Changing the Way I Feel and Eat!!!

I'll be in a challenge, but I won't be attempting to lose 4kg as that would be unrealistic for me. Now....2kg in 1 month, that is still a challenge but doable if I really, really try extra hard! I'll be in it too!

WELL DONE JESS on the run!

WELL DONE JESS on getting back into it again.

We're back!! xoxo Cate
 
I know its very unrealistic to loose 4 kg....im really thinking its only going to be 2kg...but i am up for it.Am very strict about my food and guess what?!!!I am calorie counting again............my little scales have fallen on the floor and not working right..i dont have the use of some buttons anymore so i need a new one.I am going to check some out online in a while.

Its 10 am just came home from leaving Mario at nursery and i have already had 500 cals for breakfast..........how will i manage the day with only 700 cals????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

But i will be strong.

Its FREEZING here....OMG ITS FREEZING!!!!!i am NOT GOII*NG FOR A RUN in this cold..no way.///////and anyway i went yesterday(not supposed to go every day).I'll be doing the 20 minute zumba and the 20 minute with jilliane later on.


While doing zumba at home yesterday i was checking myself out in the mirror ,i was wearing a sports bra only on top and my tracksuits on the bottome,so i got to see all my jiggilie parts real well.But i was disgusted by myself.Guess im not hating my body anymore.Want to improve it still but really not hating it!!!!

Oh i just had lunch feeling a bit nervous now....im like "these 2 eggs arent going to keep me full for long im probably going to pig out again."....im calorie counting that i hate doing it makes me all nervous and anxious...ive only got another 360 cal till bed time and its nearlly 4pm now....ok i must really keep it together right now,im not even hungry now....

i was looking at my breakfast and i still think its a lot of cals to consume for something i doent really fancy much either.oh boy.My two men just fell asleep on the couch.Im of for some weight lifting.NOTE TO SELF DONT FORGET THE ZUMBA WORKOUT LAZY.....
 
ps I actually said to my husband "life is just miserable when i cant eat whatever i want"

How pathetic is it to let food make you miserable.Make a chocolate let you feel happy and a burger too.but a big healthy full of vitamin salad gives you the blues....terrible...
 
Originally Posted by jasper




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Week 1 , Day 1 DONE!!!



Took Mario to nursery then of to the seaside.It was cold but not terrible like yesterday.It was wet outside from all the rain so i had to wear my welinghtons!!!

It was was a 5 minute warm up walk then it was 60 sec run and 90 sec walk.For 20 minutes.Then 5 minutes cool down walk.In total i did 8 minutes running!!!!On the second run i ran straight back to my car and got a little hat out , cause my head was freezing!

I kept thinking while running "aaahh let me hear the voice so i can stop" you know the ladys voice that speaks to you.

It was difficult .Worst was round 7 and last round 8......I was trying to sing along with my music but i couldnt catch my breath!

Cant figure out

HOW on earth i am going to run for 2 miutes next week????????????????????





just looking through my diary to see what i have been eatng and found this!~~~~!!!!now im running for 5 minutes thinking HOW ON EARTH AM I GOIG TO RUN FOR 8 MINUITS?!!!!
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I am making pizza for dinner....im not having any.....omg!!!how am i going to do this>>>???? how will i resist?????the dough in one piece is 140 cals with the cheese and extras it will go up to 300 a piece..............................STAY STRONG>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>:sifone:
 
AHeya sweetie :)

Your run where you head was hurting sounds normal, your hubby is right, it stops as soon as you stop thinking about it. When i went on my killer run with my brother he told me that our brain will come up with all sorts of things to try and stop us from running. Like, my ankle hurts, i have a pain in my chest, this hurts, that hurts and with my run with him, OMG i'm gonna be sick. He said that it was my brain trying anything to get me to stop and i hate to admit it but he is right. When i am out running i have little pains here and there but as soon as i stop thinking abut them they go!!!
I know your running is hard but you will reach the stage when you 'just run' and your mind can think about other things other than your body screaming at you, it will take time and alot of effort but you will get there. I love the 'head space' i go to when i am out on a long run on my own, it is just the best therapy :)
Oh, and the blood red colour, tell me about it!! That means you worked hard :) I am exactly the same when i really push myself. It's a good thing :)

oooh 45 mins of zumba :hurray: :hurray: That is an awesome workout. I did it once and it was totally crazy, great fun but crazy. Well done you :)

