Changing the way i feel

Sounds like you've had a good day :)

Have you tried artificial sweetener instead of sugar? My parents have an artificial sweetener which is something like 0.3 calories for the sweetness of a teaspoon of sugar (about 20 calories according to their packet). Or perhaps water down the coffee (or add more milk)? That'll drive your calorie intake down without giving up on the caffeine.

(I'm back properly a week from now. I'm just trying to post a bit more often now so it's easier to get back on the bandwagon when I get back)
 
:D Yeehaaa girly! x

I quite like that hungry feeling before dinner. I think it makes you enjoy it more. I'm loving the mood of the forum today, its made me feel really positive.

I just bought myself a bundle of size 12 and 14 clothes off ebay :) I can't wait till it arrives either haha.
 
jasper said:
AHad a really good day food wise!!!

So i feel great for making it through the day not having any bad stuff!Last night i really wanted chocolate,i was SO close to getting a small one but i have made a promise!!!!So all went well!
I hope this week i'll get my ebay dresses!
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Way to go on the will power!! What a great feeling of control it must have been!!...GOOD JOB!! :hurray::hurray::hurray:

Excited for the ebay dresses too :)
 
JASPER, WHERE HAVE YOU GONE????????!!!!!!!

PLEASE DON'T LEAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I would miss you so much if you went :(

I know you were having a really tough couple of days with food recently, and you were saying that you felt yourself slipping a bit because you are becoming more comfortable with your body.

So I am really panicking that you have thought "Fuckit" and given up. Don't give up!!!!! You have lost 11 kilos, and that is brilliant. You have got it within you to do this, you've proved it already. Even if you are finding it hard, we are here to help you.

Your ebay dresses are gonna be delivered soon, they might have been delivered already. And you WILL fit into them one day, in the not-very-far future, parading your slim body and toned arms in them. In three months, by december, you will be a healthy bmi. You can go and buy yourself a whole new wardrobe of skinny clothes in the boxing day sales. But thats only if you make the choice to start eating healthily again NOW. I love weight loss stories, and the one thing they all had in common, was "I wish I had done this earlier". I know you will do it, but don't wait to gain again and be back to square one. Do it now. You've just turned thirty, and you were so happy that right at the begining of your 30's, you had made this choice to be so healthy. And you were doing so well! Please, don't stop!!!!!

You haven't been on in three days. These three days of eating badly don't matter, what matters is that you eat healthily from tomorrow, no excuses. Even if you don't feel like it. Don't wait for motivation, because you could be waiting for ages. YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!

Please come back :(
 
Well said Rainbow!!! Please come back jasper....we need you in this crazy forum family of ours!!!! miss you!!!!
 
:( Miss you. Just had a nose and saw that you were last online here on the 8th. So you haven't come on to have a nose. I'm seriously worried you are hurt or something really bad has happened. I hope you let us know that you are okay even if you don't want to carry on with the diet xxxxx
 
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i am here all is really fine.ill be back later cause my little one is having a bad fit........................................
im down to 83!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
:D I was so happy to see you've posted! Glad everythings okay! And you've lost 2kilos as well, oh my god!!!!! And there I was worried sick that you had jacked it all in! x
 
I read all your worried posts guys thanks so much!you are really my best ovr the internet friends ever and i really aprecciate all your concern:grouphug:
I had (still having today) some problems with the internet all over the area.
I was with no connection all of these days,it wa driving me mad.Nothing i could do though.

My husband had to go on a short trip also these days so it was really busy for me taking my baby to my mums everyday, so i could go clean that night cluc,(since my motherin law is still away for vacation.)then going home cleaning there too,making food , bathing , ect
I DO so very much admire single moms!I cant start to imagine how difficult it must be for them.

Now i weighed myself 2 days ago i was 83,2~Very happy i shall say!
Then today i was 84....???
So i will think i am 83,5 to be in the middle!I am still pleased im away from 85~!!!Going down to the 70's~~~~~

2 of my dresses came.THe black sequin and the tight little black one.Well the black on fits but its so tight its a little see through from the stretching!!!!
The sequin dress is a size 10 too, and right now it looks like a top!NOT a dress!i guess it will get longer as i get thiner!
I have one more in a size 12 coming next week!!!

Today my eating wasnt good.NOt that i had bad stuff.i just didnt have enough and i am still a bit hungry.I was running around all day it was so exhausting
BR Coffee
Lunch Nothing
Snack 2 mini butter croiassant
Dinner beef home made burger with cabbage salad

Thanks again all you great people for thinking of me!You mean so much!
 
Heya sweetie.
It's soooooooo good to see you back, i was getting really worried.

83.5 That is awesome!!! :) So pleased for you hun.

That's cool that you are happy with your dresses even though they are small, but then, that's the idea isn't it. I bought a dress yesterday in a 14 though and i got it done up, it's really really tight but i can't wait til it does fit!
 
:D You have made me go and buy loads of size 12 stuff lol. So far I've got some river island jeans, a funky jumper, and a bundle of stuff which is all size 12 or 14. And its still all in the shops, so not out of fashion at all. Also putting all my size 16 clothes on ebay tomorrow, good riddance to them!

