Changing the Way I Feel and Eat!!!

AHeya sweetie :)

Well done on resisting those jaffa cakes...I love them too and could easily eat two packets without blinking lol.
I totally understand what you mean about not noticing what you have eaten so it kinda doesn't count, i am the same and i have gained lots too. I hate it though, i dont like what i see, i feel fat! But we know where we are going wrong and we are going to change it :)

Love and hugs :grouphug:
 
breakfast low fat yoghurt with some kritsinis

lunch peas in pot w/potaotes and carrots kittke feta cheese 1 slice bread

Snack half melon

Dinner half melon

LOADS water and 1 diet coke.A 1 coffe aswell


Went to the sea with a girlfriend and Mario this morning.Then came home made lunch my sister visited


Its been like 1 monthnow maybe more that im getting this nausea just a little bit.Its such a little i wonder is it my imagination????

It happens on andoff through out the day.....im worried that it could be something or also worried if its my imagination.............I thought before it might be from my e-cig but i am not smoking that 4 two weeks now.....plus its the second time today i got this pain in .my stomach then it passed quick....oh well


i am so hungry right now but i'll be ok.I do feel good Kate i actially nearlly put on my BIKINI today but looked at my white tummy and went for the cover up instead!!!!
 
I just want to say that your diet sounds delicious...all the kinds of foods I wish that I had each day!


Sorry you are not feeling well...sending positive thoughts your way!
 
hello,


I am very appreciative of your journey. It's great to achieve weight loss despite having stopped smoking!It's like incredible !!!!!!


I know the courage you need to exercise to make such performences sport, when sports starting at age 30. I want to tell you that you are a YOUNG WOMAN extremely beautiful, and more than you seem to not have real problems of weight anymore . Congratulations! You wear remarkably well the swimsuit!


I made this same journey ago 2 years. I decided to quit smokin and starting sport very intense, just like you. The only difference is that I'm too private starch and sugar, and I ended up eating the whole pot of vegetables per meal! In short, despite my best efforts, go running every day, even in the snow, I took 17 kg! I slowly lost today, and I will always run every morning.


Like you I also had pain in the knees, what about you? Do you know if the fact of being overweight has many implications for our joints when we're older? In any case congratulations on your journey I am appreciative !
 
Well thank you very much for all the kind things you said!!!!



Now i'm going to tell you guys something that is a bit of a shock!Ok now


I dont want to loose anymore weight.Maybe just the 4 kilos i gained.I am ok!

I like myself the way i am.I feel great.I actually for the first time in...forever actually like my curves.I do not want to look perfect and i am happy at a weight between 76-80 kilos .I know that i should be 70kgs for a healthy bmi but that is not happening.


Shocked are you?well i am!My journey is over.Now i have to figure out how to maintain,i dont have the pressure on anymore to LOOSE.As i said loosing that little bit i gained would be great and i will try to not in a rush at all!I have managed to transform myself from a very fat smoker with no will power to a healthier and happier and very active woman!Minus nearly 20 kilos.


I went to the beach yesterday and i felt great in my BIKINI.Its not that i have the ideal body.Its just that i felt great.I saw such a HUGE difference in myself from the photos!I actually let them take photos of me in a bikini not hidding away.SO i dont care if i dont look perfect or even near it.I FEEL so good and so proud of myself.I feel strong i love the upper half of my legs from all the exercise i have had and trying to still get.I love my boobs that are still there!and i LOVE more the fact that my face doesnt looked drained out...yeap i did look drained out at xmass that passed while i was soooo focused on loosing more....thing is that i would never be happy at anyweight...cause back at xmass even though i was going on to 76 kilos i felt horrible and fat.!!!!


So i thought F%^&K it...its 2 or 3 or 5 kilos?im not going to be that person that is obssesed anymore...I feel good so why not SAY IT out loud?And i know i have mentioned my tummy that i hate it.ell i still dont like it and i have some strech marks on from birth but hey...what can i do...???with loads of crunches and ab workouts and tanning all of the summer i think i could get close to liking it!!!

I have FINALLY accepted that i am NOT ever going to look like a hot model.I do not want to walk that way anymore.I FINALLY understand that the cellulite i got on my butt is not DISGUISTING , ok its not a beautiful thing to see but its not so bad as i made it be.I am ME!and i am ok with that.


What i really want from myself and my body is to be even stronger and more defined.So i am not giving up on my gym running ect i LOVE THAT STUFF!IT has completly changed the way i see myself.I dont thing i would have made it it if wasnt for you guys and exercising.


i am exited to see the transformation my body will go through through exercise now and i will go figure out how much i can eat to loose like 2 kilos a months for 2 months and then just maintain,

I really want to say HUGE thanks again to yyou lovely friends of mine!!!!