:hurray: :hurray: :hurray: Well done you on counting again. I really think i am going to have to do it forever so i don't slip. Can you imagine how awesome it will feel to be counting when we are at maintenance.....that will be like 2000. We wont know what to do with all those calories (well, i think i will but you know what i mean :) )

I loved reading that post where you were freaking out about running for 2 mins!!! I am going to have to go back and read when i started my running. I freaked at 2 mins too and now i have done a 1hr48min run!!!!! How freaky is that :) You will get there my lovely :)

Stay strong with the pizza sweetie, you don't need it. I made spagetti meat balls for my men and i had 4 meat balls on dry roast peppers, onions, aubergine, tomatos and mushrooms they were just cooked with herbs, salt & pepper and garlic salt. I have never done that before and it was just sooooooo scrummy and the cals are really low. I would normally be totally jealous that they has spagetti but i so enjoyed my food that i didn't even notice what they were eating. Maybe try planning you meals more so you can have something really tasty rather than grabbing something last minute.

Stay strong my sweetie. I'm there tightly holding your hand :grouphug:
 
BLAST DAY 1


Breakfast Quaker Oats 60gr (213) with 250 ml low fat milk (113) and 10gr raisins (30) 2 coffees (140) = 496

Lunch 2 fried eggs (200) 2 mini toast (70) Lettuce 80 gr(15) half tomatoe (15) half spoon olive oil (60) Diet coke=360

Snack Coffee (70) mini toast (35)=105

Dinner Low fat fruit yogurt (205)

TOTAL 1166



Exercise Weight liffting , 120 crunches , some leg exercises , 20 bridges.




It has been so difficult for me today you cant imagine.Also making that pizza and not having any/.Well i had a little of the crust just an idea of it not counting it as it cant be more that 10 calories!!!!There is left over and i am soooo trying to not go eat it...I made my husband eat the first pizza so i dont see it on the table but then i had another one come out the over...so he couldnt eat both of them.!!!!I want to give it to Rubi but i wont....I will stay strong!!!I feel like an idiot for making such a fuss over FOOD,over a stupid PIZZA .....

Couldnt do the zumba today.Im doing my run in the morning.I hope its not as cold as it was today!
 
A:hurray: :hurray: :hurray: Well done on day 1 :hurray: :hurray: :hurray:

You will resist that pizza because you know that i will give you that look :cuss: and start wagging my finger at you. You know you can do this!!! And just think how you will feel in the morning when you wake up and the first thing you think about it 'i did it' and then you will notice that you feel that little bit thinner.
Nothing tastes as good as being slim feels!​

We can do this sweetie, and just think 'it's only for 20 days' at the end you will feel great and you will want to carry on without any thought :)

Enjoy your run in the morning :) take it steady and do it in your own time. I'll be right there beside you telling you how awesome you are :)
 
Your diary is an inspiration!

You are such a strong girl, be proud of it!

Even if I don't know you, just know I am with you in this difficult moment.
 
Goodmorning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:grouphug:

Who's getting super fit?~~~~!!!!

Who's resisting temtations???!~~~~

Who did two 8 minute runs this morning??????~~~~~~~~YES I DID IT!!!!!!


I went for my run after leaving little one at nursery and while drivivng to get to the stadium i was thinking shall i do 6 minutes or try for 8?I said i'll try for 8!!!

I didnt use the c25k app on my phone.i used another one thats caled cardiotrainer that only tells you the time speed you're going plus an estimate of cals burnt,i knew i must run for 8 then walk for 5 and repeat once more.

