Cate's Diary

carrie- racism is unacceptable in any form. Thank you. The people who were upsetting me have crawled back into their holes thank goodness. I felt I had to nip it in the bud.
Oaks- I did too. It was so weird & horrible! Most men would kick up a fuss if their choices were as awful. What ever happened to smart & simple cuts & non-clashing patterns?

-2oC to 10 today. Brrrrr!!!!! Sunny though & no wind.
Have to go early we just remembered as we are dropping the 2nd car off for new tyres.
Trying very hard to eat less & not have starchy carbs for breakfast.
Had yoghurt & fruit with some almond meal & nut mix. Brrrr.
Bye for now, xo Cate
 
I am hanging my head in shame after snacking while G was out at 8-ball last night. I let myself down. I am not to buy rubbish again! I didn't go over by much & still have a deficit, but feel like a naughty child. It's done & dusted & I must stop doing it or I'll end up being a big fat pudding!
Off to golf this morning with a reduced lunch :blush5: & will try not to have a wine.
Cheers, Cate.
 
Naughty, naughty girl! Good job stopping before eating up your deficit though, doesn´t qualify as "naughty" in my dictionary.
 
Hi Mystic & LaMa- it definitely felt bad to me. It's the fact that I didn't need it, it was crap, I felt a little out of control.....anyhow, it's done. Learning, constantly learning....

On another note I played my best 9 holes of golf today. I am also feeling disappointed. Actually I feel quite a bit sooky (sorry for myself?) I am usually in Division 2, because of my higher handicap & my net score would have won Div 2 by 4 shots, but they moved 2 players up to Division 1 to even up the numbers, including me. Because I shot my really good score on the 1st 2 holes I lost on a count-back for Division 1 & also the monthly medal. My 2nd nine I had 8 extra shots. I feel that today was my big chance to actually win the monthly medal & I missed out by a whisker. I know I probably sound petulant, but you get to hear how I really feel as I don't tell anyone else.

I love golf, but it can be the most frustrating game. If you're reading this Bug, I am singing "Nice & easy does it" when I'm playing any shot & that is really helping. I played some wonderful shots & that should be what I'm thinking, but I am just feeling gutted. I lost the plot today a bit when I got talking about trying on clothes last week-end. BIG mistake.

I'm going to leave this post as is. I'm sorry if I sound sooky. It's because I feel sooky. No-one's perfect. :blush5:
Love to all, xoxo Cate
 
Kudos on your good golf and the nice and easy does it approach. I played Sunday and shot my worst score in 3 years. 88. I was having muscle spasms in my back, went to the Doc Monday, and am now on muscle relaxers and off golf for 4 weeks.

Now I remember why I stopped playing often. I bet if i go back to only once every 2 weeks my scores will go back to the mid 70s.

Golf is frustrating...that's why it is a 4 letter word.
 
Thanks Bug. This morning I am not feeling negative about it (maybe only a teensy bit) & am more thinking that I was only one shot (not even) off winning a monthly medal. I am getting around the course much better (sucks about your back!) & feeling much fitter. It is a frustrating game & it sure is a 4 letter word. I should be glad that my handicap is getting less & less, because that means I am getting better. I will make myself stop the pity party & take credit for what I have done & continue to do. I am competing against myself- no-one else! I am setting a reward for getting down to a certain handicap. When I get there I am eligible to buy myself a new set of custom clubs. I may not buy them when I get there & I may put the money towards a holiday, but I am telling myself that I can if I want to. If I get down to it with the clubs I have (G's old set) then I may not actually need new ones :)

Weight- I have dropped another kg! :D 5 to go to get to what I would like to be. I have had 3 breakfasts this week without any starchy carbs at all- 2 soups, 1 yoghurt & fruit & I think that makes a big difference with me. I have also cut down my wine consumption(I usually have 2 glasses each night, but have had one a couple of nights).

Feeling pretty good today & very happy that my weight is on the way down again. Phew!