Looking forwanrd to my new goals and a even more healthier me!Smoke free that is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
AHeya Hotstuff :)

Firstly :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: I love your postivity!!!!!! I really do......You really made me smile :D

Secondly....I then went into panic mode thinking 'NOOOOOOO Jess can't leave the forum'!!!!! Please keep posting my lovely. I will be totally lost without you here. I wanna hear all about your running, exercise, sexy bikini clad body :) etc etc basically i wanna keep in touch sweetie.

I am truly chuffed for you, i really am. I really really hope i can be in that place too. I desteratly want to be happy or even content with how i look.

Weel done you........You only freaking did it :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray:

Love ya sweetie :grouphug: Oooooooh and thank you sooooooooooooo much for changing my life. I will never ever forget what you have done for me :beating:
 
Kate i was just the little tiny push on your back and i am so happy i was there at that moment and got you going.You have done an amazing job,you have changed for the best and look stunning.

Thank you for all the kind things you say to me!!!!I wont leave this place.Sometimes i have loads to do and dont stop at all there am too tired to post and just go sleep but i am still here.Not going away.I still have work to do on myself!I really want to do something with my tummy.It seems all fat goes there and around my waist.I wonder if crunches will do anything?i have stopped them.Not doing 100 a day anymore........I still havent gone to the gym ok its nearlly 2 weeks and i hate this.I was supposed to go yesterday but we came home really late like 11 pm so i didnt go.TOday i keep my fingers crossed G comes home a bit early and i'll go.Feeling a little scared of going there.....dont know why!????!!!


Food for today (hopefully)goies like this


BREAKFAST Coffee

Lunch Fresh beans in pot with potatoes and carrots ,little slice of feta cheese , 2 slices of bread

Snack Coffee

Dinner Yoghurt with jelly and lolipop



\Well im right on the schedule having my Snack Coffee,

I have been thinking of smoking SO bad these days i think it has something to do with NOT working out.I dont know how these two things conect but i really do belive this.
 
Hi Jess, I think it is wonderful that you have shaken the smoking habit! I'm sure there's a connection too, because you need to replace the smoking with something else that will burn calories & what better way than exercising? I really admire you for kicking the habit at a time when you didn't feel on top of the world. Your post where you said how you are content with your body at the weight you are now made me feel so good. You have really changed your attitude sweetie & it's lovely to see. Much love, xoxo Cate
 
AOh Jess, that is such a lovely post. I cannot possibly tell you how happy and emotional I am to read it. TOTAL BODY ACCEPTANCE!!!! That is amazing!!!!!!

You do look hot! You look gorgeous, but gorgeous in a REAL way, not in a model who starves herself and takes drugs to stay skinny way.

You are strong and fit and healthy. You've added years to your life by going on this journey. Wish I could give up smoking, I feel like I'm chained to it and its dragging me down to the bottom of the ocean... Don't ever let starting again crossed your mind... Your free from it now, the same as your free from the fat, and the insecurities you used to have.

YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!
 
A:hug2: Wow...I took a six week break and look at this fabulous, beautiful and confident women who showed up!! I can't tell you how awesome and inspiring it was to catch up on your diary and read about how well you are doing!! I completely in awe!! WELL DONE and you look smokin :sifone: in those beach pictures!!!
 
Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you Jess. Sending you lots of love sweet friend xoxo Cate
 
HI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!MISSED YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have been secretly reading your diarys but i couldnt reply i have been away and typing on phone is nearlly impossible.

We went on vacation got a colour from all the trips to the beach had a great time ,now back to reallity!

My weight is 83 kg ,my periods have just finishedclast night so i think i am still at 82,5 kg really.I am trying to make healthier choices....like last night G ordered a jumbo pizza (my fav barbeque toping) and i only had 2 thin slices (made

up to 1 actually).Then this morning i didnt have any junk cake biscuits ect for breakfast instead i had a low fat yoghurt with muesli!And a nectarine.


I DO feel GREAT about myself maybe its something in the planets!In the stars!I know i have gained a little bit of weight back but i am not stressing at all about this.One thing that i am stressing for is my gym i havent visisted in a while....I feel rubish about that and its SO hard cause even now back to every day life G works till late (like 9 or 10 at night) so its impossible for me to go..I really feel horrible about this.,


Im having a good food day today.FInding it easier to SAY NO to naughty stuff.I havent really been saying No lately.But i know i must start taking more care cause i wont feel so great anymore if i baloon up to 90 kilos...omgNIGHTMARE>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

I really would like to get down to 80 again.And just really work out loads.I have found out that while NOT working oout my appetite is controllable.When exercising i am ALWAYS HUNGRY.So when i start exercise again i must try figure out something about that.


