overtherainbow
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AHope you are all well and good girly x
Changing the Way I Feel and Eat!!!
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jasper1
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I have been feeling so rotten just plain aawfull.I had headaches alllast week and didnt even feellike getting up in the morning.My periods had already finished so i cant blame that.But i do think i know what happened and its just really pathetic.
remember the wedding i was supposed to go to and i was going to see my ex there ect?well my friend that was getting married called and said that my ex visisted him and said that if he invites me he and his wife cant come to the wedding.........our mutual friend asked why after so many years (5) do you say this he said we are both married so what is the problem and my ex said his wife doesnt want to be there if im there and he doesnt want any trouble with her....so my friend was in an odd situation and i told him i wont come and not to think of ot and i'll go see him after his wedding at their new home....
But i was so upset about this...and on saturday that passed the day of the wedding i was so bloody pissed off i was crying for no reasson...i was looking at the clock thinking that he is getting married and i am not therebecause of my ex and his cow wife.....i still am thinking of this and ifind it hard to sleep at night.I am checking fb all day to see if anyone has posted pics of the wedding to see if ex went after all and what they where wearing... iam obssesing and its really freaking me out....
i have been eating like a pig and i got 2 coments that i have gained weight..not liking this...
remember the wedding i was supposed to go to and i was going to see my ex there ect?well my friend that was getting married called and said that my ex visisted him and said that if he invites me he and his wife cant come to the wedding.........our mutual friend asked why after so many years (5) do you say this he said we are both married so what is the problem and my ex said his wife doesnt want to be there if im there and he doesnt want any trouble with her....so my friend was in an odd situation and i told him i wont come and not to think of ot and i'll go see him after his wedding at their new home....
But i was so upset about this...and on saturday that passed the day of the wedding i was so bloody pissed off i was crying for no reasson...i was looking at the clock thinking that he is getting married and i am not therebecause of my ex and his cow wife.....i still am thinking of this and ifind it hard to sleep at night.I am checking fb all day to see if anyone has posted pics of the wedding to see if ex went after all and what they where wearing... iam obssesing and its really freaking me out....
i have been eating like a pig and i got 2 coments that i have gained weight..not liking this...
jasper1
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ive been good for a couple of days.Managed to eat lunch an early dinner and nothing else.Lunch and dinner was spagghettiwith fresh tomatoe and a little sprinkeled cheese.So cause of high cals ididnt put anything else in my mouth exept for coffee.
I am getting headaches on and off so damn strange.I took Mario to the park and i was feeling ok and suden;y i felt i had i rock inmy head and then i was ok again.i did notice that i felt it after i got a bit of angry at the park.And alos i am getting theseheadaches for a week now and the same time i am feeling so shity not health wise just mentaly ,and my attitude.Its like im sucking on a lemon all day...i dont know exactly what is wrong.Iknow 2-3 things that are really on my mind so maybe its just that.\
Havent gone to the gym at all.I feel so slow cant even think of running...oh no...i make such an effort to take little one to the park in the early evening and then just sit on the bench lookingat himplay.
Well thats that just felt i must post today at least this is something steady for me i can be sure of this forum.I need something from my good days to keep me going.
I am getting headaches on and off so damn strange.I took Mario to the park and i was feeling ok and suden;y i felt i had i rock inmy head and then i was ok again.i did notice that i felt it after i got a bit of angry at the park.And alos i am getting theseheadaches for a week now and the same time i am feeling so shity not health wise just mentaly ,and my attitude.Its like im sucking on a lemon all day...i dont know exactly what is wrong.Iknow 2-3 things that are really on my mind so maybe its just that.\
Havent gone to the gym at all.I feel so slow cant even think of running...oh no...i make such an effort to take little one to the park in the early evening and then just sit on the bench lookingat himplay.
Well thats that just felt i must post today at least this is something steady for me i can be sure of this forum.I need something from my good days to keep me going.
overtherainbow
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AThat is totally ridiculous that your exes wife refused to go if you are there! You and G are engaged with a child. It sounds petty, and playground-ish, and I'm really sorry that you missed out on the big day 
I love weddings.
I think your headaches are probably related to stress I knooooow how you feel. My head just keeps on banging. How is your money situation?
Please go to the gym/track for me! I can't go at the moment and I'm desperate too. RUN FOR BOTH OF US!!!!! Run that stress away!