 
That's awesome, and too bad, that you were so close to a medal! You'll get one soon with how fit you're getting!
Yay on the dropped kg!
 
Shame about the sookiness (I did not know that word and I love it!) but great job bouncing back. And sticking to your goals. And losing weight. Doing wonderful hon!
 
Thanks Mystic. I'm getting better at golf so I shouldn't feel bad about it :blush5: That's how it's meant to be. Get better, handicap reduces, go up another handicap division as game gets better etc. I'm over being a sook, thank goodness. I was also very tired & very hungry.

Hi LaMa. I just read your diary, but got side-tracked looking up the Austrian words elsewhere & forgot to go back. Austria sounds beautiful. Thanks for being understanding of my sookiness. I am a mere mortal. I do hate feeling sorry for myself though. It is taking some used to be hungry again, but I think it's good for me! I would enjoy some sushi right now!! xo Cate
 
Congrats on losing another kilo! That's fantastic. :D

As to feeling sooky (this must be an Australian term because I have never heard it before :p), it's ok to feel that way. I don't know much about gold, but it sure sounds like you got cheated. Maybe next month?
 
Hi cory and carrie & anyone else reading my diary. Thanks for the congrats. I feel a little guilty for complaining now. I'm glad I'm getting better at golf. We just got home from doing a few hours work out at the clubhouse. G did some painting & I did lots of tidying up/re-cycling/bar stocking. We have to go out tonight to a farewell dinner, which neither of us feels like going to. Obligations :(
I'm now going to have a lazy afternoon on the computer & starting a new book.
Bye for now, xo Cate
 
Hey Cate, congrats on the weight loss and improving your golf handicap!!! Seems like you're doing pretty well!!!

Fashion is a little weird right now, totally agree with you. I managed to buy jeans and a few jackets though, that's pretty much enough for me. Definitely a couple of dresses I like from Dotti at the moment that I could wear in winter but cash is a bit tight with organising our holidays etc. Haven't seen anything from anywhere else that makes me want to part with any money!
 
Oops! Let me start over! (computer problems)

Dear Cate: I am very interested in the Cohen's diet. I'll check at our many libraries and see if I can find it. I am so inspired by your journey. I am grateful to be a part of this forum. When I was a little girl, my parents used to eat at a special restaurant called "The Forum!" Just my luck! lol. I think of the food I ate there as a child and how special it was to my mother -- and she was one heck of a cook to ever fawn over a buffet style cafeteria. I became very interested in cooking at age seven and started advanced dishes for my age at that time.

I think you are blessed to have found such a beautiful sport as golf. I bet I would love to learn to play. Is it hard on the upper back muscles and neck? You must get quite a workout. It looks sooo elegant! We are living near a gorgeous golf course and it looks so peaceful and pastoral.

Just a few weeks ago the doctors took my neck brace off! I had been wearing it for five or six months, maybe longer. I feel so much better without it! People could not help but look at me and many people asked me what it was I was wearing -- oh, not to be nosy or mean or anything, just genuine curiosity. It was really something! We took pics of it because I looked like an alien that had landed from another planet and it was at times very funny!!!

I am fascinated with Australia. I hope to see it someday, but I refuse to ever eat a kangaroo. We are conditioned to see them as just the cutest critters on earth! I am not against anyone else eating them in the least. They sell kangaroo at a few markets I shop in. By any chance, have you seen the documentary "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead" ??? I have watched it several times, totally captivated by the story and I plan on seeing the second part of the film, but I may have to order it to see it.