LOVE to be back here.IT will be a little difficult to get on every day and actually type.Mario is so needing attention and not letting me do stuff these days/


LOVE YOU ALL LOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
breakfast coffee

snack low fat yoghurt with muesli

snack nectarine

dinner 2 grilled small beef burgers ,some fries ,spinach steamed with lemon

snack yoghurt w/nectarine slicees in\



good day i am typing from desktop keybord hate it


i want to lighten my hair but have no idea what shade this is i looooove it hope it looks good on me
 
So nice having you back Jess. You look lovely in those photos. I think that colour would look great on you, but then I also think your hair is lovely as it is. You'll get back to gym soon sweetie. Can you take Mario? Lots of love, xoxo Cate
 
AThat color is great....believe it or not I am a natural red head...and have tried a few times to get back to my "real" color...but it never works...lol..but I think you would look great in that color!!

and you look so happy...and pretty!! your pictures are full of life....love them :)
 
i am still trying to get the courage for hair change!!i have been looking around for different shades will do it saturday!

ok food day



br bowl muesli w/low fat milk , coffee

lunch boiled potatoes w/zucchinisand 1 can of tuna

snack nectarine , coffee

dinner low fat yoghurt , nectarine , 99 cal lolly pop



tommorow is my nephews bd so im having cake.i cant belive im saying this but i like it that im planning on the cake tommorow not taking naughty stuff for granted.nice to feel im controlling my food again.

still typing from desktop.....urghhhhhhhhhhh


cate there is a play area 4 kids but its a tiny room no windows for safety and im scared 2 leave him with total strangers.i dont think i could take him to the gym area.what would he do for 40 min while i run?

tete i thought u were nat.blonde!you look lovely blonde cant imagine anything else it just looks great and u have a fantastic shade there not a horrible washed out yellow!
 
AYou look fantastic!

I love red hair as well, I went that colour a few months ago, but it faded really quickly :( I think the problem is that my hair is wrecked since bleaching it, and it just doesn't hold colour any more because the hair surface is damaged. I wish I hadn't gone lighter! You have lovely long hair and its in great condition... Think carefully before you go lighter!

Tete I cannot beleive you are naturally red and dye your hair! I would give anything to have naturally red hair! But I do agree with Jess that it is a nice colour now :) It quite surprised me to read that actually because red hair is usually quite fine, and yours is lovely and thick. I know where you are coming from tho, cos I have decided to go back to my roots a couple of time, with the intention of only using non-chemical hair dye on it... But it hasn't happened. I think maybe once I am slimmer and have a nicer face shape I will grow it out about 4 inches then get it cut really short, so that dodgy in between growing out stage is cut to the minimum.

Glad you are in control! I find when I do weights/ high resistance elipical at the gym my appetite is ravenous, but when I'm on the treadmill I don't get an attack of the hungries. Its a shame you can't go to the gym often, but that doesn't mean you can't do a little bit of exercise... You could just spend 15 minutes a day doing press-ups, sit-ups and tricep dips. Or a video.
 
Sweetie, why not take Mario just once to gym & maybe not stay so long & see if he enjoys it. If there are other kids to play with he should have fun. It's not like you would be leaving him there & going to a different place. I don't think kids should need to be entertained every waking moment & you are entitled to some Jess time. I think it's good that you are planning on eating that cake, without stressing about it too. Mindful eating is good! Lots of love, xo Cate
 
AYou look fantastic!!!!! :eek2:

I absolutely love red hair, and went almost that shade a few months ago (It was called "Real Red" Live XXL- came out different to the box tho), the trouble is, that because my hair is bleached and damaged because of it the colour didn't hold very well. Make sure you are completely certain before you do it, because your hair is gorgeous and you could ruin it if you bleach it, which I think you would have to do to get that shade.

I can't believe your naturally red either Tete, your hair is so lovely and thick, that's really unusual with red. I agree with Jasper that your hair colour is lovely now, but I just love red so much. My favourite shade is Karen Gillan's from doctor who... Bit like Nicole kidmans, but more red....

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Well done on being in control!!!!!

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Its a shame you can't get to the gym... But maybe you could spend 15 minutes a day doing press-ups, sit-ups and tricep dips? Or do an exercise video. I was getting the hungries big time after doing resistance on the eliptical/weights at the gym... I never used to get hungry after exercise though, and I haven't today after just going on the treadmill, so I think you are more likely to get the hungries if you are doing strength training.
 
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