Changing the Way I Feel and Eat!!!

ITA that Joh and Cate are brilliant. i really hope that what they've said will help you clarify things in your own mind and help you deal with this stressful situation.


On the other hand, I love your idea of using the wedding as motivation to look super-hot by August. as far as I can see, there is no down-side to that idea
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Stay strong and smart, sweetie!
 
hi ladies im sorry again for not coming in to post and read but i have been super busy at home these days and then we had some visits to make shoping ect it was mad...I think every weekend will be like this.I didnt even go to the gym Sat and Sunday,

I managed last week to go running 3 times and also another 3 times i went ot the gym.all together i worked out with cardio 3 hours and another 2 hours with weights.,

I would like to increase the days but its so hard.Wednesdays and Saturdays i go hepl out this old man so im like "working" in the mornings then

Mon,Tues,Thurs,Friday i can go to the gym BUT i also want to go running in the evenings and i cant do both for all 4 days cause it makes me really tired.

Then Saturdays are really difficukt for me i get up at 6 am and come home at 2-3 afternoon , make lunch clean ect...im dead.,.,,,

Then sunday is my day to really tidy up here iron and stuff...im finding it really difficult this moment to relax.



That said i must mention that i have been good with food weighed in on sunday at 79,8 kg.

Im going down again.I know i am.

Also i went to the gym this morning did ellpitical and machines.it turns out i do weights for 45 mnutes including my breaks between the sets.

Im starving right now,its like the 2 bags of kellogs bits i had just vanished from my stomach...nothing is in there!



I told G about the wedding and he said he doesnt want to go.I think i can change his mind about this,I will see.

He is becoming soooo jealous!In a way im pleased cause he has never been jealous of me or at least never shown it and now he actually called our BF's and he spoke to my girlfriend about this!!!!She told me secretly.He is always calling me when i go to the gym,and he looks at me in another way when im dressed or when i am wearing my shorts at home!I spoke to him and told him that nothing is going on its just that i am commited to working out and getting fit.Nothing more.And that i need about 2 hours to go,workout out andthen come home.



Thanks girls for advice on the wedding thing!


To answer some question of Cate i must say that i am not inlove with him anymore BUT i have been thinking of him VERY much from the day i broke up with him.I really need for him to SEE me looking amazing.I need to see HIM hoping that the little door that hasnt fully closed in me will close once and for all.|ITs like there is somne unfinished buisness regarding him.I need some kind of closure..im not sure if seeing him will do it.Maybe i need to speak to him...but that for sure wont happen.We didnt split on good terms.Well he didnt ....plus G hates him cause of things ex said to me while i split up with hm.and because I was with G while ex was still in my life..so he expirienced the break up from close!

SO if i do go we wont be speaking to each other.But i really want to go.Plus my Friend is getting married!!!We used to be BF back then (he was my ex;s bf then...) and i really want to see him getting married i think i would be crying from joy and nostalgia.

we will see...its still on my mind i get butterflies in my tummy thinking of that day.But i will hold it together...and just wait and see by then.
 
Hi Jess, I typed a post yesterday but obviously didn't submit it! :blush5: I was in a hurry in the morning & had a crazy mixed up day! You do what you feel you need to do. If you need to see this guy again, to be sure that you don't care for him any more, just be aware of what might happen if you see him & find you do. If you do still have strong feelings Jess would you ever go back to him? What was that relationship like? Is it best left in the past? Is he the bastard that you said he was? If so who cares what he thinks about you or how you look.

I don't personally like jealousy. I think it's a destructive, negative influence on a relationship & usually comes from insecurity & doubt. I don't find it flattering but feel it's a lack of trust, which, to me, is hurtful & harmful to both people. If you want to be with G for the rest of your life it would be best if you can reassure him of your feelings for him. I had to do it with my LH when I first lost weight as he seemed very insecure.

What I'm saying sweetie is be honest with yourself about what is going on here & be aware of your own feelings & doubts. Somewhere in life we have to work out what we actually want & then work on it. Relationships and marriages are never perfect. No-one should put up with being treated badly. My criteria through rough patches (or even minor arguments) has always been "Do I still really love him & do I want to grow old with him" and my answer has always been a strong yes on both counts. It helps to remind yourself every now & then & not take one another for granted.

Hope you get through this rough patch Jess and end up with a lovely strong & happy relationship, xoxo Cate
 
Lost again....

I had a connection problem these days i was on and off the whole time.Its fixed though from last night the problem.

