Cate's Diary

Popping in to read about your adventures. Pizza and limoncello...I am so jealous. Glad the women are coming around. Not glad that your game is suffering.
 
Hi Mystic & kp. The women situation is being sorted. I'm glad I wasn't caught in the crossfire. I was just able to help, which was good. I found saying as little as possible the best way to go. It felt good to be able to get my point across (without losing my temper or getting upset.)
B was there yesterday at the Vet's golf & came up to me & gave me such a big hug & thanked me for being such a good friend. The worst offender actually went to visit her at home after golf & gave her a big apology. The other woman had left a message on her phone & was ringing back. Hopefully this has cleared the air a fair bit.
I can't concentrate right now as G is talking to his sister on the phone about our younger son.
Love to all xoxo Cate
 
Cate, I'm glad your son is doing well. I went through a very difficult bout of depression for several years, stayed in contact with my doc regularly, tried several medications until we found one that wired well for me, did some counseling, and things kind of went up and down a while until it seemed to even out. Then I found the strength to influence those things in my life that were weighing on me. Addressed issues with myself, my marriage, changed jobs, and moved to a new area. I've been off of ll meds for 6 plus years and have felt better than ever the last 3-4. I finally figured out I also had Seasonal Affective Disorder. Since moving to Florida (no real winter, do outdoor stuff year around) I haven't had it at all. If I can recover from the point I was 13 years ago, anyone can.

Glad the golf bitches situation settled down. Best thing is not to get caught up in it if possible. The more you stir shit the worse it stinks.
 
Hi Bug, Thank you for telling me that. The thought of taking medication for the rest of his life must be daunting. He still has not had counselling & I hope he will before long, but starting on the mood stabiliser & seeing his doc is a good step. He needs to change quite a few things in his life & hopefully things will keep improving. I'm feeling hopeful now.
You made me laugh with the shit statement. Very true!

I'm off to golf soon & it's cold, but sunny (-3o to a top of 10o today)
Cheers, Cate.
 
Great job bigdude!!

I'm so glad that the lady situation is working out and that you didn't have to get too involved. I'm glad the ladies stepped up to the plate.
 
Hi Mystic. The women were noticable by their absence yesterday. Some are laying low & that says something.
I had to pull out of golf after 13holes as I had palpitations, was shaky & just could hardly hit the ball. It took a couple of hours to settle & frightened me a bit. I'll ring tomorrow & make an appointment with my doctor, hopefully for Tuesday. I need her to get to know me anyway. Last time I went for prescriptions she wasn't even aware of my heart condition. They are so busy always. I think I'll start going to see her once a month until I feel confident that she knows me.
We're off to the golf club again for a cricket club who are playing there today. It won't be hard work as G & I will be doing it together & there's only about 20 of them.
Bye for now xo Cate
 
I hope you get into to see the doctor soon. Palpitations are scary! My heart screws up every once in a while now, and it kicks my anxiety into high gear. It's definitely not fun. Sounds like going to the doctor regularly for a while is a good idea. :)
 
Brr that´s scary! I hope your doc will take a little time to listen to you and will have a harmless explanation for the palpitations (as far as I know they are often harmless but you are very right that it needs to be checked, especially when you have known heart issues). Good luck dear :grouphug:
 
Thanks Jen & LaMa. I was OK playing until the sponsor(a golf professional) came & joined us & then I think I started to feel really nervous & anxious & lost the plot golf-wise. He realised what was happening & moved off, which was incredibly embarrassing & I just went from bad to worse. I didn't want to say what started it, but it was all in my head & then it went to my heart. It took about 2 hours for it to settle down. I'll ring the doc soon & make an appointment!
We had a good day yesterday & may have some new members because of it.
Had a shocking night's sleep again last night. I ended up getting out of bed at 1am(went to bed at 11.30pm) & reading, but would have only got about 4 hours sleep all up.
Weighed this morning & up .5kg. (5 to go!)
Love to all, xo Cate.
PS I need to exercise every day!

 
Insomnia is awful. I have managed to get an ap't at 11.15am tomorrow, which suits me well. I have felt fairly ordinary today & my BP is up a bit. I may have to switch meds I think.
We got just 1 load of wood & decided to call it quits & have a lazy afternoon.
 
I had a good afternoon & only napped very briefly & went to bed at 10'ish & slept very well :D
I hate going to the doctor! I also have a swollen gland (?) in my left armpit, which I have to tell her about.
xo Cate
 
Hi Mystic. I usually tell the doctor what's wrong with me. My BP is up & I am back on my old meds that have a diuretic as a component. I told her that I have gained a few kilos since changing meds & feel that I'm retaining fluid. The lump under my left arm appears to be a swollen gland, which I thought it was. She thought it was the gland doing it's job, fighting off bugs.

I have not felt well today & would prefer not to go to golf tomorrow, but I want to help resolve the issue with the women. I'll see how I feel in the morning. With any luck it will be bucketing down with rain!

I'm trying to stay awake until bed-time & G is at our son's playing pool. I thought catching up on diaries, Facebook etc will do the trick. Another good night's sleep would be great & hopefully the new meds will help soon. Much love to all xoxo Cate
 
I've struggled with insomnia most of my life. It's the "thinker's curse" as I like to call it. It's better these days (like a lot of other things, my improved health and substantial amounts of exercise do help), but it's far from perfect.

I do hope you start to feel a little better. Being sick is no fun. Hopefully the doc can get you squared away with the heart issue.

Have a restful night's sleep!
 
Thanks Vee. I think most of my physical symptoms are coming from stress. You are right about insomnia being the "thinkers curse". G came home last night with the news that R stopped taking his meds 3 days ago & has hit rock bottom. He had spoken to his brother on the phone & said he was as low as he had ever been. I'm going to ring him soon. I have a feeling that he was starting to feel better & maybe thought the meds had not kicked in yet (ie he doesn't need them) & then had a big night drinking & has mentally crashed. Hopefully this will be a lesson learnt, without too much damage.....Hopefully!

I just couldn't face the women today & have sent a message to B, who I know wanted me to be there to hear what the women said. I just couldn't go & put on a brave face. I know that I'm feeling a bit fragile & am putting myself first. I hope the women didn't play. It was raining & windy when I woke. Had a reasonable night's sleep.

I think I'll ride my bike today & maybe some treadmill. It is a very simple treadmill & has nothing like inclines or intervals, so is not that user friendly or challenging. It's fairly boring really, but better than no treadmill.

I'm boring myself so will go!
 
I'm sorry about your son! I hope that he turns it around right away! Hope you got to work out some of that stress on the bike or treadmill!
 
Good for you staying home and taking care of yourself instead of going to the battlefield! As much as it sucks that your son stopped taking his meds and is now feeling terrible, at least he was able to tell his brother (and soon too). Hugs.
 
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