Hi folks, I have been reading lots of diaries lately & have been giving a lot of thought to the importance, or not, of keeping an online diary. To me it is REALLY important, for many varied reasons. The most important reason for me is that even if I am not listing what I am eating or doing (or NOT doing) I am still here posting in a weight-loss/fitness forum. I am here. I am telling myself that I need to be mindful at all times that I was once a fat person, and I don't ever want to be a fat person again. In here I feel accountable, mostly to myself.
Over the years that I have been posting I see people posting regularly, then they go away for a while & then they're back, after re-gaining some or all of their initial weight. I need to stay here and I openly acknowledge that I need to stay here. It is so easy to slip back into bad habits.
I have changed what I do considerably during that time. I have gained some weight & then lost it again, many times. I have knuckled down & been incredibly strict & obsessive & have clawed my way back to close to my lowest weight, but then it goes back on so easily as soon as I start eating "normally".. My body seems happy between 80-85kg & I am currently 82.5kg. Only 1kg less & I feel really slim. It's weird I know. I also know that some would think that, at that weight I must be fat. I'm not. I'm not skinny either. I still can't type "I'm slim", which is something I will constantly have to work at- self esteem. Hence my resurrecting my initial "Motivational" thread. I think most people who become over-weight have self-esteem issues.
I think it's good to establish guidelines for yourself. I like Joh's, especially "Think like this: If I wouldn't want my boy to eat it (he gets only the best, most healthy food from me!), I won't eat it!"
Anyhow, I'll come back tonight with my new guidelines.
Cheers for now xo Cate