I havent really been so good.I think cause im getting all this exercise im eating more and not feeling so bad about it.Plus im feeling comfortable in my body....

Its weigh day tommorow i know im still going to be the same.

I getting a bit bored with this.


I have been up since 6 am and its 12 midnight.I also havent really relaxed at all so im beat.I am off to sleep sorry for neglecting you.I will log on tommorow as its Lazy sunday!!!!


Cate yes he did treat me as bad as i said.But still as always itend to forget real easy.And also the god times just meant so much more that the really BAD times didnt matter.....

I am not inlove with him.I think its the IDEA.The realtionship that didnt work like a fantasy of even just a really huge drama in my life that makes me feel like this still.

I would love to speak to him but that wont be possible.I feel like he was a virus and just never ever will leave my system no matter how many years pass.

Havent tried to change Gs mind about the wedding,maybe i should just leave it as is.I dont know....


You are SO right about jealousy how you explain it.Also i didnt know that you had to reasure your man after loosing weight>What is this>Insecurity?its not really nice.Thinking of it its horribel.Because when we where fat they where sure about us...nobody would look second time at us.....?and now that we are shinning the green monster comes out?????Thats something to think about tonight.....
 
Hi sweetie, I think that most men put on a fairly good act, often ingrained from birth, but deep down most are as insecure & as fragile as anyone else. Try not to get too annoyed with him for it but, if you are certain of your love for him, then try to reassure him of that & say that you want to feel better about yourself & to be healthier & fitter & to not feel bad about your body. I'm sure he will benefit from you feeling better about yourself. I'm glad that you are starting to feel comfortable in your body. Getting bored though? With eating healthy and/or exercising and/or journalling :eek: ? Lots of love Jess, xoxo Cate
 
AHeya sweetness :)

Totally understand the feeling bored with it all, i really do, i have been the same and have managed to gain 11lb in the last few months :eek:

I have changed things about on my diary and have given myself little aims each week, just to shake it up a bit and stop the slide in the wrong direction.

We can do this sweetie, we can.

Love and hugs Xxx
 
Hi to all my friends and to anyone that reads me!

I thought today was lazy sunday but i havent really stayed home.We went to my sisters home for lunch but before that i cleant the house , put 2 loads of clothes to wash and dry moped vacumed ect....then we came home at 9 at night and i felt really bad so i went to the gym.

it was kind of late so i didnt bother with weights.I did a 5 minute warm up then i did 33 minutes jogging on 9km.Well i did 10 minutes on 9 then the rest on 8,5 and last i did 4 minutes fast walking and 10minutes walkng up hill.Then a little cool down and left came home./

total work out time52 minutes

I had a shower and also i ate my low fat yoghurt with some muesli in.Its sooo yummy!

Im of to bed its late and i have to get p to take mario to nursery


I feel boredabout this weigh on me.Like its taking soooo ,much effort to leave cause i am not eating less then what i burn and then im working out really hard that makes me sooo hungry,i go eat lots and then im back to start..I have gained from December 4 kilos.aND I am working out loads more than what i did before/./////
I think screw you super thin sexy body i will settle with this/But i am not SO comfy to walk around in a bathing suit to quit yet....I keep asking myself Will i make this a LIFELONG change>?Can i manage this?It does take lots of effort.I just hope i stay stong enough!


I will try think of little weekly goals.Moslty about exercise though cause im failing big time to keep my appetite under control!

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Hello, J.

I know how hard it is!!! It can seem so boring and so unfair...but we have to deal with it, right?


Believe me, I have been where you are. And now I've been maintaining at my goal weight for 18months...so I believe a lifelong change IS possible. YOU can do it!


As for your weight..you say it's gone up. But what about your measurements? Have they gone down or stayed the same? If your measurements have stayed the same, that means you've replaced fat with muscle (which is heavier!) That would make sense.


If that's not the case, that's harder. I had the same problem when I tried to "get fit" in 2007. I was working out like crazy and felt quite fit, but I was super-hungry all the time. And despite my efforts to eat healthy, I just wasn't losing weight at all. When I decided in 2010 to lose weight, i started with calorie counting as my focus and didn't worry about exercise at all.

I know a lot of people would say that's terrible, but it was the only way it worked for me. Getting the body I wanted involved eating the right amount of calories. I did housework, gardening and walked a bit most days, but nothing hardcore. The real exercise came later. I did a lot of body sculpting-type dvds to refine myself (esp. Jillian Michaels)

It's just my opinion, but I don't think exercise is really going to take you where you need to go right now. The appetite thing is what needs your focus. JMHO, of course!