We are in a large condo style building with a computer room that serves coffee and tea, so when my hubbah is busy on our home unit, I will often go there and have a cup and read for inspiration and say hi to some of our neighbors. I have been very inspired by you and I believe you are onto something. I have to stick with it. I have been disappointed in myself and at times I think my attitude is not helping me. I have promised myself that this time around, I will NOT isolate when things become difficult. When I see myself dropping out, I know there is real trouble afoot and I am beginning to really see my patterns. I have been keeping a private journal to see how I rationalize going off to eat all by myself. I love to go to Dairy Queen and I still think it is okay to go -- but not more than once every few months. I am trying to learn what "normal" is. I see all these healthy weight people and they are going in there. I have been people watching to try and shadow them and learn what normal eating is. It just seems cruel to say, "never again" to treats. I want to learn balance and health.

I had several medical appointments this past week and I am glad things do not look so scary anymore. I am going to have an endoscopy and colonoscopy soon. I found out I have Barret's esophagus (sp?) gastritis, a tortuous colon and IBS. My doctors are real gems. I had a few really bad ones, but we searched and found some great docs who are not only impressive, but also very kind and caring to patients.

My weight is 210 at the moment. It really fluctuates, and with all the weird medication and change in what I can and can't (or shouldn't) eat, my docs do not want me getting all upset over my weight loss situation. They want to find out what is wrong before I continue dieting. They are going to be doing some very strange tests that sound just like science fiction!!! HAHA!!! I feel like a guinea pig on steroids!

I am going to brave it out and stick with it so I can be a healthy person! I like to be a funny person and I will never let that leave me, but I have to stay in a support community with others who have been where I am. I can't imagine trying to do this all alone. I need a sense of humor and I love the inspiration here!!! I am so glad I have met you Cate! You have inspired me and this whole community is lifting my spirits!

It's late and I have to do my laughter exercises. They are helping increase my endorphins and I usually do them with a group. Our group was featured on PBS not too long ago. I have noticed less pain since joining. The people are seriously FUNNY!!! he-he!

Gill
 
Mystic- dinner was better than I thought it would be. It almost always is. My meal was actually good. The menu was limited, but I prefer that anyway. I had a rare steak with vegetables & it was yummy. I had the only GF dessert, which was disappointing, but that's ok too as I won't be tempted next time. It sounded good- Jaffa cake. The company was fun.

LaMa- guilt has gone :blush5: thanks xo

Lucy- thank you. I'm feeling so much better for being back on track & dropping some weight. I have to keep the momentum going now. Cutting out starchy carbs at breakfast, especially bread, is making a difference I think. I really need a new coat. It has been colder than usual so far (as cold as it gets in Winter) & I am really missing that coat. I haven't been able to find a replacement. Hopefully next week-end when I'm in Hobart I'll be able to.

Gillian- I am having trouble finding the right words here. I must say that you have made me feel really good about myself. I'm still not great at accepting compliments & your post certainly is one of those! Thank you very much!
I think the doctors are right in that you should get your general health sorted before you consider any strict diets. Cohen's is very strict. Cutting down on eating any junk food though can only be a good idea.
Laughter is wonderful medicine & belonging to a laughter group is a great idea. Having a sense of humour is really important to me too. If I come away from my Mum in the nursing home & I have made her laugh I feel that I have really achieved something. I also love a good prank.

Keep up with your diary. It's a place to belong & be yourself. It doesn't have to be about weight-loss. Glad things are looking a bit better than before for you. xoxo Cate

Yesterday- Went to the Farmers market & stocked up on some beautiful vegies- Kale, young beetroot(which we'll have hot) rainbow carrots & baby carrots, celery & fennel. I also bought some Venison Kranskys & venison salami(very lean) a pair of warm merino socks & a scarf for golf (one of those without ends that you can wrap around your neck twice & whip off when you get hot). Visited Mum & came home & read a book.
No exercise, except for walking around the market.
Went over my cals, just.

Today- It's a bit of a nasty looking day. Pumpkin soup for breakfast (added an egg & some cheese for protein) I have my runners on & plan on some biking & a run on the treadmill.
 
cate said:
Having a sense of humour is really important to me too. If I come away from my Mum in the nursing home & I have made her laugh I feel that I have really achieved something.
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I generally like everything you write but that up there I really, truly love.
 
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