I really didnt think i would manage it but i was great.I REALLY wasnt even that exhausted.My legs felt NO PAIN !!!!i was a bit out of breath but not as bad as before.SO while i finished the first 8 i had to walk...i was thinking that maybe the timmer isnt right,i cant possibly feel like this ...too good to be true!!!!The second run was harder.I nearlly stopped at 6 minutes,but i kept on going slower though!!!!It felt great.I had a huge smile on my face while cooldown!!!!!Its strange that the first few minutes seemed harder than the rest!!!!Im so glad i managed this!!!!!


I wasnt going to have breakfast so i can save my cals for later but i thought that after running and all the stuff i must get done today it wouldnt be wise to not fuel my body!So i had oats again.Just fewer than yesterday~!Saving on the cals!!!!!!!


Thanks little star for stoping by!!!and thats i do need the support i am really trying to get back on track~~~~~!!!!!!

Kate thank so much for helping me out today mentaly at my run!!!!i really mean it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
Wee hoo! Go Jess!!!! Well done sweetie. You are back on track & kicking butt! Go TEAM!!! xoxo Cate
 
BLAST DAY 2



Breakfast Quaker Oats 40gr (142) with 150 ml low fat milk (67,5) and 10gr raisins (30) 1 coffee with sugar and milk (70)1coffee with only sugar (40) = 350



Lunch 2 plates lentile soup (306) with 3 mini toasts (105)=411 << Lentile soup ---100 gr lentiles (334) 1 tbls tomatoe puree (40) 1 potatoe 62 gr (60) 1 tiny onion (25)=459 the pot of soup>>



Snack 2 mini toasts (70) with 2 light cow cheeses (50) 1 coffee (70)=190


TOTAL 951


Exercise running (two 8 minutes runs,15 minute walk)



I am feeling really upset cause of something that happened a while ago.I just want to go to bed.Thanks guys for your supporting words they are much needed.

Loves and hugs
 
AHeya my awesome running star :hurray: :hurray:

I read your post about your run at lunchtime today and i did a really loud intake of breath. The others thought something was wrong but i was just so blown away with how well you did with your run.

You really rocked it!! :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: i am so so proud of you!!!!

I totally love your attitude right now. Those pictures are just brilliant. I want to print the first one off and stick it to my fridge!!! Where did you find it?

Well done again my sweet on such an awesome day :)

Sorry that you are feeling upset right now, sending you lots of great big squishy hugs hun :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:
 
Ohhh, I want to use your running pattern as an inspiration. I tried to run only once in my life and I was turned off because I started too hard, with one hour or something.
Your starting doesn't seem too hard. Wanna try it! :) Do you use any kind of program or you just go as you feel??


It's also amazing how you determined you are in counting calories. It's something I always found very very hard to do. I have lunch everyday at school and it's hard to give an exact estimation of the calories I eat. And anyway when I tried to do it I found it very stressful process (need to find first a good site, then search all the ingredients, remember how much everything weighted and calculate). It's definitely not for me :) But I really envy all the people who can do it!!
 
Love the "not a dog" one Jess & have saved it! Well done sweetie! Sending you lots of love & hugs. GO TEAM! xoxo Cate
 
Breakfast Quaker Oats 40gr (142) with 150 ml low fat milk (67,5) and 10gr raisins (30) 2 coffees with sugar and milk (140)=379,5

Lunch chicken breast 250gr (275) bells peppers (70) some onion ( 25) 1 tbls olive oil (120) little letuce with 1 teaspoon oil and lemon (100) , 2 mini cow cheese (50)= 640

Snack 1 coffees (70)

Dinner 3 mini toast (105) 3 light cow cheeses (75) 4 slices turkey (80) = 260

Total 1349


Exercise 120 crunches and weight lifting.