I love weddings. I think your headaches are probably related to stress
I knooooow how you feel. My head just keeps on banging. How is your money situation? Please go to the gym/track for me! I can't go at the moment and I'm desperate too. RUN FOR BOTH OF US!!!!! Run that stress away!
jasper1
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money wise we are absolutly broke.i am really obssesed with fb trying to see if i see any wed pics with my ex in its so pathetic...god... i am really thinking of closing my account and just leaving the internet for a while.just log on here though.i must get back on here daily
i feel ashamed
i weighed in at 85 kilos....
i have been eating good for somedays and i am of knowlege of this situation.
i hate my clothes feeling tight and i will not get fat again.welll fatter that is.
i dont feel so nice anymore about myself , a month ago i felt super hot and i gained more and its all gone.Its a thin line between fat and curvy....
after my food last nigh i had a bowl of cereal after posting on here.
today i have only had a bowl of cereal and i am not getting anymore when the box is finished i'll get museli instead and just keep it to breakfast/or maybe better i'll go back to oats and milk that did fill meup better.\
i feel ashamed
i weighed in at 85 kilos....
i have been eating good for somedays and i am of knowlege of this situation.
i hate my clothes feeling tight and i will not get fat again.welll fatter that is.
i dont feel so nice anymore about myself , a month ago i felt super hot and i gained more and its all gone.Its a thin line between fat and curvy....
after my food last nigh i had a bowl of cereal after posting on here.
today i have only had a bowl of cereal and i am not getting anymore when the box is finished i'll get museli instead and just keep it to breakfast/or maybe better i'll go back to oats and milk that did fill meup better.\
jasper1
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food today
1coffee milk sugar
1 bowl cereal w milk low fat that is
2 plates of peas with carrots and potatoes in pot.
about 150 gr feta cheese maybe more.
1 small slice of bread
1 det coke
planing on cutting down to only 1 can of diet coke per day and then maybe not have it at all.as well as 1 coffe per day and see ifi can stop that too cause i am concerned of my headaches and i dont want anything that triggers them,
no candy , cookies , loads of bread , pizza ,cake or icecream for 3 days i think in a row.feeling good about this but still really low mentaly about other stuff.
aw not to forget LOADS of water maybe 4 litres a day
1coffee milk sugar
1 bowl cereal w milk low fat that is
2 plates of peas with carrots and potatoes in pot.
about 150 gr feta cheese maybe more.
1 small slice of bread
1 det coke
planing on cutting down to only 1 can of diet coke per day and then maybe not have it at all.as well as 1 coffe per day and see ifi can stop that too cause i am concerned of my headaches and i dont want anything that triggers them,
no candy , cookies , loads of bread , pizza ,cake or icecream for 3 days i think in a row.feeling good about this but still really low mentaly about other stuff.
aw not to forget LOADS of water maybe 4 litres a day
Cate
Long term member
Hi Jess, I think your headaches probably do come from feeling so stressed. Forget about your ex and his wife. They don't matter. What she thinks doesn't matter. She is jealous of you & that is sad. Try your hardest to feel sorry for her. being so insecure. Your relationship with your ex was not good & you have said you would not want to be with him again. Poor her! Lucky you!! Try to take care of yourself Jess please. Don't go stalking on FB. Don't go there! Move on my sweet. Time to get back on track & back to how you were a month ago. Get that feeling back. LOVE YOURSELF Jess. Eat as healthily as you can, get back to gym as soon as you can & tell yourself every day that you are special, because you are! You should feel attractive & sexy. Go back & read that wonderful post when you told us how good you felt about yourself. I loved it! Lots and lots of love sweetie, xoxo Cate
rainyforest138
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Jasper- I can relate to those down sucky tight clothes feelings... headaches because of plain old feeling shitty... stress over garbage.. I've been struggling lately too. But its time to get back the good feelings, feeling beautiful and good about ourselves, and forgetting about other peoples issues. I LoVE what Cate said... we just gotta LoVE ourselves. LoVE ourselves and we will feel good and it will show we will look good too... Treat yourself good!
jasper1
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hi ladies thank for the support its so much needed
I was feeling better today not so anxious,not a bad headache not many nervesand not feeling so
fat.
i also have checked fb only once today and then i played some games without spying o people!!!!
food for the day
2 coffees 180 cals
1 chicken snitzel in oven 250 cals with a cup cooked rice with veggies in 250 cals about 150 gr feta cheese 200 cals
3 cracker high in fiber and otherhealthy stuff 150 cals
a few sips ofboxed mixed fruit juiceand a hanfull of grapes.
