Changing the Way I Feel and Eat!!!

I have been bad with food...so fed up with myself not staying strong when life sucks,,,,,,

TodY I Have had sausage pastry , cheese pastry , 2 coffees , 1 chicken nugget , 7 SEVEN slices of yummy bread , 3 light cow cheeses , 1 slice gouda cheese , a plate of peas with carrots , and a diet coke.........................Shit..........................


Did DAY ONE AGAIN with jilliane..........how many day ones am i going to have with this dvd>>????

good news is that i went to the stadium after eating all this crap today and i managed to run (jog) for 14 minutes straight.!!!!!YEAH for that!Then i walked for 6 minutes then i did another 5 minut run and to end it i did another 3 minute.Total 22 minutes today~I really wanted to do 20 minutes run , but it would of been a struggle , then i said i would try for 16 minutes but i managed 14 instead.Pretty good~~~~i was just fed up with the 5 minutes and 8 minute run.I anted something to boost me up!Think i'll be aiming for 16 minutes next time!


Well tommorow is another day...if i didnt eat that crap today i would have burned lots with my run and dvd....damn.......................................
 
Jess, It's time to cut out the junk eating if you want to start feeling good. I know it must be very hard to be positive but you are making it so much harder on yourself. Give yourself your best chance sweetie & please eat healthily. Please, xoxoxo Cate
 
:iagree:

not going to say much though cause it seems when i open my BIG MOUTH i do the opposite.....

I was thinking how much would i weigh if i stoped exercising completly????



ps....the pics are from pinterest.com~
 
Originally Posted by jasper


I have been bad with food...so fed up with myself not staying strong when life sucks,,,,,,

TodY I Have had sausage pastry , cheese pastry , 2 coffees , 1 chicken nugget , 7 SEVEN slices of yummy bread , 3 light cow cheeses , 1 slice gouda cheese , a plate of peas with carrots , and a diet coke.........................Shit..........................



Did DAY ONE AGAIN with jilliane..........how many day ones am i going to have with this dvd>>????

good news is that i went to the stadium after eating all this crap today and i managed to run (jog) for 14 minutes straight.!!!!!YEAH for that!Then i walked for 6 minutes then i did another 5 minut run and to end it i did another 3 minute.Total 22 minutes today~I really wanted to do 20 minutes run , but it would of been a struggle , then i said i would try for 16 minutes but i managed 14 instead.Pretty good~~~~i was just fed up with the 5 minutes and 8 minute run.I anted something to boost me up!Think i'll be aiming for 16 minutes next time!



Well tommorow is another day...if i didnt eat that crap today i would have burned lots with my run and dvd....damn.......................................
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Thanks for posting the motivational pics. Good motivation
 
AHeya sweetie

Hope you are doing good. Just wanted to send a big hug your way :grouphug:

AND....OMG well done you on the running!!!! You are awesome!!!
 
Hey!

I am ok...didnt go for my run yesterday as mario stayed home from school and my husband (he will be G.from now on) came home late.He got a job at this car workshop.He used to go now and then to help out the guy that is an old friend,but now that the guy found out about him loosing his job he offered him a job on a regular basis.Money is really shit though half of what he used to get......So things are so difficult once again money wise....We will get through this im sure.It just takes some time,

Also with all bad luck my iron broke and so this my kitchen scales.they had fallen and worked on and off.I through them away cause they dont even light up.......Need to get a new one!Feel that im ok not counting calories now,like its not my fault my scales broke!!!

I have had a couple of coffees today and 2 bowls of oats with raisins and milk.

Hope G comes home a bit earlier so i can go run!See you all later tonight!
 
AJust checking in :) I love your motivation pics!! we all need things or people in our journey to get us to where we all want to be...HEALTHY and HAPPY!! I hope you are enjoying your run's because mine suck...I don't think my knees can keep up much longer with it.

I don't know for me if I will ever stop counting calories...I actually panic if I can't enter them right away in to my phone. Its like a security blanket or something.


Sending good vibes your way that things get better financially..its such a burden... I know...we been there done that!! Hang in there and look at the postive...you have a wonderful little guy who loves you....you have riches beyond your dreams!! HUGS xoxoxo!!!
 
You are doing great with the running :hurray:


I'm SO glad he's found a job quickly. I know the money is rubbish, but at least its something.. Till something better comes along.


Argh, everything always seems to break at the same time for me as well.
 
Hey im right here.

Remember telling you besides all the rest , that i am having some problems with my relationship?Well i still am.Actually i have benn for a very long time...maybe a couple of years?three?well it on and off...but botom line is i have problems there that just keep coming up and im just really not happy.It seems like im happy 20% and miserable the 80% of my life.....And to think that i was known as the girl that always smiles.....that was another life time ago............I feel traped in this situation that is really not healthy at all.Anyway thats something really not to do with eating...

I am hanging in there.I did have about 400 cals of biscuits last night but the rest of the day i just had soup.

