisses me off LOL ...I'm sure I'm not the first one to come up with the idea... but it certainly works for me:)

The gym wasn't so great this morning. I think I'm starting to PMS... which is just making everything I do at the gym feel like an extreme effort... ughhhhhhhhh!!!

However, I did 15 minutes on the bike... 15 minutes on the treadmill... 15 on the elliptical ... I was trying to find something my body wanted to do =0/
Then I did my ab workout. At least I got exercise done:)

Breakfast: eggo nutrigrain multigrain pancakes with nothing on them... there really good actually.

Well i'm actually gonna go to class today... I've used up my 2 unexcused absenses LOL So I guess I should show up.

I hope everyone is having a wonderful day:)
 
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conrats on making yourself go to the gym today! (Despite not feeling like it)
Im really proud! I left you a message on your MSN.. When I took in my resume, it turned into an interview, and I talked to my best friend (who was one of my references cause she was my assistant manager) and she said she gave an excellent reference, and its looking very good! Imagine that!

I hope this works out. Anyways, Im so proud of you! I cant wait until your weigh-in! :)

xo
 
Hey Jenna, WTG getting a good workout in even when you didn't feel like it! Thanks for joining the Road Trip challenge, we are gonna have a blast.

Hope you have a great day!

Griff
 
Yay for the road trip. I love road trips:)

I am soooo regretting going to class today. The moron of a teacher we have passed around an article about the study that came out today about obesity being contagious and everyone in the class started staring at me and the only other heavy girl in the class. It made me feel horrible. Like I was punched in the stomach... they were looking at us like we were diseased. I wanted to cry... I wasn't imagining it because I saw it on the other girl's face. The article didn't even have anything to do with the class... I don't know why she brought it in:mad:

Then she even had to explain to people it wasn't contagious like a virus (which apparently people were stupid enough to think) and that it was a social thing and that contagious may have been a poor word choice by researchers.

Then today's class topic was to be a sociological discussion of sexual health of men and women and this turned into a middle school class on contraception and a minor debate on abortion. It was just horrific... even scarier was the lack of sexual knowledge individual's in college have =0/
 
Boam46 said:
Yay for the road trip. I love road trips:)

I am soooo regretting going to class today. The moron of a teacher we have passed around an article about the study that came out today about obesity being contagious and everyone in the class started staring at me and the only other heavy girl in the class. It made me feel horrible. Like I was punched in the stomach... they were looking at us like we were diseased. I wanted to cry... I wasn't imagining it because I saw it on the other girl's face. The article didn't even have anything to do with the class... I don't know why she brought it in:mad:

Then she even had to explain to people it wasn't contagious like a virus (which apparently people were stupid enough to think) and that it was a social thing and that contagious may have been a poor word choice by researchers.

Then today's class topic was to be a sociological discussion of sexual health of men and women and this turned into a middle school class on contraception and a minor debate on abortion. It was just horrific... even scarier was the lack of sexual knowledge individual's in college have =0/
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OMG! How insensitive could your teacher be? I would have walked out. And, if something was said to me, I would have raised hell. I mean, I [obviously] put up with a lot of crap, but that's almost evil. And, since you said it held no relevance to the class... ::grr-sizzles in fury:: How unprofessional!

Oh, and the sexual health thing. Mmm mm. I see it all the time. I used to live on a military base. You knew who was sleeping with who by who was going to the doctor for which std. Disguisting. People don't think. And I don't care to discuss abortion. My hubby and I have such differing views it makes me sick to my stomach. All my friends agree with me. It's just not something I talk about in the open. You know?

I'm curious as can be- what is the class supposed to be?
 
Boam46 said:
Yay for the road trip. I love road trips:)

I am soooo regretting going to class today. The moron of a teacher we have passed around an article about the study that came out today about obesity being contagious and everyone in the class started staring at me and the only other heavy girl in the class. It made me feel horrible. Like I was punched in the stomach... they were looking at us like we were diseased. I wanted to cry... I wasn't imagining it because I saw it on the other girl's face. The article didn't even have anything to do with the class... I don't know why she brought it in:mad:

Then she even had to explain to people it wasn't contagious like a virus (which apparently people were stupid enough to think) and that it was a social thing and that contagious may have been a poor word choice by researchers.

Then today's class topic was to be a sociological discussion of sexual health of men and women and this turned into a middle school class on contraception and a minor debate on abortion. It was just horrific... even scarier was the lack of sexual knowledge individual's in college have =0/
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I know exactly how you feel Jenna, with the class thing. It can really stink. Even when you aren't wearing a big scarlet red letter on your front ..as W... it is obvious people are looking at you in not such a great way and judging you on your weight .. and I feel that vibe ...

I hope your day is going better *crosses fingers*

always
your friend
natalie jo
 
Selena: The class is called gender in a changing society. Its supposed to be a sociology class ... except the teacher has no idea what she's doing. I dont' think she thought the class would act the way they did. It was really weird.

Thanks for the support Natalie.

So at the last minute when I picked my boyfriend up from work we decided that we were gonna go see Sicko with a guy from his job. So I'm just eating dinner now ... but I'm sooooo hungry.

The movie was good and I'm having a much better evening:)

Food today:

Breakfast- eggo nutrigrain whole grain pancakes
Lunch- spinach wrap with turkey lettuce tomatoe and onion
snack-carrots
dinner- hot dog and lean cuisine mac and cheese

Day could have been better but could have been worse =0/
 
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Just wanted to say HI! and to let you know that I AM reading your journal.. I just dont know what to say because you are doing so fantastic! :)
 
Amber she's in Boston and due for a beating of some sense and life experience into her. She's this really nice nieve girl who has obviously not taught before... at least not much. She doesn't do it well... the class isn't organized... I'm not learning anything... and we don't really do anything sociological. We do a lot of readings but barely speak about them...we just have bizzare general discussions. The test was a total joke... it tested memorization skills not knowledge. This woman frustrates me sooo... and then yesterday... i totally did not get her point with the article it has nothing to do with class... UGHHH... I can't wait until I get to write her evaluation... I actually take the time on the bad ones... and there's only been two others in the last 4 years.

Thanks for coming by Kari :hug2:

This morning my 300 pound boyfriend tripped over my cat and I happened to be right in front of him... so he fell right on top of my back and I tensed up so now it hurts... but I am going to go to the gym later... Ill take a nice hot shower to relax it first:rolleyes:

Breakfast: yogurt and grapes
 
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