1 lolipop 100 cals
total 1130 but i think its around 1200 a bit more cause of the cheese and also i had another 2bigmouthfuls of rice
Things to be proud of
We went to water my MIL plants as she is stil away and in the freezer where these icecreams left over from ME from last week going there.They where small things with 200 cals each.Last week i had 4 of them..............today i turned them down.my son and G had them.
The crackers i bought this morning -well actually it was early afternoon- cause i was hungry even though they dont have sugar and fat in ,they are high calorie ,49 cals each.usually i eat the pack but today i had 3 .
i calorie counted today.its really not the exact number of cals for the rice and cheese (i dont havea scale anymore)but still i calorie counted that i hate doing but seems to be the only way to get myself in control of what im eating.
see if i didnt calorie count i would probably had at least halfthe pack of crackers and had just one ice cream not even looking at cals on the package...see thats exactly how i gained this weight....hmmm i am soooo hating the calorie counting,.....,,,,
ive still got to go upstairs and hang the clothes out to dry ,the time is 11 at night.Mario isnt sleeping yet and my mind is on fooooooooood//////////////////////////////the day isntover so i HOPE REALLY I MANAGE TO NOT EAT ANYTHING ELSE i think i did marvelous today!!!!
I was feeling better today not so anxious,not a bad headache not many nervesand not feeling so
fat.
i also have checked fb only once today and then i played some games without spying o people!!!!
food for the day
2 coffees 180 cals
1 chicken snitzel in oven 250 cals with a cup cooked rice with veggies in 250 cals about 150 gr feta cheese 200 cals
3 cracker high in fiber and otherhealthy stuff 150 cals
a few sips ofboxed mixed fruit juiceand a hanfull of grapes.
1 lolipop 100 cals
total 1130 but i think its around 1200 a bit more cause of the cheese and also i had another 2bigmouthfuls of rice
Things to be proud of
We went to water my MIL plants as she is stil away and in the freezer where these icecreams left over from ME from last week going there.They where small things with 200 cals each.Last week i had 4 of them..............today i turned them down.my son and G had them.
The crackers i bought this morning -well actually it was early afternoon- cause i was hungry even though they dont have sugar and fat in ,they are high calorie ,49 cals each.usually i eat the pack but today i had 3 .
i calorie counted today.its really not the exact number of cals for the rice and cheese (i dont havea scale anymore)but still i calorie counted that i hate doing but seems to be the only way to get myself in control of what im eating.
see if i didnt calorie count i would probably had at least halfthe pack of crackers and had just one ice cream not even looking at cals on the package...see thats exactly how i gained this weight....hmmm i am soooo hating the calorie counting,.....,,,,
ive still got to go upstairs and hang the clothes out to dry ,the time is 11 at night.Mario isnt sleeping yet and my mind is on fooooooooood//////////////////////////////the day isntover so i HOPE REALLY I MANAGE TO NOT EAT ANYTHING ELSE i think i did marvelous today!!!!
jasper1
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ok i jst had to come on and say that i have lost a kilo im 84 now!!yeeeeeeessssw!!!!!see!!!theLITTLE thingsmatter the most!!!WOOOOW!!!yes i so want ot get to 80 again...amazing how just 5 kilos make a HUGedifference.at 85 i feelugly and fatat 80 i feel super good sexy healthy!
last night i DID haveanother 4 crackers...i just couldnt sleep i was tossing and turning i was just hungry so i had it.I nearly had cereal but i just looked the other way.
food for the day not so well
5 crackers
1coffee
1diet coke
spagghetti with a tiny bit of red sause
potatoes in oven with some melted cheese
i had the potaotoes late at night i wish i hadnt of though
need to sleep ,didnt count cals i really dont want to know about those potatoes.ill pretend it never happened
Things to be proud of
managed only one coffee and i dont know if its just happened but im ok with headache today.I am feeling also less stress today.
went to MIL shecame bck today and after foodshe had icecream.Everyone had , but i didnt have any and i was fine with it.
