Cate's Diary

I didn't need to refresh! YAY!!!!
Kestrel? That is neat! Def. on the mend! Had a really good day today with my sister. She goes home tomorrow & I know I will miss her!
I am going to start logging the birds & other wildlife I see each day from now on.
Monday I'm going to go back to logging my food & exercise again & plan on getting rid of that last 6kg.
Can I do it?
YES I CAN!
Cheers!
 
I get bursts like that! Hopefully, tomorrow I'll have lots! Coughed half the night & ended up sleeping in my chair. I am still on the mend though! My sister goes home today & we're about to leave. :(
 
Yesterday was a funny old day. I ended up back at the golf club, doing the bar & struck my head hard on the corner of a shelf in the store-room. It bled profusely, but didn't need stitches. Last night I felt like some wine & shared a bottle of red with my husband. It felt a bit strange having seen off my sister, but also good to just sit in silence again. Life has been too full on for my liking & it's time to kick back a bit. xo Cate
 
Ouch! I hope your head heals quickly. Glad it didn't need stitches!
Family is so lovely to catch up with, but it's also nice to get a bit of peace and quiet too .. enjoy :)
 
Peace & quiet is lovely! We visited our OS & are back home chilling out before a golf club committee meeting tonight.
I have to see about getting our YS to see another GP & get a referral to a psyche. He said he misses being happy! :(
How sad is that? I'll ring him tomorrow as he's working today. It will be good when he comes through all this. Light at the end of the tunnel would be lovely. Any parent wants their children to be happy.
Love to all, xo Cate
 
Glad you get to relax a bit, I´ll be spending two weeks with my family soon and while I´m really looking forward to it I will need to find ways to carve out alone time while I´m there or I´ll be completely exhausted afterwards. Missing being happy sounds sad, but it also means being able to remember happy things, which is something I once read is all but impossible for people who are deeply depressed. So maybe the light at the end of the tunnel is there already.
Hugs, LaMa
 
Head cuts bleed so much! I got a cut from a tin vent while lowering a contraption from overhead. I still had the thing in hand so I couldn't do anything but bleed on my white tshirt until the thing was attached. My new boss was holding the other side so that after it was lowered in place he sees me all bloodied. I had been at this new job for around 10 minutes at this point and the new boss starts screaming when he sees all of the blood. My head was shaved so it ran straight down my face. He's racing back from the field to our lab while I try to convince him that it's a small cut that's bleeding a lot. We get back and clean it off and when he sees the size of the cut he acts almost like I had tricked him. I spent the rest of my first day with a bandaid on my head and a bloody shirt. I told everyone that he'd struck me and asked if he ever did the same to them. Quite a first day!

I wrote something to myself when I was really feeling low and it might be something you and/or the YS might appreciate and I will try to remember to write it here this evening. I'm with LaMa in that missing being happy may be an improvement. I recall making myself feel worse on purpose as sort of a punishment for not pulling myself together when I was in a really dark place. Someone that misses being happy wouldn't do that. What I wrote is from that missing happy kind of place. It may not help, but I'll post it just in case as it helped me enough that I made the point to save it and put it where I could find it.
 
I would appreciate that Q! My happy is readily accessible these days & I feel sure his is lurking somewhere nearby. It is good that he is thinking that it's possible to be happy again, xo Cate
 
Monday I'm going to go back to logging my food & exercise again & plan on getting rid of that last 6kg.
Can I do it?
YES I CAN!
You better. Don't make me come down there and be your drill instructor. :D

'Happy' is a hard thing. And I'm the last person who should ever give any advice on the subject, particularly since I've been struggling with it myself very recently. But looking back on just the last six months or so, I've had plenty of good times and nice moments and occasions to smile, even if the greedy part of me wishes there were more of them. I think maybe part of the way forward for me is to appreciate them more when they do come along. Just a thought and I don't know if it would be of any help to you or your son.

Also, stop busting your head open. That's bad. ;)

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V
 
I think I need a drill instructor! I did play golf yesterday (very badly again) but at least with golf the worse you play the more exercise you get!
Happy is a hard thing. He sounded really down when I spoke to him Tuesday. Really down. :(
I liked your signature, btw V. I might have to try thinking of one for me.
OK. Reading your post will inspire me to get on my exercise bike today!
Cheers, Cate.
 
My LH & I took our older son, D to see the Orthopaedic surgeon today & it's good news. His fracture is stable & although his L1 is compressed & he will be shorter, he has been cleared for light duties(he really wants to go back to work!) & can drive short distances. In 3 months his spine will be as good as it will get & he will be able to resume playing active sport. He is never getting on a trampoline again. All in all, it's a great result!

 
That´s so great to hear Cate! I so hope your younger son will start to feel a bit better, too and then all will be good...
 
Oh I forgot to post my little quote. I will try to remember.

I'm happy to hear your older son is making a quick recovery.
 
LaMa- Thank you. I hope so. Repairing a soul is much harder I think. I hope he turns the corner soon!
Thanks Q & V. It is a big relief. Now to see about getting our younger son to see another GP to get a referral to a Psych! It is so much harder not living close to him. I think we'll be going down there in a couple of weeks. Our OS had booked tickets to take his older son & best friend to see the Hilltop Hoods & my husband & I will most probably drive them down & back as it's a 3 hour drive each way & too soon for him to be driving that far.

I'll pop back later, xo Cate
 
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