I know i have gone over my 1200 cals but i have done real good i think today.Its still not much over and i still did some exercise even though i REALLY didnt want to/I have been up from 6 am.I have done many heavy jobs not sitting for a second all day and then we got the shit news today that my husband is with out a job//////////////i took it real bad at first i was crying thinking "what the f%^ are we goingto do?" but i feel better after crying....I still dont know what we are going to do ,things in this country are really bad at the moment......So many people have lost their jobs and the unemployment is like 23% i think this year , that is a lot....I really am starting to think something silly maybe but i am thinking of this....look...i am not a bad person.I love animals and help them,feed them stand up for them in every chance i see and get.I help people around me , i dont put myself first ever , i belive in GOOD and what you give is what you receive.I love trees and flowers i love earth i recycle , i cry for the war , i feel so terrible when i hear about death.I feel for the poor and homeless i CARE in general and do what i can to help so you would think that i would be a happy person , living her life with joy ect ect ect...WELL NO!EVERY single thing is just WRONG.Nothing turns out as i would like.It seems EVERYTHING IS AGAINST ME FOR A LONG TIME NOW.NOTHING good happens.The one and probably most important thing that hasnt been affected seriously is our health (touch wood).Whatever else has to do with ANYTHING in our lives is just SHIT.and when a little sunshine comes in the window it just vanishes again,,,before we even see it....I am really not over saying things....


so i have understood that something is just wrong.It cant be normal/......its like im jinxed

So maybe cause i dont belive in God the church ect?Maybe i need to find faith?????Maybe that makes me a bad person for thinking that all the jesus and mary stuff is a nice fairytale?a good marketing for the churches to profit and gain power?Ok./...then

maybe i really am not so good as i think...maybe i need to give more.............?????????????????????????????Maybe i have done something and must fix it?

and then i just think that someone has just wished all bad luck on me.....................................


So many things that have happened ,that just make me belive something is really going on..........So thanks for listening to all my thoughs and silly ideas guys...im really confused and scared about our situation...
 
:grouphug:Oh god, that's awful. Your struggling with money as it is. I really hope he finds something soon.


Most of the time I think bad things happen for no reason at all. They just happen. Think of all the starving orphans scouring the rubbish tips... Do you think they deserved it because they did something wrong? They don't deserve it and neither do you. So stop trying to find some way to blame yourself for bad things happening! xxxxxxxxx
 
Jess, Your husband losing his job really sucks!! What is happening in Greece is awful & I really feel for you. Ruth is right- THIS IS NOT YOUR FAULT!! I wish I could change things for you Jess, but unfortunately I can't. Please don't do this to yourself sweetie. You are lovely and you do the right thing. You deserve good things to come your way. You have a lovely son and are a lovely person. I think I'll call you Jess, LP, from now on to remind you my friend. Keep on eating healthily & exercising sweets. Keep on doing the good things that will help you feel a little better & please, please stop beating yourself up over what is out of your control & definitely is NOT YOUR FAULT.

Sending you lots and lots of love & best wishes that things will sort themselves out. I wish it not only for you & your LH, but for your country. I am looking forward to seeing Greece and the islands. It looks beautiful. Greece deserves to be healthy and prosperous. It has such a fine history.

Big hugs my friend! Let's keep moving, moving & shake a couple of kilos away in the next month or so, to make us all feel just that little bit better. Every little thing that we do counts, xoxoxo Cate
 
A:grouphug::grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: Awww sweetheart, i am so so sorry to hear about your husbands job. I understand what you are going thru. As you know i am job hunting too. Hopefully he will find something quickly.

:iagree: :iagree: with Ruthie and Cate.This is not your fault, you have done nothing at all to deserve this!!! unfortunatly shitty things happen to wonderful people.

Thinking of you my dear dear friend :grouphug:
 
AHi all my friends.
Thanks for supporting me,you are right,bad stuff happens for no reasson.Its really selfish to think otherwise when so much bad happens on earth,real bad things happens to good people....
I stoped my blast days but i was still really good,only i didnt bother to count calories.But i did workout and eat less,Didnt get on the scales cause my day of the month is here ands really strange how much stress is making it last so much longer and heavier........
I didnt take mario to nursery cause we have a doctor appointmet for his shot today,I'll go running again tonight though.I did 8 minutes again yesterday,i feel really good about that.My recovery time gets less and less!

Feeling still really down and shitty about things,im glad the weather is just amazing today makes thins a tiny bit better,
Loves to all~
 
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