last night i DID haveanother 4 crackers...i just couldnt sleep i was tossing and turning i was just hungry so i had it.I nearly had cereal but i just looked the other way.
food for the day not so well
5 crackers
1coffee
1diet coke
spagghetti with a tiny bit of red sause
potatoes in oven with some melted cheese
i had the potaotoes late at night i wish i hadnt of though
need to sleep ,didnt count cals i really dont want to know about those potatoes.ill pretend it never happened
Things to be proud of
managed only one coffee and i dont know if its just happened but im ok with headache today.I am feeling also less stress today.
went to MIL shecame bck today and after foodshe had icecream.Everyone had , but i didnt have any and i was fine with it.
jasper1
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/Coming to think of it it is 5 bagsof sugar more it isnt that little is is?
I have to say that i am totaly broke.This is not an excuse of eating bad i swear it isnt.It is the ugly truth and we will continue to be totally broke till october.We are apying of something and the money we get goes straight towards it.The only money we have is from me ,cleaning that building and ironing a jentelmans clothes every Saturday (both where my MIL jobs she gave me cause we arent making it through money wise).SO no shopping like before and really i dont have the luxury to go get chicken breasts and yoghurts now!!!!
I just do with what i have.Another day we had spagghetti.I think i am going to grow this stuff off me if i continue.Today it was plain spagghetti with some sprinkled cheese.I adore it but im reALLY GETTING TIRED OF IT!!!
So here goes
Food for the day
Spagghetti with sprinkled cheese
3 fried eggs
3 slices ofbread
1 coffee
4 crakers
1 diet coke
Things to be proud of
G wanted to eat something sweet so i checked my cupboards and i had the ingredients for Halva.I L:OVE it !!!but its got lots of cals.It is kind of healthy if you think of it its made from Semolina ( igoogle translated that hope its right) , olive oil a little , idid BROWN sugar and powdered cinnamon.Anyway i love that suff and i had NONE!!!my first thought was Of course im having some,i'll just tellthem i screwed up.Thenas i was making iti decided to NOT DO THAT,.thats bad pre planning to fail!!!NO !I already had the fried eggs and i didnt whant to have a TERRIBLE TOTALY bad day.Just bad.So i proudly say i didnt have any!Thank god its all gone G and mario had it,.!!!
My little one loves all food,he eats nearly everything and suprises me that he loves all veggies well nearlly all and raw too!he always wants carrot sticks cucumbr sticks broccoli steamed potatoes , zucchinis tomatoes he adores!!!Lettuce lemones and ALL fruit my little angel!He enjoys eating so much he want to munch away all day!he ist fat though or even plump he is normal.I hope he has this attitude with food for all his life!!!
I have to say that i am totaly broke.This is not an excuse of eating bad i swear it isnt.It is the ugly truth and we will continue to be totally broke till october.We are apying of something and the money we get goes straight towards it.The only money we have is from me ,cleaning that building and ironing a jentelmans clothes every Saturday (both where my MIL jobs she gave me cause we arent making it through money wise).SO no shopping like before and really i dont have the luxury to go get chicken breasts and yoghurts now!!!!
I just do with what i have.Another day we had spagghetti.I think i am going to grow this stuff off me if i continue.Today it was plain spagghetti with some sprinkled cheese.I adore it but im reALLY GETTING TIRED OF IT!!!
So here goes
Food for the day
Spagghetti with sprinkled cheese
3 fried eggs
3 slices ofbread
1 coffee
4 crakers
1 diet coke
Things to be proud of
G wanted to eat something sweet so i checked my cupboards and i had the ingredients for Halva.I L:OVE it !!!but its got lots of cals.It is kind of healthy if you think of it its made from Semolina ( igoogle translated that hope its right) , olive oil a little , idid BROWN sugar and powdered cinnamon.Anyway i love that suff and i had NONE!!!my first thought was Of course im having some,i'll just tellthem i screwed up.Thenas i was making iti decided to NOT DO THAT,.thats bad pre planning to fail!!!NO !I already had the fried eggs and i didnt whant to have a TERRIBLE TOTALY bad day.Just bad.So i proudly say i didnt have any!Thank god its all gone G and mario had it,.!!!