I have also just got home from my run.Not good.I couldnt manage more that 8 minutes....it was really difficult.So it went like this


8 min Run

Walk

4 min run

Walk

6 min run

Walk

4 min run

Walk

3 min run

Walk

4 min run

Walk


total time running 29 minutes

Time walking 30 minutes


Total 59 minutes.



I know i worked out longer an hour actually but still i feel rubish i couldnt manage to do more that 8 minutes the first time.Not to mention the 3 minute run towards the end.I was like day one!!!


oh well im of to look around.

See ya all!Kisses!!!!!
 
AHeya Sweetie

Sorry you are having problems with your relationship :( I hate to see you so unhappy hun. Feel free to sound off on here, you know we are all here for you. Our diaries are not just about food ya know.
Sending you lots and lots of great big squishy hugs :grouphug:

You are doing great with your running sweetie, don't be so hard on yourself!!!!!! How long are you walking in between runs? 2 mins is a good time to recover. Maybe try doing the first 2 runs at 5 mins and then up it to 8 mins after that. Your body will do everything to try and get you to stop, you just need to break thru that barrier. Set yourself a time and do it, no matter what. I have to do that or i find any excuse to stop.
You were NOT like day one!!!!! You did half an hour of running....day one is only 8 mins. Don't put yourself done hun!!!! Am i gonna have to give you the angry face :cuss: You are doing great hun, stick with it.
You are bloody amazing!!!!​

Here for you my lovely :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:
 
jasper, hang in there girl. I was really moved reading your journal, you should be proud of your accomplishments. My weight has always been tied up with my emotions, so naturally when i was in a difficult relationship (5years) my weight was completely all over the place. I hope you can find a way to be happy in your life. sending happy thoughts your way <3
 
A:( Sorry about your relationship hun!! Wish I had words of wisdom...but I don't...just be you and be happy the rest will be what it is meant to be xoxoxox


Now on to the RUNNING!! you are awesome!! I could never ever ever run that long at once...I am 5 minutes MAX at my best!! YOU ARE A ROCK STAR!!! :hurray: You should be so proud of yourself!! :grouphug:
 
Thank you so so so much you realy amazing people!!!!I was so happy to see your replies!!!!!


I am feeling better today not so grumpy!

I went to do somegrocery shoping and i didnt get anything naughty!!!!Not even a little tiny biscuit!!!

I did make sure i had breakfast before going though cause going to the super market with an emty tummy is BAD!!!!

I really was so ready for my run today.I went to the stadium at 10ish this morning but it was packed with people practicing running...i dont know what its called the on where you run and jupm over pole....i dont know the word n english.And then from the speakers we where informed to please cleart the tracks. so i left before even starting.I got a call that made me go somewhere to finish some buisness of mine so i was all over the place today in my tracksuit and trainers!Felt silly~!!!Then i had to go grocery shopping before getting mario from school.I also had to drive way back to his school AFTER droping him off cause i forgot to give him his antibiotics he is taking.......and his school is a 20-30 minute drive away..................................................................................

So i eventually didnt run.Keeping my fingers crossed that G comes home early today and i get the chance to go burn some calories


I am not using the C25K app anymore.im think i will set a time like KAte said and do it.No matter what.Caue when i say in my head "i'll try do 10 minutes today" i dont do it.But when i say " i will do 8 minutes today" i end up doing 14@!@@@@just see what our mind is and does to us.!!!!


Had lunch frozen fish sticks with steamed broccoli.


marios is having his afternoon nap and i will enjoy my diet coke looking around the forum!

Loves and hugs to all!!!


Thanks a million again!!!!!:grouphug:
 
Jess, So good to hear that you had a better day, even though things didn't run to plan. The running & jumping over poles would be either hurdling (running along & jumping over many hurdles as you go) or pole vaulting (if it's running up to & then jumping over a very high pole, using a long pole in hand.) Good thinking, making sure you ate breakfast before supermarket shopping. Sending you lots of love sweets, xoxo Cate
 
AGlad your feeling more positive today. I know its hard to be happy when your relationship is shitty, because if your mainly around one person and things aren't good, it sort of drains you. But you deserve to be that girl who is always smiling again! Have you tried having a talk with him and both tried to make a huge effort to see if you can get the loving feeling back?

Your making me want to go running! Think I might join the gym soon.
 
ASO GLAD you are feeling better and not so grumpy today!! I hope your running is a source of empowerment and a stress reliever....because you sure make me want to do my best when it comes to training for this race..you are my inspiration!!
 
Thank you guys so much for kind words!!!!


Tete!!!ME inspiration>>>>>>>>>>>>>????????OMG!!!!I can say that about you specially after the last comparisson pics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am really making an effort with running,I got my first great comment yesterday night from G.He said to me that ive become a really hot body!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I could only giggle.didnt say anything!