Yeah, I know it must be ridiculously hard bringing up kids on your own :( I have got huge respect for singles mums too.

Hows today been my dear? x
 
Yes that is the idea of smaller clothes andvery happy moments when they fit!
I must say that it was rainbow that started all this smallerclothes thing with that fancy shunny dress she got!!!Im am so loving this!!!!

TOday i cleant that night club for SEVEN hours...i was nearlly dead when i finished.I then had to go to the center ofathens to a western union that was a half hour drive (it was the only one open till late) The second most known square of athens is called Omonia and it is just TERRIBLE...
It was nearly dark all shpos were closed, all these men on the streets just sitting on the pavment.Refugees i think.No greek speaking person in sight,tthere have been many murders and stealing down that side of town and i was right there with money on me.I was sooooo scared im still thinking of it..Anyway...

I didnt eat till night time cause i was away all day workng in that place i mentioned.So i had 1 and half souvlaki.And a diet coke.Also i had two energy drinks at the shop so all together i think i am ok on thecalories , sure not ok on the heathy side though!

I am so tired.Its 2 am , im going to read some journals and off to bed!

Rainbow good selling tomorow!!!!
 
I had a crapy day today,but a good one calorie wise.
I know u probaly will think im acting like a silly teenagr but i got really pissed ifelt like crying.Its nothing big so dont get out the popcorn its just that we were driving back home today from my mums and a girl was passing the street and my husband was checking her out he wasnt even looking forward to the road but at her he was actually driving by looking at her.....I got so anry..i told him Look in front of you you;re driving and he didnt say anything.I felt shit.
I know that men probably do that but i was right next to him.
Then after a few secons i asked why was he checking her out and i was expecting denial but he kind of smiled and said something silly i dont even rember....Then at home i was really pissed off and he vame huged me and said sorry....i told him its not the sorry i want.I just want him to not do that...

I am still angry
I thought about it reaLY to figure out WHAT botherd me so damn much,
Its cause he never chexks me out.NO matter what i wear he never makes me feel special.Its always going to be some girl out there thats going to get some little attention and not me...I confess i am jealous and i think that no matter how many kilos i loose, no matter how gorgeous i become i will never be THAT girl for him,ever.I feel he sees me as the wife at home...If i could i would go sleep at my sisters tonight,thats how angry i am.I need to feel wanted admired ect...i never do.i thought it was just me and my self issues and low self esteem but dont feel bad about myself anymore.I dont think i am bringing this on myself.I think its his fault...Oh dear...
the idea that he actually checked her out and TURNED his head while passing my is getting me really mad and excited right now.
I mean i have been trying my bery best and have made such progress and this is what i get>????ok so he told me once i look good...thats it.
I get moaning all day,with the shitty buisness hes trying to open,i get the shitty night clubi clean and my feet are BLACk from the dirtm i get the moaning child and the untidy home EVERY SINGLE DAY and some slutty girl gets the "mmmm nice" look?shit...sorry im really angy.

I had 2 coffees
1 energy drink
some spaggeti w/meat sause and salad
1 low cal yoghurt.
 
:D Well, its snowballing beyond control now haha. I bought one thing, that made you buy about 4 things, that has made me buy about 17 things! Seems to be multiplying by four each time lol, soon you'll be telling me that you've bought 65 goal outfits lol.

Oh god, that walk sounded so scary... you should have got a taxi! Don't ever do that again. I mean it!

Goodness me, you must have been so tired after all that cleaning.

Its shit that your husband was checking out that woman and didn't even deny it, and I understand your anger COMPLETELY. Your anger isn't irrational, most of the times when people get really angry about a smaller thing its old feelings from the past resurfacing. Its sad, but in a lot of long relationships you get to the stage where you hardly even look at each other any more. I promise you, that you have got LOADS of men looking at you through their car windows, and checking out your bum as you walk down the street in front of them.

I'm glad he apologised, but your right, he shouldn't do it in the first place. Maybe you could make a point of ogling men in front of him to see how he feels. I know that would probably cause more problems tho, so don't listen to me!

You are completely beautiful Jasper, so stop comparing yourself to other women, PLEASE!!! xxxxx
 
If i could afford it i would for sure buy so many outfits!!!!Im settling for just a few for now!!!!


I am still mad but not showing it cause i feel i'm acting childish.Well anyway...:reddevil:


I didnt post yesterday,was really tired again.

I have eatien ok these days.I am really wanting chocolate but trying to avoid.

I have a birthday party to go to tomorow...:banghead: must see how im going to handle the cake!


Today i had


BR Coffee


Lunch Half chicken breast with 1 roasted potatoe and a tomatoe , 2 mini toasts.


Snack i had 1 pringle.Not one box~~~~i mean 1 chip!!!

2 diet cokes.

Coffee




I havent really had much.I thought i did but writing it down now it seems little.

I have the ebay dresses photos but im charging my battery so ill put them up later on if im awake or tomorow!

I have some shoping to do tomorow and then the party so i hope i can come on!
 
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