My little one loves all food,he eats nearly everything and suprises me that he loves all veggies well nearlly all and raw too!he always wants carrot sticks cucumbr sticks broccoli steamed potatoes , zucchinis tomatoes he adores!!!Lettuce lemones and ALL fruit my little angel!He enjoys eating so much he want to munch away all day!he ist fat though or even plump he is normal.I hope he has this attitude with food for all his life!!!
overtherainbow
New member
AWell done
Its so inspiring for me that you are getting back on track and doing so well. No coffees or fb spying as well I actually blocked Nick from my facebook :/
Sorry this message isn't longer but I can barely keep my eyes open, will catch up properly when I get back xxxxx
Its so inspiring for me that you are getting back on track and doing so well. No coffees or fb spying as well
I actually blocked Nick from my facebook :/ Sorry this message isn't longer but I can barely keep my eyes open, will catch up properly when I get back xxxxx
Cate
Long term member
Jess, you were really strong making Halva & not eating any. Well done sweetie. You know you feel better when you are being kinder to yourself & eating mindfully. I wish that life was easier for you my friend. Hopefully the situation in Greece will improve & G will find a job. You are doing the best you can sweets & that's all any of us can do. You obviously have a lovely, healthy & happy son & that is a huge achievement! He's such a cutie! Lots of love to you Jess, xoxo Cate
tetemcg
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AHi luv....I adore your "things to be proud of"....that is exactly what I needed to see!! Thanks so much!!
and how great your little one is a veggie lover....that is a wonderful thing in one so young!
I hope your situation gets better soon!! Sending tons and tons of good vibes and hugs
and how great your little one is a veggie lover....that is a wonderful thing in one so young!
I hope your situation gets better soon!! Sending tons and tons of good vibes and hugs
jasper1
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sorry for not posting last night.
Went to our friends they had a littlebarbeque.\
food for yesterday not good
1 grilled sausage.
1 grilled small steak
some tomatoe with cucumber
1 diet coke
2 grilled pitta bred
about 100gr feta cheese
2 coffees
Monday is here hope to have a great week!
nothing to be proud of yesterday......................
Tete it is good to see the good you do even if you failed a day.its good for your mind not thinking you are a failiure!!!
Cate G has a job,and the money he gets payed now have to go to pay off some debt of ours.He really doesntget enough money.Yes things are really bad here economical issues are everyones problem now.I am thinking about moving to Holland.There is someone there that my mum and uncle know and he has his own hotel and restaurants so im just now starting to acctually consider it.Nothing for sure its just a little thought in my mind.
Went to our friends they had a littlebarbeque.\
food for yesterday not good
1 grilled sausage.
1 grilled small steak
some tomatoe with cucumber
1 diet coke
2 grilled pitta bred
about 100gr feta cheese
2 coffees
Monday is here hope to have a great week!
nothing to be proud of yesterday......................
Tete it is good to see the good you do even if you failed a day.its good for your mind not thinking you are a failiure!!!
Cate G has a job,and the money he gets payed now have to go to pay off some debt of ours.He really doesntget enough money.Yes things are really bad here economical issues are everyones problem now.I am thinking about moving to Holland.There is someone there that my mum and uncle know and he has his own hotel and restaurants so im just now starting to acctually consider it.Nothing for sure its just a little thought in my mind.
katehunibun
New member
AHello my lovely
Again i come onto your diary and i'm saying sorry for being away so long
You have been having a tough time of it lately too. I understand the money issues, i had to take a huge pay cut with my new job so we are trying to figure out how to eat healthy and cheaply too.
It is so strange how 5kg can make such a difference to how we feel. I have gained about the same as you and i really feel disgusting but........the good thing is that we are not going to put up with feeling like that. We are doing something about it
Love and hugs sweetie Xxxxx
Again i come onto your diary and i'm saying sorry for being away so long
You have been having a tough time of it lately too. I understand the money issues, i had to take a huge pay cut with my new job so we are trying to figure out how to eat healthy and cheaply too.