Rainbow i am also thinking of joining the gym.I have some exercise equiptment at home but i donmt have space so i put them in the spare room and also i like to be OUT of my home.My child just interups me when i work out in home.And sits on me while i do crunches.It sounds funny but really ir isnt at the time!I used to think that i really cant run.I knew that i could make myself try to run but thought that i would have terrible chest pain and feelings like fainting.So i really did think i couldnt run...Silly to think of now!Of course i can run.Everyone that doesnt have some kind of leg problem,knee problem can run.Its hard.Really it is.At the startit seems like "No way can i manage a 5 minute run!!!" but slowly week by week you make it happen and you FEEL your legs specially get really really stronger!!!!I

It is for sure worth trying!~~~~


Still another good day.not a bit miserable!!!!Weather is really getting nice it has been so sunny this week!I love that summer is around the corner!

I went to get some cereal bars and i have had two of them 90cals each.Also i got the little bags of kellogs bites that are lovely!i had 2 as well at 99 cals each...Plus i have just finished lunch!I wasnt planning on going to run today but i will if G comes home a but early.


Aw nearly forgot


Yesterdays run wasnt good again.

10 minute run

4 minutes walk

6 minute run

4 minute walk

6 minute run

then my phone switched off cause of dead battery....

so i only managed 22 minutes run in total.

I think i get better results when i go in the morning.I seem to be really tired when i go at 8 in the evening.

I will visit the stadium again tonigh though.I;ll set it to 2 x 10 minute run and 2x5 minute runs.Total 30 minutes breaking the record of 29 mnutes!!!!!!

I hope i manage it!!!

Will be back tonight to brag about myself if i do manage it!!!!!




The First one really is for me..i saw it and it said Jess nothing to do with diet!





LOOK AT THIS BODY TO DIE FOR





This one is also so much for me the past days!!!!!




yeap i will go for my run eventually!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




i saw this and really love it!!Im going to make it aswell somewhere in my home!
 
Jess, Every day that feels a little better & is a good day is a positive thing. Looking for inspiration and exercising will help lift your mood, regardless of what is happening around you. Make the most of the better weather sweetie, so glad to see you have another good day, xoxo Cate
 
Well i didnt manage to get to run.

G came back at quater past 8 in the evening.He was really hungry so i heated dinner and made the table so G and mario sat to eat.I had a small lettuce salad with about 5 mini light cow cheeses and 3 mini toasts.I passed on the yummy spagghetti with tomatoe basil sause cause i had it for lunch and felt it would really be a lot to eat it again for dinner.

THen I finished mopng the floor-it was terrible from spaghetti mario is so messy.......-.

Time was 9ish i was really beat i still had two loads of clothes to take upstairs and hang out,plus i had to feed our dog,take a bath,get mario ready and clean...i COULD of gone,not moped or not done something at the moment i did.But i chose not to cause i was really tired.

I dont feel bad about it at all.I think i did get exercise with all the cleaning and tiding up!

Tommorow ill be there in the morning doing my chalenge with the time!


Now this is what i have had to eat all day....oh gosh here goes.


Breakfast Coffee (70) 2xkellogs snack (200) 2xcereal bar (180)=450


Lunch Plate of spaghetti with fresh tomatoe and basil sause (will be back with estimated cals on that.) Lettuce and cucumber salad with some olive oil (100)


snack cereal bar (89) diet coke (0)


Dinner Lettuce salad very small (100) 5 light cow cheeses (125) 3 mini toasts (90)=315



Now i will go back to older posts to see what the spaghetti counts for.I had a normal portion.Not big not small.Surely i wanted more i love spaghetti.!!!So i think im at 1600 cals...Still a lot damn and i feel i havent had much feeling hungry ooopsss forgot to mention the cup of 3 sugar tea im having right now.Those diet things i bought uppered my cals to much...i hate it when that happens...supposed to be healthy low cals and i go have two portions of each....


I also just want to mention my really very weak moments today.oh i was sooo close...


In the store i walked by my favourite raisin rolls!!!they where on sale PLUS buy one get one free!!!!!!!!!!!i picked the pack up looked at the cals...320 per 100 gr...quick looked at the weight the pack was 300gr..my mind was really working out the numbers it was like everything was in fast forward!!!!!I knew i would eat the pack...so 1000 cals nearly.....omg...i put them right back and walked fast away...i was sooooo close...



My son wanted a Mars bar,.But as usual he only ate half.I put the other half in the fridge.So i was opening closing the fridge and this mars bar is staring at me....I nibbled a little.A tiny bit of the chocolate covering it.Put it back...Then again i needed something and before i knew it my hand was grabbing the mars bar i think in my head i had already eaten it..no idea what caused me to actually put it back...........................I thought for a second Its a quicky and it wont count..........................silly....


G came home with ice cream and got me one as well...........grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i have told him now that ice cream seasson!is here to NOT get me any only if i tell him to...I looked at the cal...340....no its still in the freezer!!!!


Just before i came online they wanted to have a grilled cheese toast so i made them...I was really going to have one as well..I even added the cals up....dont know what made me pass on that as well!!!!Woohoo!!!i didnt even have a bite.I am STARVING!!!!I made a cup of tea instead......Temtation is EVERYWHERE TODAY>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>HATE IT
 
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