Cate's Diary

It is a lovely connection. I maintain my faith in humanity, even when it is tested. That may sound religious & I am not. I love these connections. Thank you Mowens for connecting with me in my diary. Never under-estimate kindness xo Cate.

I had a good night's sleep & so did G. It bucketed down last night & I'm not going to golf. It is too heavy going & so much of the course is really wet. I just rang & the golf has been called off anyway. I had better get some exercise today!
 
I just thought I should tell you- don't be afraid to type anything in my diary. You can ignore all the above & pretend it's not happening if you like. I'm finding that a whole lot easier in "real life", so I understand if you don't know what to say.

I am having a good day so far. Even though I am not particularly hungry I am making sure I am eating well &.....
I am getting things done, like filling out the form to go with my Mum's ashes, so that I can send it & her ashes so that she can be put with Dad. Hopefully, that planned road trip will still be able to go ahead. If I get this form finished I can post them on Friday. That would feel good.
 
Not knowing the right thing to say is sort of my expertise. That's why I tend to ramble. I haven't read enough of your diary yet to say too much (400 pages is quite a read) and it seems like you have a lot going on. Perhaps I could skim sometime and get a sense of it.
 
I haven't been around to diaries, so I'm just now seeing this. I'm in shock. I totally get your anxiety, I would be the same exact way. I'm glad you had a better day though. Big hugs to you and G! :grouphug:
 
Mowens- Thank you. You just said the right thing. No-one ever really knows what to say. I don't know what to say! Reading 397 pages (eek- is it really that many?) would be a major challenge for anyone. I'm the one who rambles :) It's 10 years of my ramblings! TEN!
Jen- Thank you. Hugs are good. I'm doing surprisingly well atm, but it's because I really am pretending it's not happening. I am glad to have had a few days to take stock. My initial panic has subsided to whenever I start panicking I tell myself to stop & think about something else very quickly. I think it's really important I put on a brave front for G. There is absolutely nothing we can do until we know the facts. Nothing. We are both tuning out pretty well & there's not a lot getting done, except for lots of reading. I am going to stop googling prostate cancer for now! xoxo
 
My father was diagnosed with prostate cancer about 5 years ago. They were able to do a clean operation and he's been cancer free since. The one thing they told us that helped put my mind at ease is that they said of all types of cancer, prostate is one of the types where most people live long enough to pass from something else totally unrelated.

We felt at the time that it could be a death sentence, but they said it might take 30-40 years to become lethal for him.

I believe this was what was stated to us, pulled from the American Cancer Society's website:

Survival rates for prostate cancer
According to the most recent data, when including all stages of prostate cancer:
  • The 5-year relative survival rate is almost 100%
  • The 10-year relative survival rate is 98%
  • The 15-year relative survival rate is 95%

I know that's hardly comforting when it's happening to you or your loved ones, but we have numbers and science on our side -- that's something I'm grateful for.
 
Thank you Mowens. You're a sweetie. I have been reading these statistics to G, & if his cancer is only in the Prostate his outcomes are as above. Outside is another matter altogether. It's hard having to wait until the 22nd to find out, but in the meantime, I'm trying to hold onto the hope that it is localised. You know what is comforting? The fact that you are being so encouraging & supportive xo Cate.
 
That does sound like an agonizingly long time to wait when so much is uncertain. I'm glad you took what I said as a good thing. I'm always afraid I'll come off as making light of the situation when that wasn't my intention at all. I'm not a religious person at all, but I'll be thinking of G and hoping for the best. :)
 
I'm glad you were able to connect with someone going through something similar, Cate. You are dealing with so much so well.
 
Thank you Mowens & Julie. It is amazing what you can cope with when you have to. Putting my head in the sand is helping. I have lots of panicky thoughts & my heart jumps out of my chest at the thought of life without G, but then I throw myself into a cleaning job to take my mind off it.
We have started Spring cleaning early! At this rate, we'll get our house sparkling by Spring.
There is just nothing we can do until we know the facts. This time in 11 days we will.
Meanwhile, I'm eating healthily, but not doing any exercise except cleaning the house.
 
Went to the chiropractor this morning & my pelvis is out of whack. I feel he will be able to fix it. It was good as I didn't have to take my clothes off! I felt very comfortable with him.
 
Last night I ached like crazy, which is to be expected, massaged Magnesium oil in as best I could & slept all night, without waking once. This morning my back feels quite a bit better.
G & I are feeling much more positive. It was just one hell of a shock. Our minds have got around the shock & are looking forward again.
I'm doing a FD today. I told the chiro that I do 5:2 & he said he recommends it to some of his patients. He also said that squats are really good for your back. I had done 20 before seeing him yesterday & will make sure I include them in my day, every day from now on. He says if they don't hurt, they're a great idea.
The sun is out & G is playing golf today. It's too wet & heavy for me. I might go for a big walk around the river instead.
 
I'm happy to hear your spirits are higher today. I've never been to a chiropractor before, but back issues are abundant in my family so that statement might not be true forever.

I need to look into some low impact strength exercises. I don't currently own any exercise equipment but a friend of mine offered to give me some tension bands if I want them.
 
Thanks Mowens. Does the friend also provide instructions? I have some tension bands, but I have never really known what to do with them. I do like my hand weights though.
 
All he's told me is the more I wrap them around something, the more tension they provide. I won't have them until Sunday but I'm excited to have anything to work with. I've been looking around my house for anything that could act as weights but it's surprisingly difficult to find anything. :D
 
X + 7kg. I have been lazy. Am feeling pretty good though.I am picking up the GK's soon for a few hours & then putting them back on the bus to their mother's at 2.15. Got through my FD yesterday OK. I'm missing LaMa xoxo
 
Thanks Butterfly. You're a honey xoxo
LaMa has been staying with her parents. I must admit I waited until she had left before passing on my news. I didn't want to have her worrying too while she was with her pares xoxo
 
You are far too kind for your own good, Cate! Don't be surprised if you find a swarm of hugs circling the house some time this day; I just sent them on their way and they're making good time. You two are pretty amazing.
 
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