It is so strange how 5kg can make such a difference to how we feel. I have gained about the same as you and i really feel disgusting but........the good thing is that we are not going to put up with feeling like that. We are doing something about it
Love and hugs sweetie Xxxxx
Sunflower2
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We've been having a really tough time with money this month..In a lot of debt as well so often good food has to come second. A few months ago we had a whole week of pasta. As in, breakfast lunch and dinner. With no sauce. Just because that was all we had and couldn't afford even sauce or cheese! Hope things are improving..Glad you can come on here and vent, it's a good outlet for stress xx
xx
jasper1
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Food for the day
2 plates of rice with mixed vegs (frozen)
feta cheese
1 grilled pita bread
2 coffees
1 diet coke
Things to be proud of
G just came home and he had a mars bar my sister had given to him 4 me................he had 2 one for mario one for me.Well i said No thank you and put it in the fridge.So G said he will have it later on....oh i hope its gone sooooon....just hte thought of it sitting there gets me going.So its something to be proud of BUT the day isnt over till i sleep!!!!Hope he eats it Fast
WEll guess who went to the gym tonight?yes i went and i hated every moment moment of it................I just felt so hot i didnt run not even for 15 min straight...it went like this
5 min warm up
10 min run on 8,5
5 min walk uphill on 8-11 incline
2 min run on 8,5
10 min walk on 11 incline
5 min cool down
calories 350
the 2 min run was because i felt a pain in my calves the frn side.It was not nice and i didnt want to get injured or anything so i stoped there.It was so hard and hot./
then i got on the weights but there where so many people there that i had to wait long for a turn so i ended up NOT doing 2 of them
Even the leg curl and leg extension where hard as hell.I am so unfit and my muscles even are giving up on me.oh well...
My plan was to go back to gym when school sttarts again in September cause i hate this go one day then off for a week.But today i was thinking that every little bit counts and if i have the opportunityto go i must go evenif i am not right back on track with my exercise routine.It still is something
Kate its really ok dont even think about it.I have also not been here , on and off but i wrote in your diary that i will post every single day (exept if i really cant get online) and i have done it and i will continue to do this.I see that its just not me that feel so crap with 5 kilos more.its probably our border line!i so want to feel Fit again.Not slim i didnt really feel SLIM i felt healthy and full of energy strong and fit.Thats what i want again....What matters is as you said we are changing things not living with this bloated feeling.Thats what matters.If this was some years ago i would not care at all untill i was back to 100 kilos feeling depressed , so i think i have changed for the best.
sorry to read that you also have money difficulties....i hope that its just for now and things get better
sunflower i know exactlly the feeling not having money even for the cheese of sause...i feel terrible when i am like this i hope you get over your difficulties aswell and thank you for stoping by
2 plates of rice with mixed vegs (frozen)
feta cheese
1 grilled pita bread
2 coffees
1 diet coke
Things to be proud of
G just came home and he had a mars bar my sister had given to him 4 me................he had 2 one for mario one for me.Well i said No thank you and put it in the fridge.So G said he will have it later on....oh i hope its gone sooooon....just hte thought of it sitting there gets me going.So its something to be proud of BUT the day isnt over till i sleep!!!!Hope he eats it Fast
WEll guess who went to the gym tonight?yes i went and i hated every moment moment of it................I just felt so hot i didnt run not even for 15 min straight...it went like this
5 min warm up
10 min run on 8,5
5 min walk uphill on 8-11 incline
2 min run on 8,5
10 min walk on 11 incline
5 min cool down
calories 350
the 2 min run was because i felt a pain in my calves the frn side.It was not nice and i didnt want to get injured or anything so i stoped there.It was so hard and hot./
then i got on the weights but there where so many people there that i had to wait long for a turn so i ended up NOT doing 2 of them
Even the leg curl and leg extension where hard as hell.I am so unfit and my muscles even are giving up on me.oh well...
My plan was to go back to gym when school sttarts again in September cause i hate this go one day then off for a week.But today i was thinking that every little bit counts and if i have the opportunityto go i must go evenif i am not right back on track with my exercise routine.It still is something
Kate its really ok dont even think about it.I have also not been here , on and off but i wrote in your diary that i will post every single day (exept if i really cant get online) and i have done it and i will continue to do this.I see that its just not me that feel so crap with 5 kilos more.its probably our border line!i so want to feel Fit again.Not slim i didnt really feel SLIM i felt healthy and full of energy strong and fit.Thats what i want again....What matters is as you said we are changing things not living with this bloated feeling.Thats what matters.If this was some years ago i would not care at all untill i was back to 100 kilos feeling depressed , so i think i have changed for the best.
sorry to read that you also have money difficulties....i hope that its just for now and things get better
sunflower i know exactlly the feeling not having money even for the cheese of sause...i feel terrible when i am like this i hope you get over your difficulties aswell and thank you for stoping by