Please take care of yourself and stay motivated!
 
AHi jasper!! I hear ya hun...doing the same ole same ole...with no real progress makes me go nuts....but all we can do is keep on keeping on.

I think changing things up every so often is the real key....like I am taking a break from the gym for the summer...it forces me to find other ways to get exercise and to get out and enjoy the short summers we have. Maybe you should just go for some long walks instead of jogs ....or try a DVD or something. I know its hard....so just do the best you can it will work out...big hugs to you!! XOXOX :)
 
Good morning!

Marios got up real early today and we went to school ON time for a change!!!Got to the gym at 9ish and did 23 minutes running and the rest walking.

I felt a weird pain in my calves front side,so i just didnt force it.Maybe cause i worked out so late last nght and then this mornng.I sweated soooo much i felt great.

Then i did differnet weights and crunches got home STARVING.Had yoghurt with muesli and another yoghurt 300 cals in total.

ROX i took out the measuring tape and sadly saw ive gained 1 - 2 cm all over.......

So yes its gain fat gain....but still i dont FEEL it.I feel great...Whatever.............:)


This weeks rule is NO nibbling between meals and no stealing ANYTHING while cooking or walking by the kitchen.

Also get in at least 3 hours of exercise (cardio) this week


I dont want to stop working out cause i just now renewed my gym pass and i am exited about it.I just really have to control my food well my appetite really

i feel i could eat the whole fridge!~


Well got some good news~

G and i arent married really i have mentioned this here before.We where supposed to get married in 2008 but i got pregnant and felt rubish and cancelled it.

Then we had mario and stuff happened we kept saying we Will get round to making plans but never did.

So i dont want to wait anymore.There is no point in expecting to be romanticly proposed to cause he wont do that i know him!And also its silly to get sad and think He doesnt want to marry me.

So yesterday at my sisters i told him that in August we are getting married if he likes it or not!Im not waitng anymore!I told him in a joking way that i have his son i cook clean put up with all his moods and stuff the least he can do is put a bloody ring on my finger.!!!So we are getting married officialy in august.It will be fun cause we ae going to go to my sisters home after she has a little garden and have a party there!

I am not wearing any glamour wedding dress or fancy outfit.I will get a little white summer dress and a bunch of sunflowers i adore!Thats it!

You are probably wondering why am i getting married and mostly why this way?its just that we keep saying we are and end up fighting about it.I say to him If you wanted to you would of already done it.He says that i should go fix the paper work and arrange it.So it pointless!I thought to approach it in a different manner with a bit of humor!IIt seemed to work fine and G seems really happy about it~We were making jokes about me wanting his pention and he was talking about getting me a lfe insurance and inheriting the money when i accidently pass away!!!!He loves me i know he does so do i.WE do argue a lot but thats ok.We are trying really hard to fix some probelms we have and i think we have made progress.

So thats something else to look forward to!!!!I am goign to go find out about papers that are needed for marriage this week!!!


Be back later!!!
 
Breakfast Coffee that lasted till noon!!!90 cals ,1 yoghurt with muesli 1 yoghurt with strawberry jam both 300 in total

Lunch Chicken breast boiled with 1 large steamed potaoe and steamed zucchini with lemon juice , oreganon and some olive oil.(very yummy!) 2 mini toasts

Snack Lolipop (i made them from fruit juice.)

Dinner Same as lunch only no potatoe 2 mini toasts

Snack Yoghurt with muesli.


Exercise


3x12 chest press

3x15 leg curl

3x15 leg extension

3x10 shoulder press (i think this one is terrible,i hurt so much while doing it)

3x12 pull down

3x12 tricep extensions

3x12 bicep curls

100 inner thigh movents with weight

100 outter thigh movent with weights


23 minutes run


Thanks so much erika!!!You really think that of me????!!!!!

I look at photos of me and i get scared.Its soooo damn easy to slip into bad eating habbits.


I have loads of research to do with marriage papers and also i must close an appointment at the us embassy cause i want to get Mario an american passport.I as informed by phone that he deserves one only if i (as an american citizen) have lived in the states for 1 year straight.I checked my old passport and i was going and coming like every 3-4 months.....Only once i stayed there for a year MINUS 2 weeks........................................................................I really must get an interview with them to see if something can be done,It would be FANTASTIC for MArio to get an american pasport as well.I mean i have travelled a lot to different countries and it was so easy for me,With a greek passport its difficult and you need to get visas ect....

Well that said im of to read some news from you guys!!!

Hope i get a good day again tommorow~~~~
 
AGood luck on the passports and the marriage paper work!! and you are doing so great on the exercise....totally jealous..... you need to fly over and kick my butt!! :)
 
Hi Jess, I so want you to be happy and hope that getting married is what you want & need. I'm really having trouble finding the right words to say how I feel but basically I want you to be marrying G for the right reasons. I hope that you love him & he loves you & that you care about one another enough to really give it the best shot at succeeding. If you do then that is lovely & I am really happy for you. Try to find some romance in your relationship & express how you feel about one another, whenever you can. Don't be afraid to do so. I know that can be hard but communication between the two of you & mutual respect & love is a great foundation for a strong relationship.

Good luck with Mario's passport application. It's a very valuable thing to have & will give him many options in the future.

Sending you lots of love Jess, xoxo Cate
 
Hello..again...I have been so bad not coming on here writing about my food and stuff but....i have been buisy but mostly i havent been good.

and i didnt want to write about me eating icecream everyday.The only thing that i did do right was working out 3 times a week at the gym.

I feel the weight gain.I really do.So today was really a day one for me on eating good but im not going to count it.Ill count tommorow as its monday!

Thing is that finacially stuff is really difficult right now.Cant be very picky about food shopping i am eating what the rest of the family is.no specials!!!!So its really making me fustrated.

But i am ok.I think i am.

These past days i have been thinking that its ok to eat icecream.Its ok to eats a couple of mini stuffed croissants.Its fine to eat that cheese and some slices of bread...ow well look all that is here on my thighs and belly.

I have been drinking so much water these couple of days to wash out the crap!But its strange that ecen though i have had SO much water i didnt go pee...????????????????????The only thinkg i can imagine is that i am dehydrated????and the water is not going through me but to some good use????


I have tried to get a program on going to the gym 4 times a week but its really not working,its 3 times,

Last week i went to the stadium for a second run in the late evening and it felt soooo great.I have been running on the treadmill i said i wasnt but i had to cause i didnt have time in the evening to go to the track.SO after some time actually running out side felt lovely and i managed real well a slow steady pace!

I would love to go 3 times as well to the tracks like i was doing before but it seems that the gym in the morning and then running at night just makes me SO tired.Plus im really NOT sitting on the couch all day with mario.I do really feel so tired when i do 2 runs a days.


I was thinking that you guys probably hate me for not coming on here to support you or comment or write anything....I feel really horrible im so sorry....:)

Look noww its 12 thirty midnight and i must be up early in the morning,....i will be back in the morning after my gym while eating my yoghurt and muesli!

love to you all hope you forgive me
 
Like i said i'll be back this morning while eating my muesli and yoghurt!!!!

I woke up took mario to nursery went to the gym


Did 30 minutes running and 5 minutes warm up 5 minutes cool down.

Then got to the machines did Chest-Legs-Triceps today.Different exercises for each group of muscles.


So i will post my food tonight but this is what i am aiming for today.,


Breakfast 200gr low fat youghurt with 3 tbls muesli

Lunch Fresh beans in pot with carrots and potatoes

Snack Low fat yoghurt dessert made with yoghurt (daaaah!!!) and pinapple jelly and pieces of pineapple.

Dinner Steamed zucchinis and carrots with fresh lemon and some olive oil and salt.

Drinks 2 coffees and coke zero

Emergency food Raw carrots


Sounds good doesnt it?


I am secretly hoping to go for a late evening run but i wont get my hopes up high....dont know if i will make it.



Things i have to watch out for


LUNCH....Dont eat bread and feta cheese

Snacks DONT eat more that 1 serving of dessert i will make

Snacks DONT GO EATING ANYTHING not on this list and if i have a fu$# it moment get out the emergency food.


Oh i hope this approach works out for me.....


Went to the sea on saturday took some pics here they are.

The bathing suit is from last year and it is a little big i need a new one.The boob area has gone really loose and i need that little strap to keep the costume in place.Also around my tummy its saggy.,I was 88 kilos when i was wearing that last year.,That makes me so sad....i should of at least been 75 kg now...its been a year and i am 82 kilos............................thats 6 kilos down ONLY.And dont say i was less and gained it doesnt matter.What matters is that i am 82 kilos......................

I feel really positive though
 
AI have to say that you dont look 82kg at all, i thought you were significantly lighter than that. You look good in your photos. Tomorrow is a new day, we can start again.
 
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